well, not entirely true, have a room 1 more day here at tx station until fri, after that im not sure where i am going. cant find anyone to drive me to Jean, and offered $25 gas, or a carton of cigarettes with boyd gaming comps, which costs me $90 comps but no cash. vince says he can on sunday, that dont solve the problem of the weekend. also have considered an airport or bus out of town, if i go broke, i do not want it to be in vegas, but in somewhere fresh.
people will be happy to see i have several hand hisrories i want to post this time, because i am seriously questioning and second guessing all of my plays. the variance everyday to day is unreal and is killing me, and thats why im not keen at all at working on getting bans lifted to play on looser games on the strip like a few misguided and well meaning souls keep suggesting, thats something i should do when i can afford those strip games and not until. as we have found out before its also something its not a good idea to do until i am positive my mailing address will remain the same for a LONG time. and now i no longer have an address for my bank again.
new roll is $1200. and not one dollar over which isnt usually the case. usually when i say $1200, its actually like $1273 or something. one of the reasons why its so low is tonights $71 loss, and the $30x 3 for my rooms here up til friday checkout, and the $93 phone bill being deducted out of my bank acct. its understandable why my emotional state of health was so much better in Jean not having to deal with the constant stress of being homeless, and why i want to return. i was under a lot less pressure there and was a lot happier, and often told claudia that, and didnt get angry and bitter til she started talking less and less. actually what really made me give up on her was her call about a week before the end in which she was saying how i needed counseling, and shouldnt ever gamble at all, not even at poker. i cant handle a woman not having any faith in me to do what i want more than anything to do with my life, and that really made me upset. and i never really got to talk to her about my feelings because she never let me talk anymore. u see, i always felt the whole concept of writing the magazine article was to say how people like me should never gamble, instead of to support and encourage me in my choice of life style that makes me happy. she was so worried about not getting hired for next years wsop if people thought she was associated with "that crazy person" (me) her words, not mine, and of course she too sees a counselor, which is why she has such an obsession with me getting counseling. but what good did that do when all the counselor said was that i should have friends that i should call when i felt the urge to gamble machines and needed someone to talk to instead of her? and then when i did try to talk to the friends instead, they said to call the counselor. But lets get on to them hands
i was dealt 99 (and i had a NL overs, about 70% of us did) and i raised a $4 straddle to $10. got 4 callers. one of which is a regular, and was on my left and had the button who i wanted out. id seen him once earlier check the 2nd nuts of a flopped flush all the way when out of position. flop comes up 569 with 2 hearts, i have 9 of hearts. i make a $6 bet, and they call. the one guy without the overs button folded on the flop. turn comes Qh for a possible flush. they both check, and i worry about the asian who likes to check monsters and the guy behind me too. he didnt take an overs button at first, and i was wondering if me adding the other $100 when a lot of the first $95 was gone had something to do with it. thats when he took it. i dont think i should play overs anymore til i build up the roll. anyway i think i made a mistake checking here, thought the asian mightve flopped the straight and the regular behind me turned a flush. guy behind me checks. river comes 2c total blank, and asian guy bets $27. next guy folds, i call and am relieved the guy behind me folds. asian showed a total bluff of a busted straight no pair and i won.
another hand, i had JJ and raised to $8 preflop. 2 guys called, both with overs buttons and both could stack me. had just gotten back to being stuck $6 from being stuck alot more. but started giving a little back in the last 2 rounds. flop comes AK4. both check, i check in last position. theyve been playing a while and know i dont play almost nothing unless its a strong hand when i raise, and also i can lay down a good hand (which is why i shouldnt show folds). turn comes 9, guy checks, other guy bets $12 and heres where i think i made the mistake, i raised it to $35. why? because it makes it look like i sandbagged a monster on the flop, and i thought he would then lay down a weak ace or king hes betting. and id look like i had ak for 2pair at a minimum. instead he shoves, i fold, shocked he shoved, and after i folded he showed the a. so i didnt have to worry i was bluffed again. never did see his other card.
took so long to compose this now im tired and cant go and respond to all the comments i wanted to in the previous blog but i will sometime i swear. i do feel i need to spend more time playing and less in my room online. been told i must get the hours in and not be lazy to get my money back. although i really miss the apt where i could just play online in my room. really am worried about what ill do when tomorrow night gets here, i have no money to move back into another place by the week. also i have no food comps here because ive always turned all comps into immediate free play which is the same as cash almost. so ive only ate the 1 bag of chips i came with in the last 30 hours and nothing else and when i wake up ill really need some normal food.
what makes things tougher now than when i was this broke in the past, is prices have gone up, casino room prices are more than 2008, cheap rooming houses no longer exist, now all that exist are rooms in others homes, and i have no comps anywhere like i used to. since im not playing big money anywhere, not getting any more big free play offers and room offers like binions used to give and others.