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Friday, April 18, 2014

Tonights freeroll tourny at the Riverside in Laughlin

am checking out of my room at the pioneer now and boarding my amtrak shuttle, so i no longer have to worry about anyone finding out im in laughlin (and messing up my plans to travel to KS to spend it with family). been so worried about this the last 2 nights. a big part of the twitter feed the last few days was misleading, but of course the people i sent emails to knew the truth, at least most of it, but not quite everyone i emailed. But the lions share of the "inner circle"

and ill be glad to be in ALBQ tomorrow afternoon, arriving mid afternoon, deciding now where to book the room for a week where the shuttle still picks up at, and will basically do the deciding while on the train, as long as my cricket wireless is active.

Earlier today i wasnt mad, for i started off today winning $153 on the Pioneer VBJ (making up for last nights $174 loss on it) and of course, at Riverside Laughlin i won $142 in last nights omaha8 game too. I really enjoyed the movie though the food cost a lot more than the movie and am thinking i really should go way more often. The story and the message in the movie "Gods not dead" was quite powerful and i can get at least some of u to go watch it, i wonder what i should offer as an incentive to achieve this. Mom suggested i go and see it, and im sure glad i did.

But heres the story on the dammed tourny. there were 5 tables of us, and when it gets down to 10, thats when deals and chops become suggested, otherwise it pays 5 spots, $500 for 1st, down to only $50 for 5th. many weeks im told its chopped even money at 10 players $100 each, but certainly not nearly all. To be fair to all, i really love the way the chop works here because to avoid anyone being unneccessarily needled or pressured, they give everyone 2 cards face down, one with the word YES on it, and one with the word NO, so the vote is by secret ballet. everyone pushes the card of their choice to the dealer, and those cards are shuffled to avoid knowing whose is whose. the other cards are also pushed in face down and collected, and then the dealers turns over the cards to see if any say NO on then. ive never ever heard of any other casino doing it this way. a lot of what the riverside does is great, very good promos there.

its not entirely a freeroll, u have about 20% of everyone elses stack if u dont take the $15 addon, so of course everyone takes it. i worry often about busting out early on, but somehow i keep surviving and make it to the final table but had to start shoving quite a bit, i was so often down to very few BB always less than 10, sometimes by quite a bit. blinds double rapidly every 15 minutes. 300-600 etc are not used. 1k 2k, 2k 4k, 4k8k, etc. so they get really huge quickly making the later rounds total crapshoots.

and almost every time i had the worst hand, (or my opponent had the worst hand against me) the worst hand was winning every time.

now at the end, this one guy who had a sizeable lead earlier didnt have so much of a lead at the end, and one old guy with diamonds and a dog right inside the poker room, had a lot more chips than him. so once we hit 10 players, they first have a 10 min break, then the first vote. after each player is knocked out, they vote again. good system really.

so we go to take the first vote, and the chipleader is late coming back and they want to vote for him, but cannot, and soon he comes. sure enough theres one no vote and we all assume its got to be him, and he sure dont say or act like he votes yes. no one else says they voted no either. his rings are worth so much, he obv dont care about the money.

finally we get to 9 and vote again, still 1 no vote. im having to make weak shoves. by the time we get to 8, i have become the new chip leader. the guy in 3rd place (who really wants to chop) suggests that I and the original old man with the dog get $10 extra each from all, and he gets $5 extra, and the other 8 all get the other $150 each (minus the $25). of course im voting yes for that, being chipleader. and suddenly this time theres 2 no votes--cannot imagine where that 2nd vote came from, one of the players suspects its me--but damn sure wasnt me. i think the original guy from the earlier tables was the no vote that time--he clearly voted no later on at 6 players.

and i think the reason he now said no was he also had about the same amount of the other guy who wanted the extra $5 each, and thought it was unfair that guy gets $5 extra. but hell i just wanted out of there with something, id have gladly took an even money chop--but didnt want to appear too eager to take a raw end of a deal being chipleader. granted i was only at 60k next biggest stack was just over 40k and to show u what a crapshoot, i still had only 6 BB.

so later on 2 bust out (one at a time, with votes in between) not at once-- and we are at 6. now heres where things get interesting. i still suspect the guy with the dog was the same NO vote at 7 players. 5 of us get paid even if no chop, so this is the true bubble. im being forced to make many shoves, and starting to run poor, im down to 28k from 60k blinds 5k 10k and make 1 bad play shoving my 58 clubs (it won for me twice earlier) against a guy whose been folding way too much, and this time he has AQ and dont fold and i lost. so im suddenly down to 8 chips and cant make it thru the next BB.

so another old guy whose been wanting to chop in seat 1, he dont have enough to make it thru either, and UTG he shoves knowing he will be BB next and has enough for the BB, but then not enough left for his SB. (blinds just increased again to 10k 20k) the old man in seat 10 whose BB it is now, needs only about 4k more to call him, and its like a 50k pot preflop. if he calls, i have a shot to make the money cause the UTG guy might bust.

the guy folds (wtf???) and i am 100% sure the guy only folds to make sure i am the bubble (with only 8k left and blinds 10k-20k knowing ill be the BB 2 more hands. remember this is the guy whose been refusing the chop, (for the simple fact of wanting to deny me the money). even if he was offered $600 and everyone else take $50 each, he wont chop and thats more than first pays.

so im livid when sure enough, i bust out, (only one who bubbled). they didnt even vote at 6 handed, because by then the new chipleader (original old chipleader from many moons ago) now again swears he wont chop no matter what now that hes just won a ton of chips so he says not to pass the cards out. meaning i never get to see if there wouldve been 2 NO votes at 6.

all i can think of, as i leave the room to rush to mcd next door in the aquarius and to my room at the pioneer, is all the serious crimes id like to do to the old man, and the poker room staff. im way too wound up to do anything but come here and start typing away. how dare the old man hate the idea of me getting any money so much as to play the way he did and vote the way he did everytime just to make sure i dont get any of the money--even when im chipleader and wanting to just make sure i get something. i dont blame the new chipleader for not wanting to chop because he was pissed from before no chop when he then did want a chop, but this guy was just too much.

excellent example of the type of assholes guys can be when they have a lot of money (think hamsterdam) and why im not an asshole, when i have money is when i am trying very hard to be nice to others, and not all that much when i dont and need to just survive day to day. for others its the exact other way around, and this is very difficult for me to accept.
serious update--i missed my shuttle to amtrak, it was amtraks fault, i was 20 min early waited 90 minutes, it never showed, called amtrak and found out they forgot to tell the driver so he didnt stop because he was late thinking he wasnt picking anyone up. so amtrak refunded the entire thing at my insistence (normally its nonrefundable)

went back to the pioneer and slept all night. am now trying to get into vegas as soon as possible where i will see Benny whose enroute from reno now. booked a flight on allegiant to wichita for $86 on april 25th next fri  so i will now see mom 3 days SOONER so this is a good thing, plus its a lot cheaper. so i wont be in albq or dodge city now. just as well, this plan is a lot better.

one final and important update--i found transportation to vegas--which means i can now post the blog--that will make u happy. im now on hiway 95 headed north on a different companies $60 shuttle that left at 1pm, the last one of the day and i phoned at 12.52pm 8 minutes in time to let the driver know--so i got lucky otherwise id been stuck in laughlin

won $98 on the VBJ this morning at the pioneer, so overall i made about $75 off VBJ (and earned 4 nights comps which never got used)

Monday, April 14, 2014

why am i still here?

down to only $5400 after getting that bovada check even, and buying new phone and laptop batteries and the phone still works horrible and dies even with a new battery and charger, now im being told the charger might not be much good since it got bent. also i cant find any space on it and it keeps not updating applications it always insists on updating that i never use and cannot delete to free up space, because they come with the phone. about 90% of the memory is applications i cant delete and the remaining 10% is applications i desperately want and need, such as bravo live, etc. wish i knew more about tech savvy stuff.

and i lost over $400 today, mostly all on poker. lost $260 in the $1-3 at the wynn to start with. then went to the V, and lost over $200 more on the good VBJ and was stuck about $500. went to the bad VBJ machine (old binions and wynn kind that allows 7 hands at once and pays even money on BJ). there i won back all but $80 of the VBJ loss. played so long i got $15 in slot free play. went in the poker room and lost all day long, over $200 worth. then went back to the VBJ, and won back about $100 more on the BAD machine. why i won there when i shouldnt i dont know. played omaha8 for about 45 minutes and lost over $30 in it too.

a lot of the people playing at the V are regulars, but i imagine its that way in ANY poker room. People like a room, and it wins their business. and im down to $34 on UP, and im still counting that as part of my roll, unlike my $24 left on bovada.

still undecided how to leave vegas, where to go, and where to settle down to live cheap longer term. got to be where i feel safe of course, and where poker is available at the games i want to play and the buyins i want. Benny is coming into town this weekend for 3 days and i could possibly return to reno with him, if i was still around but id need to get another place to live.

i just dont update the blog often enough anymore--and none of the VBJ places were really suitable except for Jean as far as free rooms, empty tables without people around that much, and beatability. im sure theres places as dead in people as Jean and the river palms on the VBJ in the middle of the night, but who knows where that is.

One thing im really grateful for is my tooth hasnt bothered me too much--im really going to dread that someday. also it seems amtrak fares have increased, and bus fares too--the nice lux bus to la is $84 and its always sold out, unlike the much cheaper daily $25 and $30 ones. (megabus, mexican bus, gotobus and greyhound ones.) its $249 to KS tomorrow instead of the $158 one way of 3-4 months ago.

in a way id like to stay in vegas and rent a nice luxury place of $200-300 a week, but i fear id lose my cash on the VBJ if i did. id like Benny to teach me to beat the one he knows of, and id like a replacement of the one in Jean. the ones in Vegas now just arent cutting it. so im pretty sure the ones in Laughlin wouldnt either--they sure dont have the dealers angels kind. was also invited to appear on todd witteles radio show but didnt see how that would assist.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

todays PLO8 tourny at the Venetian

ill bet donkeytax is glad he didnt stake me in it, for i made it only to like 24th place out of 43. most of the money was lost on a flush draw and wheel draw, (down to 4k from 12k) and i was at most 18k early on when av stack size was 13k. blinds moved up very slowly, but i eventually was dying off at 3 BB, and i went allin and lost. i also paid my BB, and then the table immediately broke and i got a new seat in the BB again, when at only 8 BB so that sucked.

but i dont think i played it that bad, just didnt get lucky in key spots. i made one bad call paying off a full boat with a nut flush. and as usual, most of the win today came from VBJ. i was up $84 on it when i sat in the tourny, and then later made about $200 more on VBJ, and then lost back all of it. on the way back to my room to sleep, i spent $11+ at mc donalds for the first time in my life. guess thats what u call an expensive meal to treat myself.

new roll $5967 so im not down that much for the day (although i was over $6200 just a couple days ago). some of that went on things i needed, like batteries, shelter, food, etc. id be in so much worse shape were it not for over $1500 in VBJ wins in the past few weeks.

the only thing i need still before i leave town is the laptop battery im expecting by friday, and the bovada check that might not come til next week. then i can see my family (or go anywhere else).

the $300 i entered the tourny for is one of the most expensive tournies (not counting a couple HU events of NLO8 with yappy dave). in 25 yrs as a pro, thats unusual. and i think its my best game, i just didnt get any decent hands except one aa23 that doubled me to 18k from 9k early on. but it didnt cost me more than $140. i used $160 in comps for the rest. i was sad to miss out on the $2000 payout though for making the money. that would do a lot for my roll, and i thought i had a fair shot at it today.

must admit, i am not used to such long tournies though--maybe more experience in the past wouldve been good. i dont have the roll for $300 tournies either--and u know what? neither do most of those playing in the tourny. (roll is supposed to be $30k).

somehow my sleep schedule got messed up so im no longer sleeping the best hours--and i know im tired now and must sleep. now these are the hours most people sleep--but not for poker players--we shouldnt be sleeping now. and im down to $26 on bovada, took most of it out and lost over half the rest.

Friday, April 4, 2014

getting a few things taken care of thats been needing to get done

well i just got back to the house, and as usual, im playing online PLO8 while im eating a pizza that just got done in the microwave, while im updating the blog, dead tired and will sleep soon as this is taken care of. But of course, updating this blog is my primary responsibility i have in life.

So i went over to a store on rainbow planning to buy a laptop battery i was sure carried it, and they didnt have it. so i then went to another store on sahara, and they said they could order it for me and to pick it up in 5 business days, and they charged me $58 upfront which i paid. they also claimed that was less than most places would charge me-no idea if thats true.

So i still cant leave town yet (to keep me from playing VBJ) because of this wait--and the wait for that Permanent greendot visa to come in the mail carrying my name. im still doing quite well on the VBJ too--made another $180 today. also won both poker sessions, $185 at the V in the $1-2 and $228 at the stratosphere in the $1-2. have had almost zero losing sessions or days in the last few weeks. I was out like $400 or more on the VBJ at one point however.

and so id have less cash to help make sure i had no big loss, i went by the bank, gave them my correct address (instead of the gold strikes address theyd been using) and deposited $800.

my tooth isnt bugging me lately but of course it will still need done soon as i figure out who i want as the dentist sometime. just odd it dont bug me when i did so much a couple weeks ago. ive been avoiding sugar and cold ice though.

at a point last night--had bovada been included as part of my roll (which it cant of course) but if it had, my roll wouldve been around $6000. not bad considering where it was most of last year. and its nice to have a new phone again (my old smartphone is active again). but i think i got a bum charger--it charges at home--but wouldnt charge on the table at the V no matter which outlet i used and the battery dies extremely rapidly on playing any type of game on the cell, even if plugged in. i think it needs another new battery, and i need to take that into a store and have them look at it and find out whats wrong. its a $300 phone, or was when i bought it, i could probably get a bunch of money if i sold it on ebay, and i dont want it to have to be replaced. paid $15 just the day before for that bum charger too.

im curious to know--when am i ever going to start losing on the $1-2 NL, and on the VBJ? i am starting to lose on bovada--im down about $22 while typing up this blog post. usually im buying in $200 and playing 9 max $1-2 PLO8, but often thats not a game going with a seat open. (if its going, its full)

all the women i wish i had in my life, most all of them are on the bus, or walking down the street by a bus stop. wouldve liked to have taken pictures for u of 3 different ones today.

so what else should i get done besides seeing a dentist that is? ill have a working phone, working charger and working laptop on the bus soon i think. and no i havent given any women any money i feel like all the money needs to be stockpiled for massive losses that might be coming in the near future--and maybe a small portion of this should go for tourneys. to play daily $300 survivor ones ud need a massive roll of at least $15k. and id still like to relocate elsewhere.

Monday, March 31, 2014

highest roll in years

Sorry ive been neglecting this blog a bit lately--its just that ive been playing a lot more live poker--and been not coming home til quite tired--and then wanting to sleep right away instead of update. Also, not much has happened the last few days now that most of my out of town friends left vegas. The only real thing that matters and is happening--is that i keep winning, and why im winning, i dont know if the games are getting softer--or if im just on a good run. also, i think i should start playing tournys a lot more. Donkeytax is willing to partially stake me in some of the survivor events at the Venetian, and i won over $300 off his cash stake. (of which i got $150) But in the last 5 omaha tournies ive played live, ive cashed or won outright in 4.

also about this tooth, i dont know whats going on with it. its been less sore lately--but ive not been eating ANY sugar at all, nor anything with ice in it, and brushing and rinsing it regularly. also i did the only thing u can do when u need ur money for more important things like food and rent and bus fares instead of medical expenses--i prayed to Jesus, and asked him to heal the tooth, and to cleanse out any infections that mightve been there--but i dont think any were. Although the power to heal is rarely used since God isnt a big Santa Claus--its still there, and is comforting to know that. it was used on me once as a child, when a dr wasnt available, and it worked. and i still think i should get over my fears and see one as soon as possible, there is something wrong in there--but i asked God for a month or so of time--to get more money together first and to find the RIGHT dentist and Dr. having never had a regular medical dr, i dont know how to go about making an appt and then seeing one at his private office, at a set time, without the long waits that annoy me greatly at the places people go to for emergencies such as UMC thats filled with homeless people for things that arent really emergencies, but they dont know where else to go.

researching online told me about a clinic with a flat $22 fee for an office visit--but it seems that clinic is no longer in business. id still like to find a place u can go for under $50 (without needing insurance and without having to verify income). also im curious about the prices u think a dentist would charge for removing 1 wisdom tooth, should be a lot less than removing 4. i find it odd for about 2 days it was paining me quite a few times but then been quiet and ive not needed any advil the last 3 days.

and i also got a big fear that my $4549 which i have at the time of this post (after just turning a quick $115 profit earlier tonight) might go to waste on VBJ machines that arent as good as the ones in Jean. either ones with higher minimums (screwing up my bet spreads) or ones with worse rules. while playing at the Palazzo about 7am, i found myself playing as high as 3 bets of $33 one hand, at least that hand won. ended up making $158 on the VBJ there last night, then proceeded to lose $100 of it in the $1-2 NL at the V because by then i was tired. the last hand i had TT and a guy makes it $11, a guy called, and with only $50 left i felt obligated to shove he called with AK and hit the A on the turn. i felt it was the right play but should i have folded because of the possibility i was dominated by a higher pair? or would that be too weak? is it ok to shove knowing ill never be better than 54-46 preflop at best?

and i just won $10 on bovada while updating this blog. got about $67 there left. But to avoid losing the $4500 back on games i shouldnt play, what about taking a road trip? to a place like Reno (where Benny will guarantee me $50 cash a day without risking any money) or california where i wont be around any machines because fucking Cutter wont say where they are, to Phoenix wheres theres good rooms ive not been to in 15 yrs, or to Columbus where theres good games and i can have Ray to drive me all over between cinti and MI. and of course i always like to pick places im right by the cardroom or living at the casino or else im an easy bus ride.

still looking forward to seattle irishs trip report too

Monday, March 24, 2014

still here guys

regardless of what anyone else may think of my long absence (6 days without a new post)--i feel like im doing just fine. still holding onto a bankroll of $3113, after wins of $100-300 each of the last 3 days, (including today) and i know i dont want to end my blog--ive met a lot of very valuable friendships from the blog people id never met in real life otherwise. some might have disappeared (vook lester) and some i might never get to meet (zin, pokerdogg, wec, etc) but most of this week was spent hanging out with people i hadnt yet met. Mormoninvegas, (he claimed cizzle was a good guy even though he didnt try to meet up with me--but he did him??) and also the pokermeister who has a blog, along with tierscore from chicago. spent a lot of time with donkeytax this week also, and his advice and insight on the games is helpful too. i miss wec's insight too--his playstyle and mine are similar and his info used to be quite valuable.

and most of my time has been spent playing poker in either the Nugget, stratosphere, or the V with the one night spent at Planet H. mostly $1-2 NL, a little omaha8, and ive managed to hold my own, keeping the roll about 3k, but no real success, i mean its not growing any. but i am just playing poker, no more VBJ machines since leaving Jean. (except for showing docglock the machines in the Palazzo). the next day a guy who looked like hamsterdam (280 pounds) sat and played briefly, standing on 9, wasnt sure if it was intentional or not, but then he left a few minutes later. i moved to his machine, turned out he left $50.50 in it. and he never came back so i put my ticket in and started playing. i doubt he knew he left it. had he not already left to go home, id thought it was $50 of his money possibly.

ive found out it does help to divide my play up into multiple short sessions instead of 1 long session. also been playing on Bovada a bit, my $20 deposit is now at $75. u must realize--a lot of why i didnt bust out and end up on the streets when doing really poorly a year or so ago came because of bovada--that $1000 tourny win one time helped me out tremendously, and i think there was also a 2nd win of $400-600

mailed off moms card and birthday gift, and i still need a dentist, but my tooth hurt less the last 2 days. (still have most of the advil i bought) i dont think theres an infection cause theres no swelling or fever, just that it feels crooked and grating on the adjacent teeth. im pretty old not to have the other half of the wisdom teeth removed yet, so i worry about it. i just dont want anything cold to come into contact with it.

Benny would still like me to be living in reno--mom would still like me to come home for a visit--and id still like to be around good poker games. but to go to reno--cheaply--i need to go first to LA--then to sac--and then to reno. its a long drawn out process. and people were right about good games during march madness. and playing at the V, u actually see real tourists other than just europeans. i wonder what u see in the rooms im NOT at on the strip.

Monday, March 17, 2014

my only hope--is to get better at poker.

Games arent getting any easier, and the rakes arent getting any lower. neither are prices getting any smaller. therefore--i must strive my best to make better decisions while at the table--and away from the table.

one "mistake" i see myself making a lot is trying to get all the money in on the flop, when ive got a huge draw. i do this--because i know on the turn, if i dont hit--i go from like a 70-30 favorite to like a 70-30 dog, and im trying to avoid this from happening--and since i expect to be unlucky and not improve--i want to get the money in on the 1 and only street im still in good shape. (why get the money in bad u see?)

so this is what i did a little while ago--and is why i left the stratosphere with nothing of my $50 buyin. and i had it up to $106 at one point. i was down to about $66, and a guy raises it to $11 preflop, and i called (the only caller) with KQ hearts, and that was the first mistake. second mistake was checking dark--i shouldve just shoved, but since he had aa, wouldnt have changed anything. flop comes up 69T with 2 hearts--not a bad flop for my hand. but i guess my overcards werent outs after all. he bets $30 and pot commits himself, i go allin, and he calls and it comes black 2, black 5.

and the one other hand that cost me $30 occured earlier. this one lady from IA with her husband, she almost didnt want to call a $200 allin when she had the nut straight, worrying she mightve overlooked something, and it was still the turn. took her forever to finally call. and she was making it $6 preflop quite a lot more than she should. so me, thinking im probably ahead and a big bet would scare her off--makes it $30 with AQ hearts when she bets $6. and it worked fine for getting the other kid whose a regular out who called the $6 (a reg who usually loses). but no, she calls, and i get a bad flop of 69J clubs, and id planned to continuation bet most any flop but that one, i check, she bets $30 and i never saw her hand. i muck. what would u have done? i didnt fold the winner did i?

yeah a lot of similar hands developed while playing snevmans $200 stake the other day, and i feel bad because i had it up to $710 once. (but not on the table) hands where i was catching good flops with top pair and 4 to the flush. and then blanking out totally, and once to a really bad river beat.

so i went to the V to play with different people, in better games, and also to play omaha. lost 2 seperate sessions at different tables in the omaha, with the same kind of monster drawing hands that kept missing. think im running way below ev on draws lately. usually whether u have a good night or a bad night depend on ur biggest draws. also played a little bit of NL there but broke about even in it. heres one hand where i gave back most of an earlier NL win except for $10.

i have KJ suited and call $6 to see the flop, new girl on my immediate right raised. flop comes KJ6 all in the wrong suit since its clubs instead of spades. she bet $15, i call, other lady calls whose new also just sat but i recognize her as a good regular. turn pairs the wrong damn card, the 6. she bets $30, i call, (probably shouldnt) other lady calls. river blanks, she checks, i check, other lady bets $40, she calls, i fold, and the good regular has 78 clubs for a flush.

also ran into tierscore there--and didnt know who he was til he told me--and told him how bad i felt about losing the stake back. (although snevman isnt out any money--theres still the $220 left of his $200 that he said to just hold for him til he returns, and wouldnt be around to email for 3 days.)

a big thanks to AKgal, who got permission for me to play in the mon night PLO tourny at P-ho. ill be there tonight, hopefully if i make a bus and bust out of my sng on bovada quick enough. i have to be on my best behaviour while im there--and ive been told the poker manager Chris has okayed it with security. for reasons unknown--she said to post it on the blog--and to try and bring other friends along to come play with me. i think tomorrow night ill be in the strat with donkeytax for the 7pm tourny, and i think AKgal will bring me by some tshirts then.

also am looking forward to mormoninvegas coming to town, and i wish i had his phone number. and i think thepokermeister is coming to town soon, i dont have his phone either.

also it seems the link to pokermonkeys blog dont work--i thought he quit publishing--but it seems hes wrote a lot of blogs lately-and i didnt find out til i seen his twitter feed. when i have more time--ill have to figure out why it dont work--did he change his address?

hopefully i remember to call Ray on the city bus to PHO. i hate the way he has a landline where u cant text too.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Docglock from AVP--a good man who cares about others

well im first going to talk about something else bothering me i havent yet really talked about much to many people--but im worried about that remaining wisdom tooth still not yet removed like the others. its far in the back--and will be quite sore whenever it comes out. and i think my teeth are sideways a bit too near it. the reason i talk about this--is i bought a toothbrush and toothpaste at the smiths store today--and i forgot to buy dishsoap. u see my mouths been feeling sore lately, and i wonder if i need to see a dentist and if i can do everything for under $200 again. last time i did, i was a lot richer, back in the good old days for so many years--of i think $5000 or so. even though i ended up in UMC since the dentist screwed up and some said i shouldve sued. i just think it might be more work this time--and more pain--and it could be why Britni died. but maybe its not yet quite that serious.

although that missing plane is way more serious--they talked a lot of fox news tonight how terrorism couldve been the cause--and how the tracking system were turned off manually one by one at different times a few hours apart. who knows where its hiding--and whats being planned, and which govt is lying about not having seen the plane.

i am pleased with how cheap groceries are at smith, so many good deals 10 for $10, its a lot better place to buy groceries than walmarts--and i never ever knew that before. tonight some special deal on a very good tasting brand of cereal thats my favorite. 3 boxes for $5, normally priced over twice that--and a free gallon of milk included. u havent seen those prices since 1972

and its nice Vince and i will be seeing snevman at 10 minutes til 7pm at the nugget on saturday night. hopefully he does good in the tourny and all goes well.

im lucky to have any money at all--as many mistakes as i make at poker anymore--and as tough as the games are today. some of it is thanks to Docglock. he got me out of the stratosphere when i was stuck $366 and paid for the cab to the orleans--where its a good loose omaha game--but wild--and i won back $180 of the loss. he was going to try to introduce himself to akgal--i wonder if he had any luck finding her at the mirage.

he knew my blog from way back on AVP--and so did some european i met today from the UK who would like to have me followed around with a TV camera--but dont know exactly who would set it up--i would be compensated.

also i need to find a guy with Clear--that i can buy his modem--take over his service--so i can use it to play on UP--cricket dont work--and clear dont accept new customers--how do i do this? is there anyone who knows where id go to find a current user--one with a still active clear acct--that he would be willing to sell to me?

Monday, March 10, 2014

I need a change--but what needs to change?

something to break up the daily routine, something to make sure i dont ever play anything but poker, and to make sure i play poker CORRECTLY. with the right size percentage of my roll on the table (not too little either) or even worse--too large. (such as last nights $480 in the $2-6 spread limit game with NL overs at tx station). that had a big effect on the final hand i talked about briefly in the comments, a hand where i had TT preflop, didnt raise a straddler, nor the guy betting the flop of 783 rainbow, and lost on the river to Q7 when a 7 hit.

and the best way i see to get the most needed change (playing somewhere no one knows anything about how i play --or knows me from my blog) is to play at totally different venues than the places i usually play at. and the only way i see to avoid playing with people who know my game inside and out--is to no longer play in las vegas. my only concern is after knocking the roll down to under $2800, (and was lower than that til last nights win) is how i can afford to travel and pay for housing. but ive been researching criagslist, and theres lots of cities with motel for weekly rental for $200 or less in many cities than have pokerrooms i dont go to.

i think that even with a higher cost of living than remaining in vegas--id still be better off cause id win a lot more out of the games. one thing holding me back is the fear of making the initial commitment--and the cost of airfare if its not bought in advance. i dont see anywhere i can fly tuesday morning for under $130 for example if not bought in advance. and ive not used greyhound in over 10 yrs--too old to use it anymore. i only use tour buses, megabuses, amtrack, planes, and yes even cabs in rare occasions.

another thing i should change, is to quit playing games that i dont feel like playing anymore. whether its due to not wanting to leave because im stuck--feeling hungry or tired--or just wanting to play something else--i need to learn to get up and leave the game--regardless of whether im behind or not. am particularly bad at this on slot machines. thats why u need a real time life buddy who shares ur interests and hangs out at the casinos with u.

tonight--first thing i did when i woke up in my room here--is not want to leave and walk to the giftshop to buy nyquil recommended by AKgal for my horrible cold--and shitty food in the giftshop to avoid waits in the coffee shop for much better and cheaper food. instead i logged into UP, and proceeded to lose $50 of the $100 id left there in the PLO8 game. i called $1 to see a flop with 2457 on the button, flop comes 346, and i lost the whole stack. one guy turns a boat and the other guy had a2. i was playing the high would hold up and an ace would come for the other half. what would u do on the flop?

i wouldve quit that game earlier, but i was trying to get it back to $50 first, was at $42 before that hand, and been playing about 40 minutes. and that was the real mistake in my opinion

but how do u change bad habits that got picked up some time back--and metabolized over the years?

but also i shouldnt feel hopeless, and be expecting to lose. i should think, hey, im a new immigrant whose just arrived here from the Ukraine with $2800 and ive got a whole new life ahead of me if i discipline myself. all i have to do is do whats right. i should see this money as an OPPORTUNITY not as a failure. tatude was right when he said all the negative talk wasnt good for me and i shouldnt allow it on my blog--and maybe thats why he left.

i remember a lot of times id been much worse off than i am now--even $1000-2000 worse off in less than a year ago even--in which instead of being unhappy so much with the current state of my roll--id been extremely happy.

yeah i should not sit and play in games i dont want to be in--simply because of not wanting to deal with paying  for a bus or ???? this would help a great deal--and one way to avoid that--is to be in bigger cardrooms with more choices of games. and maybe also with $2800 i shouldnt be afraid to spend $200 or so of it on a weekly room in a location i want to be at--instead of not being able to turn loose of a dime of it.

and as soon as i hit publish and am out of the tub (its not good to stand under a shower with a bad cold)--ill have to go spend something on food--for im starved and cant play til i eat or ill play awfully. and i never use room service for ordering food--cant stand the wait and the high costs.

and to play too small (games such as $2-4 $2-6--in places without a strong enough promo making it plus EV) thats just as much an error as playing too high. for when i play too low and get stuck--not wanting to leave stuck--or feeling like i can recover it in such a small game--i go out and try to get it back playing other types of games than poker.

one of my largest mistakes with the roll of $10k-15k was in playing too small. i had no business buying in $50-100 then. i shouldve bought in $300 or more every time i playing $1-2, and got some experience with $1-3 and $2-5. maybe id have hit the big time instead of draining it all away. i know if id used some of it to find a really good long term apt in a good area of town id love to keep id made sure i kept it paid up and never lost it. so maybe u can now understand with these examples why playing too small is also a mistake.

the only really big change ive made for the better in the past year is i now carry my laptop with me everywhere i go.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

what a bad day

well instead of holding onto close to $3600 like i had when i woke up about 1am this morning, im now sitting with less than $3000. there goes my chance to ever be in the $4000s again. and the day couldve gone even far more worse than it did.

couldve got killed riding back to vegas with a stranger on craigslist too from rideshare, but nothing happened, seemed like a decent guy. i had him drop me off at a place way out south of the mandalay bay--but it turned out they charge far more than advertised--and they also had no vacancies. neither did the 2 places by the stratosphere, nascar is in town, and nothing is available weekly i want til monday. and thats if i dont leave town. considered leaving town today--but didnt see any immediate cheap flights anywhere i wanted. took the 109 bus to the airport from the south shore terminal after taking the strip bus there from las vegas blvd. then took another bus to the stratosphere.

found out allegiant is in a completely different terminal too. realized i need to withdraw my UP money before i leave town too. but i would like a fresh start in life somewhere.

lost far more on VBJ than intended and got exceptionally pissed off. count was good, and i bet way too much and couldnt handle being in Jean anymore. it wasnt a long term solution anyway without a car--because of no poker being available.

i just am going to have to make it at playing poker instead of BJ. which means my game needs to improve.

am going to change the subject now--and talk about an exceptionally good and loose game at the stratosphere. a game so good i hated to leave when Vince picked me up.

in the spirit of Rob, im going to name the guy at the table "zin" for i dont know his real name. he was a big mexican guy, wasnt all that good at gambling, and liked to drink tequila and he was from TX.

he had a speech impediment of some sort and kept motioning with his hands and wasnt easily understood by the cocktail waitress as to whether he wanted salt or not. and he stacked his chips very loosely and wildly all splattered, and he kept shoving them allin massive overbets on weak hands.

so i have QQ and have just gone down to being up less than $15 from being up $58 once earlier. i made it $15 (bigger size raise due to action game) and got 2 callers in middle position (i was the one in middle positoin) i am on the immediate left of Zin. so the flop comes 7QK rainbow and both check and i made it $20 hoping for action. one guy folds and Zin calls. turn comes 4, zin checks, i bet $45, and zin check raises me allin. hes a bluffer and of course i call. turns out he has an open ender is all, and he hits the straight on the river when the 9 comes. i was pissed, because i was in the game for $183 total

a couple hands later im in the BB with $2 and zin (just the 2 of us in the pot) vastly overbets the pot instead of chopping (doubt Zin knows what it is) and me being on tilt i shove with 33 for my $100 rebuy. thank god it held up. i made a boat and he only had A8 and never paired. but i think its a bad shove there--if i know for sure im getting called 100% of the time that is.

and im tired and sleepy--but still i really hated to leave that table--probably had a big edge there--there were 3-4 other weak tourists there too--nascar is in town--and im playing a tiny bit on UP and seals from the room before i fall asleep--and i need to withdraw all the UP money so i can be free to live anywhere without worrying about needing access to it. had a long phone conversation with Benny today too--telling me about offers elsewhere and advice as to where i should move--while shopping at the 99c store on charleston and decatur.

also i have another piece of possible good news from AKgal--but dont think now is the best time to bring up the subject. i must say--its something important that i really need to work on getting done.

indecision causes a lot of my problems--keeps me from committing to anything long term as far as getting my life better in order and more stability. i always want to leave my option open and never want to put out any money upfront--as an example--it keeps me from having money saved by paying for a monthly bus pass.

and also, i need the counselor rachel back at unlv. wonder if si would know if she still works there--i ve got to learn to take losses more calmly. the best way to do that--is to not gamble on games where i have the propensity to tilt more than i do at poker.