Sunday, May 28, 2017

no progress

well, May is almost done and im still out well over $1000 for the month, making this the worst month since i started keeping records for poker only. this is why this years hourly is only $8+. and my mouth still feels funny since the work is complete, so im still taking the antibiotics. but i need a regular md, my sleeps disrupted nightly every 1-2 hours to use the restroom a very small amount. plus ive still got teeth on the left side needing work. and i dont know how long ill be in vegas would still rather be at Rays. its cheaper, and he leaves the house without wanting to wait all day. Plus he's there with me in the poker room much of the time.

the good news is theres better action in vegas than i remember on previous trips. looser games i think. too bad this year i wont be able to afford any of the tourneys, i just cant bring myself to do it when im not winning. remember unless u are staked, not more than 1% should be used to enter a tourney. even the NL horse or PLO8 events in the Nugget Grand are $250. seems higher priced than i remembered 2 yrs back when i think i last played.

i dont think ill ever have the $45,000 back, even in the next 10 yrs. all i can hope for is this never drops below $10,000 and the measly hourly rate i still earn continues enough to cover my expenses and that i can somehow improve my health.

Because Vince has his own washer and dryer in his condo, which i have keys to, i can have my laundry done here too. i think ill have to move out end of june when Lisa from NJ comes to live here.

the first week i was up close to $700 or more but it all went on dentistry. id almost turned a $2500 loss in may into much less. but now im still out a lot. had the loss once down to under $1000

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Budget dental of Las vegas, trip report

Before i went in, it quit feeling sore. But now, with 3 teeth gone on the right side, (still could use the one done in the far back on the other side) but figured it would be best to do just the one side where i could still eat from the other side of the mouth. the 3 removed was the part left from where the one broke off and fell out, and the one next to it in bad shape, plus one on the bottom i didnt realize was in this much need of fixing.

the total cost, (along with the exam xrays) was $889 and i prepaid it beforehand with a debit card. While in vegas and winning in poker between the nugget or the wynn, id built the $15,400 back to over $15,800, but with this plus medicines filled, im now in the $14,900s for the lowest point in some time.

Vince went to fill the prescription in the CVS near his house by desert inn and mohave, and when he took me back to pick it up with my ID, the power in the store plus the streetlights had gone out (i later heard it was due to some tree which fell) so i had to wait quite some time for pain medications. today when the work got finished, id felt more sore than i had before the work was done. before the work was done, much of the feeling was gone.

i was surprised they were able to do the IV sedation the same day. Vince prearranged this by not having me eat in the 8 hours before coming.

some of the articles im reading online claim its okay to eat food such as macoroni, mashed potatoes, milk, just no coffee. it said not to rinse ur mouth til 24 hours passed too. im assuming vince will be able to find salt to put in the water then? i couldnt stand having gauze in there another minute but it was needed to get rid of blood. i worry all the time about dry socket.

theres still 1 or more teeth which will need work on the other side, but the emergency ones needing fixed are taken care of. of course they did tell me i also need a deep cleaning done. the employees were mostly asian, its in an area of spring mountain filled with signs in asain.

Vince is talking on the phone with his girlfriend Lisa in atlantic city, who deals in the Trop poker room and is moving to vegas next month. i couldnt quite make out what he said but it seemed he mentioned about when they thought the other teeth would need done before they become an emergency too.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

its good to be home

Flying out of BWI into LAS yesterday evening was one of the better decisions ive made in the past month. no more huge poker losses, no more $80+ daily hotel expenses. am now paying Vince $100 per week (or $20 day). it would be nice if this option would someday exist nearby the nice rooms on the east coast. Maybe someday once Ray increases his bankroll enough to move out of Toledo, hes considering Florida.

in the 72 hours i was close to MD live, and horseshoe baltimore, i lost around $2000. before this i didnt do well in Parx, de park, or dover either. in fact, im still down over $2000 for May, which is the worst month ive ever had for as far back as i remember (poker only). But i did win $400 in the nugget poker room today, plus $241 in the Wynn. not too bad of a start. of course with rent, groceries, and $160 VBJ loss in the el c beforehand im not up too much, but its a good start.

Martingaling poker losses aint worked out so well for me this month, so i bought in only $200 in the nugget, both times, and $100 in the wynn. had the $100 in the wynn just shy of $500 shortly before Benny (from roughingthepunter) came in. but i lost 2 good pots. both of which i folded, and i begun feeling like im being bluffed, one guy was a known bluffer, one wasnt. so i left with $341, and walked to mc d by cc with benny across the street from the old riviera which closed down. i dont wish to play with this much of my roll on the table no more, since i feel so broke.

but im now at $15,600 instead of slipping below $15,000. of course theyres huge dental costs looming, but is this enough to start working with in vegas? im sure the Trooper or Flushdraw or Ray wouldve been happy starting with this, and in my 20s id been thrilled to. but now i feel broke.

the hand i feel i folded the winner i had JJ on a board of 3569 and got checkraised to $30 from $15, then $145 on the turn. id just caught him bluffing me earlier when i had QQ and the board was TT7, i checked he bet, turn 8, i check he bets, river 2, i check he bets A9 missed. i folded cause i had too many chips, didnt wish to give it back, didnt expect him to twice in a row, but would he?

then the asian reraises my $24 to $60 preflop, and flop comes aax and he bets huge and i fold QQ. so yes, i definitely need to go. u see why of course. were these bad folds? the less on the table, the more im comfortable til i recover a working bankroll.

Though theres only 1 good VBJ left outside vegas (within 40 miles) theres still 2 in NM it seems. seems motels very low priced in ALBQ. it seems tahoe biltmore is getting rid of theirs this month, the new one just got put in which shuffles every round.

if u see my twitter, u will see agsweep seems to have found me a dentist who does the lowest cost iv sedation i know of in the US here in vegas for $250 additional. i hope its in-house and not a referral which takes 2 months. i wish the teeth could be fixed cheap instead of just pulled, (ones gone actually 2) wheres theyres nothing left to fill or save. but if i run out of teeth how do i eat?

Vince is going to phone them tomorrow, explain the situation and see about getting me in there this week.

on the plane a woman who didnt wish to sit by some other girl who was in her seat, went and moved to the seat by me. then she was talking to someone before departure on the phone about some girl plus possibly herself being not let in the room she insisted be allowed in. good looking girl too, i wondered if she was a hooker going to vegas (lots of them fly in weekly). she shared her mc d food with me, and i spoke of going to play poker with $15,000. too scared to request her contact info however.

considered writing a phony blog of being in vegas under 24 hours again and flying with her out of town to start a new life with a new GF. but now too many seen me in person in vegas.


Saturday, May 13, 2017

leave the table when u no longer feel like playing, regardless if u are up or down

I think sometime this week ill return to Toledo/Detroit to Ray's house to see the dentist. if i went to shreveport, Reno or Vegas, i would have no one to accompany me to the dentist, which is required if they give u IV sedation. the reason im concerned is although theres no pain, theres a pimple which developed on my gums in the area where the decayed tooth broke off, and im reading online what the cause of this is. Flights from BWI are over $100 more than flights out of PHL, but the amtrak to toledo is a very low $75-95. im tired of high priced hotel rooms. my 2 nights here near MD live cost me $184. my last 4 nights in Dover Downs, (due to the $29 special) only cost me $140 total. my nights in wilmington cost me like $80 per nite. my nights by Parx cost me like $75 per night. plus i spent $80 once on uber in the past 10 days, $89 once, $171 once, and $77 once. Ever since i left NJ, my expenses went up, but theres some nice casinos here if theyd ever have cheaper living options nearby.

finally won today too. ($200 buyin, in the $1-2 NL in MD live about 2am. eventually left about 6.30 this morning with $445). i had it up to $642 once, then caught myself doing 2 dumb things. so i figured i better get out of there before i self destructed. i did find $20 in free play id heard of once in an email, but no room offers. so i ran it thru, cashing out $24. i'm still out over $600 for the month of May in POKER, meaning for just poker, it will be my worst month in the last couple years. no month last year was at a loss except for the $447 in june. and dont forget last aprils $9000 win.

i tried to steal a pot with 69 of clubs on a flop of 478 with 2 spades and 1 club. it didnt work. turn was another 4 so now i picked up a flush draw to go with the straight draw, which made me pay $50 more to see the river. then i missed totally. he showed 79, thinking he bluffed, but he didnt. river was A of spade, completing a possible flush, which he didnt have. he was definitely the wrong player to check raise to $65 from $10 on the flop. then i let the guy on my immediate right, (who i suspected of knowing who i was) bluff reraise his straddle to $60 preflop with 72 offsuit. flop comes 10 7 8 and i folded my 55. he did have me beat, but i shouldve shoved allin preflop over the $60. he was definitely deep enough to fold for over $400 more.

if i were to have stayed in the dover area, id be getting $168 next fri for hours earned. eventually theyll send a mailer to rays address, with $300 slot play. i'm glad hes got a car again, with excellent gas mileage he says. plus he says hes won over $900 in the past 2 weeks.

i wish something could be done regarding the collusion that goes on in smaller poker rooms, which the staff obviously dont care about since the colluders usually tip big off their ill gotten gains so they will be permitted to continue. i seen 2 guys checking it down, once with 9922 on the board, theyre last to act, with a nine in their hand, and simply check because theyre opponent is a woman whose a reg too. then these other guys claim they always check it down, asain guy with the rooms most hours reg, he has top set, and his opponent in seat 10 has the nut straight to his set of 10s . of course, against me they take my money. poker shouldnt be no friends. every man out for blood, no matter who its against.


Sunday, May 7, 2017

the path of least resistance

At one point since leaving Detroit for Atlantic city (never was intended to be my final destination by the way) i had $21,500 while at the high water mark. This was MORE than the $20,970 i had before i bought my plane ticket that morning. Since then ive been dropping steadily and if u look at my phone graphs, quite a bit has been on live poker, most of it in fact, (the $1500 on the 3 card poker machine in the Trop the other day notwithstanding) plus about $500 more on some regular slot machines, mostly gemtiles in the Borgata. Parx got rid of their old shufflemaster VBJ machines, not even the bad kind remain. so ive not lost one penny on BJ or slots here in Parx. Then well over $1000 got used on motels, hotels, trains, planes and Ubers in the past 3 weeks too. its been quite a while since i bought the plane tix.

What this all means is im at the end of my rope with no more tolerance for losing any money. I'm too old to start over from scratch with a roll of $2 or $3 thousand dollars. and having tasted big money on $45,000 not more than 3 months prior, i feel tremendously broke everyday (stressed out by it and feel i cant spend a dime, no matter how much its badly needed and will help in the long run). and whats worse, no one can relate to me over it, except maybe Ray, who would also never spend a dime on things he needed. Not only losing, i have no tolerance for policies which annoy me, inconsiderate things other do, people who dont care, people with insincerity who fake they care when only making conversation, microwaves not turning in circles (worry its not cooking fully and ill die of food poisining) fridges which freeze the milk, inability to get others to see my point mostly cause theyre too dumb to and dont care, and not having any friends around here to talk things over with while on the tables. (people who genuinely wish to see me win and improve and play my best-not the kind who wish to take my money).

and being in a bad mood (and worried as to how ill survive paying $75 per night for a long term place to live if i dont wish to waste more money on traveling) i dont really care WHO i get the money from, as long as i get it. whether the money comes from winning it from the other players, or out of the dealers and the cocktail waitresses tips (fuck them anyway since theyre union and like to flaunt in my face their $20,000 jewelry how rich they are) or whether i find it off someones wallet in the bathroom, or out in the parking lot of walmart asking for change. wasnt i told to stay in 1 place and not do no more traveling though im sure theyres many places id be much better off in and living much cheaper with steadier housing. i couldve tooken the $125 spirit flight into vegas tonight, but if i checked out of my room at 11, and the flight dont go til 7pm, and i cant bring my suitcase inside the casino, what was i supposed to do with my luggage in the meanwhile?

i feel like a lot of the players disrespect me (either because of reading the blog--or because since im losing and im not one of the regulars theyre used to seeing--feel im a complete idiot.) the glasses im wearing tend to make others feel this way. i'll make a preflop raise with a big hand and get called in 4-5 places. with hands most wouldnt call most people with. then they always end up hitting the hand no matter how far theyre behind like the previous night in the $2-5 game with KQ off preflop vs AQ suited for $105 left, and with 25 offsuit in the $1-2 then hit trip 5's on the flop into my overpair. I dont see the cliques here i seen in the Trop, but i can recognize thier regulars (and harrahs regulars) theyve been coming there everyday for 20 yrs. i dont recognize the regulars here.

i still wouldve liked to play the $6-12 hilow stud8 and omaha game, but ive held off on the time charge. at least with the time charge in the PLO last night they got out closer to 12 hands per down than 4. the good news is u dont have to call $5 to bring it in, checking the $2 in ur BB works if no straddle or raise. the min buy is only $100 too, so i feel the money goes faster. the lesbian girl in the game had over $3000 in front of her last night.

---more to say later--suffice it to say, just left Parx (where im now banned) and will talk about it later. right now im packing bags to catch the Uber to PHL airport. im soaked its pouring rain, and a long walk thru a huge parking lot and 2 streets to get home. where im going, who can say? truth be told, i need a long vacation away from gambling. i dont need to be forced to win everyday to survive. no one here can relate to how it feels.

---2 days later-- ended up taking the Uber to Newark DE. took me a room not far from DE park. checked in slept all day, then sat in the $1-2 PLO and started losing. eventually (Zin?) from TX sat in, started raising every pot asking how much is the max, dropped about $1000, a lot of which i won so eventually left the casino with a small profit instead of a big loss of $900. some of it was won on the VBJ, its not countable but its now standing on soft 17. guy was mexican living in brownsville with his friends. some of the dealers here know somehow of my blog.

On the hand at Parx which got me banned when the asian guy slowrolled me, flop was 9h TKd i bring it in preflop for $10 with JQd so ive got the nut str8 with the royal open ended redraw. with my luck (being out so much this week and month) i decide not to slow play so i bet $35 on the flop. he bets $80 so i just shove. he thinks awhile then calls. he is loose. board goes runner runner TK for 2 running pair. he looks forever then when the dealers getting ready to ship me the pot finally shows K9 for boat on the river. this is the pot of the night, well over $900, id be $200 up instead of another $700 down. close to 2 weeks rent. at $75-80 per night, i can only afford to live 200 more days without income. i used to be able to prepay 2-3 yrs if i needed to. and when living with a higher standard (by this i mean better hotels and uber over city buses) i cant really go back to the old lifestyle of poverty. not at my age. i feel i spend too much to live, its the cause of lots of stress. if i win $100 a day, i never got any better off. just hold my own is all. if i lose $100 per day i deteriorate rapidly. out well over $1000 for May and my biggest loss in 2016 was $447 in June.

i rose up to quit, and tossed the chips across the table so hard they intermingled with his and another players, so i got banned for 48 hours. i cant afford to live by Parx without a car, (to either sleep in which could easily be done here or close by where its safe) or to get to the lower cost motels down the road. i felt so sick when i lost. i was totally counting on it as hard as the flop hit me and as huge the pot was and overdue i was for the big score. its been like this the whole week and i finally snapped.

i was tired of living in this hotel anyway but everyday instead of spending money to relocate, plus time, its SOO easy to just renew the room, though i couldnt afford it longterm. i need a longterm residence so i just do it. the easy way. moving around isnt easy. plus i didnt know where to go. im heading south, so i should be in Baltimore soon this week. i feel i should go to florida or vegas or shreveport or reno or detroit or stl. i no longer get free play in trop, they cut off the $50 3 times per week. no idea why since i blew the $1500.

now today, i did win $300 in DE park and left early. bought some books up the street for 90% off, some food, then went to my room. played mostly $1-2 PLO. then moved to holdem when up $300, which was the nittiest game ever. not the PL0, the holdem.

--yesterday, now---. today i won $103, $53 in the game only due to the final 2 pots, and turned my $50 slot dollars from playing u get free for 8 hours into $50.49. but the whole $103 went for 2 uber fares, and my $83 hotel. im going to leave once i sleep first.






Sunday, April 30, 2017

Trip report, Parx

i've forgotten some of the things which annoyed me at Parx, and i should hunt up in the search feature on this blog the word "parx" so i could find the old entry which listed them. mainly, the $2 chips. by the way i found out at sugarhouse u can straddle from any position but the blinds. Parx is now under the gun only. Certainly ran up a huge Uber bill yesterday, since i stopped at the wrong bitcoin atm on the way, (too much out of the way) realized later online theres a closer one. Only $17,800 left.

i decided NOT to sit in the $10-20 stud8 Big 0 mix last night, and found a $1-2, which didnt go much longer, then moved to a fresh table when it broke. $60 min $300 max but one good rule is when coming from a broken game all options are open, from the min buyin to much more than the max (if u left the other game with this much). since it cannot be policed, im sure its abused constantly by people adding a few extra $100 chips. i eventually was in the game for $260, but left with $530. not sure if anyone at the table knew me from online, but possibly the guy on my immediate left did.

i was annoyed by the fact my comps had disappeared, as had any free play offers id got shortly after leaving last year. the waitress service is extremely slow when the rooms packed with people before the promotions end.

only went here because i didnt have a room fri night in ac, and i didnt wish to lose more on the $2 min 3 card poker machine in the Trop where i dropped $1500+ the day before. was so tired i slept 1 hour (less) on the train into Philly, then went looking for the atm. by the time i finally got to my hotel it was after 1 pm, and got checked in.

im glad to see Ray finally got his car replaced, thru financing. it will be a better car than the one he previously had. hope he does well this evening in detroit. Though in Detroit u can buy in for more by matching the big stack (greektown only, not motor city) here theres good selection of different games and with $1000 max in $2-5 instead of $500 u can martingale ur buyins.

im keeping this short instead of a loong dissertation into many things which pissed me off over this past week. too much work to type, this is long overdue needs to be posted now. suffice it to say a lot could be done out here with the $45,000 roll i blew in reno as far as the many things i needed to get done. here it could be invested in more poker, and if i did play BJ, would be in better rules.


Sunday, April 23, 2017

Good riddance to Atlantic city, their policies, and their casinos

 
 Theres lots i dislike about atlantic city and me coming here wasnt a good idea. wont be my first or last bad idea. idea was to get free rooms (minus resort fee) most of the time, plus pick up about 15 times per month $50 day in free play in the Trop (until they cut it off for me not playing the machines heavily like on previous trips). u see right now, id prefer to not use my 2 free upcoming nights ive earned from playing poker in Harrahs AC for sun and mon nights and just get the hell out of state to somewhere else, where yet im unsure of. the room i paid for on whitehorse pike ends sunday morning. paid much more for the week than i shouldve too, my first mistake. price used to be less.

but i've got $50 free play coming today, and tomorrow, plus monday. then various dates between mon and the end of april too. but when i left Greektown in detroit (before i bought and plane tickets) i was a full $2300 better off. im making nothing here. 6 of my last 8 sessions were losses in poker. i cant seem to win in $5-10 stud either, buyin too much on tilt when i play $2-5 and tend to sit too long. even when up, i sit too long and dont leave with much profit. when stuck, i dig the hole much bigger. and i miss not having free meals like in shreveport, or a home to eat cheaply in like Toledo and vegas. and im disappointed Ray still hasnt found another car. plus lost so steadily hes now got no money to invest in poker or the car.

i tried to somewhat fix my hours, for games suck 8am to 4pm. today ill be starting about 1.30pm instead of 7am. slept til 11 this morning.

here is a few of the major grievances regarding AC cardrooms, some of which are universal to all properties in town.

1. NO PHONE OUTLETS underneath the seats. pretty much in every pokerroom, with the exception of stud games in the borgata, and $2-5 or higher. (this means no chargers in $1-2 NL upfront of the room in the borgata by the door). only in the back section towards the other room, or in it. this really puts me on tilt, keeping me from doing what i need to do to avoid frustration or boredom. plus the very poor connections especially in the Trop, dont help either.

2. u need to buyin from the cage, of course sometimes they discriminate who they enforce this against.

3. in the Borgata u need to post the BB before u can be dealt in a hand. Plus in stud often theres collusion of folks anteing for friends.

4. when u buy chips from the borgata cage, all transactions must be in multiples of $20. but not when rebuying from the dealers. unlike other places, where u cant buy in odd amounts via the dealer, but u can from the cage.

5.the Nugget closes every night at 4am, even when the game is FULL

6. its 10 handed, not 9, everywhere u go.

Ray would like the fact u see so many nice looking women in the poker rooms here in AC. 2 white girls in the trop play there everyday, theyre probably about 40 or so. No idea if theyre winning players or not. they seem to know all the guys, particularly the black regulars. then theres shay the dealer from Harrahs and her friend (young black girl whose usually playing the mornings). their table banter makes them seem like enemies. i have no idea if she is taken, or if she prefers white or black guys. but shes playing in Harrahs every morning. i wish i knew which people have plenty of money, and which ones are pretty broke and really needing the free rooms sun-thurs for 4 hours of play. there seems to be BIG cliques among the regulars here, in BOTH harrahs and the Trop, and if u arent one of them u feel like an outsider, especially among the morning crews.

the only guy i know is broke is the deaf guy, always drunk, always carrying a beer, but almost never playing poker himself. but he seems to walk the Trop often, looking for who he can bum $1 off of (without speaking of course). sometimes he gives a quick backrub. and its very unsafe walking pacific after dark, (which i did lots in the days i gave $20-60 to hookers over 15 yrs ago). if u go to 7-11 or anywhere, u will be asked for money. u never should ask once its dark out, i used to quit when i panhandled in the 1990s once it got dark, why? because it makes u feel like a mugging getting ready to happen instead of nonthreatening request. plus, no one will give, theyre afraid to get close or reach for cash once its dark. this is one reason i dont like riding the jitney at night. or walking 1 block pacific to atlantic to the bus terminal to get the 554 out to whitehorse pike once its dark.

many of the rich folks from NYC with old money who frequent these places arent very good at poker, thats for sure. i didnt play it but i have it on good authority there was over $15,000 in the $2-5 NL in the Trop saturday night. i was too busy recovering $500 of my previous days losses in the $1-2 NL that night.

i was originally going to add some things, make this blog longer, talk on a few things at my table, but im sleepy, this needs updated, and im too tired and thought better of part of it. suffice it to say im still $1700 less off than when i left detroit, half on expenses the rest of losing stud sessions, 1 $2-5 NL session, or id be up quite a bit.

i do think ill go this weekend, instead of going back out to whitehorse pike for rooms. i get too tired to use the bus, wasted $30 4 times for uber. not wise, but saves ur life from danger. no idea which city ill go. theres daily $87 flights to south florida, and motel prices are down now.






Saturday, April 15, 2017

atlantic city NJ trip report

Well im finally making progress since leaving Detroit, but not nearly as quickly as i was in detroit, since Detroit offers better games. Sure NJ offers better games than PA, but PA might still be better because at least their $1-2 NL games have phone chargers, and theres not long bus trips out to absecon each way and back. instead, theres a nice hotel up the street, with a much better fridge, but at least this one isnt freezing my milk, and the wifi is working good. i dont care much for this microwave though. im worried it dont cook enough and ill get food poisining. its got an old fashioned timer on it where its hard to do partial minutes. so because i fear it wasnt cooked good enough and some steaks were still stuck together, i cooked it close to 3 extra minutes. (steak 6 pack). still paranoid its not heated enough, too bad i dont own a food thermometer. hope ray is correct about maybe its been cooked before they packaged it.

winning $250 TWICE on aces full (which held up 20 minutes for the hi hand, minus $20 tip) in Harrahs ac today helped, and so did the loose action 1 player kept making with multiple preflop raises 90% of the time. so i won over $700 in the game. some of it i need to use for a new laptop. for my screen on the top of the laptop, slants and wont sit properly, its broken off and theres mechanical things sticking out. i dont know how to properly describe it. except to say its falling apart, although other than this, it still works properly to use the net. but i sure do hate spending the money to replace it, but it should be done and quite soon. and no i dont feel at ease buying online craigslist or in a pawn shop, afraid of getting one which wont work right.

theres no walmart or best buy or target or Kmart or office depot convenient near me and everything here in the AC NJ area is big Uber expense, or lfyt. fares in NJ much higher, probably due to laws forbidding u from pumping ur own gas.

i kind of miss shreveport. steady housing, free buffet every day, and good games. but i think i won so much above normal id do much worse if i returned but i do think finding a dentist not too high would be much simpler there since i checked on one before. by the way for those who dont know 1 rotten tooth broke off and fell out close to 1 week ago, but it still needs a dentist, others need out, and theres pieces left under the gums. the one next to it looks hideous too.

im sure the Trop will cut off my free play before long, for im staying off the machines and my $150 in free play per week will not last long, they cut u off quick. plus i dont have nearly the room offers since the Taj shut down. i thought id get plenty of rooms from Harrahs, but truthfully, i think id rather have steady housing, such as vegas or toledo or shreveport. im getting too old and my suitcases worn out.

Borgata had over 8 stud games going. i got stuck close to $800 in $20-40 stud yesterday but recovered it with over $200 profit before going home. the nugget is closing at 4am every morning, even if the table is full of people. the showboat is reopened, but without a casino. Hard rock is thinking of buying the Taj.




Thursday, April 6, 2017

making the RIGHT decision, in the eyes of Almighty God

I'd like to use this update to talk about my friend Ray in Toledo, and how i feel about whats happening in his life since i came to Toledo. Mentally, financially, spiritually, etc. One thing i dont wish is to feel like im a burden to him, though he welcomes me to live in his home as long as i would like, even if he cannot drive me back and forth to detroit everyday.

I've been told everything in his house is mine in the way of food, tons of old tshirts, etc. including letting me have his front door keys. things were going good in his life for about 1 week with his poker results, before it all came crashing downhill, and now hes broke and dug into his credit for about $1000 or so, not sure of the total.

he's basically never got into $2-5 NL, (kind of like me) but unlike me thinks he can easily do it with much less than $5000. (i recommend $30,000). he tried it a few times in motor city when stuck, and thought it would be easier than winning in $1-2 because he felt he could read their hands easier instead of them being on any 2 cards, and he could isolate and take down dead money. he really wishes to spend most of his time in detroit in $2-5 instead of $1-2, regardless of it he can afford it. he thinks since he keeps throwing money away in keno or pickem poker VP machines, he's better off in $2-5. the good news is hes never played BJ, or has any interest.

he is seriously wondering why hes been losing and if God's plan for his life is to just sit alone in an empty room and go work out in the gym til he dies. i've never seen a reason to work out myself, but it seems to help him get women to write online, its amazing how many seem to want to meet him or how many dates hes been on. (he dont mention hes on SSDI or plays poker because he knows then no one would write). like me, he knows how much modern liberalism has destroyed women turning into good Christian wives. now i have lots of respect for being open and honest with women and dont like the way he dont mention this, i feel its wrong to not be open and upfront with the women. its not fair to the women, and isnt conducive for building relationships, which is the ONLY thing i want with women, (someone to love me i go home to every night, certaiinly not to go out on dates). i wonder if God is judging him in poker results over this? hes wasted about $100 or more some months due to spending too much on meals on dates and these women dont love him. mostly women in their 50s wishing to get drunk or sleep around, which he has no interest in doing. not many women under 40 write him. he knows how affirmative action works in toledo, how factories only hire blacks and women now, 49 out of 50 of their new hires in the Ford plant. he couldnt get in no matter how much he tried and had connections, being told they wont hire due to affirmative action requirements.

hes basically a very good person, one of Gods best servants on earth, as much as he does for others such as letting Nick live there for a while due to problems between Nick and his wife. without expecting anything for it. i've never met anyone more unselfish. this is why he seems so wierd to all the rich moneyed people reading my blog who are greedy bastards. Ray like God, hates greedy rich people and this is why he helped start a union once years ago, before unions were corrupted by the left. remember, Jesus went after them with a whip, and said its easier for a camel to go thru the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter Heaven.

Ray admires Man In black, due to the fact hes worked hard in low wage jobs his whole life. Ray did too til he became disabled. this is why hes getting a much better form of social security disability. he admires Vince too.

Truth be told, he is worried because his truck quit running, for 2 weeks now we've been spending $160 per week to rent a rental car, splitting the cost in half. he knows this cant continue and must get a car right away, but he dont wish to pay over $120 per month, (too little income) or put it on his $11-12k in unused credit, because he hates to touch it, worried he wouldnt be able to repay. i told him its better than having a monthly car payment then not be able to pay, least then the car wont be repossed. he was surprised to learn how many used car dealers will accept visa.

he cannot stand the idea of not having a car, and his family wouldnt like it, so of course this is his #1 priority. its effecting him to where he cant play good poker.

keeps him from getting good sleep, causes him to stress out and throw money in non poker games, (horrible idea) Now lets be honest. if someone is engaging in self destructive behavior and u care about them, and they refuse to change, how does it make u feel? any of u able to relate or know someone who fits this description?

i worry its MY fault for coming to toledo, since he used to not go to play poker nearly everyday. not since the old days in his early 20s before he worked, and was living in tunica doing nothing but grinding stud and omaha 20 yrs ago. its true that the BEST way for someone struggling financially to have a better life for themselves is to start relying on gambling for extra income instead of the govt. it makes u feel so much better about yourself morally. im a wondeful example of how it makes ur life better. im now usually always way over $10k instead of way under $5k, sleep indoors now, and dont rely on panhandling.

but not everyone is cut out for it. some just too dumb, some just too stubborn, some just unable to deal with the pressure of the swings. to survive, u must never straddle, never post or sit til the BB passses u. and rarely tip unless winning. most people cannot do it, they succumb to others who like to tell u what to do.

the music ray likes to listen to is so immoral and ungodly, (heavy metal and other rock) its no wonder u cant think well with them on using headphones. plus he knows too much coffee, too little sleep, not enough time spent in the gym, hurts him at the table. plus he keeps getting up leaving the game or changing seats/tables if not winning. u cant do this if u are a professional. u realize winning hands could take hours. he seriously dont see much money u need in reserve at ALL times. and that it could never be spent. he thinks i should spend it on my medical health.

i feel im putting pressure on him by living in his house and going to play poker daily. so i went to detroit today, took a hotel for a couple nights, (might renew for the week, seems decent enough and low enough cost and possibly safe enough too). but its too far from the casino for low uber fees, theres surcharges like crazy in detroit overnights. but if i can get to the casino and back without needing his help, it takes pressure off him to go more often. since i didnt need to go when he would go home, i ended up winning $375 here after earlier losing $175 in toledo. this lets Ray get to sleep much sooner tonight (not playing no poker) and he hopes to spend the entire day today viewing dealerships in bowling green and oregon looking to buy some cars he seen advertised online.

the bigger question is am i ruining his life by getting him into poker again? winning $500 or so per week sure would give him a better life, it would for anyone in his situation. i felt this is the solution for flushdraw too. it was for me. or is he not capable of winning due to being unable to conquer his demons on playing other games? or would he conquer those demons if less stressed? he worries he might destroy his credit but he definitely wishes to play $2-5. but does anyone on here agree its easier to win in than $1-2? hell if i believed this, id play it myself with the $18,000. he even thinks u can win a hourly higher rate in $2-5 than in $1-2 and he refuses to believe the players are a lot better, he thinks lots are drug dealers he knows, spoilt rich guys with money. including the guy who ripped him off and lied about what he would pay on his old truck he knew from poker. ($75 less than he promised on the phone).

im trying very hard to make Ray a better life, but am i wrong? should i hit the airport today for atlantic city? i wish he would succeed, im tired of seeing him broke. winning in poker should be so easy and the solution for everyones financial troubles. i will see him tonight when he returns to detroit after going car shopping. i can either go home, go to the airport up the street, or stick in this area living in the hotel. but i cant afford the uber fees.




Friday, March 31, 2017

slow growth

It's been quite a long time since i've lost in a live casino poker table. the last 10 or more sessions on my phone, theyre all wins. new roll of $19,100 from around $18,000 several days ago. and this money is going to be used for the dentist soon, i think ive found the one in Toledo i will end up using. Ray however, is still spending way too much of his meager roll on pick em poker or keno. sometimes he wins though. more than i would expect. i do think he would be $1000 or so better off had he only played poker. right now hes worried about getting a new (not new) car before Tues so we're not charged for weekly rental again. his landlord owns a dealership or works in one, and didnt treat him right as far as keeping his word. nor did the guy who bought the one which broke down for $200 when he offered him $275 over the phone, then shows up with $200 in person.

i keep buying in for only $50 since im not stuck, (the min buyins so much less here than in NV) and keep winning with it. sometimes been lucky winning early on when i shouldve lost. so many policies different here than in NV. as far as 10 people, straddle rules, requiring u to have a players card to play cash in toledo, etc. a banned player hit the BBJ once and this is to stop this. the worst is in motor city, when every time u go broke, u must get up out of your seat and go to the cage to rebuy chips. Buying chips from the cage to begin with before u sit instead of from the dealer is poor enough customer service but many rooms outside of NV do this.

Rays old truck quit running, so we paid $80 each to rent the car for a week. he had to have a car. it stopped rather suddenly. he should have enough credit to buy a car, and is considering putting it outright on his various credit cards to avoid monthly payment from the other dealership not thru his landlord who does this.

no BJ for me since leaving Jacksonville, except for far less than $100 online with bitcoin. toledo the 6 deck shoes are $15 min. both in detroit and toledo continous shufflers or those not paying 3-2 are lower priced, but no normal BJ games for lower stakes like in vegas reno or shreveport. so im not tempted to play because i feel the min bet is too high. remember im still much less than the $22000 i left reno with. not as low as the $15,700 i reached in jacksonville after buying so much bitcoin but still not good. only good news is ive been over $10,000 for a long time. since 2010, seems close to 80% of the time. much different than in my younger days. i dont buy hookers like i did either in my younger days, could this be co-related?