Tuesday, August 30, 2011

cant sleep

dont know why i cant sleep i only had 4 hours this morning. too tired to play poker so i went to my room and now i cant sleep. playing songs by various artists i liked as a kid, including Johnny cash, best musician of all time and a man who really loved his country. wish i had a good woman to sit and talk to to help me fall asleep. no one nowdays appreciates good music anymore, and i was wrong to not visit people close to me who wanted me to come see them, no wonder i have no woman in my life. she was right. i do put gambling over everything else thats important in life because im afraid that without devoting all my time to it, i wont be able to survive and ill be back to when i was near broke years ago. and ive learned a lot about VBJ this month. enough to really scare me, for if im not hardly earning a dime even with the promo think of how much id be down WITHOUT The promo. yeah enough for me to not feel much like ever playing it anymore once this promo ends. thank God i didnt lose on it this week and i sure hope the drawing goes well. and all of sept if im not traveling and if i am ill be concentrating on just poker. for id better.

and the selection of games on 5dimes is awful way less than 1000 players but ive still got my $50 deposit up to over $122 if i can withdraw it when im ready. man i miss being able to play online from home, recommendations of sites from rakewell vook etc and other regs would sure be appreciated.

and it really bothers me pokerdogg and zin havent joined me on facebook to make talking really easy. same way it bothers me a certain girl im in love with i wont discuss here and will delete all comments discussing her as promised dont have any interests in joining them sites. she is way too private and wants me to be too and insists i shouldnt say on here how much money i have. and how many think shes right? its really none of anyones business.

and the US dont do enough to honor its military how can i best show support for our military and make sure they have a good life for their service? and its a terrible shame they wont have prayers offered at the 9-11 memorial this year cause mayor bloomberg banned any religious celebrations. and now i really must sleep. no ones awake but me anyway. too quiet here. and i wish at times i had a normal place to live, i dont want to lose my freedom to travel and be forced to pay $20 daily in commutes, but damn i wish i had food in my room and too lazy and tired to leave the room. ate both salads i had in the fridge when i got back.

9 comments:

  1. "i shouldnt say on here how much money i have. and how many think shes right? its really none of anyones business."

    if its none of our business why do you keep telling us??

    "and the US dont do enough to honor its military how can i best show support for our military and make sure they have a good life for their service?"

    if you see someone wearing a military hat with a ship's name or unit or "vietnam veteran" etc.on it you could say thank you to them. or if you see them sitting at the bar you could put down 10 dollars and say "your next drink is on me". also there is often a person standing outside harrah's (near the mcdonald's) collecting money for veterans. how much have you given him in the last month?

    "and i wish at times i had a normal place to live"

    why can you so easily throw away three month's rent on a VBJ machine but you wno't spend the money on an apartment??

    if you put less effort into wishing things were better and more things into actually TRYING to make things better what do you think will happen?

    ill keep asking these questions until you answer them.

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  2. Johnny Cash one of the greatest. Also if the mayor of NY isn't allowing prayer at the memorial he's a PC POS.

    I'll add a few things about my short visit with u in case I don't do a trip report. You are much better off than u were when I saw you a year ago. Don't sell yourself short. You've made alot of improvements and can do anything if u set your mind to it.

    Can't comment much on your poker play but u took getting your aces cracked well. That guy was an idiot and lost alot of money that night with bad play. One bit of criticism, a few times you pitched your cards back to the dealer a bit hard. Maybe out of boredom but it makes u look a bit bad.

    VBJ advice-Dont. A business won't put in a machine they lose money on. Even a 102% return isn't a deal. Sounds like free rooms at that place isn't much of a deal anyway.

    I'll be back Oct 18 so I'll get ahold of u and should have time to play a bit of poker. Run good till then. BTW thanks for the offer for dinner at Magnolias.

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  3. Tony: I am going to set up a powerball draw with 5 different sequences of the same numbers for all the Wednesdays and Saturdays in September and make you the same deal now that I did before. If the ticket hits the jackpot I will split it with you. Last time I did this I used a variation of your Sevencard2003 numbers and had posted the exact contents of the powerball ticket online in whichever forum. I will only post the numbers after the fact this time so you are going to have to trust me. I don't want a million of your readers buying the same powerball numbers for September that I am about to. I will post a pic of the ticket on my thread at AVP afterwards too. If this ticket hits I will buy a silver 1969 280se convertible that you and eye can cruise up and down the strip with the top down at night cuz that would be CLASSIC....

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  4. Someone sounds depressed. Just don't be dumb and start sending those "I'm going to kill myself" texts like you have done before.

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  5. A lot of introspection here. As Kierkegaard wrote, "The unexamined life is not worth living.". Keep it up and good luck in all your choices.

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  6. Sup Tony, have you tried playing on bodog, pretty steady traffic and games are soft if patient, stick to abc poker and you will be fine, force the game and your on your own. And Tony i hope you really stay off the VBJ machines, you or no one will ever be a winner no matter how good the promo sounds.

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  7. Don't think I've ever heard you so down. I sure am glad to see that you now accept the fact that the VBJ games are a losing proposition, whenever you get the urge to play the damn things stop a minute and think about your recent experience.

    You could use a little variety in your life-something away from the casinos. There are sure a lot of other things to keep you entertained and make your life a little more interesting-especially in Vegas.

    Spending your nights alone in a different hotel 2 or 3 times a week has got to wear on you. Look around a little and try to make some friends that are seperate from poker to help avoid the boredom.

    I wish I could give you some advice about where to meet people outside the casinos, maybe some of the guys that live there in town can give you some suggestions about that.

    You make your money playing poker, you appear to be pretty good at it and obviously make enough to support yourself.

    When you get tired of it, don't turn to the machines, try to find something else to do. That's where friends come in, find a few and spend some time going to a movie or something else that you enjoy.

    If you don't get away from it once in a while, you'll go nuts just like the rest of us who have 9-5 gigs but need to get away from it once in a while.

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  8. Well, Tony, I just got back from the Lucky Club. It's 11pm Tuesday night. I didn't get your post about being out of there till just now, but I saw all the signs everywhere about the $7777 drawing and your VBJ machine (no one was playing it). I had never even heard of the Lucky Club till all your posts so I figured I should check it out. It's been there for two years where the old Speedway was at Cheyenne and I-15.

    Also...."the girl I'm in love with who I never talk about and will delete any posts about her"? You're talking about her right now!

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  9. "sevencard2003 saids..."...and ive learned a lot about VBJ this month. enough to really scare me, for if im not hardly earning a dime even with the promo think of how much id be down WITHOUT The promo. yeah enough for me to not feel much like ever playing it anymore once this promo ends...

    I don't think this is going to happen. I give 10 to 1 odds you will be playing BJ/VBJ/VP within the next 3 months.

    "sevencard2003 saids..."...and it really bothers me pokerdogg and zin havent joined me on facebook to make talking really easy...

    Tony, I rarely go on facebook. Besides, if I join you on facebook, then you and everyone else that look at your facebook page will know my personal information. Not going to happen.

    "sevencard2003 saids..."...but i did my duty as a journalist to benefit all of mankind...

    Are you sure the few people that came down to the lucky club to play the machine, represents all of mankind? I guess the other 6.8 billion people doesn't count. Isn't the duty of a journalist to report facts, not fiction?

    "sevencard2003 saids..."...and every single AP in vegas thinks it is good enough to come and play it.

    Ok, this is getting a bit closer to the truth, but even this statement is hard to believe. Do you think the lucky club is big enough to accommodate every single AP in vegas?

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