Tuesday, July 16, 2013

from vinces house

somehow managed to hold my roll at $763 by spending almost zero yesterday except for a $5 bus pass. (traveling between tx station, santa fe, and the mountainview hospital). i stayed too long at tx station, turning a $95 win at one point in the $2-6 game into only $26 win (game got too shorthanded). i thought since so many were willing to chop 4 handed, id not get hurt as badly. eventually i left to eat with a comp, and use the net a bit while in the restaraunt, and then i remembered the morning omaha8 game at the sante fe.

so i rode the bus there, and it turns out that game dont run everyday and they just wasnt able to get it going that morning, so essentially i went there for nothing. i did verify the wifi works good in the sante fe poker room. they have a much bigger size room than they really need. from there ive been worried about my scalp lately, so i rode the bus to the nearby mountainview hospital at cheyenne and tenaya. yes i know homeless people are supposed to use UMC, but the wait there is so horrible i thought id get treated much faster here. which i did, wasnt in there long at all.

regardless of what others said in yesterdays blog, i dont think that hospital tried to do a good job. the first nurse said there might be a tiny bit of infection but not much, the doctor didnt think so, and they seemed to only want to get me out of there. very few were in the lobby, no one else was homeless. the follow up paperwork they gave me said to see this one dr within 2 days, (but how--its not in an ER) and i never did find out if hes the same dr. and to use Selenium shampoo and to take Benadryil for itching. also to let the Selenium sit for 5 minutes before i wash it out.

and afterwards i spent the whole day sleeping at Vinces house for like 12 hours. Vince hasnt woke up yet, but i think he is taking me to the mental health intake center on charleston road at 7.30, for yesterday he was really wanting to make sure i got that done. he swears ill be getting ssi out of it, and i am just as certain i wont be, especially since the attorny seemed to feel it would do no good. also he says he cant just let me stay over at his place. i am way too broke now to spend anything at all on housing, and with so little money, i dont see myself really beating any game. the smallest of games arent that easy to overcome the rake. But after speaking to several good players from cali who know a lot of other people in a similar boat to me, these asian grinders said the $4-8 omaha at the commerce is quite beatable, and also the $40 NL with $1-2 blinds. they said instead of worrying so much about the rake, to worry more about my game compared to most of the opponents id be facing. now to give them credit, they did tell me NOT to attempt the $20 NL instead.

they also said a lot of info about how to get shuttles from LA to san diego area indian casinos. a lot of which park by the mcdonalds near the bike. i think im safer outdoors near those places further outside the main metropolitan areas, and those games go fairly often. pechanga even has 5 card 3-6 omaha. (although thats not my best game). they also said they knew of homeless guys riding the shuttles back and forth sleeping on the bus for free. (since the casino reimburses the shuttle bus fee). they also said i could catch them from other areas of LA too, such as lakewood. (not far from HG).

i know i dont have enough for housing in vegas, even if i found a place for $100 a week. my money is just too low. i dont have any desire to play machines, only played them once in weeks, and dont have enough for poker unless its an awful small game such as the Tx station game and the omaha8 game at suncoast. or maybe the game at club fortune but its such a long trip. certainly dont have enough for the 4-8stud8 game. antes way too steep. no longer feel i have enough for the V omaha game either, and certainly not enough for any NL. and UP seems to be in no mood to ever add omaha to the mix. so i really cant spend money on anything. i cant think of anything my money is enough to pay for. almost any bill, any expense, any poker game, any emegency, i need about $500-1000 more before i can pay it. essentially it just needs to sit locked up and warehoused. Kind of wish i could sit around moms if i could only get her to let me live there and eat free with $0 and still had a way to grind online there.

so it looks like me avoiding them machines isnt benefitting me any at all because i waited too long to do it. i still think (and im sure others do too) that it wouldve benefitted a great deal had i done so while i still had $3000 or so left. then i couldve grinded either the omaha8 or the NL, and had enough buyins to find out once and for all how id do sticking to only poker. the main reason now i dont have money isnt that i waste it in machines, for that isnt happening. its because i have no income coming in. its because the rake is just too high in the smallest poker games. and the software on UP sucks too much to play more than 1 table because it dont wait til u act to popup the next table. only those whove played on UP can understand this. otherwise i could be homeless downtown, (soon would need a cheap burner phone) and use the wifi at the goldspike. or the wifi elsewhere in vegas. lots of free wifi nowdays, including a lot of burger kings such as boulder stations. lot more free wifi than 4 years ago.

so i guess i should assume id find free wifi in cali too near a lot of casinos or cardrooms?

well im glad i learned all i did wrong when i was losing the $15000. i know now what to do the next time i have even as little as $5000 to make sure i never waste any of it. im not so mad about the losses, as all the money i wasted foolishly. the actual losses i think would eventually come back after enough play. but the money i knew i wasted on poor bets, that will never come back. am so glad i stopped this, even if i only stopped because of running out of money. what will be harder is actually putting this into practice when i do have the money the next time.

i wonder if JJbooey can still offer me that job and if it can be indoor work? i dont feel im strong enough psychically for outdoor work. i almost passed out carrying all those suitcases 4 blocks across the interstate in the heat to mountainview hospital. there was a goodwill donation center outdoors and a guy manning it, and i begged him for a bottle of cold icewater he had in a pack near him, which he was willing to hand me. also i need an income, and hopefully an income of over $400 a week. enough to pay all bills and still have about $200 a week left over so i can start saving up some money to get back to $2000. would like to be able to be indoors all day, preferably sitting at a desk or table and doing similar work to what i did in that mailroom at rl polk back in cleveland for min wage so many years ago when age 20-21.

i am worried about my health now that im old. i dont think im getting adequate medical care since i have no insurance. i dont understand where to apply for the obamacare insurance to get real medical care instead of going to welfare for it. and i know rich people still dont want it because of the way it forces the elderly to end their lives because of the huge long waits for medical care that bureaucrats can deny. and how business hate it because it forces them to lay off so many people since they cant afford the cost. i worry about my eyes because its harder to see smaller print without glasses nearly impossible. i worry about my hearing, but still feel its an unnoticed infection causing this. i worry no one will show up with the shears i was offered and wont see the blog again or even find someone to cut my hair for me. i need a wife. and a place to stay for free

i need someone willing to help me now, and me give them the money back if i get the ssi later on. like mom did in KS. she paid for the dr, and i paid her back double when i finally got the ssi. i wasnt on welfare or food stamps in ks living with her, it wouldve messed up their ssi. so she never had me go apply, just paid cash and had me later repay. ive never felt proud of myself if on welfare or food stamps, but saw ssi as something i deserved for being born with the aspergers and having to deal with being disabled. to me they arent the same. i dont really like having to deal with the govt rules and regulations and i felt it was unfair ssi has them, or required me to be below a certain income. i dont feel it should be means tested.

also whitcolumn said he wasnt going to have any net anymore, i miss talking to him. he was going to see about me getting into the God in Me housing program. i only felt like doing it since the guy in charge plays at texas station himself, but not poker from what Greg told me. and sickcall seems disappeared to NC forever to be with grump, for he never returned to vegas. also PPP never looked me up, just like JG, never would just sit and talk and find out what i wanted to do and how to go about it, i didnt intend to play any poker with them due to the fact i am in different games. and grouchie never did either. cant remember who else is coming to town.

also the nugget wouldnt let me use the voucher. they asked for the id number on it 1644, and they then knew i wasnt the one they mailed it to. its says its non transferable and i didnt think i could use it, but the one who gave it to me insisted i could. so there went those 3 days free. i found out when i called the extension on the letter head to try to reserve it.

what i wish more than anything is that i could pay like $99 somehow and get into an apt for a month. but i dont see how my credit would qualify. or to somehow find a loanshark whod give me $1000 upfront and then kill me if i didnt give him back $2000 when i get the ssi. i would work hard to qualify then. or a job i would enjoy paying over $10 an hour that not too physically hard or outdoors.

69 comments:

  1. also the readership is growing substantially i dont know why, the pageviews are getting to be about 3000 views per post instead of 1000-2000 now its 2000-3000

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    1. Tony, you have been told this before, when there is a long gap between posts, the page views go up because people are returning to the same page many times to read or post commenta. It is npt indicative of popularity increase.

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    2. it is growing bcuz ppl love to watch a train wreck. crash and burn, baby. u should of when to florida like i told u months ago but no u go to like ohio or chicago somewhere in the midwest i think. thumbsup. p.s. when u get this 400 dollar a week job were u can just sit on yr ass and do nothing let me know. thx

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  2. "they said instead of worrying so much about the rake, to worry more about my game compared to most of the opponents id be facing."

    All of us already told u it was your shitty game, not the rake but you replied that it was "100% not true". Yes you did.

    "am so glad i stopped this, even if i only stopped because of running out of money. what will be harder is actually putting this into practice when i do have the money the next time. "

    Once again Tony, wishing and hoping wont get it done, you need help for your addiction. You wont be cured of machine play if u ever have more money. You do the same things over and over and constantly find yourself in this position.

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    1. so are u really saying an excellent player can beat the highest rakes in the smallest of games, such as $2-4 limit? i dont think this is possible, and neither do most of the blog readers who play for a living from poker.

      a reason i think ill do better with more money the next time i have it is because its easier to get rid of an addiction if u replace it with something else. such as when a heavy drinker gets into religion. so if i replace those machines with poker games it becomes easier. ive never really tried buying in $300 a shot in $1-2 or playing $2-5 and if i did that with a big roll, that would keep me off of them.

      i also think id do much better in fresh locations no one would know me, such as Phoenix. that aa promotion sounds good if its really all 7 days but i doubt its near as many hours as hooters is.

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    2. Tony you crack me up bro. I wasnt talking about "an excellent player", I was talking about you.

      As far as your comment about "replacing machine play with poker".....you have never ever been able to do this and never will.

      You have zero self control with money unless you are down below 900 then it is easy to be scared and avoid machines.

      Buying in bigger would just tilt you more when you lose. You have not treated your gambling addiction and until you do you will live on the edge like this until you die.

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    3. "i also think id do much better in fresh locations no one would know me"

      HAHAHHAHAHAHA - Oh Tony the second you sit down at a poker table and open your non-stop yapper about your blog, your money woes, blah blah, they will know all about you - because you will tell them. You will be anonymous for about 2 minutes.

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    4. Tony, you will never do better with more money, because you are not working on the underlying addiction issues. You will buy into a bigger game, get a few bad beats, or even just hit a down swing and u will run right back to the machines. History don't lie, it was as recorded in your blogs in the last 5 years.

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    5. For five years, Tony is very prone to head straight to a machine and dust off a lot of money trying to get unstuck. He has done nothing to address or change that Behavior and simply has no money to do so anymore.

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    6. i never used to play them years ago, years ago my problem was live tables, and even craps table. i quit the live games and switched to machines, and i can just as easily switch to other games than the machines so i have a lot more faith in myself than the readers do. everyone who says i cant makes me just that much more stubborn wanting to prove myself

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    7. You've consistently and repeatedly proven otherwise. I don't see you going two weeks at this point without playing a machine and/or getting banned from somewhere. You've done NOTHING to fix your life situation and long term prospects other than lie to yourself

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  3. How hard is it to sort stack 1-2 in Vegas? Your an idiot if you can't double up and leave. Beating the rake in cali is impossible at 1-2. You have an opportunity, at 1-2 Vegas you can just sit back and wait for a premium every 3rd orbit, do you have anything better to do with your time?

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    1. the $1-2 in vegas is more nitty than in LA and requires a lot bigger roll than $800, and u have the same odds of being on the bottom end of a cooler as the top end in the long run

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    2. Nitty games should require a smaller BR, due to lower variance.

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  4. Tony, I didn't "look you up" when I was in Vegas for a combination of reasons. First, you are banned from the casinos I played out all trip. Second, since you pretty much sleep all day, many days you were just heading out for the "day" when I was winding down for the night. And third, yes, there were one or two days where we prolly good have met up; but I simply had no desire to play poker with you. There's nothing fun in my mind about sitting down at a table with you watching you throw your last few remaining dollars away. I also didn't think there was much purpose in taking a taxi downtown (or even to the Venetian) to "talk" with you. What do we have to talk about? Our mutual interests? Sports? Politics? The latest season of Game of Thrones? To the extent you wanted advice (about the only thing we could "talk" about, anything I had to say would simply be ignored because it runs afoul of you achieving your "dream." Several people (particularly s.i.) have done more than I would ever be willing to do to assist you in taking actual steps towards getting the help you need. And you have failed to follow through on any of it. What good is "talking" going to do? My honest opinion -- to the extent you have cooperated with s.i., Josie, or any one else who has tried to help you in a meaningful manner, it was only because you wanted to gain some ancillary benefit from their generosity, e.g., a ride from jean to Vegas, etc.

    I wish you well; but at this point, until you show some ability to help yourself (or even to want to help yourself), I'm out. And, for whatever it's worth, I still think you have no desire to help yourself to anything other than a larger "roll." You just want the ability to continue gambling. If this all sounds harsh, so be it.

    Again, good luck.

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  5. oh and as far as people finding their comments deleted, when i remove 1 comment, all the replies are automatically deleted also, theres no way i can save those. im been removing some comments because i dont want this blog to degenerate into RTP type comments. no name calling on this blog is welcomed, no matter whose doing it. i feel jon in oakland is a horrible mod for having it on RTP and is a big reason why i left.

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    1. Instead of deleting the whole comment, can't you just delete the body of the comment?

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    2. nope theres no way to do that. or to edit a comment

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  6. "Vince hasnt woke up yet, but i think he is taking me to the mental health intake center on charleston road at 7.30, for yesterday he was really wanting to make sure i got that done. he swears ill be getting ssi out of it, and i am just as certain i wont be, especially since the attorny seemed to feel it would do no good."


    Tony -

    That is not at all what your lawyer said. I don't know how you took that message from that meeting. Why do you think he gave you that form and said, multiple times, that your very next step had to be going to there? He said they MAY say you are able to work and that might damage your SSI claim; he also said that your only way to get SSI would be to go there and meet with them because the current doctor recommendation is to decline SSI. He said they may also be able to assign you a case manager who could get you food stamps, a place to live, job placement, etc...

    GO TO THE DAMN MENTAL HEALTH CLINIC!

    If you ever hope to have a roll again, that's your shot. Take it or don't - but know that if you don't, you are almost certainly homeless and heading towards a miserable death.

    s.i.

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    1. "May?" Didn't you report the lawyer said Tony would have to lie to get SSI? This post reads quite different than your 1st post about the appointment and SSI. Not questioning the other things Tony may qualify for, just he SSI.

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    2. Actually, the lawyer was, understandably, quite opaque on that point. The implication was that Tony would have to lie (say that he wasn't able to concentrate for extended periods) or they would say he had the requisite ability to do Level One or Two work. He did say they might stipulate that he be on medication and THAT medication may impact his ability to concentrate. He also said there was the possibility that Tony's mood swings might be taken into account and that may exclude some work requirements if they couldn't be corrected.

      I do imagine the tone of my post is different. It's no longer filled with any optimism or hope. I honestly think Tony is gonna fuck this up and he's going to die out on the streets. He's almost 50 and is going to be panhandling for gambling stakes, homeless in So. Cal or Vegas. I don't think he's going to act with any responsibility and follow through - before I thought he might. He doesn't seem to assign this any urgency or importance and repeatedly finds minor items to occupy his time and energy. Maybe it's all defense mechanisms or maybe he just values his "freedom" more than this opportunity.

      I don't know.

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    3. when i went in there, vince took me around 10am, and the receptionist said that their doctors dont do anything to help people qualify for ssi or send any reports to ssi. they said i should only fill out an intake and talk if i wanted to become a mental health client. there were about 30 others in there whod been sitting there all morning, and i am sure they were all a lot dumber than me, and i just didnt feel its for me so i left. Vince says he wants to take me back this morning. and i also bought the shampoo also. Selsium blue selenium for $6.99 plus tax at walgreens. spoke about this to josie by email and also JG when she phoned. actually what Jennifer wants is for me to find housing or a job. and unless im a mental health client, they cant try to find that either. im just not someone who needs to be a client. thats for retarted people, not smart people with a disability relating and speaking to others.

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    4. in other words, i feel too out of place and uncomfortable there, and the only way id consider returning is with SI to talk for me and sit there all day with me to speak on my behalf.

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    5. Tony,
      You don't seem to understand how the Mental Health Center works. It is not for just retarded people, it is mostly for people that are having mental problems. You suffer from anger outbursts, mood swings, paranoia, depression, and difficulty with relating to others. That is not retardation, that is mental problems. A lot of smart people suffer from some of these problems, it doesn't mean they are retarded. Here is how the clinic works. They don't get you SSI, however, if you are a client, the attorney can request their input on the decision. If you are assigned a casemanager, they assist you in receiving any benefits you qualify for such as housing, food stamps, health care and employment. The casemanager will look at the entire picture and see what is available for you and what you need and assist you in getting these benefits. However, it does take a little bit of effort on your part. And I think that is where the problem is, you want to just wake up and everything be taken care of for you. You should go back to the clinic and sign up and see where it goes.

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    6. i think the autism resource guide at the bottom of this page is more suitable to me, but not sure who can offer the type of help id want and could solve my problems quick enough. thats why most people have friends they can turn to. not to freeload of, of course id gladly pay back when i have a decent roll again. i know ill take off eventually and have 15k again because i did it before. it will be so much easier the next time around with all i learned about plus ev and minus ev games.

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    7. "The type of help you want" = give you money to gamble with, a free place to stay and pay your cell and Internet

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  7. Tony, for once in your life, take a few days to sit down with a pen and some paper and write down what you want out of life. Then right down all of the steps you will need to take to reach those goals.

    Then, every single day of the rest of your life, work on taking those steps to reach your goals. By now you should realize that there are no magic wish fairies who are going to make your dreams magically come true. You will have to put effort into it if you want to end up with a decent life and not dead in a gutter in a couple of years.

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  8. Tony - One of these days, can you put a post together about you have a son? Who is the mother of your son? Do you ever see the mother? Can she help you out? Does she help out with your son?

    You're on Skid Row, my friend. You can get a job but don't want one. You can get SSI but don't want it. You can get welfare but don't want it. All you seem to want are handouts from your readers. I'm actually impressed you've gotten you this far.

    Are you checked out of all online poker venues? You said you cashed out of UP. Did you also cash out of SWC? What about any other online poker rooms? If you find your golden situation of a free place to stay with wifi, where will you grind poker for a profit, day in day out? It seems like once again, your plan is half baked, even though the first part of the plan (finding free housing) does not seem attainable.

    I wonder whether it's better to be homeless in LA or LV. I really have no clue, but I just don't understand why you wouldn't take every last step in avoiding being homeless by visiting the various shelters and outreach programs offered on this blog. It's beyond me why you'd rather be sleeping on the streets than exhaust every option. Is it a worry that your time is more valuable than hunting down those options? It seems like there is a very cheap price on your time.

    As an aside, it kinda pisses me off when you complain about how long you had to wait or how little time a doctor spent with you. Are you kidding? You're willfully uninsured, willfully unhealthy and willfully neglectful of yourself. By my measure, your time spent waiting is far less valuable than the guy/gal who is waiting next to you who actually pays taxes, works 9-5, does the "right thing" and doesn't willfully leech off the system.

    I sincerely hope you don't go completely busto - but what happens in that scenario? What if, when you get to wherever you're going, you play poker and blow through your last $800 or whatever you have left? What's your fallback plan then?

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    1. if i entered a shelter then i would be homeless. dont keep me from being homeless imo. i never know what my plan will be, i just expect to win eventually and be in good shape as long as all my bets are +ev, which they mostly are now since im off machines. i do wish UP would hurry up and add omaha, if i must get a new cheap burner phone i can do that for under $30. that will be a valid option or any other site once more than holdem is up and running.

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    2. Your bets aren't all +EV. You frequently play in poker games where you have no edge.

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  9. Tony, did u change something with your blog settings? I started getting all the comments on your blog sent to my gmail account since this morning. Please make it stop.

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    1. evidently u must of hit the words below subscribe by email to new comments. i dont even know ur email, but google would.

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    2. Thx Tony, I must have subscribed by accident acrolling thru the comments on my phone.

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    3. i wish everyone would subscribe to comments by email that way no one could complain about missing comments

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  10. So you want a job that pays more than $10/hour, that isn't physically demanding, that is entirely indoors, and that is something you think is fun. And, though you didn't specify this, obviously it has to be something that requires no college degree or special vocational training, since those would disqualify you. How many jobs do you think there are that hit all those points?

    As for housing, you want it to be free or way below market cost, to be in a neighborhood that you deem safe enough, close to transportation, close to casinos, furnished (since you have no money with which to buy furnishings), with a complex set of requirements about entrances and windows, etc., that you deem necessary for your sense of safety.

    While you're at it, why not just say that you'd like a magic unicorn to ride to the casinos, and a genie popping out of a bottle with hundred-dollar bills whenever you need topping off?

    Do you have ANY concept of how unrealistic, how utterly out of touch with reality, these expectations are?

    I want a billion dollars in small, unmarked bills delivered to my doorstep by noon tomorrow. I'm just as likely to find it there as you are to find the kinds of employment and housing situations you want.

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    1. I think the genie is unrealistic.

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    2. In response to this - or along with this - I recently have had a guy start working for me who has been in construction for most of his life.
      He has done a lot of work making a shit ton more money than he currently makes but is now working in retail because he needed a job making money to support his family.

      He has never once bitched about how much work he has to do or how he has to re-educate himself entirely for a new profession and a new set of customers/clients/whatever.
      He has never once bitched about the size of the work list I leave for him or what I ask him to do.
      He comes into work every day with a smile and a good attitude because he is happy to have a job and making money to help support his family.

      This is the type of person you should be striving to be, imo, fyi, lol, adidas

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    4. nothing odd in saying the job should be indoors and fun, working at the place Grouchie does would qualify as would any retail store as long as its an hourly wage and not commission. so did that RL Polk mailroom in cleveland qualify. running a cash register although id need to learn how would be a lot more fun than working at mcdonalds or being out in the heat.

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  11. LOL about your loanshark comment. I don't think loansharks collect based on ability to pay, or contigent on someone getting SSI. What happens when u get denied, should the loanshark just walks away?

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  12. what i wish more than anything is that i could pay like $99 somehow and get into an apt for a month. but i dont see how my credit would qualify. or to somehow find a loanshark whod give me $1000 upfront and then kill me if i didnt give him back $2000 when i get the ssi. i would work hard to qualify then. or a job i would enjoy paying over $10 an hour that not too physically hard or outdoors. Tony I copied this down because it looks like you are coming to point called " the bottom". This is when things get so bad they just do not add up. You my friend are sounding for the lack of a better word delusional. You want to borrow money from a loanshark who would kill you if you did not pay him back. I think you have been living this crazy life of yours and it has taken a big toll on your sanity. The government is not set up to help you and most of your friends can not support you. Playing poker is not the answer either. You are going to have to find something to do that will support you. Give up on poker. It is a waste of time.

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  13. let me know tony. when u get that 400 dollar a week job bcuz my roomie is busting his ass 4 12 dollars/hr. we both need jobs were we just sit on r ass and dream of losing 100s on gambling, thx u r the best

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  14. Tony if you can make it to Edmonson Tx I have a house right behind mine that you can live in for FREE!!!!!!! All you have to do is mow and weed eat my yard once a week. My wife does it now. You have my number call if interested.

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  15. The best thing Tony can do is to call his mom and tell her he loves her and needs help until he can get back on ssi. Go home Tony! That is your best option

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  16. "i need a wife. and a place to stay for free"

    lololol so epic! sorry though tony sounds like things suck right now...you gotta get healthy and clean up before anything else can happen...also, you need a job asap go try temp work places, 700 bucks is not even a weeks expenses.

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    1. so if u say $700 isnt a week expenses, (most readers will disagree) then how could i live on a job paying $300-400 a week? the only way out is to make sure my weekly expenses are well under $100. my only internet now is thru wifi, soon ill be without a phone if that cant get paid either, and i need to somehow get rid of any other expense too. then i need to bring in some income

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    2. Any plans for getting the phone paid and getting some income in other than wishing and hoping?

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  17. finally had a decent day, in fact at one point i was winning $186, but ended up leaving up $107. gave Vince $10 to get some sleep, and also Jennifer Gay called me on the phone after she made sure she was in AZ first. new roll $849. of course im still homeless and this isnt remotely enough to play poker or find a place, but at least im a bit better off than i was yesterday morning.

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    1. Any plans to get off Vince's couch and respect his roommate's right to privacy and to enjoy the shared living space that they pay for?

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    2. am nowhere near vinces roommates, i never see them unless i walk into the kitchen but they are usually always in their room and awake different hours. sometimes they go into the living room. am in a private area of the house nowhere near them. remember they are paying him money, its vinces house, he doesnt rent from them, he rents to them. the guy also plays poker and dont mind me around.

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    3. Them paying Vince rent gives them more right to the house than you being Vince's friend. Money talks.

      And I am sure they would love to be out and about in the house more, but your inability to be silent and or clean would prevent that.

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  18. What is your excuse for not going to the Mental Health place? City busses run out of gas? Don't pin this on someone else. It is on you to get there.

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    1. as i commented earlier i did go over there, but didnt stay long after hearing discouraging news. i dont really feel right going over there, i feel it would be abusing the system and immoral since i dont really want any services because they dont suit me needs. i dont feel right abusing the system and thats why i avoid the system and make do on my own, even if that leads me to living a spartan lifestyle, at least i can live with myself and feel right before God. the only time i cannot live with myself is when i waste money on machines or on foolish bets and im not been doing that. started to yesterday when i was getting too tired and i went and called Vince cause i didnt want to keep playing, luckily for me he came through

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    2. "i dont feel right abusing the system and thats why i avoid the system and make do on my own, even if that leads me to living a spartan lifestyle, at least i can live with myself and feel right before God. "

      You went to an emergency room for a scalp problem you've had for years, maybe even decades. Clearly not an emergency by any definition. You could have made an appointment with a family practice doctor or a dermatologist. That's "abusing the system," which you say you don't feel right about.

      When you checked in, you signed a form agreeing to pay whatever the charges would be, right? What address did you give them to send the bill to? How are you going to pay the bill (which will be hundreds of dollars) when it comes? Will you set up a payment plan to pay it off over time?

      My guess is that you went to the ER instead of a doctor's office for two reasons. First, it was more convenient. Second, you knew that they won't demand same-day payment, as most doctor's offices will. I'm guessing that you have no intention of paying that bill, and that you never did. In other words, you signed a paper agreeing to pay the bill while knowing in your heart that you were not going to. I.e., you lied. I.e., you are dishonest--despite all the times you claim here to be an honest person.

      So when you say that you "make do on [your] own," let's be clear that part of how you do that is by dishonesty, by ripping off the hospital for the cost of their services.

      Of course, if I'm wrong in these guesses, I'd be happy to hear it.

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    3. i told them i had no address so they then just wanted phone numbers for me. i dont remember signing anything about paying anything, they had me initial something when i left but im not sure what it was for. they knew they had no way to send me a bill. thats why i was worried that they wouldnt give good service and might lie. i thought it was an emergency because when i was infected before, i let it go too long and couldve died. vince had me convinced i needed to go immediately and check it out, and i was worried cause i was feeling a fever i dont feel anymore. how was i to know it wasnt an emergency that needed taken care of? i knew i couldnt pay, and it needed looked at. i dont feel thats abusing the system because everyone whose broke gets free care thru the ER. in a situation where u might die, its different, glad that didnt turn out to be the case. what i do is avoid the system unless its what i think an emergency.

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    4. How many unpaid medical bills do you have now?

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  19. http://asdcenter.org/sites/default/files/guide_2012-2013.pdf

    heres a book of all the resources available to people with autism in NV. which of these do u think i should investigate, and if i investigate any of them, i really would appreciate the presence of SI, for his assistance was invaluable.

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    1. Well, you are going to need a diagnosis of autism to see any of these place. The mental health center will probably have to refer you to a doctor who can provide that. Also, they would know what you need. None of us will know that. They will point you in the right direction.

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  20. that guide was originally sent to me by tatude months ago, and stored in my emails

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  21. Question or those keeping score...

    Just how long did Josie's self imposed exile from TBC last?

    I sure hope to run into her at Foxwoods someday. BTW played with your boyfriend Jimmie the other day. He reloaded 3 times at 2-5.

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    1. Hi Sugar!

      8 days to be exact. Since 7/9.

      Tony did stay away from machines for 2 weeks before his lapse and my threat was about staying away for at least a week.

      This is my first comment here, mainly to answer your question. (your fault!) I did release the comment about Catholic Charities because I felt it was important.

      Today I released a bunch of comments because Tony asked me to resume posting. I figure he can delete whatever he wants after the fact.

      This whole situation frustrates the hell out of me. Tony's fears cripple him and make his limited choices even more limited and make the whole situation more difficult than it should be.

      I don't want Tony to think I've abandoned him when the going got tough. We are now back in communication but he's the one who has to stop himself from becoming homeless. He's the one who's going to have to start making difficult choices. Not everything can be or should be fun.

      Speaking of fun, I'll be in Foxwoods mid August for the WSOP circuit events and hope to do a hit and run there in July. I'll post here in advance which davs, and we can def say hello. Bring some $$$ and we can play a little cash. Heh.

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    2. Bring a lot of cash so that you can stack the cash donkey multiple times. : o )

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  22. Tony:

    Work is pretty busy this week - earliest I can do it is next week (not sure what day). Call or get on line and see if they're open on weekend.

    s.i.

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  23. Tony I am wiling to stake you in some 1/2nl games under the following circumstances: I will receive 50% of the winnings, the other 50% is for you but instead of just giving you the cash I will take you to Walmart and use all of your 50% to buy clothes, food and/or personal hygiene items. lmk

    Also, the job offer in Vegas still stands, however it IS a outdoor job that requires physical work. lmk

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  24. Tony I am wiling to stake you in some 1/2nl games under the following circumstances: I will receive 50% of the winnings, the other 50% is for you but instead of just giving you the cash I will take you to Walmart and use all of your 50% to buy clothes, food and/or personal hygiene items. lmk

    Also, the job offer in Vegas still stands, however it IS a outdoor job that requires physical work. lmk

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    1. Typing from cell while at table so keeping this short, but definitely would. If I won big can it go for rent
      Or for my phone? For without a place to live those other items cant be kept. Food is useful if I have a room to put it in. would need to understand what type of outside work only history was mowing lawns as a kid

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  25. Funny, I got an email notification of every other new comment but not Josies

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