I feel bad about getting mad at those whove tried to help, one friend in particular, simply due to something i dont think would be a good idea to discuss here, all because i lost the $1100 on the VBJ the other day and had too much cash on me. cannot go into the details as to why. let's just say ive forgiven all involved. the blame only resides with me. Also i am in the process of moving, not sure exactly where to, might live out of vegas or in casinos for awhile, but ill make sure im in a better location needing less cabs and that far less people will have any idea of where it is this time. Need to get away from the stress, dont want to lose all the money back. already last night i was down to $4600 of the $6300 i briefly had for a few hours.
and i guess it might be working, for heres some good news. last night won $285 in the $1-3 NL game. got lucky on a couple allins. i was in the game for $100, lost it, rebought $196 (all the remaining cash i had on me) and eventually at one point had it up to about $635. and still managed to leave with $580. i even considered leaving sooner being the game was down to the last 4-5 people and several had me covered and almost covered, and thats not my strengths.
felt good meeting up with tatude last night and talking to him about various things going on i refuse to talk about here that have been bothering me. After talking to him i feel better, and more inclined to sees ways in which i was either wrong, or too harsh. we talked about 30 minutes, he got out of bed and came downstairs.
Talking to someone else earlier in the day helped me avoid making a different rash decision id have lived to maybe regret. Now i have additional time to try and do what is best. Its someone whose friendship i really value. also i need to be working on getting my sleep hours fixed too. i am sleeping sometimes 2 6 hour or 4 hour shifts, and thats never a good idea.
and im still needing to replace a bike, but being unsure of plans, and hating to put out so much money makes me delay it, im too focused on the daily grind of trying to grow the roll. lets just say my roll is so much better off than the $2000 i had a month or so ago, i should be happy, and i shouldnt be stressing out the one person who means the most to me in life.