Saturday, May 25, 2013

not sure whats going on, but for some reason RTP wont load on my computer this morning. And i shouldnt ever post over there anyway. they arent willing to give me a lump sum of money like the OD did upfront. the blog is worth alot more than what other people think its material that could be made into a book someday, and is seen by a lot of people who dont even know what RTP is, and should be able to find a way to get at least $100 a month out of ad revenue, its not worth giving up posting on it so cheaply. i really wish i knew how to get ad revenue, how anyone can claim an advertising sales job is not a real job as they do on RTP is beyond me.

have my "daily income" back but only for 1 day, since i lost 200 chips on seals since by buying in full in a game since it was 9 max instead of 6 max. the same guy who always stole my blinds in the tourney the other day was at it again, and he had a real hand this time. so this one $18 withdrawal on the way to the bank will be the last one for a while again, and my new roll is $1368 and $74 in casino comp dollars after a small VBJ win. and my sleep hours are thouroughly messed up, woke up too early at 11pm, the VBJ was too full since it was a holiday weekend, and i woke back up not til after 4am and there were still people on it but i got 2 seats and eventually all 5.

Wonder if claudia is in town yet over at the WSOP or what anyone will say to her if they run into her. no one ever heard from her since she dropped out of sight and evidently no longer has any interest in this blog. im positive she will be dealing it again.

this will be the first year in a long time my roll was this low at the start of the wsop, in which i really have no interest in playing any poker except online to be safe. although i would like to play at buffalo bills later today with Chad if he comes by.

and i feel thats a great job offer the guy made up in idaho, i wonder if i should do that, its just such a big commitment upfront in relocating, not knowing if id end up getting fired in a few days, or how well id relate to the other employees most of whom probably only speak spanish. (construction job) but he said i could work in the tool room passing out tools with his wife. it would be 60 whole hours a week, and end up being over $1000 a week before taxes, but 60 hours is alot. i wonder how he would feel if i was worn out within a month, had saved up $3000 or so and decided i had enough to where i didnt want to stay all 6 months, if he would be mad? but my biggest worry is getting fired or him deciding i was getting paid too much. also i wonder if that motel in boise he said a lot of guys were living at weekly, how close it is to the worksite. yet if i put in the entire 6 months as if i was in a prison work camp id be pretty much set for life at the end, with about $20k maybe give or take if i refrained from spending much. so i need to think about it a whole lot longer,  i did have a full time job in cleveland with a little overtime for close to 3 months at the age of 21 or 22 but it was the most i ever had a real job and that was at RL Polk getting min wage and living in someones house who believed in helping homeless people find housing. They helped find me the job. i was on violation of my probation though by not living in toledo so it didnt work out so well.

also i think isnt lightning coming into town sometime within the month? sorry i dont have the funds to hangout and play poker with anyone, but dont want to do anything to risk rocking the boat. for the first time in some time, i have food, comps, laundry, bills paid, and $1300+ to work with and a tiny bit of stability in my life. just wish i had more than only 500 seals.

and if anyone is wondering what happened to carmens blog, she is in jail for probation violation and i think soon will see a judge it probably wont go well for her, but u can hope. i never wouldve guessed a few years ago id be playing such little poker in the last year compared to the way i used to play nonstop live casinos the whole time i was awake back in the old days where u could always buyin $40 in $1-5 stud no ante, no blinds, and play hours and hours. u just didnt need a bankroll back then.

and also i remember almost NOTHING from my life from 1993 to 2003. thats weird.

23 comments:

  1. Assuming its a legit job offer exactly what do you have to lose? You're almost broke and can just start back where u left off with zero effort.

    You need the money and should do it

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  2. pretty obvious i see myself spending lots of money traveling to idaho, paying to get to the airport or bus from Jean, paying for hotels, then everything falling thru and being stuck in boise with a greatly reduced roll and nothing to fall back on. now if this offer took place in vegas that would be different. and its certainly not the cost of the ticket to boise, that would be about 1 4th of the expense is all.

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  3. Tony if you can beg for money for phone and Internet from your benefactors as a gift, I'm sure they would buy you a bus ticket and a week in a hotel if it was for a job and you actually went and worked and paid them back at some point. Far more respectable than giving you cash to stick in a VBJ machine.

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  4. Also, leave poor Carmen alone. The last thing she needs in her struggles is a needy fellow addict dragging her down.

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  5. Tony regarding the job offer I would be sure I knew the name of the person making the offer and the name of the company, address phone numbers etc before I traveled that distance. I don't know if its a legit offer or not. Lotta people mess with you and it may be something you can't/won't do. You might also be able to be fronted travel expenses to be deducted from your pay. Just some thoughts on it. Those are the things I would do myself

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    1. Yeah this. Maybe run it by tatude privately with any info

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  6. I'll be arriving in Las Vegas on June 2. My brother is taking a pass on this trip. I think he is working on Obama's latest plan to take over the world.

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    1. The President has asked me to look into fraud regarding SSI payments and persons not filing tax returns, especially those who accept gifts to supplement income. I might be making a trip to Las Vegas later in the year to deal with these culprits. Any information given to me will, of course, be kept strictly confidential. Please pass on my personal greetings to Tony. I'm sure that I will be seeing him again soon.

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  7. won 3 out of 3 freerolls on a poker site thats not much good, where my winnings are only worth $1 per freeroll, pretty much a waste of time until they gain some players. been wanting to go play the VBJ but its really full all the time or was, this being the memorial day weekend. so im pretty much stuck in the room doing nothing the whole weekend, and that guy is trustworthy, he is on my facebook and is a political conservative who dislikes obama but believes in the NRA. Also he is from a rural area of TX, which has some of the best people along with oklahoma.

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  8. Tony:

    IF the deal is real, you HAVE to take him up on that offer.

    It's 6 months to have more money than you've ever had. 6 months to have the type of roll grind 1/2 for as long as you want.

    If you can't summon the nuts to deal with 6 months of hard work to accomplish YOUR LIFE'S DREAM, then simply cash it in now and go homeless.

    You have a chance to change your life. Do you think anyone else is going to offer you a chance to change your life? You can put up with 6 months of prison, can't you? To have the type of life you want, you should be able to put up with 6 months of work.

    Take it. Take it, say thanks, smile at him everyday. Be nice to his family and work your ass off. It's probably the only time you'll ever have an offer like this. TAKE IT!

    s.i.

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    1. I can't agree with this enough - Tony, check out the job to make sure it's legit, and if so - TAKE IT TAKE IT TAKE IT. Job offers of $1000/wk pre-tax don't come along very often to someone with no education or skills. Live cheaply for the six months, and build up your roll - then go back to Vegas and you can play poker properly rolled.

      You're an idiot if you pass up this opportunity.

      Good luck.

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  9. I don't want to be the wet blanket here, but I simply cannot imagine Tony showing up, day after day, week after week, for a SIXTY HOUR A WEEK job. He has never given the slightest indication that he has the discipline, stamina, or focus to do this.

    Can Tony be pleasant, friendly, maintain his hygiene, and not make excuses or slack off for that period of time? Will he not become bored and decide the work is beneath him, cooped up all day in a room with the boss's wife? How long before he decides this work is "beneath" him?

    I think Tony is right to worry about winding up stranded in Idaho if things don't go well.

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  10. Before you take the trip to Idaho for your new job. Contact the company that your suppose to be working for and make sure you really have the job.

    Or ask someone that you trust to contact the company and verify it for you.

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  11. Let's get real here. A guy with virtually no work history for over 20 years of adult life is not going to take and do a job for 60 hours a week. Tony will not even consider some type of unskilled labor to earn money but would rather panhandle.

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    1. Lightning:

      Surely, the counselor in you believes in the human capacity for change? Yes, this would require effort and focus Tony has NEVER shown previously. But I think you would agree that this is a potentially life-changing opportunity for Tony (perhaps the last one he will ever have), so if he has even a glimmer of that capacity, shouldn't he expend it on something like this?

      The odds are against him. But I think he has it in him if he REALLY embraces this as his one last shot at a life of which he can be proud - a life based not on strife and deprivation and shame, but one spent pursuing larger purpose and doing what he professes to love.

      I think he has to take that shot, even if it is defying the odds.

      s.i.

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    2. Hi s.i. Certainly I believe in the capacity for change, but my brief history with Tony (and referenced by some other people) tells me that change with Tony is incremental. Expecting anyone with a lifelong history of not being gainfully employed to suddenly take on a job working 60 hours a week is clearly not realistic. We have seen time and time again that Tony has rejected working any type of job, continually listing reasons why (some, in my opinion, valid), and stating his preference to return to panhandling, if necessary.

      For some people, fear and the threat of poverty will compel them to take on almost any job. Tony has lived in poverty and does not have some of that same fear as a motivator, especially since he does not apparently see his obligation to support his son and assist his mother, and since he has a history of cutting expenses and surviving on almost nothing.

      Tony is impulsive and cannot or does not ever see long-term plannning in the sense that many of us do. The whole equation of hard work + planning + saving = success/freedom does not strike a chord in him.

      I think that understanding Tony includes seeing him as someone on the autism spectrum who also has a host of long-standing and deeply seated psychological issues. Personality characteristics that work against his success include some degrees of stubborness, entitlement and laziness.

      I would love for Tony to take this shot if it is indeed legit. And yes, it would change his life dramatically. However, I do not see what motivators would persuade him to take that chance.

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    3. I would love to see Tony take this job and work like hell for 6 months to build a BR.

      However, I can't see how he can go from not working for 20 years, and never in his life worked a full time (40 hours/wk) job, to working 60 hours a week for 6 months. It is just not going to happen.

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  12. If Tony doesn't take this job, can someone please offer it to me? Been playing poker with little to no margin of error to get by. For $1000 a week I'll walk to Boise.

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  13. Tony:

    In honor of you, I went and played at the Venitian last night (I had read the game was soft on your blog - it wasn't "soft". There were a couple hours where there were at least 3 players at the table better than me, but if you're smart enough to avoid the sharks, there were always 3-5 players who played too tight or were calling stations). Bought in for 300 and cashed out $831.00 :=) Played ABC, with a few moves once I had established a table image. It wasn't too hard and I never had to suck out; I even had a couple bad beats.

    You could be doing that too, if you had the roll to buy in deep and actually PLAY poker. Remember those days when you were buying in deep? You were able to play pretty well and you had some very good wins.

    Take the damn job, work hard, be nice to EVERYONE (even the ones who annoy you), and thank your employer every day. You'll have more money than you've ever had in your life and able to chase your dreams. You'll never get another chance at it. Never.

    People would have a lot of respect for you if you showed them you were willing to work hard to achieve your goals. If you don't, that decision will haunt you forever.

    s.i.

    p.s. - both Jamie Gold and Chris Moneymaker (as well as "The Iceman!" were playing. Moneymaker was playing 2/5 and I saw him get sucked out on a pretty big pot. He's much shorter than he looks on t.v. Not sure what Gold was playing, but he got up from a 1/2 game and changed tables - probably to a 2/5 or to the plo game they were running. It's fun to see the poker big wigs playing in the same room you're in.

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  14. Tony take the job if its legit, hell you might even like it. Its an easy bankroll builder.

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  15. id like to find out who is the most experienced PLO player reading this blog to ask them something.

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    1. shall we have a quiz to determine this?

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    2. I've watched it on Tee-Vee.

      I know it involves four cards.

      How am I doing so far...? Why don't you post your question openly on your blog, Tony? You can judge the merits of the responses and let us know who YOU think is most experienced.


      s.i.

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