Saturday, November 3, 2012


am in my room playing online, am lucky to be back to $2700. my balance on lock is up to $142 now, but of course that will change as my $25 sng will be starting up soon.

would like to talk about women and how hard it is to meet someone who really cares.

there is a site i like to go to that used to be called myyearbook. its similar to the website called which i also like. myyearbook is now called which is a recent name change. anyway i seen a woman whose actually in laughlin, but i at first thought maybe its one of those fake profiles u often see on these type of sites, any guy who ever joined any similar site will know what i mean. so since she was in laughlin, and also on secret admirer had checked yes on my picture, i decided to write and offer to meet since she showed up as a match. its very hard on me to no longer have anyone to hug me kiss me and tell me how much they enjoy being with me. one of the reasons i thought the profile might be fake like some of them are, is it looked like a picture of a model instead of a real person and usually all the fake ones use the nicest photos.

so i wrote this letter, intending to let her know i wasnt someone just passing thru, but a "local" who spends more than just a day or two here. which is why i mentioned that i had a room at the river palms. i dont see one damn thing wrong with mentioning where i stay.


if this profile is for real and u are in laughlin come find me on the video BJ machine at the river palms. have a free room for 2 weeks. add me cause its not letting me add u

-----end of message

and the reason it wouldnt let me add her is because it said she only accepts friends requests from people she knows so i had to know her email address to verify i knew her.

now after sending such an innocent message--i got this message back. notice her last name is mexican, and im wondering if she misunderstood me because she dont know english too well, theres also a sentence in bad english in her profile which makes me feel this way.

Do you think I am a lay cheap lady who is so in aces to find a man to come stay with you in an hotel that sounds insult to me so I don't think I am the type of biteches you looking for on here. Have a nice day
---end of message

notice how bad her command is of the english language here, no idea what "in aces" means, and how its a total misunderstanding of what i said. certainly never said to come stay in my room, nor would i ever ever trust a woman i didnt know enough to be willing to let her know what the number of my room was.

so yes i was very much offended and quite insulted by what she wrote back. so then i sent these 2 messages, and i never heard from her back, and doubt i will, although it does show the message was read instead of showing as unread like some are.

it makes me wonder, are there actually men writing women on these sites who WOULD expect a woman to come to their room if they didnt know her? i find this hard to believe, and therefore i get quite and feel a woman is really stupid if she is really thinking thats what i want. id be way too scared of getting setup and robbed to let a woman in my room, and its one reason i never have a girl around me. i dont trust anyone.

and here are my last 2 messages i wrote after i was very angry by her first message that ive heard no reply from--


where else am i supposed to meet u? ive not left the casino, i spend all my time inside it testing out a system to win money since coming here. isnt meeting in the casino easier than meeting somewhere else? theres really NOTHING else in this little town but casinos u know. and i have no idea what u mean by "in aces". u matched with me on here, i have no idea why u selected me earlier as a match if u wasnt interested in meeting me, or where the hell i was supposed to meet u at other than the casino. its NOT like this is a town with other places to meet in. u seem to have a BIG prejudice against meeting in casinos.

and for what its worth, i certainly wouldnt invite u to my room or let u find out the number unless i got to know u really well to be sure i could trust u not to cause me any harm. i always must worry about my safety at all times, too easy to get setup and robbed. also as a Christian i dont believe in casual sex and i find ur use of vulgar language rather offensive. its not right to have sex unless u are in love with someone and are willing to commit to them and ONLY them.

i cannot understand why u would think id want u to come to my room just because i am staying at the casino for a couple weeks and told u i was. of course im going to tell u where im staying, otherwise u might think im not local and too far away for u. u seem to be very quick to think evil of people and thats a big sin, its wrong to judge others.

--message 2

8:51am Nov 2

2nd message, read the OTHER message first. after looking at ur profile in greater detail, it seems ur understanding of the English language is rather limited, and it might be why u misunderstood me so badly. what u said to me implying i wanted sex when i dont even know u was very offensive and insulting, and u owe me an apology bigtime. i actually think if u wouldve taken the time to be a real friend and got to know me, ud have found us to be quite alike in what we think and believe. ur profile says u are looking for true love, (me too) since i believe in only having one woman, and it says u are conservative, which is very good, i cannot stand obama and am doing everything i can to get Romney elected because of how obama treats our military. also it says u dont smoke or drink, i hate both and wouldnt ever do either. the only reason i wanted to know at first if u were sincere was the photo of u dont look real, it looks like a picture of a model, and i thought maybe this was one of the numerous fake profiles on these sites, so i wanted to let u know how to find me and where in laughlin to meet me at, so id know for sure u are a real person and serious about wanting to meet someone. u really misjudged me something terrible and hurt my feelings. i have aspergers and it makes meeting new friends and communicating very difficult for me and i see the world differently than most people. what im saying though, is u seem to be looking for the same type of thing i am, something thats real and lasting. Im very hypersensitive because i play poker and Blackjack to make money, and i feel often judged and condemned for it, and when someone wants me to leave the casino to meet them, i feel like they cant really accept me. am so sorry u wont get to know me as a friend, i could really use a friend here. its not really been a good week.

end of message 2---

now here is the profile of this woman--

notice how bad her english is--"and hopefully something attach to get along." someone attach? that would mean she wants a guy whose already married. although i dont think she means that.

and now we all see how messed up i am and how hard it is for me to meet women. i have no idea in the least what i am saying wrong, then i get upset and angry for being misunderstood, and once i am angry i no longer care if i offend her or not because i feel so insulted and humiliated. then i usually end up getting blocked. this is why i need good women friends to give me advice and to help find me women to meet.


  1. "am doing everything i can to get Romney elected because of how obama treats our military"

    You mean, everything except actually VOTING right?

    1. i know im registered somewhere in the past, but i have no idea if its still in KS or which precinct in vegas it would be in.

  2. lol. tony, when your first message to a girl is "i'm staying at a hotel for two weeks. come meet me at the video blackjack" she's going to think you're looking for a hooker.

    and those follow-up messages are insane. NO girl in the world would respond to you after reading that.

    here's how your message should have looked:

    "Good morning! I'm new to town and I don't know anyone here. I've been browsing this website hoping to meet someone. You are so pretty that I can hardly believe how lucky I am to have found your profile!

    From reading your profile, I think we have a lot in common. I would love to buy you lunch sometime. Do you know of any good places to eat? Since I'm new here, I don't know of many, but I do like the restaurant at the River Palms.

    Have a nice day, I really hope to hear back from you!!"

  3. LOL Tony. you need to practice your small talk... When I read your message I was thinking the same thing she did when she read it.

  4. Tony, you've never listened to a single piece of advice about anything on here ever. Why do you keep asking?

    And stop coming across as so desperate to complete strangers. Lonely and desperate are right above serial killer and pedophile in qualities people look for in meeting a match. You need to stop smothering anyone who enters your life. People need to breathe.

  5. cannot imagine why anyone would think id be looking for a hooker -- if some woman does, it just goes to show u how far the moral fabric of this country has decayed due to people no longer believing in God and hell after death. are other men other than me really expecting women to have sex upon meeting? me id be very shocked if a woman wanted to and suspect she was somehow up to something and that would scare me. surely though my 2nd message shouldve explained the truth, and it shouldve made her feel bad and gave me another look, especially when she realized my values were more in line with her than she originally thought. i am in my room, playing online, i lost $452 at the nugget and will later write a blog about it. all at poker. new roll $2400. and if the woman isnt willing to come to the casino to meet, it makes me feel like she cant accept ME and my lifestyle, so i feel like we arent compatible then. i dont want to meet elsewhere. also its not a good idea to tell a woman u think she looks pretty because then she WILL think u are hitting on her.

  6. I've been reading this blog for a week, and I still can't tell if it is a parody blog or not.

    1. Yakshi -- Sadly, this is all legit.

    2. Don't feel bad, there are many people that think this is all a made up farce.

  7. "cannot imagine why anyone would think id be looking for a hooker"

    Because that's something you would never, ever do. Except that you DO hire hookers. I guess you must not really believe in God and hell after death.

    It's up to you if you will only meet a woman at a casino. Just understand that that one demand all by itself will shrink the already small pool by about 90%.

  8. And also remember this. A woman might want a relationship with a professional poker player although even at that the swings in it can be finacially difficult, but someone can be made to understand these things. However no woman is going to stick around long once they realize you are an addictive, smothering compulsive gambler aka vbj machines.

  9. Tony, can you explain what your extreme aversion is to seeing a counselor full-time? Don't you want things to change for the better?

  10. "i have no idea in the least what i am saying wrong" ... then why don't you listen to some advice for once in your life?? And how can you POSSIBLY rant and rave about how bad Obama is, when YOU'RE TOO GODDAM LAZY TO REGISTER AND VOTE?!?

    And you continue to rant about your "Christian values" ... yet you've bought more hookers than anyone I've ever known.


    If you don't know what that word means, look it up in the dictionary. Actually, I know you're too damn lazy to do that, so here's the definition:

    Hypocrisy is the state of promoting or administering virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that one does not actually have or is also guilty of violating. Hypocrisy often involves the deception of others and thus can be considered a kind of lie.

    Sound like anyone you know??

  11. Cant believe you criticize another persons use of the english language the way you butcher it.

  12. Actually, Tony, I was thinking of you while I was in church this morning. Despite all your talk about being a Christian, I do not remember your ever mentioning that you ever go to church. You never know -- a little reflection time might help.

    Today's reading:

    One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

    “The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these.”

    “Well said, teacher,” the man replied. “You are right in saying that God is one and there is no other but him. To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices.”

    When Jesus saw that he had answered wisely, he said to him, “You are not far from the kingdom of God.” And from then on no one dared ask him any more questions.

  13. Tony, there is not a reasonable, trust worthy, respectable woman alive who wants to enable your lifestyle and provide you with the validation you so desperately crave.

    You basically need a skinny homeless woman with respectable shoes and a longgggggggg attention span. Good luck.