im not going to post anything because i was too upset last night about the results to post, had no way to get online til i got over to this starbucks today, and new roll is just under $600 after paying $6 here and a daily $7 bus pass. but that game isnt beatable. the rake is just too much, and i dont trust any of the dealers but 1.
i need to try the sink or swim method and i also need to get a lot further north. tried again to call and find out about the tour bus to Jean, and they said they only do groups. yet i know theres a bus with a lot of the same people on it i was told by the passengers before picks up somewhere downtown or in gardena near the normandy. the one with all the elderly black passengers. i would so much appreciate finding out where to board it at.
also found out about a game at the lucky derby in sacramento $20-100 buyin. too bad im not around that area of cali. and i need all clean clothes again or to go hunt and find that suitcase near el cajon. should be doing all the work today instead of playing while ive got the daily pass, and use it getting back up as far north as i can with the pass, which would be oceanside. lots of kids in here with laptops, some of whom look homeless. id sworn this one guy who looks like 12-14 but must be 18 was with his mother til they started making out. she must be 18-25 but looks 30.
the reason i gave Josie the mod powers to delete anything i say when mad was i know someday ill say a lot of terrible things in this blog ill regret, threats that will get me in serious trouble with the law. am really about to snap because i feel im being cheated just because im too broke to tip and yet i gave out a $7 tip just the day before, and a $1 tip when i got $50 ahead shortly after i sat last night before i then lost heavily all night. found a huge box to hide out and sleep in all night around spring valley.
also my phone shutoff is about to happen, the $219 past due, they are started to call me and im afraid if i tell them the truth they will know they arent getting anything so will shut it off sooner. i worry if they shut it off where i cant get codes ill lose access to my google blogger acct.