Sunday, June 25, 2017

is paying 2/3rds of your monthly income in rent a wise investment?

i slept much longer than i anticipated yesterday evening, so if Dan and Alysia (no i doubt they know each other) were looking for me in the Nugget poker room yesterday, sorry i didnt arrive til about 2am.

once i did, i played a very short session, of not even 5 hours. when i left i was still up over $250, which continued my string of 14+ winning sessions in the Nugget. 14 sessions isnt 14 days. i was up over $200 more earlier, but i called a bet with AK high all the way, because i felt a guy might be bluffing due to the flop structure of JT2 5 2 busted flush draw from the flop, but no, he had aa. he called my preflop raise, then bet into me on 3 streets from the SB.

I'm not going to say where i rented. looked all over the hotels reservation websites, looked on airbnb, looked on craigslist, etc, then finally found a place where id be by myself behind a locked door, and where i would feel safe since id have it to myself. Everything was provided for me to use, and includes washer/dryer without cost. just let it be known im paid up thru the end of July and im out over $2000 plus. one of the nicest places ive ever been in, and as long as no one discovers where, im safe here. close to 90% of rentals id be constant fear over home invasion in the middle of the night and being killed for my atm card pin. same way i constantly fear my entire bank account balance disappearing while im sleeping. i'm not going to tell anyone if its a hotel, a high rise near the strip or southpoint, or if its a condo in another part of vegas, but lets just say i will try to find lower priced but still safe accomodations once my time ends. i only make close to $3000 per month, sometimes more often less. when u add in over $500 monthly in Uber costs, plus food, phone, etc, im going to be spending $3000 month too, so i dont see how the roll can grow unless i can find a way to increase my income from $100 day to $200 day.

i dont even think Annie Duke (the best poker player i know) could win $200 per day in $2-5 NL against 8 first time players. good $2-5 NL players make only $45-70k per year. But maybe, just maybe $150 per day is $4500 per month, which still works out. this is why the number #1 priority of the federal govt is to stop inflation, which is best done by ending voting for demoncrats. inflation is one of the biggest causes of homelessness and poverty (increasing rental prices to where no one can get housing). almost as much as alcohol is the cause.

So yesterday i went to walmart and spent $61 for about half a months supply of food. loaded up the freezer and filled the kitchen cubboards.

when the time ends, if i cannot renew, or negotiate a lower price, i think ill return to either Toledo (really Detroit) or shreveport. for i need to be where i get the highest hourly rate, so if not there, would need to go to south florida. for if i returned to getting over $20 per hour, these expenses would be far easier. my hourly in the golden nugget went back to over $13 per hour from when it dropped to $4 per hour, when early in june i was down over $1300. now im up over $3200 in june. this is not the hourly for this month, but since jan 2017 in the nugget. i won so much in shreveport in 2016 ($33,000 in 5 months, and only $13,000 for the other 7 months elsewhere) id returned there long ago if i felt i had at least 25% chance of it continuing. But yes, increasing the income is the goal. not sure if increasing my standard initial buyin of $100 would help in this, or put me more on tilt if i lost it early, meaning id then be rebuying even much bigger, which means too big of swings. and in detroit i won $2500 plus in 3 nights of the final weekend.

controlling yourself from getting angry in the poker room so u can win easier and play your best is quite difficult with all the BS u need to put up with from the other players. primarily, watching them put empty water bottles and even worse, racks, on the floor. Unless they were to watch their mother trip over it, it will never stop. Then u get all the european guys or first timers in this casino who dont even know where the bathroom is, yet know exactly what the nuggets rules would be in certain situations, (mostly theyre wrong). and yet when u complain about improper behavior by others (for instance the guys in the Oaks club continually asking for setups) who gets banned for the game breaking up? you do, not the ones who instigated the problem.

or dealing with the bathroom attendent in the nugget on the night shift, who continously locks all the stalls except those in the further distance in the back, and having to walk thru the entire bathroom to get to it. his supervisor said once they do this when cleaning, guess its due to chemicals. so instead of those chemicals being far away in the back, when they wont endanger no one, because u wont be walking back there, they put them upfront so everyone must walk near and be around them longer while passing both ways by them?

or the guy on my table who insisted the 2 players turn their hand over (u see he blamed them both equally) which is wrong, u blame ONLY the player whose turn it is (who wont act). the guy whose not his turn should NOT turn them over, when he finally does first, and the guy who shouldve showed first folds ITS SIMPLY ENCOURAGING THE SAME GUY TO SLOW IT UP AGAIN THE NEXT TIME. only by making him turn over first and the 2nd guy not showing, will this behavior be resolved. so i got mad at the guy and tried to explain this to him (not the 2 in the hand but the one insisting both show and blaming both).

i blame Rob and the other bloggers for all the spam too, for unlike me, they just ignore it which is why it continues. for example i get the same spam comments from multiple madeup bloggers ids for certain asian gambling sites, which of course ill never post their links to. the comment is made to sound legit, but cannot be posted without being posted in its entirely which includes the spam link. now those guys they just delete it but me im more active. if possible i write the spammer or post on his profile cursing him out telling him off. if all the bloggers did this, the problem would stop.

truth is i shouldve left and went to rays house to save this $2000. but im sick of flying and lazy, not wishing to bother with it no more. $3000 in expenses when only earning $3000 (and i dont know if i truly even average $36k per year because my sample size is too small.) but its too stressful. let me reiterate, when u play poker for a living, nothing is fun about it. life is actually hell on earth when u must win to survive. people only do it because they cant get other work except for work paying even less.


Monday, June 19, 2017

Must find new housing soon

i've pretty much forgotten about this blog. used to be people would remind me to post when ive not been online in a while, but no, not this time. Theres not so much to talk about when im not on a road trip either. Good news is im doing what i should be doing (as far as regaining the money i lost since leaving Detroit). for the first night in ages, im finally over $17,000 once more. i only wish more of it wouldve came from poker, and not BJ.

that being said, im out of the hole for June now, up a little more than $1000 in poker for June. cash that is, ive never tracked tourney wins or losses. im not going to play no more either, for if i do i should probably track them too.

another reason to not play them is if they took 10 hours or more to finish (if u get to the final table). u would need to average 10x your hourly rate in winnings to make it preferable to just playing cash those 10 hours. This is why no serious poker players make thier living by playing tourneys.

the big problem is im losing my housing this Friday. u see, Vinces ex girlfriend from NJ who dealt in the Trop will be moving in with him, arriving on a plane fri night. and he couldnt convince her to let me live there too. so ill either need to leave town or find other accomodations. ive got over $300 in comps in the nugget to carry me for 4 days, and i might just move out early on tues and maybe fly out of here. there's nothing cheap in vegas thats safe, and i dont wish to spend close to $1300 and commit to 60 days for extended stay america.

i need stable housing so i can get ID in whichever state i wish instead of just louisiana and a passport too, for when 2018 comes ill no longer be allowed to fly. plus i need a long term MD too. u see, to order the documents for the big fee from the govt, i wont be doing no traveling til the documents would arrive, or id be out the fee for nothing.

never seen the nugget so busy except during the WSOP. theres like all 13 tables full with lists most of the time in here now, except for the slow part of the early mornings. but no PLO today or yesterday. for like 3 days, it went everyday.




Saturday, June 10, 2017

bankroll management in live poker

Poor bankroll management is the biggest downfall of any professional gambler. 10-20 yrs ago i stayed near broke most of the time due to leaks on video poker, playing the wrong forms of poker, and giving women money. i dont ever give women money no more, i dont play near as much video poker as i used to when Josie still read the blog, and i know better now than to waste time in $1-5 stud (it no longer even exists in most cities) and in $2-6 spread limit or even worse, low stakes fixed limit. no more of this wasting $500-600 of $3000-4000 rolls on even money or 6-5 video BJ in the same day either. im sick when i think of how much i wasted in the past 10 yrs or so, and how my skill level in NL poker would easily allow me a bankroll of well over $200,000 if i were to have been managing money properly all these yrs. wish i werent so lazy.

i think theres 2 good bankroll rules to follow. one, dont put over 5% of your roll on the table or lose over 5% in one day. ($750 in other words). next rule is, quit the table (not neccessaliry for the entire day) when u drop back 1% or more. (which is $150). the goal for $1-2 NL is to keep 100 buyins if u dont have other income, investments, govt checks or assets coming in or credit. if u do have these other sources 30-40 buyins should be enough. Bankroll management is more important than most people give it credit for, indeed much more important than ur skill level. bankroll management failures is why i dropped from a high in Reno of over $45,000 to the $13k or so i was down to last week before i had a slight comeback. good money management wouldnt let me bet 3 spots of $1250 each on BJ. 3 spots of $100 to $150 each wouldve been the correct bet on the count of plus 18. then i wouldnt dropped over $20,000 in the 3 weeks i was in Reno.

so this afternoon im in a game in the Nugget which keeps flip-flopping from tight to loose as players go broke or get up. when i left, it was loose, some new players sat down, most were quite loose or bad, including the guy in seat 9 on my immediate right. im in seat 8, since its 9 handed. theres some bluffers on the other side of my table in 3 or 5 and some bigger pots are starting to develop. im much older than many of the players and theres a good looking woman who i think lives in vegas in the seat next to me. not nearly as good looking as the black girl from ellis island who works in the restaraunt who sat by me and Vince in the BJ table at the longhorn last night, who i was shocked to find out was gay being she sure wasnt ugly like most women are who turn gay. i was curious how she knew me til she told me it was from the VBJ machine ellis isle got rid of. i thought she was a boulder street hooker sitting there as good looking as she was. another hooker who vince and i had just seen walking thru az charlies earlier was in there getting thrown out by longhorn security.

i got dealt 10-10 and made it $6 in early position, one of the loose newer guys raised from out of the  blinds to $30, and so did i and one other guy fearing i was up against a big pair. flop comes 2,3,7 and 2 hearts. so when he bets $45 on the flop, not knowing if he has one or not, or if he might have the flush draw or something else which dont beat 10-10 i call. turn comes J offsuit and he bets once more, other guy is out, i call. on the river i plan to fold if the flush comes and he bets or an overcard comes. river comes offsuit 8, he bets $130 what would u do?

i called, thinking he must surely put me on the flush draw (which i dont got) and think if he had an overpair, he would check, hoping ill bluff since in his mind, i couldnt call. so i thought if he bets, he must either have a set or be bluffing since ive showed strength staying in. turns out hes got KK and is good. i left while i still had $190 of the original $100 buyin that was once up to $467.

i will probably regret the rest of the year not trying todays $200,000 guarantee with only $200 buyin but proper bankroll management wont let me spend over $150 on any one tourney. tired of not cashing, then working 2 days to get back the buyin, but this is standard for tourneys. u need either staked to play tournies or be extremely well rolled to financially and emotionally, to not cash 15 in a row and when u do cash to min cash.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

is Uber corporate deceiving their drivers/riders?

This is not going to be the usual blog entry, but i never have enough material for my poker blog no way, and besides it should be updated more than once per week, im sure most would agree.

Yesterday i got an email from Uber offering me what seemed like the greatest deal ever. (at least for the riders, not the drivers). For $10, a line pass meaning i get unlimited rides anywhere in vegas for $5.99 (up to $25 worth otherwise priced). amounts over $25, id still pay the difference. i would get these much lower priced rides for the whole month. so i thought it would be a wonderful deal. i thought it would even include hoover dam lodge outside boulder city, because it appeared to be in the map coverage area. in fact i thought they mightve even sent it because they seen i sometimes like to take the $30-35 rides out there.

the map showed henderson, summerlin, and im sorry i cant find a link to the map to post here. (can only view in the app) but it does include boulder city. and it looks 2-3 miles outside. guess hoover dam lodge is 2-3 miles too far. but they made the map to look like it was in the coverage area. it wasnt when i tried to book it so i didnt go. of course, i didnt discover this til after id bought the pass. also my $5.99 rides have some weird 18c fee so im being charged $6.17 per ride. (took 3 so far).

used the first one to go to redrock, which would normally be like $25, so i never go of course. its really good action in redrock, and before went last night, my win rate at the redrock was over $100 per hour in the $1-2. (8 hours in Jan where i won over $900, $500 for flopping quads). i did turn my $184 in buyins ($100 plus $44 plus $40) into $500 even at the time the game broke. the bad news is when leaving the poker room, found a 5c 10c 25c 50c $1 bigsplitpoker machine where i proceeded to lose close to $200. then used uber 2 more times, buying food walmart on charleston/arville then to home.

good thing the previous night i won $1100+ mostly in the nugget then in P-ho, to recover most of the loss for June. over $225 of it was won in the $1-2 PLO in the nugget which rarely goes.

i prefer Uber to Lyft for one reason the nonstop social justice warrior BS lyft sends. (so does Ok cupid) promoting homosexuality. lyft sends it out asking people to opt in if they wish $1 of their ride to go towards one of 2 causes one of which is gay PRIDE.

but dont the drivers get paid based on the fares received, and get a portion of this? so if the guy spent 30 minutes driving me to redrock for $6 instead of $25, does this mean his share was only like $3 for 30 minutes work? if so theyre going to hate these line passes, and they wont know im getting the much lower fare and i for one would be afraid to tell them this. it just feels like theyre ripping off the drivers somehow, not letting them know this til long after the rides over how little theyll be paid for their time. would love feedback from uber drivers who see this blog. the drivers really hate uber pool and i dont use it thought its a little cheaper due to fear of a group of people getting in the back seat with me who might rob me or otherwise put me very ill at ease.

these type of fears cost me money my whole life, id be thousands richer in my roll today were i not to have spent extra on hotels 100s of times out of fear of sleeping in cheaper priced rooms. constant fear my room would be forcibly broken into while i sleep. i wish i could handle this fear like the trooper did, when he lived in desert manor.






Monday, June 5, 2017

i played a tourney, (second one this week) usually i do 2-4 every wsop but the smaller ones downtown

well i dont feel like i should be playing any more tournies on my own dime, because i dont have the bankroll to make it thru the variance before i start cashing in them, and when u do cash, its likely for a small amount than a big one. the problem with tournies is they just DO NOT PAY ENOUGH SPOTS. u see, the tournies i played in the old days online pokerstars, (not counting PLO8 tournies) were the double or nothing, 1 table, half the field gets paid. i always wished they had them with fields of 100 people instead of 10 people. and any other tournies i didnt feel were worth playing because it was too hard to reach the final table. then of course i discovered triple up sngs on ignition which pay 33% of a 9 player field, but id still prefer large fields instead of 1 table. i think somewhere i heard a live casino paid 25% of their players in an event or several events once, but i dont know where it was or if it was in vegas.

people who strictly play satellites which could pay out like 20% or more of the field, (with no intention to play the tourney itself, but to sell it) make money similar to this. so there are at least some people who agree that more people should be paid.

at least 120 of the 159 entries busted out before me in the mixed stud8 omaha8 event in the nugget. so its hard to feel i did poorly, yet i didnt get the money. after running it up from 15,000 starting stack to still being only 18,000 on level 12 break, to 54,000 by level 14 dinner break, to then 73,000 right after sitting down, within the next 45 minutes it quickly went to nothing and bustout when some powerful draws missed. blinds were 3000-6000 in omaha and bets were 3000-6000 in stud8 so its not that many chips. then it went to 4000-8000 before i went broke.

so this is why i said practically everyone but the ones with enough chips to make the final table (last prize money of $436 for 16th, etc) up to i think over $7,000 for first, would been better off chopping 40 ways of over $750 each. now i know this would never happen, but its idiotic for people who should know better to say on twitter that it wouldnt have benefitted the vast majority of the 40 who were still in. $500 profit is very good, considering only about 5% of the working class earns this on their jobs. nor do most poker players, less than 5% of the people who play for a living average $500 a day. even good $2-5 NL players only earn $35-50 per hour. as proof im right, if flush draws tourney wouldve had a flat prize pool of $750 each of the final 40 people, think how much better off he would be now. he too came within striking distance of the money, too bad we missed.

so i dont see why so many thought my statements incorrect on twitter. ive got too many rich guys with money and jobs reading it who dont play for a living and not enough grinders who depend on it to live. u always need to do whats best for ur bankroll, not to go for first only. otherwise why not just buy lottery tickets where only 1 guy wins it all?

Sunday, May 28, 2017

no progress

well, May is almost done and im still out well over $1000 for the month, making this the worst month since i started keeping records for poker only. this is why this years hourly is only $8+. and my mouth still feels funny since the work is complete, so im still taking the antibiotics. but i need a regular md, my sleeps disrupted nightly every 1-2 hours to use the restroom a very small amount. plus ive still got teeth on the left side needing work. and i dont know how long ill be in vegas would still rather be at Rays. its cheaper, and he leaves the house without wanting to wait all day. Plus he's there with me in the poker room much of the time.

the good news is theres better action in vegas than i remember on previous trips. looser games i think. too bad this year i wont be able to afford any of the tourneys, i just cant bring myself to do it when im not winning. remember unless u are staked, not more than 1% should be used to enter a tourney. even the NL horse or PLO8 events in the Nugget Grand are $250. seems higher priced than i remembered 2 yrs back when i think i last played.

i dont think ill ever have the $45,000 back, even in the next 10 yrs. all i can hope for is this never drops below $10,000 and the measly hourly rate i still earn continues enough to cover my expenses and that i can somehow improve my health.

Because Vince has his own washer and dryer in his condo, which i have keys to, i can have my laundry done here too. i think ill have to move out end of june when Lisa from NJ comes to live here.

the first week i was up close to $700 or more but it all went on dentistry. id almost turned a $2500 loss in may into much less. but now im still out a lot. had the loss once down to under $1000

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Budget dental of Las vegas, trip report

Before i went in, it quit feeling sore. But now, with 3 teeth gone on the right side, (still could use the one done in the far back on the other side) but figured it would be best to do just the one side where i could still eat from the other side of the mouth. the 3 removed was the part left from where the one broke off and fell out, and the one next to it in bad shape, plus one on the bottom i didnt realize was in this much need of fixing.

the total cost, (along with the exam xrays) was $889 and i prepaid it beforehand with a debit card. While in vegas and winning in poker between the nugget or the wynn, id built the $15,400 back to over $15,800, but with this plus medicines filled, im now in the $14,900s for the lowest point in some time.

Vince went to fill the prescription in the CVS near his house by desert inn and mohave, and when he took me back to pick it up with my ID, the power in the store plus the streetlights had gone out (i later heard it was due to some tree which fell) so i had to wait quite some time for pain medications. today when the work got finished, id felt more sore than i had before the work was done. before the work was done, much of the feeling was gone.

i was surprised they were able to do the IV sedation the same day. Vince prearranged this by not having me eat in the 8 hours before coming.

some of the articles im reading online claim its okay to eat food such as macoroni, mashed potatoes, milk, just no coffee. it said not to rinse ur mouth til 24 hours passed too. im assuming vince will be able to find salt to put in the water then? i couldnt stand having gauze in there another minute but it was needed to get rid of blood. i worry all the time about dry socket.

theres still 1 or more teeth which will need work on the other side, but the emergency ones needing fixed are taken care of. of course they did tell me i also need a deep cleaning done. the employees were mostly asian, its in an area of spring mountain filled with signs in asain.

Vince is talking on the phone with his girlfriend Lisa in atlantic city, who deals in the Trop poker room and is moving to vegas next month. i couldnt quite make out what he said but it seemed he mentioned about when they thought the other teeth would need done before they become an emergency too.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

its good to be home

Flying out of BWI into LAS yesterday evening was one of the better decisions ive made in the past month. no more huge poker losses, no more $80+ daily hotel expenses. am now paying Vince $100 per week (or $20 day). it would be nice if this option would someday exist nearby the nice rooms on the east coast. Maybe someday once Ray increases his bankroll enough to move out of Toledo, hes considering Florida.

in the 72 hours i was close to MD live, and horseshoe baltimore, i lost around $2000. before this i didnt do well in Parx, de park, or dover either. in fact, im still down over $2000 for May, which is the worst month ive ever had for as far back as i remember (poker only). But i did win $400 in the nugget poker room today, plus $241 in the Wynn. not too bad of a start. of course with rent, groceries, and $160 VBJ loss in the el c beforehand im not up too much, but its a good start.

Martingaling poker losses aint worked out so well for me this month, so i bought in only $200 in the nugget, both times, and $100 in the wynn. had the $100 in the wynn just shy of $500 shortly before Benny (from roughingthepunter) came in. but i lost 2 good pots. both of which i folded, and i begun feeling like im being bluffed, one guy was a known bluffer, one wasnt. so i left with $341, and walked to mc d by cc with benny across the street from the old riviera which closed down. i dont wish to play with this much of my roll on the table no more, since i feel so broke.

but im now at $15,600 instead of slipping below $15,000. of course theyres huge dental costs looming, but is this enough to start working with in vegas? im sure the Trooper or Flushdraw or Ray wouldve been happy starting with this, and in my 20s id been thrilled to. but now i feel broke.

the hand i feel i folded the winner i had JJ on a board of 3569 and got checkraised to $30 from $15, then $145 on the turn. id just caught him bluffing me earlier when i had QQ and the board was TT7, i checked he bet, turn 8, i check he bets, river 2, i check he bets A9 missed. i folded cause i had too many chips, didnt wish to give it back, didnt expect him to twice in a row, but would he?

then the asian reraises my $24 to $60 preflop, and flop comes aax and he bets huge and i fold QQ. so yes, i definitely need to go. u see why of course. were these bad folds? the less on the table, the more im comfortable til i recover a working bankroll.

Though theres only 1 good VBJ left outside vegas (within 40 miles) theres still 2 in NM it seems. seems motels very low priced in ALBQ. it seems tahoe biltmore is getting rid of theirs this month, the new one just got put in which shuffles every round.

if u see my twitter, u will see agsweep seems to have found me a dentist who does the lowest cost iv sedation i know of in the US here in vegas for $250 additional. i hope its in-house and not a referral which takes 2 months. i wish the teeth could be fixed cheap instead of just pulled, (ones gone actually 2) wheres theyres nothing left to fill or save. but if i run out of teeth how do i eat?

Vince is going to phone them tomorrow, explain the situation and see about getting me in there this week.

on the plane a woman who didnt wish to sit by some other girl who was in her seat, went and moved to the seat by me. then she was talking to someone before departure on the phone about some girl plus possibly herself being not let in the room she insisted be allowed in. good looking girl too, i wondered if she was a hooker going to vegas (lots of them fly in weekly). she shared her mc d food with me, and i spoke of going to play poker with $15,000. too scared to request her contact info however.

considered writing a phony blog of being in vegas under 24 hours again and flying with her out of town to start a new life with a new GF. but now too many seen me in person in vegas.


Saturday, May 13, 2017

leave the table when u no longer feel like playing, regardless if u are up or down

I think sometime this week ill return to Toledo/Detroit to Ray's house to see the dentist. if i went to shreveport, Reno or Vegas, i would have no one to accompany me to the dentist, which is required if they give u IV sedation. the reason im concerned is although theres no pain, theres a pimple which developed on my gums in the area where the decayed tooth broke off, and im reading online what the cause of this is. Flights from BWI are over $100 more than flights out of PHL, but the amtrak to toledo is a very low $75-95. im tired of high priced hotel rooms. my 2 nights here near MD live cost me $184. my last 4 nights in Dover Downs, (due to the $29 special) only cost me $140 total. my nights in wilmington cost me like $80 per nite. my nights by Parx cost me like $75 per night. plus i spent $80 once on uber in the past 10 days, $89 once, $171 once, and $77 once. Ever since i left NJ, my expenses went up, but theres some nice casinos here if theyd ever have cheaper living options nearby.

finally won today too. ($200 buyin, in the $1-2 NL in MD live about 2am. eventually left about 6.30 this morning with $445). i had it up to $642 once, then caught myself doing 2 dumb things. so i figured i better get out of there before i self destructed. i did find $20 in free play id heard of once in an email, but no room offers. so i ran it thru, cashing out $24. i'm still out over $600 for the month of May in POKER, meaning for just poker, it will be my worst month in the last couple years. no month last year was at a loss except for the $447 in june. and dont forget last aprils $9000 win.

i tried to steal a pot with 69 of clubs on a flop of 478 with 2 spades and 1 club. it didnt work. turn was another 4 so now i picked up a flush draw to go with the straight draw, which made me pay $50 more to see the river. then i missed totally. he showed 79, thinking he bluffed, but he didnt. river was A of spade, completing a possible flush, which he didnt have. he was definitely the wrong player to check raise to $65 from $10 on the flop. then i let the guy on my immediate right, (who i suspected of knowing who i was) bluff reraise his straddle to $60 preflop with 72 offsuit. flop comes 10 7 8 and i folded my 55. he did have me beat, but i shouldve shoved allin preflop over the $60. he was definitely deep enough to fold for over $400 more.

if i were to have stayed in the dover area, id be getting $168 next fri for hours earned. eventually theyll send a mailer to rays address, with $300 slot play. i'm glad hes got a car again, with excellent gas mileage he says. plus he says hes won over $900 in the past 2 weeks.

i wish something could be done regarding the collusion that goes on in smaller poker rooms, which the staff obviously dont care about since the colluders usually tip big off their ill gotten gains so they will be permitted to continue. i seen 2 guys checking it down, once with 9922 on the board, theyre last to act, with a nine in their hand, and simply check because theyre opponent is a woman whose a reg too. then these other guys claim they always check it down, asain guy with the rooms most hours reg, he has top set, and his opponent in seat 10 has the nut straight to his set of 10s . of course, against me they take my money. poker shouldnt be no friends. every man out for blood, no matter who its against.


Sunday, May 7, 2017

the path of least resistance

At one point since leaving Detroit for Atlantic city (never was intended to be my final destination by the way) i had $21,500 while at the high water mark. This was MORE than the $20,970 i had before i bought my plane ticket that morning. Since then ive been dropping steadily and if u look at my phone graphs, quite a bit has been on live poker, most of it in fact, (the $1500 on the 3 card poker machine in the Trop the other day notwithstanding) plus about $500 more on some regular slot machines, mostly gemtiles in the Borgata. Parx got rid of their old shufflemaster VBJ machines, not even the bad kind remain. so ive not lost one penny on BJ or slots here in Parx. Then well over $1000 got used on motels, hotels, trains, planes and Ubers in the past 3 weeks too. its been quite a while since i bought the plane tix.

What this all means is im at the end of my rope with no more tolerance for losing any money. I'm too old to start over from scratch with a roll of $2 or $3 thousand dollars. and having tasted big money on $45,000 not more than 3 months prior, i feel tremendously broke everyday (stressed out by it and feel i cant spend a dime, no matter how much its badly needed and will help in the long run). and whats worse, no one can relate to me over it, except maybe Ray, who would also never spend a dime on things he needed. Not only losing, i have no tolerance for policies which annoy me, inconsiderate things other do, people who dont care, people with insincerity who fake they care when only making conversation, microwaves not turning in circles (worry its not cooking fully and ill die of food poisining) fridges which freeze the milk, inability to get others to see my point mostly cause theyre too dumb to and dont care, and not having any friends around here to talk things over with while on the tables. (people who genuinely wish to see me win and improve and play my best-not the kind who wish to take my money).

and being in a bad mood (and worried as to how ill survive paying $75 per night for a long term place to live if i dont wish to waste more money on traveling) i dont really care WHO i get the money from, as long as i get it. whether the money comes from winning it from the other players, or out of the dealers and the cocktail waitresses tips (fuck them anyway since theyre union and like to flaunt in my face their $20,000 jewelry how rich they are) or whether i find it off someones wallet in the bathroom, or out in the parking lot of walmart asking for change. wasnt i told to stay in 1 place and not do no more traveling though im sure theyres many places id be much better off in and living much cheaper with steadier housing. i couldve tooken the $125 spirit flight into vegas tonight, but if i checked out of my room at 11, and the flight dont go til 7pm, and i cant bring my suitcase inside the casino, what was i supposed to do with my luggage in the meanwhile?

i feel like a lot of the players disrespect me (either because of reading the blog--or because since im losing and im not one of the regulars theyre used to seeing--feel im a complete idiot.) the glasses im wearing tend to make others feel this way. i'll make a preflop raise with a big hand and get called in 4-5 places. with hands most wouldnt call most people with. then they always end up hitting the hand no matter how far theyre behind like the previous night in the $2-5 game with KQ off preflop vs AQ suited for $105 left, and with 25 offsuit in the $1-2 then hit trip 5's on the flop into my overpair. I dont see the cliques here i seen in the Trop, but i can recognize thier regulars (and harrahs regulars) theyve been coming there everyday for 20 yrs. i dont recognize the regulars here.

i still wouldve liked to play the $6-12 hilow stud8 and omaha game, but ive held off on the time charge. at least with the time charge in the PLO last night they got out closer to 12 hands per down than 4. the good news is u dont have to call $5 to bring it in, checking the $2 in ur BB works if no straddle or raise. the min buy is only $100 too, so i feel the money goes faster. the lesbian girl in the game had over $3000 in front of her last night.

---more to say later--suffice it to say, just left Parx (where im now banned) and will talk about it later. right now im packing bags to catch the Uber to PHL airport. im soaked its pouring rain, and a long walk thru a huge parking lot and 2 streets to get home. where im going, who can say? truth be told, i need a long vacation away from gambling. i dont need to be forced to win everyday to survive. no one here can relate to how it feels.

---2 days later-- ended up taking the Uber to Newark DE. took me a room not far from DE park. checked in slept all day, then sat in the $1-2 PLO and started losing. eventually (Zin?) from TX sat in, started raising every pot asking how much is the max, dropped about $1000, a lot of which i won so eventually left the casino with a small profit instead of a big loss of $900. some of it was won on the VBJ, its not countable but its now standing on soft 17. guy was mexican living in brownsville with his friends. some of the dealers here know somehow of my blog.

On the hand at Parx which got me banned when the asian guy slowrolled me, flop was 9h TKd i bring it in preflop for $10 with JQd so ive got the nut str8 with the royal open ended redraw. with my luck (being out so much this week and month) i decide not to slow play so i bet $35 on the flop. he bets $80 so i just shove. he thinks awhile then calls. he is loose. board goes runner runner TK for 2 running pair. he looks forever then when the dealers getting ready to ship me the pot finally shows K9 for boat on the river. this is the pot of the night, well over $900, id be $200 up instead of another $700 down. close to 2 weeks rent. at $75-80 per night, i can only afford to live 200 more days without income. i used to be able to prepay 2-3 yrs if i needed to. and when living with a higher standard (by this i mean better hotels and uber over city buses) i cant really go back to the old lifestyle of poverty. not at my age. i feel i spend too much to live, its the cause of lots of stress. if i win $100 a day, i never got any better off. just hold my own is all. if i lose $100 per day i deteriorate rapidly. out well over $1000 for May and my biggest loss in 2016 was $447 in June.

i rose up to quit, and tossed the chips across the table so hard they intermingled with his and another players, so i got banned for 48 hours. i cant afford to live by Parx without a car, (to either sleep in which could easily be done here or close by where its safe) or to get to the lower cost motels down the road. i felt so sick when i lost. i was totally counting on it as hard as the flop hit me and as huge the pot was and overdue i was for the big score. its been like this the whole week and i finally snapped.

i was tired of living in this hotel anyway but everyday instead of spending money to relocate, plus time, its SOO easy to just renew the room, though i couldnt afford it longterm. i need a longterm residence so i just do it. the easy way. moving around isnt easy. plus i didnt know where to go. im heading south, so i should be in Baltimore soon this week. i feel i should go to florida or vegas or shreveport or reno or detroit or stl. i no longer get free play in trop, they cut off the $50 3 times per week. no idea why since i blew the $1500.

now today, i did win $300 in DE park and left early. bought some books up the street for 90% off, some food, then went to my room. played mostly $1-2 PLO. then moved to holdem when up $300, which was the nittiest game ever. not the PL0, the holdem.

--yesterday, now---. today i won $103, $53 in the game only due to the final 2 pots, and turned my $50 slot dollars from playing u get free for 8 hours into $50.49. but the whole $103 went for 2 uber fares, and my $83 hotel. im going to leave once i sleep first.