was too pissed off to sit and play any more, almost broke the phone, caught myself betting way too much when im supposed to not raise my bets til the running count reaches +4, but it didnt reach that high for more than like 1 hand in hours, and i bet way too much on neutral counts and counts of +1 to +3 because i was so used to all the negative counts i was flat betting $1 on, i was waiting for ANY chance to raise up the bet. ended up losing $200, new roll $1530. i dont want to go broke, but if i do eventually, maybe its best i hurry up and end it now, and get on with a new life out on the streets panhandling so money can start going in instead of going out. i seriously need to follow Kimlees chart, but i really dont see how that will force wins any more than martingaling forces a win. how do i force a win? no matter how high the count gets, i know im going to lose the majority of the hands, so how do i force wins when the decks in my favor?
also my mom is turning 71 on march 25, and again i have nothing, and she will just be getting an ecard is all, and i hate being broke so much i feel like doing something really desperate for money that could get me a lot of prison time just so i can end it. need to shut down all blogs all websites, disappear completely like Britni so i can go and apply for food stamps also instead of just the ssi. but theres no way in hell ill get welfare, because my win loss statement here shows me winning a lot of money i didnt win, and welfare insists i bring it in if i want their help with medical. also i still need to disconnect the phone i cant pay, instead of waiting for them to shut it off.
and although i want to play online from the room and take breaks, i cannot afford to fund my seals acct, and of course, never went to setup a bitcoin acct that i can fund thru my bank someway.
yes, i really think a good way to get rid of stress would be to cut off all contact with the world, that would lower my monthly bills too. should just disappear to FL or CA and start sleeping outside, and spending the day panhandling instead of gambling, so the roll will start to grow, and where i can also again feel safe trying to get food stamps and ssi, which i dont feel safe doing in NV i could even find work if i was out of NV and didnt need to apply for cards to get jobs. the only reason ive not done that is because i dont want to lose my room and be outdoors at night. i just paid for 2 weeks yesterday with comps. new checkout date is monday apr 1.
must say im proud of stump for tweeting something the pope said, even if it caused one of his women friends to block him on twitter. notice the following twitter conversation. theres nothing humorous about this woman blocking him just because she hates God and wants nothing to do with God. never could understand why some people hate God so much, to not care is one thing, or have any interest, but why so much outright hostility? makes no sense. i cannot understand why AKgal thinks its funny. she is caught in the middle between him and this other girl. and i think AKgals feelings are truthfully more in line with stumps, she seems to be a good person, but of course i could be wrong. i do really miss stump.
this was the original tweet from stump:
17 MarPope Francis@Pontifex
Dear friends, I thank you from my heart and I ask you to continue to pray for me.
after Stump said this, a woman friend of AKgals blocked him, and said seeing him retweet something from the Pope made her gag. then later commented she wanted nothing to do with God.
then later stump tweeted this:
'The Bible' Series@bibleseries
#JesusIsComing! RT if you're excited!
Retweeted by Chris Abramski
17 Mar'The Bible' Series@bibleseries
#Daniel is in the lion's den. RT if you are thankful for religious freedom. #TheBible
Retweeted by Chris abramski
17 MarChris Abramski@ChrisAbramski
@KeepsItRealz Nice! Tolerance at its finest. I'll pray for you. #Caring
keeps it realz is the woman who blocked stump, and this is why he said this to her, he seen that she had blocked him. and the bottom is a different conversation tonight when he was going to hangout with AKgal, and i mentioned how i felt about the whole thing.
@Andr0us @KeepsItRealz I think me and Jesus Freak might meet u guys for Bingo. Unless this is a private rendezvous....
5hStarts with a K@KeepsItRealz
@AlaskaGal1 lol. He hates me...
@KeepsItRealz @alaskagal1 I'm a godly man. I love everyone. :)
@ChrisAbramski @KeepsItRealz @AlaskaGal1 i am proud of what this pope stands for and believes, but im more proud of Stump for retweeting it
@ChrisAbramski @KeepsItRealz @AlaskaGal1 too many people nowdays are ashamed to stand up for whats right anymore. biggest sin is being PC
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@sevencard2003 @chrisabramski @alaskagal1 #whenjesusfreaksattack
@KeepsItRealz the thing about @sevencard2003 is he doesn't "get" humor.
hope everyone was able to follow that wish people would be more willing to speak out how they feel. when all the real friends i had quit coming to this blog, it really went downhill. and when Grump started getting hateful and nasty and moved away and quit his blog, that didnt help either.