dont know why i cant sleep i only had 4 hours this morning. too tired to play poker so i went to my room and now i cant sleep. playing songs by various artists i liked as a kid, including Johnny cash, best musician of all time and a man who really loved his country. wish i had a good woman to sit and talk to to help me fall asleep. no one nowdays appreciates good music anymore, and i was wrong to not visit people close to me who wanted me to come see them, no wonder i have no woman in my life. she was right. i do put gambling over everything else thats important in life because im afraid that without devoting all my time to it, i wont be able to survive and ill be back to when i was near broke years ago. and ive learned a lot about VBJ this month. enough to really scare me, for if im not hardly earning a dime even with the promo think of how much id be down WITHOUT The promo. yeah enough for me to not feel much like ever playing it anymore once this promo ends. thank God i didnt lose on it this week and i sure hope the drawing goes well. and all of sept if im not traveling and if i am ill be concentrating on just poker. for id better.
and the selection of games on 5dimes is awful way less than 1000 players but ive still got my $50 deposit up to over $122 if i can withdraw it when im ready. man i miss being able to play online from home, recommendations of sites from rakewell vook etc and other regs would sure be appreciated.
and it really bothers me pokerdogg and zin havent joined me on facebook to make talking really easy. same way it bothers me a certain girl im in love with i wont discuss here and will delete all comments discussing her as promised dont have any interests in joining them sites. she is way too private and wants me to be too and insists i shouldnt say on here how much money i have. and how many think shes right? its really none of anyones business.
and the US dont do enough to honor its military how can i best show support for our military and make sure they have a good life for their service? and its a terrible shame they wont have prayers offered at the 9-11 memorial this year cause mayor bloomberg banned any religious celebrations. and now i really must sleep. no ones awake but me anyway. too quiet here. and i wish at times i had a normal place to live, i dont want to lose my freedom to travel and be forced to pay $20 daily in commutes, but damn i wish i had food in my room and too lazy and tired to leave the room. ate both salads i had in the fridge when i got back.