managed to sell an ad for $25, and am in the process of figuring out exactly how to get it to come up, but first want to get this updated. i spent the entire night in TX station, dead tired, because i had nowhere else to go. didnt see any point in calling Vince and offering him $10 when i was stuck and didnt want to leave, and once got briefly within $13 of being unstuck. and of course the other players werent playing nearly as well as me. Now im boarding the bus to cali that i paid $26 for, so i can get 4-5 hours of sleep. have always wanted to visit sandiego but never had a chance, had commitments and a weekly place that i no longer have. new roll is down in the $600s.
I lost $96 at the $2-6 game at TX mostly due to horrible luck, and also a few more calls than normal but still much tighter than most of the others. i felt my game loosening up due to frustration so i left. Also i wanted to make the morning bus so i could sleep. i couldve just as easily won $100-200 in that game. its beatable i think although the rake is high.
but im more ashamed of myself for wasting $45 on the VP machine trying to take a break and get back a few dollars (over 2 installments last night). the first time i was just going to turn $10 of my comps into cash, and ended up playing too much and losing $24 cash too, the 2nd time i was just trying to get that back. that was totally inexcusable but still 2 days i went and played out of 3-4 weeks isnt that bad, but since i have so little money it makes the crime much worse and more stupid and dumb. and im amazed my phone is still on, i am very concerned about what ill do when its shut off, for no way in hell is any of these bills going to be getting paid.
and i know im going to be back in vegas eventually for SSI unless it can be transferred without me losing all the back pay, i dont know how thats handled if u move. but before i return i want to see how i do in much better games always going 24/7 out in cali and if i cant handle the rake, well at least i didnt play too high of limits, wont be on any machines thank God, and if i am feeling too tired to play, get the hell out the door and find somewhere to crash and dont just sit and keep playing simply cause i dont have a room.
u see, this was my leak in the OLD OLD days of the mid 1990s, that and table games, long before i ever would waste any money in VP or VBJ machines.
and i might still need to go home somewhere whereever i can find a ticket there. but insteaed of being in the middle of nowhere in tx, would probably be better in the middle of nowhere in ks near family depending on if she let me stay that long. i can grind seals either place, worry id go broke in tx. are they any agenices in SD to help with autism related ssi cases anyone is aware of that arent for mentally ill people but just normal people with a disability?
one of my biggest worries in cali will be where do i put my suitcases?