Well i see not many updating their blogs, im sure everyone other than me has family theyre hanging out with, or is quite busy at the moment. someday, i would like to be a part of a family too, at least a wife that is to relax and celebrate with, and to buy presents for and receive presents from. If i ever come into serious money (and i will of course if i keep doing what im doing) id like a nice house someday too. Christmas is when u realize how all alone u really are, if u are not in a relationship. This Christmas im not doing much of anything. I wrote Grump a letter the other day, suggesting we write up a blog and spend the day finding someone to do a good deed for, but he will be with an unspoken friend i have no idea who. I figured it would at least make me feel better over the holidays. Last Christmas was when i thought i might get to see Carmen who called and seemed to be in some sort of trouble but then i never did and i found out a day or 2 later she was in jail. Ever since shes not said hardly a word, pretty much the same as any other woman ive ever talked with. This year shes doing a lot better, the new pics of her and her family on her blog are great. thats a nice clubhouse, i wouldnt mind living in a fancy apt community like that someday if i had money, wherever that is. i dont think ive ever lived in a real apt community that had a clubhouse since i always lived wherever i could live the cheapest. (with the exception of the time i splurged in reno and got a 2 story apt for $950 a month). i dont know why i did that, (or took the $800 cab). its just i was over $10k and i felt really really rich, since i never have that kind of money.
and today i feel good also, and feel rich again. u see my roll is back to the $1800s. now i know to most of u, thats not a lot of money, but considering the $1100 i had mid nov, (and the worry id lose it all), to me thats a ton. i am now only paranoid they might decide to get rid of the VBJ machine, not that i wont win on it. all the play in the last 2 months solely on this VBJ, (none of the old bad 6 deck shufflemaster VBJ--and no video poker at all) have showed me the importance of knowing exactly when the shuffle takes place. Thank God for Jason, (who told me about Jean) who a lot of people know as Cutter, and i still havent figured out who the chaperone is on roughingthepunter.com. That website that has the big thread about me didnt approve my application to post, u cannot register unless u are approved by a mod, must just be a group of about 50 friends.
my only worry is im not getting in near enough play a day, i waste too much time in my room on lock because i find that to be a better use of my time. u see its taking forever to grind out the comps every day and they are really cutting back on giving me the buffet tickets, they want me to earn and use the comps instead. i should be playing far more hours if i dont want to start running out of comps. ive never been able to save up a ton of comps to buy things at the gas station like i thought i would when i first came, but of course when i first came, i thought id be spreading to like 5 hands of $30 each, instead of up to 5 hands of only half that. and also i know im due to lose soon, but hopefully when i do it wont be twice in a row, and will remain small, like under $100.
also someone claims they have the VBJ dealers angels machines in the venetian, i find that hard to believe, the min must be a lot more or the rules worse, is this true? ive never seen it when i was last in there before they changed the poker room. im still trying to find these somewhere in any other little town in northern NV or any other state im not aware of.
if i ever am well off enough financially to afford a nice apt i know for sure ill be keeping long term, ill get me a pet, that way i wont be as lonely. for sure a cat instead of a dog, and at least i wont worry about what men the pet will let in in the middle of the night while i sleep unlike a woman. this year wasnt so good, i made a lot of poor financial decisions ive been making a lot of over the years, but im over them now. its been almost 2 months since i played video poker, (without claiming freeplay) and almost as long since ive played live poker, especially $1-2 NL. Thank God also that the players in the PLO lower stakes games on lock are so horrible. am learning that game enough to be folding aa sometimes preflop