have done some online google searches, different ones this time, and i remembered to use the quotation marks, but still the searches arent what i want. a lot of the "$300 monthly" or $75 weekly rent" were NOT for places to live. even did searches for attics and garages, but even then the garage ones only turned out to be for parking cars, not to live in.
a basement would only work if it had its own private entrance and i didnt have to have any contact with anyone else living in the house, same way for an attic. it seems very few do, or at least if they do, they dont mention this in their craigslist ads. i remember too the time Britni did nationwide searches for me listing a bunch of cheap monthly place to live, in weird locations such as small places in Idaho etc. The problem with those type of searches is u have no idea of the ethnic background of all the other neighbors as to whether u would be comfortable living there or not.
i doubt if they still do, but 22 years ago the homeless shelter i stayed at a few times in Lima OH used to have a small building next to the shelter with a very small number of private rooms, that they rented out for $50 a month only to help homeless people get back on their feet, that u was only allowed to live at for 2 months while u looked for other alternatives.
often they were full, and they didnt rent to everyone. But it would be nice if the salvation army or other homeless programs in vegas had something like that. i wouldnt want to have to come to the shelter to sleep their hours (totally different than mine) and be surrounded by unsafe people who might steal my laptop from underneath me as i slept. Lots of old rooming houses in old HOTELS, not motels, got burned or torn down in the last 10 years too i lived at, can think of at least 3. i know most homeless people are always totally broke, because they manage their money much less well and continually spend themselves down to $0, mostly cause of alcoholism. also shelters dont allow u to stay there longterm, some of them only a few days. Usually they make u take a shower around other people where others can steal from u during the shower, a big no-no scaring me away. and dont just say "dont carry any money". if my debit card or ID got stolen that too is a huge and even bigger problem.
but yeah im worried, im not sure i wont go broke here, ive been told even that im now following the correct bankroll management, my risk of ruin is pretty high. especially since my counting system wasnt "advanced" enough, and was more basic and not the best for 4 decks. if i did side count the aces, how would i decide how that would change my betting strategy? i keep having many small wins of $10-30 and then some big $150-200 losses. and all my play last night over 3 sessions only got me about half of sundays comp room ive still not earned. im betting so low it would take about 12 hours play to earn my room anymore. and its rapidly approaching sunday. So i worry about this being a viable option in the future. Also i have very little money left on lock too. am back to playing $2 sngs again instead of $5, too bad i lost the $15 one. i made a total of $67 last night, but am still not even back to $1200. and my internet will be coming out of my bank in the next 2 days. Also please dont ask me to play them on lock without telling me ur screen name and just asking for mine. i like to know if u are at my table, i need ur screen name first. tired of this on twitter.
that being said, since i used the right bankroll management, (but maybe not the right counting system) my roll has been somewhere in the $1100s $1200s or $1300s. it hasnt moved up or down much, although it had 2 big $150+ losses, and many very tiny wins. u see when i have a small win, i want to get up and quit for the day and go back to my room. and when im losing, i want to sit there all night and try and wipe out the loss.
i think i could do well at poker if i just had a cheap enough place to live so i could totally play online at home, or if i was around a $1-5 stud game daily such as being near foxwoods or tampa because thats a game that takes a much much smaller roll than $1-2 NL as far as grinding out $1200 or so a month. does anyone else think $1100 will get me anywhere in a low stakes poker game in vegas, i mean would u come to vegas with this little, if u didnt have a place to live lined up or friends who would take u in? the reason most people dont worry when they get in my situation is they have friends they can stay with. i dont. the only men whove ever offered to let me live with them were guys i didnt know, so i declined.
i remember in 1989 i was panhandling in fort wayne IN, and a christian man and his wife let me stay in a spare room in their house for the night. im sure they only did it because i was so young then, most people would be afraid, and nothing bad happened to me. I cannot understand why Britni always said to find roommates online, she has often lived with roommates, but im just not into that. if i knew how to fight and defend myself i wouldnt mind living with others as much cause i wouldnt be so afraid. everywhere i ever lived, i had my own room that entered into a hallway in a large building not someones house. what i mean is i never had to hang out around other tenants, like u would in a room in someones home. i worry about who someone will invite over to visit and i worry people will use drugs, drink, smoke weed and all sorts of things.