Tuesday, July 26, 2016


this is good, and i dont feel like im forced to live with much cheaper rent to survive anymore, but i do need to stablize my life a bit so i can find a long term doctor or send off for the forms i need to get ID in other states than louisiana. i've basically put this off due to the large fee involved, but it does need done before 2018 when u will no longer be able to fly with ID from louisiana. But this is the most i've had since returning from shreveport. of course its 1 day til rent is due, instead of right after just being paid like last weeks blog entry.

i dont feel rich by no means, nor do i feel like doing what i started doing out in the southeast. (which was raising my original buyin from $100 to $120, then rebuying for $200 or more). im still making my original buyin $40-60, then rebuying in $60-100. i like to have way more buyins than most people because i know u are supposed to have at least 40 buyins in NL plus 3-6 months living expenses. well ive got the 3-6 months living expenses, (with an effective roll of $0 remaining for poker). But once i pass $15,000 more good things will come.

i still have LESS than i had when i left shreveport for coushatta. for after paying the $300 cab ride, and the first 2 nites housing by the casino, i had around $12,800 left i think. im nowhere close to this. coushatta hurt me pretty bad, over $2500 in losses in the poker, plus about $1000-2000 on the VBJ i didnt track. the only losing month i had in poker was in june (minus $477) and this was ONLY due to not playing much poker in the latter half of june due to being in tahoe, and losing heavily june 1-5 in coushatta. since coming to the peppermill, the total win from poker is over $4900, $4300+ of which is for the month of July and its not even over yet. im over $17 hourly for the full 1484 hours logged since sept of last year. this is why i hate to upset the applecart by going to vegas, blackhawk, or toledo. but i do miss the 24 hour games. (and of course wasting so much in rent).

when i left foxwoods i was down to $20k from $29k. when i left deadwood about 1-2 months later i was down to $13k. and then i felt lower than id been in years. and the drop in louisiana from $20k to 8k was so much worse. even when i was living with ray in toledo, i made it out of phoenix and my mothers house in hutchinson ks with $13k. lowest i remember in rays house was $12,600. so ive got a very long ways to go.

im doing well in poker, so my desire to go to lake tahoe has decreased even though i get 10 free nites per month, meaning i couldve lived there free july 20-aug 10. but im still in reno. but i worry i might lose if i play BJ, and id really miss the fact id only be able to play poker if i went to incline village 7pm-2am. still it would be nice to have someone buy a mobile or motor RV home, park it in florida or blackhawk somewhere within 1 block of a casino where i could live cheap. they might even make money renting it out to me $200 per week. even a van would work, if theyd accept a much lower price and fix it so no one would see in. must be parked in a safe area, which precludes detroit, md live, etc. but im sure the mountains outside the inner cities would be low crime. its hard to picture any crime in towns where the population is below 50k.

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

its time for PPP to do something fulfilling and beneficial to others with his life.

well i took the easy way out today. (instead of leaving town, i paid for another week again). its so much easier to do this, than to try and pack my 2 suitcases. i can never fit the food and microwave cooking dishes into the suitcases, so im always having to buy 3-4 of these again in walmart. plus i have to wait til thurs every week to turn my comps into free play, so i hate the fact if i have to leave it will be on wednesdays. they are NOT going to be renting weeklies no more in aug, except for those whove been staying there for awhile. i might qualify. the good news is after paying the $300 for another weeks rent im still just barely over $10,000.

im broke on Bovada though, and my $100 bitcoin deposit which i made using the 20% bitcoin bonus (which ill never do again) and was led to believe id only need 10x points of the deposit to qualify to cash back out. i do have enough points for 1 $1.05 sng ticket. i once had this deposit up to $355+ all from playing casino games but the casino game (except for a very small amount of paigow) i played was BJ where the rules do payback over 99% if played properly. it was on the 6 deck shoes, the chart i will show u in a bit shows why u wouldnt play the single or dd.

the reason i chose to play casino games is this. often the sngs i play are less than $20. sometimes even $1 or $5, but sometimes $50 too. but the $20 sng only gives u 3 points. so think of how little the smaller ones give u. now if i was to do NOTHING but play poker, id needed close to 1200 points. can u imagine how many $20 sngs id needed to play off my $100 without ever going broke? 400 of them. and i seldom play more than 5 per night. the bonus, (vook agrees even if pokerdogg dont) is one of the biggest ripoff scams ever.

now to play the $1 min bet 6 deck casino BJ, i wouldve needed to bet close to $3000 in the casino it said. however this was before i seen the following chart (see how misleading the initial 10x poker points or 25x casino rollover is?)

Please see the chart below for wagering contributions in the event a bonus allows all games to count toward rollover. 
Wagering ContributionsPercentage Contribution
Slots - All Types, Scratch Cards, Speciality Games, Keno, and Mini Ceasar ce100%
Pai Gow, TriCard Poker, Let 'Em Ride, Caribbean Poker(all)60%
Video Poker (All types), Blackjack (unless stated otherwise), Baccarat60%
Single Deck & Double Deck Blackjack, Craps, Roulette, Mini Blackjack, Mini Roulette5%

  • Wager $300 on Slots, and $300 or 100% contributes towards rollover requirements.
  • Wager $300 on Blackjack, $180 or 60% contributes towards rollover requirements.
  • Wager $300 on Roulette and $15 or 5% contributes towards rollover requirements.

so u see, the 200 poker points i thought would be all id initially need to cashout, or $500 ran thru the casino at 25x 20$ bonus ended up being close to $5000+ needing to be run thru the casino, or well over 100+ hours a week for months played of poker since i only do 1 table at once since i have only a laptop and not a large desktop setup with huge screen monitor. there isnt room on here to fit more than 2 tables without the print being extremely tiny. Plus bovada pops the tables up really funny compared to stars.

i didnt find out this til after it was too late (my deposit was locked up--and i wouldnt be able to withdraw til these requirements were met). all for a measly $20 which isnt worth it. not only do they not let u withdraw if u dont finish in 6 months, they keep 100% of the winnings too. or at least they claim they will. at least 1 guy on 2+2 said he deposited the max and needed to bet like $30,000 thru the casino or earn 6000 in poker points before he could withdraw. (for a measly $100) lots of people see this as false advertising, (kind of like resort fees but much worse).

so im sure if PPP took on this case and sued, i wouldnt be his only client, (he could find others in the 2+2 thread) and it would be the most helpful thing he's ever contributed to humanity. to make the world more fair equitable and just.

as u see i thought if i didnt play games other than poker id never have enough play in to withdraw the $100 and all the winnings, but by the time id gotten in only 36% of the play needed to withdraw, id lost the entire $355 i once was up to.

will only do my online non poker gambling on bitzino. where my final $6 worth of uncashed bitcoin is now back to $40 after 3-4 weeks. because unlike other bitcoin gambling sites it lets u gamble in micro U bitcoin instead of m bitcoin, the min bet is 1000x LESS so u can martingale microscopic amounts. it doesnt offer paigow which is disappointing so theres no where to bitcoin paigow for the much lower stakes. but i can play both BJ, 3 card poker, or craps. and bitzino is so not known when i put multiple withdrawals right into coinbase since i dont have no ewallet, it dont even see its coming from a gambling site. now u cant put money right out of bovada into coinbase. but u can put money right out of bovada into bitzino, then into coinbase. there is 1 million Ub in a bitcoin and 1000 mb.

Friday, July 15, 2016

dishonest promotion bitcoin bonus offered on bovada

Well tonight i felt tired. So i quit the casino up only $35. i didnt mind too much because the earlier session id won just over $200, which recovered the money i was still out from the night before. of course now its time to start making something for the week. for over 1400 hours of play, am still above $16 per hour.

It was a good game earlier (on another table). this one young asian girl, who seemed to know one of the early morning former dealers who comes in most days for the 7-8am promotion as a player, id swear its his wife or gf though he said its his sister. she straddled every hand $20-40 and later for $10 each time. then while out over $1000, she got pissed when an old man whose a regular, bit of an ass, rich guy of course, never liked me, refused to chop with her (he wont with no one). so she left. its still a good game now, big group of mexican guys all friends in it, but i was then on the other table.

i really should be checked out to make sure i dont have a UTI, but if so, its not too dangerous it seems. but i wont have money now for medical or dental care for at least 10-15 yrs, (the length of time it takes to run $9000 roll back up to over $20,000 if u are very cautious with ur buyins). it would speed it up tremendously without the $300 weekly charge over my head. i should be happy with winning $700 a week or so on average in the $1-2, but id truthfully rather earn next to nothing and have next to nothing in rental costs either. so much less stress that way. no worries about maybe losing and wondering how ill pay. this feels stupid, since it would grow the money faster to earn the $700 and just pay the $300 out of it.

if u have Bovada downloaded on ur laptop, go to where it says "bonuses" just under the word "cashier" and click on "bonus dashboard". it will show as an available deposit bonus one for up to $100 with 20% bonus for depositing with bitcoin, to be used in either the pokerroom, sportsbook, or casino, or a mixture of all. now it claims the poker rollover is 10x points. and 25x rollover in the casino. if u bet horses its only 5x rollover.

so with my deposit of $98.50 (what my $100 in bitcoin was worth differential between coinbase and them) i got a bonus of $19.70 but the 10x points which i thought would be 190-200 points ended up being over 1100 points, which would take forever to earn if u only play poker 1 table at a time. how they ended up with this figure, when promising 10x points i dunno. vook? wec? grump?

guess the best game in the casino is $1 BJ. the $1 paigow to get lots of pushes was charging the same 25c commission on $1 as it did on $5, which rips u off too.

the really bad thing is ur entire deposit is locked up forever til u earn the entire bonus, no matter what u cannot cash out til u earn the entire 1100+ points. which is really a nuisance, this bonus isnt worth it and would take forever if u dont play much too high for a measly $100 deposit. that being said, its now at $200 since u do get to at least bet with it. even the $20 sng gives u only 3 points.

one thing which makes it hard to move out of my motel on wednesdays is the peppermill wont store luggage, meaning if i move out of where i live, i cant just go play poker since its hotel guests only. so u pretty much need to catch the plane train or bus immediately, instead of 8-24 hours from then.

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Going up very slowly--but im still winning $16 hourly. i wonder how to increase it back to shreveport levels

The main reason for the lack of updates is my attention has been mainly focused on playing live $1-2 NL, to slowly get the roll built back to where i can play with far less stress about swings of $200 or so. its been working for the most part. after paying the rent last wed, i had less than $8800. and today im in the $9500s. seems $300 weekly rent is affordable but it wont be the first week i dont have an overall win for the week. and its still highly overpriced. $16 per hour is close to $800 per week if this were to hold up. but i need to get in my hours, which left little time for the blog.

None of us who write blogs need to feel obligated to update them any more often than we feel like it. most of us arent even getting money for our blogs. its been ages since ive made something off it.

its possible i wont do no more traveling after all for a while, but i never really know. if i can afford the $300 weekly rent im less inclined to uproot myself, (traveling is NOT comfortable or pleasent) and neither is packing suitcases with cans of food, and not having enough space and hoping they return the cash deposit quick enough to board a bus train or plane. nor to not know where im going or getting into. Nick might be living Rays house for quite some time to come. Vince has one other person living in his house still. Jacksonville FL seems like a nice room near slightly cheaper motels by the week, but i dont want no more plane costs or long journeys. i do miss NJ though. But the worry when i first got into town with only $8100 left after paying the first weeks rent is slowly dissipating. u see, i feel i can win over $100 a day again at poker. besides the min buyins are lower here than in most cities.

i am going to deposit $100 of it into bovada for the bitcoin 20% bonus (must clear first of course thru lots of play) since im tired of having next to nothing in there. down to $8 once more since i lost some tournies since my $50 deposit last week.

had i not blew over $250 the other night in the atlantis on VP once the game broke, id be better off. biggest loss since coming to reno and is why i dont like to go to the atlantis. they dont have the 100.03 VBJ bartop the peppermill offers plus comps of course. instaed i played 99% VP deuces

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Plans. (which i never do)

Because i won over $450 on the final night in the Tahoe Biltmore, I managed to make it into reno with over $8300. then i won the first night in the $1-2 Peppermill, and when i paid my rent for a week at 6am wednesday morning, once the game broke up and i needed to immediately find housing, i had over $8100 left after paying for a week.

Last week, when my rent increased to $350, i was worried id have less, but i still managed to have over $8100 once the rent was paid. but i wasnt even making any progress except for $3 more. This week, the price temporally increased to $450 per week over the holiday weekend, but luckily those werent the days rent was due and now the sign is at $300 again. (and should still be on wed).

won a little the last 2 sessions, but my hourlys been going down. not only was june my first losing month ever in history (of $477) (from POKER i mean) im now at not much over $16 per hour and in shreveport it was over $18 for all cities combined. its now about 1330 hours. But at least im back to the $8700s from the $8100s.

still, this isnt enough to keep me from being a complete wreck on the inside, sweating every swing of $50+ profusely and feeling enormously depressed and angry every losing session. i need much more than this to manage the swings. or lower rent.

so i need to still get out of reno, either NJ, my friends house in toledo or vegas, or ??? just somewhere to relax. if i waited til july 20, i could have 10 free nights in july and 10 more in august in crystal bay again for 20 nights in a row. (10 per month i get). of course, there id be grinding online poker mostly.

The same if i rented cheap $425 monthly wifi housing in tonopah. grinding online Bovada. I dont feel ill ever get my roll back in shape with this much monthly expenses. i somehow must remove these expenses. $300-350 rent is too much every week. im missing out on lots free play too in NJ. i wont be happy til i hit at least $12,000. this is $2000 cushion for living expenses and daily variance with the $10k bankroll in backup.

i really dont see how i lived so many years with a roll under $5000 year in and out in my 20s-30s unless prices were much much less then. some of my rents were i know. $50 weekly rooming house or hotel in the 90s. $230 month my own apt in Butte MT 2002.

if i end up being seen in vegas anytime soon if i go, it will only be a brief temporary stop enroute elsewhere for a few days. from there u can fly to PHL for under $225. (essentially NJ, $15 train). im never sure where ill be. but long term housing is mandatory to find immediately. this much weekly rent feels dumb. i really need someone to buy me an RV and park it near casinos and move it periodically.

i wish i had some hand histories to liven up this blog, but unlike Rob, i dont keep notes. i will tell u one old man from Coushatta has been in my games in reno the last 2 nights. he paid me off $170 tonight, because hes got me pegged as one who bluffs. (had the nuts).

i can get 2 free nites in reno if i wish Wednesday. then on friday id need to go if i dont renew the room.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

woke up cursing pretty bad (dream of electrical fire in my suitcase, and im trying to put it out with gasoline, candles and matches.) must have some kind of symbol meaning

Well i need to get moved out of here for sure. they raised the rent to $350 this week from $300, although the clerk did say this week is a busier week, but next week would probably be $300 again. but i really need to see about leaving town, (or living for less downtown or in the worse neighborhood) but i wouldnt save much if i was paying for uber much. i might not save hardly anything at all. need the frequent breaks walking home and back too. so i dont feel obligated to put in more hours at once than i want.

cant move out, because i filled up the fridge today. had i paid the rent 24 hours sooner, i wouldve got the old price still. ive being told by 100s of locals its been on the news alot how theres not nearly enough housing in reno, and how some living in monthly apts for $550 a year ago are now paying $800. who wouldve ever guessed this would be?

still, if im averaging $16 an hour, (which my phone records show over 1273 hours of play) i should be able to play at least 60 hours per week which is $960 per week. (and not worry about rent) But this week even with todays win, i made only about $360 for the week. this is why i cant afford this high of rent. u got to remember all the wins in shreveport did a lot to raise the average. (even though the average included the losses in foxwoods too, MD live PLO, and the stalemate in toledo). it includes wins in detroit too though and phoenix. if the true average here is $12, then im only making $720 per week, plus im paying for things like food, phone, laundry, etc too. not like rent is the only expense.

after the nap where i woke up about midnite, i went to the peppermill, for 3 hours til it broke, and won $113. i ended up $3 better off than i was a week ago after id just paid the rent then. (but i owe the phone though).

food sure is less in walmart than in the Raley's grocery store in North lake incline village.

Now--the big question--where should i go to live? should i live with ray without charge except my food, and his gas, bug him everyday to drive to detroit, since i couldnt win in toledo, or play in the lousy room in toledo? just so the last $8000 dont all disappear on rent over the next 6 months? (about what it will cost).

should i live in ac nj (which id enjoy more with my privacy and freedom) but the cost there have gone up since its summer. i dont get free weekends.. still get 2 nights twice per week, but only weekdays.

the cost of rooms on white horse pike went up too. i might need to pay weekly to cover weekends even with the 4 free nights. not entirely free, still over $60 in fees.

what would really help in ac nj is the free slot play in BOTH the trop and the taj. about $300-400 monthly in Taj ($20 various days) or $600 monthly in the Trop ($50-75 some days). but this would be cut off quickly without additional play.

they keep raising the amounts since ive not yet returned to ac. but this goes down quickly once u start to redeem it. even if u do play, but not in the large scale i once did. but yeah this would be a very large incentive to go to NJ and milk it for as long as it lasts. at least there the $1-2 would go 24 hours. big annoyance in reno and toledo.

or i could live with vince. play $4-8 hilow in the orleans, where i might still have enough left to grind out $75-125 per night? or $1-2 downtown? see the nice new room in encore, except im too broke for $1-3. or their $1-2 plo which seems to go daily, and in all likelihood wont once wsop ends. wynn never had plo this low before.

could live in the commerce spa for $40 night too, if i could store enough laundry somewhere. Could ride the train into denver for $193, then live 5 nights free in the isle, but then fri and sat id need to sleep outdoors. least it would be cool enough (and safe enough) to do so there, unlike cali. and the poker would go 24 hours with good enough rake back promos, with $1-2 going instead having to play $1-3.

so little u can do with an $8000 roll, and why i cant let it decrease. so much u can do with $20,000. such a big difference in the QUALITY of ur life. the biggest issue with so little is u feel u cannot win no matter how well u play, and u second guess all u do because every dollar means so much, when u are too low to handle normal variance. i wonder what the minimum roll is needed to be able to emotionally deal with standard variance?

its funny how when u have $19k u feel like u can lose $5000 in BJ without it causing u too many problems, but when u have $8000, u get scared to buyin more than $50 since u can no longer afford losses. not having enough of a roll to buyin $200 effects me more than u can ever know.

this is why i couldnt return to shreveport stick to the good $1-3 there, (and win it back same rate as before). there is a HUGE psychological factor between the 4 figure roll, and 5 figure roll.) not for young people, who can replace it over the years, but once u are 47, too much of ur life has gone to be able to replace it and start over. plus im too old to be homeless. (all i think of is going to the room to relax online or sleep). i wonder the oldest age is u dont mind sleeping outdoors.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

surely im not playing bad? $300+ weekly in rent is really stressed on a low roll

I hate to just sit in my room doing nothing but playing online because ive got so little on Bovada i cant play very high there. and the overhead of $317 per week is killing me. if i could live somewhere with no cost, or for under $400 a month (almost no cost) i could earn enough to survive online if i needed to.

But i just cant sit in the casino losing money. the $633 i told u i'd won this week in the Peppermill poker room? i lost $413 of it today. all the last 8 months or so, ive recovered from those losses by making subsequently larger buyins til i won. But its been quite a long while (several yrs) since ive had a roll of under $10,000. i thought i would never go below this again, but i was wrong. so i can no longer raise my buyins. i had to flat buyin for $100 all 4 times--well $113 once. but i cant afford the $200,$300 $400 buyins to get even.

i shouldve only bought in for $40. this is the min buyin, and is what i used to buyin for the first time in reno when i came with $1750. within 2 yrs (and with the help of a $750 royal flush jackpot in the sands the first week) i had it up to $17,000. but i never play shortstack no more. in fact even buying in for $100 now feels shortstack. ive forgotten how to play a shortstack, because i keep wanting to see the flop with small pairs, 6-7 suited, 8-9 suited, etc. the hands u DO shove with with a $40 stack are hands u only get dealt in like feels like once every 50 yrs. Unless of course theres a $5 straddle. then u shove much more liberally.

i'm so glad i made it out of louisiana with over $8000. think of how much worse this struggle would be if i was under $5000. i should've went back to shreveport but i didnt realize id find cheaper rent there, and i didnt think i could play $1-3 good anymore so stressed about money, and with having to lower my buyins. besides i think i ran way above average, (by winning $9000 in april) and i sure didnt think it would continue. (although i still was winning over $5000 in may before coushatta took out a big chunk of that).

when i get low on money, i cease all live BJ play, all video poker play, and im afraid to play higher than $1-2. i look for the cheapest living accomomendations and spend more time online.

I dont think i made any bad plays today, but i do know i cant play well stressing over the $317 weekly overhead. i might need to get to toledo the least expensive way (interpret this to mean riding the train in coach). no private sleepers.

the final hand, i had QK (which id just won an extremely tiny pot with) and the flop comes 24Q with 2 hearts. well a few of us called $8 preflop, and it was checked to me so i shoved my last $70 or so. one guy calls with 35 suited (open end straight flush draw) and of course, turned the straight.

now when i had KQ suited a few hours earlier, i flopped top pair, rivered top 2 pair, but the other guy rivered the flush. the money went allin on the flop or turn.

and when the game first started short handed the guy on my left who wouldnt chop its just us and the flop comes 66J and ive got 6K. turns out hes got 6J flopped him the full house. i lost my whole stack this hand very early on. but who wouldnt?

and the other $100 or so loss yet unmentioned, i called a bet of $30 (into a $40 pot) on the flop of 5JK with AJ. (likely my mistake) turn comes J, he goes allin, i call, he has 555JJ to my JJJA. if i fold the flop (or preflop to the $10 bet) i get out of trouble. but overall i played well.

it feels good to be relaxing in my room on bovada, this is what i felt like doing earlier. but i didnt wish to quit stuck. need to set a 1% stop loss and stick to it, but when down $100 in the first few minutes, (over 1%) i didnt wish to immediately leave and go back to my room. i dont really know if this would be the wise thing to do either? not if u play for ur living.

was not rebuying in for $300-400 to get it all back in one hand wise? i dont know. simply because im not sure im not playing too many hands since im short. maybe when short u shouldnt see the flop with QK suited or unsuited. or maybe i should stick to $40 so ill know how to play shortstack.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Living in reno

well none of the places i wanted to rent have vacancies, prices in reno went way up, so im paying over $300 per week unless i wish to live much further out. only good news is the wifi works good here.

plus ive cut out the losing sessions on poker, (and on BJ). no more live table BJ since i left shreveport almost 1 month ago. no more video BJ since coming into reno from Tahoe. my last 3 sessions of $1-2 NL in the Hyatt were winners, and 23 hours total in the peppermill has produced $633 in winnings, at the rate of $27 per hour. Zero losing sessions so far in the Peppermill.

The bovada roll is still going up, currently sitting at $90 from the $18 i had after my final cashout of over $300, which eventually ending up being transferred to my bank in 6 installments, all of which was received by this Tuesday. so theres nothing in bitzino either.

i feel like i have friends here among the staff, and most were happy to see me. its really nice Uber is finally here, though its more per mile here than many cities. I'm glad my healths held out because i dont see myself ever back on my feet financially with money to spare. those days will be gone for a very long time.

I've pissed Benny off without meaning to, and for this im truly sorry. i wish he would give Colleen my phone, and tell her to come see me. i'd feel like a stalker going by someones place of work, especially not knowing their hours. also it feels good to have all my laundry done.

theres still the option to live in toledo with ray, live in ac nj pretty cheaply with tons of free rooms and of course white horse pike, and of course the 10 free nites per month in north lake tahoe. for example i could take july 20-30, then august 1-10 to get 20 in a row. living for almost nothing is very critical in building up a tiny roll, which is why im so uncomfortable with paying this much per week now. ive been lucky to not had any losses here yet.

Monday, June 20, 2016

im sorry for not being honest with my readers, so i lost again. This is proof God almighty will judge the wicked for their sins

This is a really sad blog entry to have to write. the smart thing for me to do would be not to tell anyone this. But ive never done the smart thing my whole life as an adult, so why start now?

i just lost $1982 on the VBJ machine here in the tahoe Biltmore. so my new bankroll is $7351. and it deserves to be that too, for lying to my readers by underestimating the amount i came back from louisiana with. why did i do this? well i wanted to have some money to play VBJ with here in tahoe, and still have over $6000 to work with to get started in reno. and i figured if ive subtracted the money mentally already it wont cause a complete emotional and mental breakdown when it inevitably will occur.

for over a week things were ok. everytime i listed a $6000+ roll, it was an $8000+ roll. everytime i listed a $7000+ roll, it was a $9000 plus roll. dont get mad, its PPP who told me i shouldnt be honest about how much money ive got. and since i spent the $36 mom wanted me to finally once id recovered over $500 in this vbj, i figured i was "doing the right thing". in fact i did ok as long as i had the discipline to stick to the 1% rule.

today and the last 2 days i lost the discipline, 1 hand tonight while stuck heavily was 4 spots of $100, and the 5th spot was $70 for $470 bet. the running count id estimated to be plus 23 growing heavily every hand, and the dealer got BJ 2 hands in a row due to all the big cards left as i was betting big both times. it was the first time ive ever seen it this high in many months.

i will get close to $190 in bitcoin to hit my bank on tuesday. so it will increase the roll slightly. but this is because i got the rest out of bovada today finally id been waiting on which puts my new online roll at only $28. so im playing lots of sngs $1,3,5 only

im tired of playing this VBJ finally after tonights horrible $1982 loss, so i now wish to get back into reno (and grinding $1-2 much earlier than this thursday now). my last 3 sessions of live $1-2 NL were all winners, for about $380 total so i feel comfortable playing $1-2 NL once more. im really disappointed i couldnt get the $9000 up to over $10,000 though. were i to have succeeded, i was going to tell 1 more lie and claim i won it here in the biltmore.

truth is, in coushatta instead of losing $4000 in poker i lost only about $2500 in poker, and $1500 on VBJ. not $2000 VBJ and $4000 poker. this doesnt mean i wasnt truthful with kristi (ak gal) about security wanting me checked out by mental health for things i said right before i left for good. but i overestimated the loss. i wish id stayed put in shreveport, i wish id went home to Rays house with the extra $2000 instead of needing to worry who i can rent from in reno, etc. lots of poor decisions, and they all stem from the feeling of panic and terror once the $10k was wasted in shreveport on BJ over a relatively short time period. i think the first poor decision which started this was moving out of a nice safe room in the ramada bossier city for $700 month simply because of a nonworking fridge which wouldnt get cold enough. this is why i was staying downtown in the casinos, needing to earn free nights which were fairly easy to get if u played BJ enough.

the poor decisions started in NJ and PA where i won about $2000 a month on live BJ. this gave me a false sense of security and the feeling i wouldnt lose no matter how poorly i played. this too is probably why i got the emails offering me 4 nights a week at the taj, 2 nites per week in the trop, and all other days i put in 4 hours in harrahs ac for a free room (plus the $27 resort fee). atlantic city lifted my ban officially years ago, but they lifted it BEFORE joliet. but its never showed me banned there since. i dont think harrahs knows about ballys, so i did all of my ac nj playing in harrahs since i got mad that one time in ballys in NJ this one december (the night of the blizzard i flew Philly to Tampa).

i wish Benny Profane was an honest guy, and not out to lead me to believe things untrue all the time. such as info on machines he claims he will tell and hasnt, and pretending to be a female in reno wanting to meet. Ray offended his wife big time by joking with her online (with the fake profane benny id) the same way he does with PPP, lightning and AC, but like me, his wife isnt capable of understanding humor. because i could sure use a good woman to love me and a steady free place to live to get on my feet.

theres no uber service this time of night to reno, (only the $120 cab parked across the street which sits there all night often) and considering id have no room for sun night, it wouldnt be wise. the smart thing is to take todays 238pm amtrak and have a room booked downtown 1 night while i look for housing. this would be only $18 to get to reno, and would hopefully stop me from losing more on the VBJ here in tahoe.

before tonight i had some wins, some losses, but i was never down more than $400 and was up over $400 some of the time.

Sunday, June 19, 2016

bluff with 44

Just would like to make sure im playing poker correctly, because my times about up here in crystal Bay and ill be 100% dependent on poker soon. (this will include Bovada too at least, for its only bovada thats brought in over $1075 in bitcoin to my bank). theres been 1 more withdrawal received of $150 bitcoin since i last ran out, and $300+ still on bovada.

i feel better knowing my last 3 sessions of $1-2 NL (all here in the only local poker room, the Hyatt regency in incline village). i've won in all 3 sessions, biggest win of $206. today i rode the bus to the grocery store to buy food one final time before i depart for reno this week. its going to be scary, not knowing where i can find to live, no more video BJ, and knowing ill be forced to win at poker to survive whether i want to or not.

i stole a pot tonight, probably for the wrong reasons since i was tired of not having any hands to bet. But the bluff was successful. i seen the flop with 44 for a $13 raise and the flop comes 88K with 2 clubs. I check, the raiser bets $25 (young guy with his wife prone to get pissed off in the game easily under stress with his wife whose watching and theyve swapped seats she plays too earlier). i go allin for $111, he shows 10 10 and starts to think. counting out chips, then pulling them back to think.

i couldnt hear what his wife said to him, nor what the player on the other end of the table. later he blamed his wife for the fold, she wants to leave and now he dont want to leave and refuses, they get into a big arguement. i sure aint going to tell him if im rebuying or not if i lose. so i said i hadnt yet decided. i sure aint going to say i have him beat this might make him think im trying to get him to fold. so i tell him the only way he can find out is to call and to think about how he will wonder the rest of the night if he was good. he folds then, and the guy on the other end says he didnt know why he didnt sooner, then i show my 44.

he did have about what i put him on, either a medium pair or ace hi.

got lucky one other time too, or id had about $40 or less in chips so id won much lower sized pot. guy on my immediate left when its on me to call a $15 preflop raise, (which im going to do with 99) puts out $30 in 2 stacks of $15 in front of him, so i know what hes getting ready to do though its not in the pot yet. so i fold, he raises, and it saved me lots of chips. maybe more later. people must wait til its on them to let the table know their plans.