I'll start this off with the 2 pieces of good news, and then get into my fears. And any bad news. First off, the roll is $1412 including about $200 on UP. And ive not touched any machines since coming back to Vegas. I am glad i left Jean and came back to Vegas, but im wondering if i will still feel that way Tues when i lose my apt.
The immediate need is to find long term CHEAP housing of way less than $150 a week if possible. i see about 4 places for $150 a week, some arent all that safe unless im wrong, and i dont know how well the internet would work. Always fearful of places with wifi the wifi not working, and im going to be needing wifi.
some arent in the best location, i either need to be downtown, or somewhere safe near lake mead or rancho. or near alta or charleston. No way in hell am i keeping the place im at, it ended up being $257 for the week with wifi. this is certainly one of the far nicer places by the week in vegas. and 100% safe.
--so yesterday Seattle Irish picked me up about 30 minutes later than planned, because of a issue with his wife/kids. we made it to the SSI lawyer about 2.17pm and still managed to get in to see him. He also didnt know Craig Rd was north of Charleston. (go figure). he says hes never been in NLV. anyway i thought it would be best if he attended the appt with me, and i also had the list of questions Josie gave me to ask the attorny, who is now officially set up as my atty since i signed the paperwork, and yes he will get a cut.
the atty dont think my chances are that good since i spent so much time being successful at poker and said that wont look good to SSI. he also thinks i should go to southern NV mental health and have them do an employment assesment to see what they think i should do. Not sure how to explain what he said would help me get on SSI the most as well as i am sure seattle irish can. He did say the several times i had jobs of only a few days way in the past would help to show i might not be able to handle it.
after the appt SI dropped me off at TX station, and he went on home. i managed to win $101 there plus the $10 i gave Ray the dealer (also the Riv dealer) who drove me home. I definitely dont like waiting for the bus there in the middle of the night alone, especially with a dead cell phone since id not brought along my charger. at least if it worked i could look up the times its due.
so i got home about 4.30-5am and ate and slept, and woke up about 2pm. and the first thing i did was call dave who said i could see him today anytime after 12 noon. we went to the suncoast, played $4-8 stud, and he bought me in for $100, and again i won, cashed out $163, and he let me keep $40 of it. we left because he suggested we go play NL. so we drove to the Golden Nugget, and we each bought in $200 at the same table (me with his $200 stake). and this will explain why its not a good idea for me to play NL with my own money right now.
i hadnt been getting anything to play at all, and was out about $25, when i got TT. a new player and his wife/gf had just sat, and he raised it preflop to $14. i just called instead of reraising, and the old man behind me called with 77. along with 2 others. flop comes 237 and everyone checks to me in late position, including the raiser who i later found out had AT. turns out the raiser raised with a lot of hands and i wish i had known this earlier or id reraised him and maybe the 77 folds. anyway i didnt want to give a free card so i bet $60, and he goes allin for $130. and i guess i shouldnt called, the old man whose a regular had a set.
after that hand im down to $39, Dave ends up losing his whole stack and he was up about $65 once. he leaves the game and hands me $20 and says use it to get home since he is leaving. at one point i had his stake back to $75 but i eventually lose it all, mostly with AK hearts. after that i walked up to the 113 bustop and went on home, where im now playing on UP while updating the blog.
i feel very bad about losing that $200, goes to show u variance is a bitch in NL, and is why i cant play it til i get a better roll. an overpair is hard to lay down once u commit a lot of chips. i feel a lot safer in smaller limit games and nonholdem games. Dave was extremely nice to give me the extra $20, but now i fear that will be the last of the stakes unless ill still get them but owe serious makeup, so i hope ive got enough to now survive on my own but ive got a lot that needs paid, i think i will never make it without a place to live for almost nothing. also i ran quite a bit over average this week until today's loss in the golden nugget. i probably will not continue to run anywhere near that well. at least ive not been around any machines. still would prefer to live in reno if it just wouldnt cost so much of the roll simply to get there.
the attorny says my hearing for SSI will probably be in about 6-7 months. no way to know til it gets closer to that time. he also says if i am in reno instead of Vegas, id need a different atty. Both SI and Dave have been of tremendous help to me this week, along with Josie and 1 friend whose name i cant say. i am really dreading Tues and moving my stuff. Tatude has a suitcase on wheels he can give me tues, but if its not before 11am tues, when im forced to be out, it wont do as much good as if i had it in time. not sure what time he will be in vegas. if im not out by 11am, it will run up a $45 charge on someone elses bankcard, which isnt a good idea. and i have no more places i can get cheap rooms for 1-2 weekdays in a casino. although expedia is below average this week, but it costs too much to pay by the day, and resort fees are outrageous, and only getting worse.
also, i feel really bad for the way i falsely accused KOD of reversing the internet charge on purpose, i only felt that way due to the 3 week wait, his email, and his more recent posts thinking i was begging too much. i hope he can find it in his heart to forgive me, because i regret everyday that i did that, without just calmly waiting til he got off work and had more time to see what was going on. the $115 he got back that hed paid 2 months earlier, im sure i probably owed him that for mistreating him, i sure learned a hard and costly lesson. otherwise my roll would be over $1500 now. for some reason i am always thinking the worst of others, and that they are out to do me harm and im afraid to trust anyone not to someday turn against me. even more so because of how Claudia betrayed me and went back to NY without taking me. i would never do that to a woman i loved. and since Rob vegas poker is mainly a limit player it bothers me he never suggests sitting in the same game since ive been playing a lot of $2-6 limit. i dont know where i pissed him off. at least PPP will see me next week