Wednesday, January 23, 2013

I finally feel like im getting WORK done

My clothes have been washed, are now in the dryer, the trash has been taken out, the rent has been paid for another week (although i really didnt want to do that, but what else could i do at the last minute without no one to give my things to to hold?). The Bike has been returned, they took it thank God, along with the padlock, (if no one else agrees with this decision ask SBR, he said paying 1 20th of my net worth for it was pretty dumb, so im sure he would feel the same way about 1 15th.) Even then, my roll is only at $1600 after paying the rent. im still quite a bit worse off than when i left Jean, and about $800 worse off than i was a week ago. the loss of $390 on the VP a day or so ago really hurt bad.

also i feel like the bike really didnt benefit me none, due to the best room for me being within walking distance, and the much better bus service here than when i lived at harbor island. even walmarts i walk to, the bike was needed far more way back then than now. Plus i thought i might need to go to reno, or maybe even go to cali and be homeless to make sure none of the remaining money gets spent on machines. reno for cheap $100 a week safe housing within walking distance of eldorado.

what made Jean good for me WASNT the VBJ. it was no stress over my rent, (there was none) and the fact i went the entire 2 months i was there without playing a single hand of VP. the fact i had a much better machine to play kept me off the VP entirely, and that really did a lot for my roll. while in laughlin, i not only played a much worse VBJ machine, i also played a tiny bit of VP, not near as much as lately however.

and one other piece of work im getting done--all the dirty dishes sitting in the sink are being done, so i can use the pizza pan again. its not really as hard as it sounds because i put them to soak many hours prior.

one other thing id like to get done, (but of course will not get done) is fix it so ALL of my playing takes place 12noon to 12pm. (not that long of course, but within those hours). sometimes on rare occasions after midnite (such as last night) theres not even a game at all. and the $2-4 game at the cannery really sucks, all the money goes for the freeroll. (after aces cracked ends). now of course if u do qualify its worth playing for the top 10 get $500 each and they say its as little as 15 people in it some months. 30 hours will qualify u. the reason i cant fix those hours is my body is too used to being awake nights and sleeping days, its been conditioned to do that for over 20 years and any change in the schedule goes right back to what my bodys been used to a few days later. trying to force the change could even be unhealthy and make me sick. when i played a lot more NL in bigger casinos, playing later was a good idea, but now i think im better off playing hours more in like with poker Johnny.

i wish i could spend time with donkeytax, he seems to be a lot better at poker than most since its his main income, and he sure is right about TX station, but it too breaks up during the night abour 4-5am and not much to live by there. i think if he watched me play and took the time to go over my game i might learn something, but like everyone else hes always too busy.

and i think im going to have to start living in far more unsafe places just to save money, as bad off as i am financially, i only deserve the bare minimum. i left Jean long before i was ready, and im up to close to $900 in VP losses since leaving Jean. all of which wouldve made a huge difference in my life.

also, even though i dont think im losing in hyper turbos, i accidently played a $30 one by mistake, and lost it. (thought i was registering for a much smaller one, which pissed me off.) so that cut my lock balance by about half. i think im best at the $5-7 level right now, and playing DON to build the balance up. am trying a lot more 6 max ones to see how i do at them instead of just 10 max. i think i should play less hypers until my roll on lock is on a more solid footing, such as back over $100.

if my blog disappears and no one hears from me, realize i just wanted to get away from all the negatively. i think the negative comments cause me to act negative, and if i heard more positive feedback, it would help me make the positive changes.

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  1. How can you get positive feedback when everything you do is a negative? Every decision you make is a poor one, a wrong one, or is simply -EV. And now you say you might close the blog because of negativity??? Oh boo hoo Tony, cry me a river. You say positive feedback would have you make positive changes. Your a liar. Either lying to your readers or to yourself or both. Many many people who have left comments have told you what approach you should take, given advice on this issue and that issue whether it be housing, SSI, Poker, counseling and you act like you know better than everyone else and it's obvious you don't. When you have a stable income, a good woman by your side, a real address, and legitimate social life then maybe you might have the right to feel like your way is the correct one, but until that time, until you show your readers that you aren't just a stupid person who has no grasp of reality in that twisted paranoid filled, gambling addicted mind of yours you are not going to get anything positive until you start showing these readers you have the ability to do something positive. And by the way, if you leave Vegas because of the reasons you have stated previously you are a failure and a quitter. A failure as a professional poker player and a failure as someone who can actually succeed despite a disability. You have already failed at keeping friends and showing them your someone worthy of their friendship. Are you going to add just another failure to the list?

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  2. Congrats on the clean dishes Tony!

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  3. "what made Jean good for me WASNT the VBJ. it was no stress over my rent, (there was none) and the fact i went the entire 2 months i was there without playing a single hand of VP."

    During a jaunt to Reno in October 2011 your roll was at $12,600 (http://sevencard2003.blogspot.com/2011/10/well-its-not-been-good-week-in-poker-at.html) at one point.

    Fast-forward six months or so to March 2012 when living in Vegas and your roll was at $6,200 (http://sevencard2003.blogspot.com/2012/03/still-winning.html).

    Zip forward another six months or so and uou had $4,400 when you left Vegas to head off to Laughlin/Jean to be a VBJ pro in October 2012 (http://sevencard2003.blogspot.com/2012/10/in-laughlin.html).

    You had about $1,800 when you left Jean to head back to Vegas for this current adventure (http://sevencard2003.blogspot.com/2012/12/not-in-jean.html).

    Now you're holding onto $1,600.

    I'm nowhere near as good as math as you but it seems like there's a pretty consistent trend there.

    It seems to have nothing to do with whether there are good or bad VBJ or VP machines around and everything to do with the fact that if you run enough money through -EV machines you'll eventually lose all that money.

    That's a bummer about accidentally playing a $30 hyper. Although it does remind me of one of my favorite old TBC quotes from way back when:

    "out another 300 on stars since i came home--all cause i had a hard time figuring out how to shut off the auto rebuy feature on stars--"

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  4. "if my blog disappears and no one hears from me, realize i just wanted to get away from all the negatively"

    Yeah -- we have heard this before. No way this blog goes away.

    I'll be in Las Vegas for Super Bowl Sunday ... unless I stay in Jean instead, of course ... : o P

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  5. Tony you're confusing work with stuff you're supposed to do. Stuff that everyone does without expecting head patting in their blog.


    Why should donkey tax sit and teach you poker when you're a 20 year pro who thinks they know everything and has a six year record of refusing good advice from hundreds of people because you think you will know best?


    And why do you feel you deserve positivity? People tried that, it just gave you enablement to do the things you do and say the things you say. Your life is by no means going the way you want it to, and you're too stubborn and lazy to do anything about it. These so called negative comments are your reality check you intentionally make yourself oblivious to.

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  6. If you can't afford a bike, how are you gonna afford another $800 cabride to Reno?

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  7. Tony:

    If you answer two questions, I'll give you some positve reinforcement. Deal?

    1) Why haven't you done anything to get the ban(s) lifted at any of the major casino chains?

    2) You keep repeating the same mistakes - what are you going to do differently to stop that cycle?

    thanks,

    s.i.

    p.s. - good job taking care of you life tasks (garbage, rent, laundry, dishes). Those things take time and effort. Taking care of life tasks is important and I would imagine it gave you a sense of accomplishment. Well done. Seriously.

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    1. 1. not enough money yet, and certainly wouldnt be a good idea til im sure my mailing address would not change during the next 2 months. already worry harrahs mightve wrote me and got their letter returned, (which wouldnt looked good).

      2. not sure yet. wish i had friends like u to hang out anytime i felt the urge. it would assist. we tried counseling and when i followed the counselors advice (to have people like claudia to call anytime,--instead of waiting til my next appt with the counselor-- and to write down my feelings, we all know where following that counselors advice got me dont we?)

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  8. If you really feel that you have to have more money, then there is always this route:

    http://www.greatplainslending.com/info/loan-cost-and-terms

    It is predatory, but it gives you the ability to play no limit and grow your roll faster.

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    1. These people are loan sharks. A $500 loan requires twelve $101 bi-weekly payments. I can't think of many reasons why anybody would ever borrow from a lender like this...and I can't even imagine how bad things would get if Tony chased losses on a VP/VBJ machine because he needed to win enough to make a payment on his 448.78% APR loan.

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    2. id certainly not want to get a loan with them. interest is horrible.

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  9. Negativity breeds negativity.
    You need(ed) to surround yourself with people who are positive and give proper advice and constructive criticism and maybe things could have been better.
    maybe.
    maybe if you would listen to that advice and try to make the right changes.

    However, the truth is that you are an attention whore and you cannot live without trying to be a huge center of attention. You want people to follow your actions and you crave any type of attention you get - whether it be positive or negative.

    However, no matter where you place blame, you are your own downfall. You are the one who willingly puts money into the machines and then after a loss comes up with an excuse why it happened.
    You don't need to play the machines while waiting for a game, there are a ton of other, more profitable, things you could do instead.

    If your blog disappears you will be missed, keep in touch.

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  10. Congrats on returning the bike Tony!

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  11. Congrats on returning the bike Tony!

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  12. I can sleep well knowing the pizza pan is clean.....

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  13. Tony - I'm really curious. You're playing on a site that supports HUD use; i.e. Poker Tracker or Holdem Manager. Are you using either of those tools? Otherwise, it seems that you're putting yourself at a severe disadvantage to the other players because while they all have stats and aggression tendencies (among other things) on you, you lack that information on them. You're playing a game with a blindfold on. You really need to look into installing one of those tools on your computer - if nothing else, take a look at the trial versions; that way you don't have to put any money out of pocket while you see how usable it truly is.

    Good job on normalizing your life - returning the bike, cleaning the dishes, renting an apartment, etc. It's healthy to have a routine or pattern in your life.

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    1. Vook has already given Tony the sage advice to avoid hypers because of Tony's skill-set. You're right that without a HUD Tony is playing blindfolded, but without knowing the push-range from CO with 11 BBs he might as well be blindfolded, wearing mittens, and using an Uno deck while simultaneously doing something incredibly demanding like... Oh I dunno, washing dishes.

      =^..^=

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    2. everyone whose seen me play, knows that i live my life, and play pretty much like Stuey Ungar, and our poker skills are about the same. we both got into it at the same age about, never left the game, never had any other life BUT the game, had a ton of other addictions and oddities, and didnt use HUDs, web training sites, etc but learned the old school ways by experience, trial and error, and just BASIC INSTINCT to know the correct move at all times, moves that didnt look understandable to our watchers (or readers)

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    3. I would humbly submit that at least one key difference between you and Ungar is that he made a substantial amount of money from playing poker.

      Another key difference is that Ungar never lost $300 because he was unable to turn off the rebuy feature on Stars.

      I'm sure others will chime in with additional differences but there are just a few off the top of my head.

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    4. Yes, you are the second coming of stuey ungar. You are right also that Stuey always hated huds and training sites too.

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    5. Tony, do you seriouly think that your poker skills is as good as Stu Ungar? You know he won millions playing poker, and is considered one of the best player of his time. He was also the best gin rummy player of his days, so good that no one will play with him, and he was forced to play poker instead?

      So, how many people that have seen you play, have told you that you are one of the best poker player around?

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    6. One of the funniest things I have ever heard TBC say. If VBJ doesn't work out maybe try a run at comedian. Also, Unger died prior to the start of the new era of online poker, HUDs or training sites. And yes, he was an addicted man as well, who died lonely and broke (like you will unfortunately), but he was 1 million times the player you are, and if you had his skills you would not be toiling at 2/4 LHE 20 years after starting to play poker.

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    7. Tony did someone hack your account? Your poker skills are "about the same" as those of Stu?

      Retract that garbage immediately or I'm abandoning your blog.

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  14. Hyper turbos are the new video blackjack for Big Charles. There is not way that he will beat them in the long run (given his skill set), but they give the quick swings which are instant gratification for the addicted gambler so he will find ways to justify that they are beatable. For video blackjack he used the imaginary shuffle point as his way to beat it, and for the hyper turbos he has that 20 hand sample size in which he has crushed them, so they are obviously beatable.

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  15. Tony:

    If you answer two questions, I'll give you some positve reinforcement. Deal?

    1) Why haven't you done anything to get the ban(s) lifted at any of the major casino chains?

    2) You keep repeating the same mistakes - what are you going to do differently to stop that cycle?

    thanks,

    s.i.

    p.s. - good job taking care of you life tasks (garbage, rent, laundry, dishes). Those things take time and effort. Taking care of life tasks is important and I would imagine it gave you a sense of accomplishment. Well done. Seriously.

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  16. Without the bike how will you outrun the large packs of zombies that roam Boulder Hwy from sunset until sunrise?

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  17. " i live my life, and play pretty much like Stuey Ungar, and our poker skills are about the same"

    That's one of the most delusional things I've heard you say.

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  18. TBC comparing himself to stu ungar made my day

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  19. hey tony, was about to text you but i guess you get it on here too, well hit up texas station this week if there is a game, maybe wed or thurs, wed i have class untill 2pm so after that would be good as ill be out that way anyhow, whereabouts are you staying? well have to needle some of the regs into taking the nl buttons then the $ gets decent.

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  20. +as ive said when ive seen you play, i think you have a sound enough concept of how you should be playing low stakes, you just sometimes deviate from it when you get anxious/nervous about a hand post flop, this leads to you occasionally losing pot control which hurts since you can end up losing much more than you should on a hand like top pair top kick ect

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