My clothes have been washed, are now in the dryer, the trash has been taken out, the rent has been paid for another week (although i really didnt want to do that, but what else could i do at the last minute without no one to give my things to to hold?). The Bike has been returned, they took it thank God, along with the padlock, (if no one else agrees with this decision ask SBR, he said paying 1 20th of my net worth for it was pretty dumb, so im sure he would feel the same way about 1 15th.) Even then, my roll is only at $1600 after paying the rent. im still quite a bit worse off than when i left Jean, and about $800 worse off than i was a week ago. the loss of $390 on the VP a day or so ago really hurt bad.
also i feel like the bike really didnt benefit me none, due to the best room for me being within walking distance, and the much better bus service here than when i lived at harbor island. even walmarts i walk to, the bike was needed far more way back then than now. Plus i thought i might need to go to reno, or maybe even go to cali and be homeless to make sure none of the remaining money gets spent on machines. reno for cheap $100 a week safe housing within walking distance of eldorado.
what made Jean good for me WASNT the VBJ. it was no stress over my rent, (there was none) and the fact i went the entire 2 months i was there without playing a single hand of VP. the fact i had a much better machine to play kept me off the VP entirely, and that really did a lot for my roll. while in laughlin, i not only played a much worse VBJ machine, i also played a tiny bit of VP, not near as much as lately however.
and one other piece of work im getting done--all the dirty dishes sitting in the sink are being done, so i can use the pizza pan again. its not really as hard as it sounds because i put them to soak many hours prior.
one other thing id like to get done, (but of course will not get done) is fix it so ALL of my playing takes place 12noon to 12pm. (not that long of course, but within those hours). sometimes on rare occasions after midnite (such as last night) theres not even a game at all. and the $2-4 game at the cannery really sucks, all the money goes for the freeroll. (after aces cracked ends). now of course if u do qualify its worth playing for the top 10 get $500 each and they say its as little as 15 people in it some months. 30 hours will qualify u. the reason i cant fix those hours is my body is too used to being awake nights and sleeping days, its been conditioned to do that for over 20 years and any change in the schedule goes right back to what my bodys been used to a few days later. trying to force the change could even be unhealthy and make me sick. when i played a lot more NL in bigger casinos, playing later was a good idea, but now i think im better off playing hours more in like with poker Johnny.
i wish i could spend time with donkeytax, he seems to be a lot better at poker than most since its his main income, and he sure is right about TX station, but it too breaks up during the night abour 4-5am and not much to live by there. i think if he watched me play and took the time to go over my game i might learn something, but like everyone else hes always too busy.
and i think im going to have to start living in far more unsafe places just to save money, as bad off as i am financially, i only deserve the bare minimum. i left Jean long before i was ready, and im up to close to $900 in VP losses since leaving Jean. all of which wouldve made a huge difference in my life.
also, even though i dont think im losing in hyper turbos, i accidently played a $30 one by mistake, and lost it. (thought i was registering for a much smaller one, which pissed me off.) so that cut my lock balance by about half. i think im best at the $5-7 level right now, and playing DON to build the balance up. am trying a lot more 6 max ones to see how i do at them instead of just 10 max. i think i should play less hypers until my roll on lock is on a more solid footing, such as back over $100.
if my blog disappears and no one hears from me, realize i just wanted to get away from all the negatively. i think the negative comments cause me to act negative, and if i heard more positive feedback, it would help me make the positive changes.