somehow managed to hold my roll at $763 by spending almost zero yesterday except for a $5 bus pass. (traveling between tx station, santa fe, and the mountainview hospital). i stayed too long at tx station, turning a $95 win at one point in the $2-6 game into only $26 win (game got too shorthanded). i thought since so many were willing to chop 4 handed, id not get hurt as badly. eventually i left to eat with a comp, and use the net a bit while in the restaraunt, and then i remembered the morning omaha8 game at the sante fe.
so i rode the bus there, and it turns out that game dont run everyday and they just wasnt able to get it going that morning, so essentially i went there for nothing. i did verify the wifi works good in the sante fe poker room. they have a much bigger size room than they really need. from there ive been worried about my scalp lately, so i rode the bus to the nearby mountainview hospital at cheyenne and tenaya. yes i know homeless people are supposed to use UMC, but the wait there is so horrible i thought id get treated much faster here. which i did, wasnt in there long at all.
regardless of what others said in yesterdays blog, i dont think that hospital tried to do a good job. the first nurse said there might be a tiny bit of infection but not much, the doctor didnt think so, and they seemed to only want to get me out of there. very few were in the lobby, no one else was homeless. the follow up paperwork they gave me said to see this one dr within 2 days, (but how--its not in an ER) and i never did find out if hes the same dr. and to use Selenium shampoo and to take Benadryil for itching. also to let the Selenium sit for 5 minutes before i wash it out.
and afterwards i spent the whole day sleeping at Vinces house for like 12 hours. Vince hasnt woke up yet, but i think he is taking me to the mental health intake center on charleston road at 7.30, for yesterday he was really wanting to make sure i got that done. he swears ill be getting ssi out of it, and i am just as certain i wont be, especially since the attorny seemed to feel it would do no good. also he says he cant just let me stay over at his place. i am way too broke now to spend anything at all on housing, and with so little money, i dont see myself really beating any game. the smallest of games arent that easy to overcome the rake. But after speaking to several good players from cali who know a lot of other people in a similar boat to me, these asian grinders said the $4-8 omaha at the commerce is quite beatable, and also the $40 NL with $1-2 blinds. they said instead of worrying so much about the rake, to worry more about my game compared to most of the opponents id be facing. now to give them credit, they did tell me NOT to attempt the $20 NL instead.
they also said a lot of info about how to get shuttles from LA to san diego area indian casinos. a lot of which park by the mcdonalds near the bike. i think im safer outdoors near those places further outside the main metropolitan areas, and those games go fairly often. pechanga even has 5 card 3-6 omaha. (although thats not my best game). they also said they knew of homeless guys riding the shuttles back and forth sleeping on the bus for free. (since the casino reimburses the shuttle bus fee). they also said i could catch them from other areas of LA too, such as lakewood. (not far from HG).
i know i dont have enough for housing in vegas, even if i found a place for $100 a week. my money is just too low. i dont have any desire to play machines, only played them once in weeks, and dont have enough for poker unless its an awful small game such as the Tx station game and the omaha8 game at suncoast. or maybe the game at club fortune but its such a long trip. certainly dont have enough for the 4-8stud8 game. antes way too steep. no longer feel i have enough for the V omaha game either, and certainly not enough for any NL. and UP seems to be in no mood to ever add omaha to the mix. so i really cant spend money on anything. i cant think of anything my money is enough to pay for. almost any bill, any expense, any poker game, any emegency, i need about $500-1000 more before i can pay it. essentially it just needs to sit locked up and warehoused. Kind of wish i could sit around moms if i could only get her to let me live there and eat free with $0 and still had a way to grind online there.
so it looks like me avoiding them machines isnt benefitting me any at all because i waited too long to do it. i still think (and im sure others do too) that it wouldve benefitted a great deal had i done so while i still had $3000 or so left. then i couldve grinded either the omaha8 or the NL, and had enough buyins to find out once and for all how id do sticking to only poker. the main reason now i dont have money isnt that i waste it in machines, for that isnt happening. its because i have no income coming in. its because the rake is just too high in the smallest poker games. and the software on UP sucks too much to play more than 1 table because it dont wait til u act to popup the next table. only those whove played on UP can understand this. otherwise i could be homeless downtown, (soon would need a cheap burner phone) and use the wifi at the goldspike. or the wifi elsewhere in vegas. lots of free wifi nowdays, including a lot of burger kings such as boulder stations. lot more free wifi than 4 years ago.
so i guess i should assume id find free wifi in cali too near a lot of casinos or cardrooms?
well im glad i learned all i did wrong when i was losing the $15000. i know now what to do the next time i have even as little as $5000 to make sure i never waste any of it. im not so mad about the losses, as all the money i wasted foolishly. the actual losses i think would eventually come back after enough play. but the money i knew i wasted on poor bets, that will never come back. am so glad i stopped this, even if i only stopped because of running out of money. what will be harder is actually putting this into practice when i do have the money the next time.
i wonder if JJbooey can still offer me that job and if it can be indoor work? i dont feel im strong enough psychically for outdoor work. i almost passed out carrying all those suitcases 4 blocks across the interstate in the heat to mountainview hospital. there was a goodwill donation center outdoors and a guy manning it, and i begged him for a bottle of cold icewater he had in a pack near him, which he was willing to hand me. also i need an income, and hopefully an income of over $400 a week. enough to pay all bills and still have about $200 a week left over so i can start saving up some money to get back to $2000. would like to be able to be indoors all day, preferably sitting at a desk or table and doing similar work to what i did in that mailroom at rl polk back in cleveland for min wage so many years ago when age 20-21.
i am worried about my health now that im old. i dont think im getting adequate medical care since i have no insurance. i dont understand where to apply for the obamacare insurance to get real medical care instead of going to welfare for it. and i know rich people still dont want it because of the way it forces the elderly to end their lives because of the huge long waits for medical care that bureaucrats can deny. and how business hate it because it forces them to lay off so many people since they cant afford the cost. i worry about my eyes because its harder to see smaller print without glasses nearly impossible. i worry about my hearing, but still feel its an unnoticed infection causing this. i worry no one will show up with the shears i was offered and wont see the blog again or even find someone to cut my hair for me. i need a wife. and a place to stay for free
i need someone willing to help me now, and me give them the money back if i get the ssi later on. like mom did in KS. she paid for the dr, and i paid her back double when i finally got the ssi. i wasnt on welfare or food stamps in ks living with her, it wouldve messed up their ssi. so she never had me go apply, just paid cash and had me later repay. ive never felt proud of myself if on welfare or food stamps, but saw ssi as something i deserved for being born with the aspergers and having to deal with being disabled. to me they arent the same. i dont really like having to deal with the govt rules and regulations and i felt it was unfair ssi has them, or required me to be below a certain income. i dont feel it should be means tested.
also whitcolumn said he wasnt going to have any net anymore, i miss talking to him. he was going to see about me getting into the God in Me housing program. i only felt like doing it since the guy in charge plays at texas station himself, but not poker from what Greg told me. and sickcall seems disappeared to NC forever to be with grump, for he never returned to vegas. also PPP never looked me up, just like JG, never would just sit and talk and find out what i wanted to do and how to go about it, i didnt intend to play any poker with them due to the fact i am in different games. and grouchie never did either. cant remember who else is coming to town.
also the nugget wouldnt let me use the voucher. they asked for the id number on it 1644, and they then knew i wasnt the one they mailed it to. its says its non transferable and i didnt think i could use it, but the one who gave it to me insisted i could. so there went those 3 days free. i found out when i called the extension on the letter head to try to reserve it.
what i wish more than anything is that i could pay like $99 somehow and get into an apt for a month. but i dont see how my credit would qualify. or to somehow find a loanshark whod give me $1000 upfront and then kill me if i didnt give him back $2000 when i get the ssi. i would work hard to qualify then. or a job i would enjoy paying over $10 an hour that not too physically hard or outdoors.