Maybe its just variance. or maybe its because ive not worried about bills that needed paid and got taken care of. of course theres new ones, $54 ill need to pay on the phone by june 12, and $80 on the net after June 1, but both of those ill have about a months time to do it. the past due balances all got taken care of, and the current bill. those are when new bills come out. Biggest expense looming over my head immediately is my sons 21st birthday and i really should get that done today. i wanted to order him something online, and mom said no, to send him $20 in the mail in a card instead, but im not sure if i can get a decent birthday card at the casino or gas station here. selection would be really limited.
also id like to play about $100 worth of LIVE poker if i could, now that the roll is back in the $1400s. its been at least a month or longer since its been this high. after this morning's $42 VBJ win i am at $1457. also i renewed my room so my new checkout date is mon june 3. but only for 6 days, didnt have quite the comps for the full week, im still not earning them at a fast enough pace. i am earning them faster than if i followed Cutters suggestion of only playing 1 hand though. and ive still got 26 cans of beans and peaches, 19 soups, and some bread without any peanut butter left. and crackers too. ate in the buffet once since tuesday of last week is all. I think i might be doing well enough to where i can survive finally without needing any outright gifts, we shall see. of course id still like friends to take me to play poker though, sometimes it would be a good break from the VBJ. and im just not keeping enough on seals still. kind of would like to have money somewhere i could still play plenty of DON sngs, i really miss those, if it wasnt too hard to access the money. im getting sick and tired at the lack of 9 handed full tables. everything is 6 max or far less a lot of the time on many sites. such as the site someone referred to me on facebook, which i turned around and recommended to whitcolumn, then later told him why it aint so good after all.
im running at least $400 better off on the VBJ than what the math says i should be since that big drop, unless ive figured the math wrong. put in about $16-20k in coin in yet still up all that. even though Kimlee and Cutter think im no longer +ev on the machine without comps, and i might not be, but the way i play, theres no way to analyze it. but of course, once the roll is about double what it is now, then i should be +ev for sure without comps. (because of the wider spread).
also, if i had the discipline to never play more than 3 spots. that too would help reduce swings. (and big losses). would actually have more losing sessions but not nearly as big of losses.
that job offer was a pretty good deal, but id kind of like to prove i can make it here on my own, but i feel id be a fool not to go, hopefully it will still be available at some time in the future if say i drop my roll in half again. i am too afraid i would just end up getting fired within the first week or 2, since id not be familiar with it like all the other employees would. Or i might not wake up in time. or i might feel like i had enough to quit within 1 month instead of 6 once id saved up $1000 a week. But yeah its a great offer, i should already be on a bus or plane to ID right now. im just worried id lose the job. im worried id lose it even if i try to do my best.
and now my soup is getting cold, but at least ive finally got this blog post up.