although for $64000 in coin in, im only out $200-300 on the VBJ here in laughlin, (right around what i should be IF it was shuffling every hand, which it isnt) the $500 to $1000 or thereabouts up and down every day is making me very emotional, i get mad at everyone, thank God theres so few people around, such as tonight, there seemed to be less than 15 people in the entire casino and no one ever came around my VBJ machine to watch or play, not even the one next to it either. very peaceful here playing the machines compared to circus or slotsoffun. It's too stressful and mentally hard to handle, especially without the love and emotional support of claudia and Josie and Britni to turn to everyday. ive still got $4000 of the $4400 i came with. But i went from being down $600-700 at one point tonight to finally quitting when ahead $6 after about 3-4 hours. This is way too stressful for me, and will end up killing me. I would be so much easier to get along with, and a lot nicer person, if i had a stable source of adequate income, and didnt have to gamble to survive. most of the gambling i must do to survive is at negative EV games, which makes it doubly stressful.
if i did remain here in laughlin, surely that much in coin thru would be enough to extend my free room another week when the host comes in tuesday morning when my room expires today.
lock does NOT have as many DON sngs going as bovada or merge, thats the bad news, also lower stakes, but the nice thing is being able to play PLO8 double or nothing sngs also, although its NEVER going at the $25 level except holdem. mostly $2 and $5 for that game. I am not even sure if i am playing the PLO8 double or nothing ones correctly with no experience for that.
started with $35 from $30 i sent vook, and what i will have left depends a large part on the $25 don holdem one im in the middle of now. Found out from Vook that sngs do not have chat on lock, was why i couldnt chat. he says ill be better off.
am getting quite tired of the lack of games here in laughlin at the golden nugget. business there has really died off, the entire day today, they never ever started a cash game, and its been happening a lot, forcing me to either ride a bus to the riverside or just stick to the VBJ or play online in my room. another reason why this isnt the best option for me, even though i can live cheap here.
nice to have just found out chat is working on lock. i went and joined a cash game table and tested it out by typing, Obama lied, Our seals died. Go vote Romney in the chat box, and sure enough it printed out the message. what a relief. Lock is on the cake network, i think i got banned at cake, and i thought that might of had something to do with me not being able to chat.
why do people assume that others vote based on their economic self interest? this is the same err Mitt was guilty of when he made that comment he shouldnt have made about the 47%. When u go to vote, u should care about the interests and whats best for the country as a whole, not what is best for u personally. i think John Kennedy summed it up best, "ask not what ur country can do for u, but what u can do for ur country." I dont care anything about health care, and i actually think the Obamacare law is going to end up denying a lot of seniors healthcare, and considering how much older i am than almost all the readers, i think about things like that.
I'm far more worried about the debt, jobs, domestic energy, not being dependent on mideast oil so much, the safety and security of Israel and how we treat the Jewish people. the type of people the president appoints to run things, such as attorney general etc, and the type of people he will appoint to the supreme court. What i care about is how he feels about America in relation to other countries in the world, does he want to build it up or tear it down? and i care about how he treats our military and our veterans, and do u know the military is overwhelmingly voting against him? How can anyone listen to the interviews done by the dad of the seal who died in Libya and how he blasted president Obama, and the other news article ill post a link to here, and still not be filled with revulsion toward obama and his administration?
also, the ambassador to Libya was gay, if u dont believe me google it and find out, and it certainly doesnt affect my feelings any about the way he was left to die during a 7 hour fight, that the president went to sleep during the middle of after refusing to send fight, and firing and arresting a general who did want to help his men.