ok to start with in case herbie or anyone else wants to know, yes i finally got around to checking out the video craps machine also, and i was right about it not being a better game. someone told me before it was because u can get points on the odds bet without any house edge at binions. thats true, but u still have to make a pass or dont pass bet with odds of about 1.5% in favor of the house. on the VBJ, odds in favor of the house only about 0.3 to 0.4%. (if u play the hands correctly, many dont). at binions u must bet $20 on the craps machine for a point too, and VBJ only $8 coin in. so i thought id see the machine here. now here its still the same comp rate for coin in, doesnt matter if its VBJ or craps. but the max odds is only double odds, so if u take full odds everytime u are still losing 1.5% on 1/3rd of the money wagered and nothing on the other 2/3rd so maybe u are losing 0.5% instead of 1.5% IF the passline and odds bet are the ONLY bets ur making, most people make many bets at craps. also craps is terribly slow, so i still think the VBJ has to be better payback than the craps.
But at least no one can now say i havent looked at it to see if theres a way it could be beaten with comps.
also i must congratulate the hotel on its good service, the heater is now working fine in the room totally silent of the loud racket the other day and my room is no longer cold. feels good in here.
used the last buffet voucher i had today, hope the same guy is working tonight and gives me more. the buffet here really isnt much, but i eat anything. also im only eating once a day. not just out of poverty, but also out of habit a lot over the years when i was poor and didnt have a home fridge with food in it.
really bothers me i cant just sit in my room til saturday and grind out a few hundred in profits online, but they just have too low of stakes, too good of players on lock and i just dont have the money to risk dividing up my roll in this way. am back to $4 online and i only sent vook $17 the other day to deposit because i was too broke to deposit more, and now with $1200 im much more broke now.
played earlier for only about 45 minutes, never made a bet over $6, somehow managed to quit $20 ahead, and decided to return to the room. as little as i have and as poorly as ive done lately that seems like a good win. i could survive on that if i had a free room daily, but i think i only played long enough for like $1 in comps.
wish one friend in vegas would come and let me stay with them free but the only one i trust is vince and he cant, but if anyone can pay my rent to get me into an apt would be nice, and also a bike or a bus pass, i could give them my word id only play poker but with only $1200 i dont know what i could possibly afford to play, unless it was $2-6 spread at texas, riviera if it still goes, or $1-5 stud mornings at sams town. i dont know if thats enough to play $4-8 stud8 at suncoast, i doubt it. surely aint enough for NL, thats only $12 buyins, maybe enough if i was playing hooters with $50 during 2-7pm promo. but i dont really want to play NL with that little. what i do need is a stake. a rather large size stake or loan of about $2000 or more, and also money for housing included in it so i wouldnt have to use the stake for a room.
i can still get up to 6 free nights a month every 2 weeks in vegas. (2 3 days segments). the other 25 days id be homeless each month. now its hard to see how i can come back to vegas, my rooms here will soon dry up as my money dwindles and my bets become so small i earn very little comps. am barely over $1200 and cannot access all that, have to leave enough in the bank to function, and only have $458 of that in cash. the rest is in the bank or a little bit remaining on a walmart debitcard. so unless i had a free place to live, or someone else paid the rent, i cant go to vegas. also would need a stake if i was going to play $1-2.
its been many years since ive been this broke, havent slept outdoors in about 10 yrs either. am too old to be this broke. wish Jason wouldnt have told me. i couldve stayed in laughlin with the $2800 i left with and played $2-6 but thats not beatable either because of the way laughlin does thier $2 jackpot drop on $20. was very surprised to hear thats NOT how the riv takes their drop, i thought all places with a $2 jackpot drop did it that way. i wonder if others dont either?
theres a lot of comments i should address, but it would take so many hours i dont think ill address them all, and if i do it will be a ways into the future.
yeah i was told all my life as a child when the public schools wanted me to have psychological counseling and my mom moved me to private schools cause she was worried about a social worker taking me away from her due to social problems i was having in the public schools mom said that if the counselor isnt a Christian they will counsel u to turn away from Jesus Christ and his teachings, and blame the Bible for ur problems. so she was afraid of counselors, she thought they would consider her Christian beliefs the reason i had emotional problems, and would try and talk me out of believing the Bible is true. so this worried me about lightning so i was surprised and im glad lightning is a Christian, i was so afraid of him last year when i found out he was a counselor and it had a huge effect in why i didnt want to meet him at the train and wasted all that money on cabs. id forgot that he ever sent me the pants. anyway i never heard from Rachel, i doubt they would want to counsel me again. But id gladly try to go somewhere if the incentive was right, such as being given the large sum of money id need for housing and an adequate poker stake, maybe even on lock so i could sit at home, but i cant have a $150-200 a week rent over my head, the most i could afford is like $60 a week.
renting a room in a rooming house is one thing, when only u go to ur room and u lock the door and share a bathroom down the hall. being in someones house scares me, where rooms are normal bedrooms without locks and others around constantly. i am so used to total privacy.
michele bachmanns husband ran a counseling service, and i know she is a good person and can be trusted, is one of few people in congress such as allen west willing to speak the truth. alot of people troubled about their homosexuality and wanting to talk to someone who wanted to come to grips with their beliefs about it being sinful and wanting to somehow get out of it and lead a normal life, went to her husband for help, and a lot of them got it and are now married to a woman living normal lives. its such a lie to say people are born that way. is a child molestor born a child molester? is a rapist born a rapist? is a thief born a thief? is a cheater born a cheater? people who are bisexual, they arent making a conscious choice who they choose to have sex with on any given event same as a gay person makes a conscience choice?
its just hard finding a good counselor is all, dont want to give up poker, just want to learn to manage my bankroll and not be in a rush to get even. got to learn how to accept a small loss and quit, and to not play games with poor paybacks. a lot of what i lost this summer was on much worse paybacks, of say 97-98%, if i had that money back the more recent losses i couldve had enough to ride them out.
the money i lost on anything under 98% was 100% stupid and i feel like such as idiot everytime i had a big loss on like the BJ machine at wynn for example, or the VP at the hardrock, or at harrahs properties. i certainly did waste a lot of money foolishly. and im paying for it severly now. it was a terrible sin in the eyes of almighty God, just as much so as gay sex. And i guess thats why ive been so hard on gay sex, i feel i do so many other sins, i worry i wont go up when the rapture takes place and if u watch dr jack van impe (mom and grandmas favorite pastor) its coming very soon, and mom tells me all the time she is worried my heart isnt right with God, even though she knows i believe in him unlike the vast majority of sinners. She isnt sure theologically if all Christians are really going up, or just those who arent living in sin. so i feel like if i can prove to God i accept the Bible as truth and believe he created us and what he says in his word is sin is still a sin, maybe he will understand my emotional disability he created me with and not be as hard on me as i struggle to do the right things and live for him. its not that i care about homosexuality any, the issue really dont affect me personally at all if gays marry or not. but it does really bother me some because i feel that gays or gay rights supporters dont believe in the first amendment or free speech due to the laws they have passed on "hate speech" used to silence pastors who say its sin. i worry about the lawsuits they are forcing on religious believers who just want to be left alone, and not be forced to take part in it, such as letting it happen in their church or property or business etc. all of whom are now getting sued, and all the chaplains being fired in the military for not wanting to marry gays and counsel them its ok when they believe that NO its not ok becuase thats what the bible says.
people who are in the minority belief (christains nowdays--especially in the middle east) should have their religious beliefs protected at all cost, no matter what their religion, and that includes Jews, who get persecuted alot around the world. God has a real love for the Jewish people and the state of israel, Romney understood this, obama doesnt. he is on the other side. Romney too, unlike obama, believes in protecting religious freedom and not being forced to go against what u believe just because the govt says to do it.
and i already knew about all them succession petions, and signed them, but of course the vast majority of the citizens would have to agree, so i highly doubt it would ever get passed in any state. but if it ever did, they would certainly have the right to do so, especially texas. but the citizens of tx wouldnt agree, theres too many there who will say no.