Thursday, July 18, 2013

man am i pissed with myself

managed to sell an ad for $25, and am in the process of figuring out exactly how to get it to come up, but first want to get this updated. i spent the entire night in TX station, dead tired, because i had nowhere else to go. didnt see any point in calling Vince and offering him $10 when i was stuck and didnt want to leave, and once got briefly within $13 of being unstuck. and of course the other players werent playing nearly as well as me. Now im boarding the bus to cali that i paid $26 for, so i can get 4-5 hours of sleep. have always wanted to visit sandiego but never had a chance, had commitments and a weekly place that i no longer have. new roll is down in the $600s.

I lost $96 at the $2-6 game at TX mostly due to horrible luck, and also a few more calls than normal but still much tighter than most of the others. i felt my game loosening up due to frustration so i left. Also i wanted to make the morning bus so i could sleep. i couldve just as easily won $100-200 in that game. its beatable i think although the rake is high.

but im more ashamed of myself for wasting $45 on the VP machine trying to take a break and get back a few dollars (over 2 installments last night). the first time i was just going to turn $10 of my comps into cash, and ended up playing too much and losing $24 cash too, the 2nd time i was just trying to get that back. that was totally inexcusable but still 2 days i went and played out of 3-4 weeks isnt that bad, but since i have so little money it makes the crime much worse and more stupid and dumb. and im amazed my phone is still on, i am very concerned about what ill do when its shut off, for no way in hell is any of these bills going to be getting paid.

and i know im going to be back in vegas eventually for SSI unless it can be transferred without me losing all the back pay, i dont know how thats handled if u move. but before i return i want to see how i do in much better games always going 24/7 out in cali and if i cant handle the rake, well at least i didnt play too high of limits, wont be on any machines thank God, and if i am feeling too tired to play, get the hell out the door and find somewhere to crash and dont just sit and keep playing simply cause i dont have a room.

u see, this was my leak in the OLD OLD days of the mid 1990s, that and table games, long before i ever would waste any money in VP or VBJ machines.

and i might still need to go home somewhere whereever i can find a ticket there. but insteaed of being in the middle of nowhere in tx, would probably be better in the middle of nowhere in ks near family depending on if she let me stay that long. i can grind seals either place, worry id go broke in tx. are they any agenices in SD to help with autism related ssi cases anyone is aware of that arent for mentally ill people but just normal people with a disability?

one of my biggest worries in cali will be where do i put my suitcases?

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  1. Tony, your bus is heading in the wrong direction. Go to Kansas while you still have money to afford a bus ticket. At least spend few days with your mom. Talk with her. Try and figure out a plan. See if she and you can figure out how to get you a part time job in Kansas and build your life up from there. It's your only option to avoid a short and brutal life of panhandling.

    Or, don't. Just continue to succumb to your addiction and don't even try.

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    1. i dont understand going to san diego thou. if u want to just sleep get a hotel room in vegas. u r spending 26 dollar for bus fare then what. u r just going to drank coffee and 5 hour energy shots and not go to sleep 4 a couple of days?

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  2. Well, it's been a hell of a run, hasn't it, Tony? I wish you the best of luck out in California. San Diego is a great city, and the weather is amazing. I actually remember having a conversation with a colleague and mentioning that, If I were homeless, I would want to be homeless in San Diego.

    I honestly do hope that your biggest worry will be where to put your suitcases. I fear your worries will be much greater, but I've never been homeless and you have a lot more experience in this area than do I. Maybe it's not as bad as I fear.

    I do think you've missed a golden opportunity by not following your lawyer's advice. This will greatly reduce your chance or receiving SSI.

    I'll be rooting for you. Keep in touch -

    s.i.

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  3. Nice to see you have that machine leak and +/- EV Bullshit down perfectly.

    Vegas can now breathe a sigh of relief. Good riddance.

    Again, no interests other than gambling means that if Tony isnt sleeping he is gambling.

    Keep living the dream to Bustoville. That stop is next.

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  4. san diego huh. what is next? mexico

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    1. Good option, then he can grind the micros on pokerstars!

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    2. What a great idea. Tony probably forgot he can play Stars again once he's outside the United States.

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  5. Looks like you're going to miss out on lightning36 and his car when we visit Vegas in six weeks. glisd

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    1. Thunder from down under, looking forward to meeting you

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  6. Buy an umbrella and sleep on the beach
    I saw a dude do that, propped the umbrella up next to a trash can, laid out a towel and slept in that fine Cali weather under the sun with no worries or so I made myself believe.

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    1. the sleeping bag will replace the towel but the umbrella piece is going to be an issue I think....

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    2. Police patrol the beaches at night just for the purpose of stopping this activity. Unlikely you can get away with sleeping on the beach at night or if you look like a bum during the day.

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    3. Land of the free, not allowed to goto sleep on beach.

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    4. The moon is full and the night air coming off the pacific cool and refreshing as Mr and Mrs John Q Public stroll hand in hand at the surf's edge. MrsJQP points ahead and asks is that a walrus in the distance? MrJQP squints momentarily and then sez: nope, looks like a homeless guy butteffing a corpse...

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    5. I was suggesting sleeping out there during the day time where he could get away with it.
      Night time is time for gambling - it's the best hours or whatever

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  7. The absurdity of this situation makes it hard not to joke. But, in all seriousness, Tony, be smart for once. Spend a day or two in the sun, relaxing, and then get the fuck home to Kansas. Talk to your mom. Work something out. DON'T BE A BURDEN TO HER -- Rather, help her with things around the house, including Mark. Work on getting a job; save some money. Figure out a plan. Put your life back together. And treat poker like a hobby like the rest of us do.

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    1. He wont because none of that is "fun" and because Tony is a little boy who needs to have fun.

      Tony's only hobby is gambling. A "break" for Tony, u see, is hitting up a VP machine. (as you can read right in his blog post above)

      If he goes to Kansas he only wants to "grind it up on SWC".

      It is all he thinks about - gamble gamble gamble. Nothing else.

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    2. now that I think about it, this is the same mentality that my 7 year old has.
      I want I want I want.
      I don't want to do that because it's boring.
      It doesn't start for 20 minutes? WTF Am I supposed to do until then? You just expect me to sit around and be bored?

      Interesting that I just now made that connection

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  8. "cant remember who else is coming to town."

    I told you 2 weeks ago I would be in town on the 20th and that we would discuss either a tournament stake at the GN or a live game stake. Sorry to see you've left. I think it was a horrible decision because you've already got the ball rolling on the SSI and the Mental Health thing. You even still have people going out of their way to help you. Just seems that every time the going gets a little rougher, you up and run away. The grass is not greener in Cali and you will soon find yourself with no money, no phone, no internet, no roof over your head, and no way to contact the few remaining people who might help you in some way. You have gotten so much help and good advice on here, but as usual you choose to ignore it.

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  9. Wow... just wow... Tony: I do think you need to heed PPP's advice & see your mom immediately. I don't know anything about her, but you'll at least have a roof over your head and a place to keep your belongings. I fear for your safety, as you do - you'll be sleeping outdoors with other homeless people, and you don't appear to be exactly "street smart." Please check in with your readers daily if you can; a long time between posts would have me fearing the worst.

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  10. I thought your blog title read:

    "Man, I pissed myself"

    It doesnt say that, but it might soon - good luck out there gamble gamble gamble boy.

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  11. not off to the greatest start, fell asleep on the bus and did NOT wake up at the end of the line, and the driver failed to notice i was still on the bus til it reached anaheim. i bet she got in trouble for that. anywhere they are now driving me back to union station. they arent upset with me, but the driver was supposed to make sure no passengers were still on. i was completely zonked out.

    sent the paypal money to the bank, and im still somewhat close to $700. spent $2 on a chicken sandwich in the vending machine in the employee break room, lost my money, but they reimbursed me.

    biggest bad news is megabus allows for 1 suitcase only and they enforce it strictly. so i frantically had to reshuffle clothes into 1 heavily overstuffed suitcase, and discard the other suitcase. so now ive only got 1 suitcase again. the one tatude gave me which was bigger than the blue one. lost a few clothes too and houseshoes, etc.

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    1. You had houseshoes?

      If someone had asked me if Tony BigCharles had houseshoes, I would have said "Hell, no!".

      It just goes to show you, you never really know a person...

      s.i.

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    2. I hope you did not throw out the tea towel that I gave you. I would be absolutely devastated if it was left in some horrible Las Vegas garbage can.

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    3. tea towel - is that used for cleanup after rubbing one out?

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  12. damn u got lucky,so u in san diego now

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  13. I sure hope that you got the pizza turner into the suitcase.

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    1. Obviously needed in order to get a job as a cook at a pizza joint with a stone oven setep...

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  14. Panhandle now while you have a $700 safety blanket.......build up your roll then give er another shot in Vegas! Woo Hoo!

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  15. Why would Tony go home now of all times? He's got an amazing freeroll ahead grind of him. He can take his $700 and grind grind GRIND GRIND until he either gets healthy (in his mind) again, i.e $2k - OR he go BUST, at which point he can simply rely on one of his readers'/friends to pay his way back to Kansas. Tony has an ok chance at making a comeback now that he has let go of it all and has decided to throw caution to the wind. No more $23 wins or losses. It's DO OR DIE time. He is either going to win $1.5k-$2k over the next 2-3 weeks or he is going to lose it all in a blaze of glory.n After which, someone will set him up with a plane ticket to head back home to KS where someone will surely set him up with both internet (assuming his mother doesn't have internet, or simply does not want tony mooching off of her) AND a small bankroll to play SNGs/MTTs.

    So, you see, it works out perfectly for Tony.

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    1. He has certainly lost it all on the road before and depended on a poker sites member to send him a bus ticket to Kansas.

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  16. The one thing Tony does not tell his readers is that the Megabus does not stop in San Diego but Los Angeles, so he has to spend even more money if he wants to get to SD.

    Maybe he can just put the entire $700 on one of the larger NL tables at Commerce Casino and either make a nice hit or finally get to the inevitable busto...He can wonder around somewhere in that nasty neighborhood and prolly find somewhere to sleep in the industrial area>

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  17. I want to hear some good trip reports from the poker rooms. I have always heard SD is a nice area, weather wise, scenery and poker action.

    Take note of what smaller NL games they spread and what buy ins, the ones similar to 1/2nl or 2/5nl in vegas.

    Are there several poker rooms near each other or are they all 5 or 10 miles apart?

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  18. Tony, you are making one bad decision after another. You can't get anything done with SSI. mental services, etc., in Vegas where you have people helping you, how do you think you are going to get it done in San Diego where you don't know anyone? Good luck, you are going to need it big time. My best advice is to get back to Vegas, get back to NAPS and follow the steps outlined by your lawyer.

    p.s. good job solving 50% of your biggest problem in San Diego by dumping one of your suitcase.

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    1. I thought he said he had 4 suitcases and was worried about where to store them and now he has only 1 left, so he dumped 3 of them and a bunch of stuff.

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    2. No, I had 2. Got rid of one vince has the pans and towel

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    3. I am glad to hear that the tea towel is safe with Vince. That is a load off my mind.

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    4. wtf is a tea towel? sorry, i live a sheltered life

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    5. I gave Tony a tea towel(kitchen towel) that I got in Australia since he only had one kitchen towel last year. It is very colourful with different birds of Australia on it. I'm glad that it is safe with his pizza turner. One should always use a tea towel when washing up. I have another one I was going to give him when I'll be in Vegas in September, but, alas, Tony won't be there. Or will he?

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  19. Time for TBC to make up a Cafe Press site and sell some shirts.

    TBC -VPP

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  20. So, Tony - - - what is THE PLAN now?

    You're in California, either LA or SD, with $700.00. You're homeless. You're dealing with a variety of health afflictions. You don't know anyone there.

    WHAT'S THE PLAN?

    Are you going to play $200.00 NL buy ins and just see how it goes? Are you going to try to shortstack everything for $40.00? How bad of monkey tilt is a 2 buy-in downswing going to cause?

    I'm scared for you, Tony. You are really on the edge this time, sir. Best of luck.

    s.i.

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    1. if u arent living on the edge then u r taking but space

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  21. "...spent $2 on a chicken sandwich in the vending machine in the employee break room, lost my money...."

    As Lester would say....the air is full of irony

    Tony
    What does your daily diet consist of now? I find it hard to believe it is anything remotely approaching a proper nutritional level, I know you are always focused on the sleep side of things, but you need to consider what you are putting that 45 year old body through.

    I hope things turn around for you in California, but like so many others, I believe you are making poor life decisions....but it is of course your choice to make.

    Take care

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  22. Why did wec claim los angelos was at the top of his list to play $1 2 when at commerce and hg the $1 2 is $40 cap buyin? Only bike allows more. All the nl games wec likes blinds are $2 3 or $3 5. So hows it good for $1 2? Now in the indian casinos theres several $40 _ $200 games but not in la

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    1. There are many more poker rooms in LA than HG and Commerce....And yeah, the Bicycle Club counts as the 2nd largest room in LA and one of the largest in the United States. And I include Indian casinos in the LA Area certainly as great places to play. Obviously I would never play a 1-2 with a max 40 buyin, so I would be talking about casinos who do not offer that game.

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    2. Tony - how did you NOT know what the buy-ins and caps were to the games you would be playing before you went out?
      Did you not do research?
      Did you not read articles or even look at the poker-room's websites?
      Did you not look at the Bravo Poker App which sometimes gives information like min/max buy-in amounts?

      I have almost zero desire to ever play in California because I knew that the games out there have horribly low buy-ins and the rake will eat you alive.

      Research
      Research
      fish tacos

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    3. There are many rooms in Southern California that have normal buy-ins at 1\2 level- - and as you get to the higher blind levels it normalizes more to the regular games.

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  23. so relieved to find out theres free wifi that works at HG, and that my phone somehow isnt shut off yet. also relieved the $65 i was once stuck in the $20 NL was recovered with $10 profit, and also a small win in $2-4 stud that didnt last long, game breaks early.

    there are so many pots under $10 in the $20 NL in which only $1 is left beating the drop seems insurmountable more so than i thought originally. most of the drop is avoided by raising preflop. i know i should play higher but im scared to death with only about $700. also i shouldve sat in the $4-8 omaha8 but that variance scares the hell out of me. i really wish i could just sit and play online poker all day for very small stakes. i need the kind of setup i had in Jean with free housing. but i need it in vegas where theres wifi, id no longer have access to the net if i went back to Jean, and then i couldnt grind seals anymore.

    i didnt go to cali because i wanted to, i had no choice its too unsafe to be outside sleeping in the heat in vegas, and i had to be where its not as hot and where i can earn some money if i go broke. id gladly return if i could get hooked up with long term housing free, without just going thru a govt housing program and put on a list for years. need some type of immediate solution thats NOT in a shelter, its too unsafe for a white person to walk to a shelter. they are a target, especially if they own a laptop. would like to know about small town shelters anywhere in the USA i dont know about or any $100 monthly housing options. any readers elsewhere in the usa not out in the middle of nowhere but near towns with casinos have any housing or job possibilities?

    and i have a terrible fear i wont be able to ride the bus to pechanga with my suitcase since its a casino daytrip free shuttle, or that i cant store a suitcase. isnt there any way for homeless people to be able to holdon to some clean clothes?

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    1. "i didnt go to cali because i wanted to, i had no choice its too unsafe to be outside sleeping in the heat in vegas, and i had to be where its not as hot and where i can earn some money if i go broke. id gladly return if i could get hooked up with long term housing free, without just going thru a govt housing program and put on a list for years. need some type of immediate solution thats NOT in a shelter"

      Where do you plan on earning money in California that you would not be able to in Las Vegas? Government assistance is set up to assist the homeless. Who else do you think is going to offer you long term housing at a reasonable cost? And remember how many times in the past people have urged you to get on a list? You would have already had housing long ago if you did.

      I know that my making any sense here is a futile effort since so many people have done the same thing over and over. You have so many fundamentally bad ways of thinking. Losing your sense of entitlement would be a good first step, but I imagine that is fully engrained in you.

      You had/have everything set up in Las Vegas to actually have some type of a plan for your future, but of course, you only live in and for the immediate.

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    2. Um. I don't think it's an issue the Casino shuttle deals with very often. There are not a lot of homeless people, with luggage, trying to take advantage of the shuttle to enjoy a day of gambling.

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    3. Earth to Tony, you are so far gone now. Now that all the suckers have been played. you are off to catch up to the life you loved so much before the SSI windfall. Isn't it telling that Vince, the man that has helped you so, would not let you freeload.

      If you enjoy the streets so much you would rather sleep there than give up gambling, well embrace your freedom until you find the next group of suckers (or you end up successfully guilting one of your previous benefactors)

      It is time to grow up, man up, quit acting like a child with a 50 IQ. Quit acting like the prototypical homeless bum.

      You have a deep severe problem and many people who are willing to help you. It is up to you if you wish to shit on all those who have tried to help you. Are you just the dumb lazy bum so many think you are?

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    4. Tony, I just returned from LA today. Played at HG and Commerce and drove by Union Station. You are highly delusional if you think LA is safer. Then again, I have been trolling this board for awhile now and know you are very delusional.
      Good Luck and I hope you live long enough that this comes to a happy ending.

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  24. i definitely need to make better game choices but i have so much fear of doing the hail mary and playing over my head, because i feel im being irresponsible if i do that. kind of like how id use to make bets starting at 1c on the 100 play 1 line 1 hand because id feel its more "affordable". how do i overcome that fear of going broke? if i win $300 or even $600 my life changes not at all but if i lost that my whole life would be devastated and ruined with no hope of things ever getting better. and who says i know no one in cali?

    what about meekamouse, blueeyed murphy and qpq steve?

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    1. Tony, you are already broke. How long before the rest of your money is gone for food, housing or gambling? What then? You left an area where, if nothing else, you had people who had been very generous with you.

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    2. Tony says..."and who says i know no one in cali?

      what about meekamouse, blueeyed murphy and qpq steve?"

      I said it, and sorry if you took it literally. What I meant are people/friends that are willing to go out of their way to help you, people like S.I., Vince, etc. Are meekamouse, blueeyed murphy and qpq steve in the same category of friends, or are they just people on the internet that you may be met once or twice?

      California is a very big place, having a friend that is 800 miles away in the same state is not the same as a friend in Vegas that is 10 miles away.

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    3. Doesn't Tatude live in Cali? There is someone else you know who is a friend.

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  25. Tony, if you do nothing else, take my advice from last night's text - put aside enough money for a bus to Kansas in case you go busto. At least have a way out.

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  26. "how do i overcome that fear of going broke?"

    -Stop gambling your last remaining dollar maybe.

    -Get a job maybe.

    " if i lost that my whole life would be devastated and ruined with no hope of things ever getting better"

    -Your life is like this now and will not get better with you at the helm.

    "what about meekamouse, blueeyed murphy and qpq steve?"

    -Have you met any of these folks or once again just internet names you heard play in Cali and you hope and wish to meet?

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  27. managed to successfully board the bus outside of CVS pharmacy to the casino, and store my luggage underneath the bus.

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  28. and had another small win of $5 in $20 NL. counting the paypal money on the way, i would have $732. i still think i should be able to earn $500 a month selling adspace if it was heavily promoted to enough businesses as popular as i should be able to make the blog, which would be a good steady income.

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    1. Again another TBC buzz word he picked up a month ago was "steady income" - if you keep saying it Dorothy it will come true just click your ruby red heels together.

      As it has been said Tony you are the worlds pickiest bum.

      This steady income thing doesnt happen unless you work - which you are allergic to, maybe that is how your scalp got all fucked - you tried to work and got an allergy.

      You eventually piss away all money because you need medication for your addiction and mood swings.

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    2. Why not think that you can earn $5,000 a month with ads? It is just as realistic as you earning $500/month, and you'll feel better.

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  29. Tony this $20NL sounds unbeatable in the long term, so it's a waste of time and you're just going to slowly rake yourself to busto. It's time to come up with some other kind of plan.

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  30. Board A Bus
    Go to Kansas Toto
    Pay your mom a little rent and look for a job.
    Enjoy some family time with your mom and son while getting your scalp treated.
    Work for a year, save up $10,000 and then come back to Vegas feeling rich and untouchable and try again

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  31. I have a friend who gets $200 a month in foodstamps, $220 a month in General Relief, a free bus pass and free health care. He has a small studio apartment in Korea Town for ~$450 a month.

    You can make California work for you. If you want, I'll give you his email address and you can ask him how to do everything. He's a good guy and just qualified for SSI himself, so he knows a lot about what you need to know.

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  32. Games at pechanga alot more beatable than hg, even though ive still not won my first pot in omaha8. $1 3 blinds. Did win $24 in $40 _ $200 no limit. Out $37 omaba, rake much less here

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    1. It's "alot more beatable" until you lose at it. Then it's, "the rake here makes the game unbeatable..."

      You need A PLAN, tony.

      s.i.

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  33. new roll $511, and im waiting for the bus outta pechanga, dead tired half asleep, a lot more so than when i was losing my ass in the omaha game with such wonderful cards. never seen an omaha game with that type of action, should be right up my alley for a nit like me. Variance just too much for such a tiny roll, wish i could find the same kind of action for much lower stakes. and my feet are feeling like they are getting blisters, seems i need a clean pair of socks again and i have none of me, vince gave me one the other day. wish he wouldnt have been so judgemental of me for wanting to do what i felt was right in reply to getting out of this mess. wish i wouldnt been afraid to leave TX station when down the other day the extra $100 would help me to handle variance better now. all i know is i need sleep but dont want to be eaten by coyotes.

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    1. Tony, seriously, I know you hate my comments but what are you going to do when it is all gone?

      What are you doing?

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    2. Tony do the rite thing and buy a one way bus ticket to Kansas before its to late. Tell your mother and son how much you love them and want to spend some time with them. While at your mothers house get your shit together and get the help you need Tony. Best of luck and hope you do the rite thing.

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    3. $500.00 is a VERY thin wire upon which to stand, Tony. I hope you find a soft landing somewhere...

      s.i.

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    4. I imagine that the coyotes would prefer people with a little more meat on their bones, so I think you are relatively safe with them for now.

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    5. for approximately an hour my bankroll was bigger than your bankroll.

      However, my bankroll is now around $450

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  34. Good luck Tony. Seriously. I hope you cure the demons.

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  35. are you kidding. you don't have clean socks with you and you haven't changed them since the other day. That's something you should change every day. And you go on RTP and blame every one there for your problems. I think you have now crossed over to the paranoid delusional side. Get real. This is all on you. You had people in Vegas trying to help you and like a little kid you run off. Cause you didn't want to have to put in any effort. You always talk about what you want, free housing, stakes in games, rides to wherever, etc but you never want to put in any effort for anything. You want to see a doctor but don't want to wait, you want housing but not thru the government, you want someone to give you free housing but it has to be close to the casinos. You are just like a 6 year old child.

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  36. One day left. Complete busto before midnite Sunday. Any takers?

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  37. I cant believe you went to pechanga. Absolutely zero chance with that roll. One of these days you'll listen to others other than yourself and maybe you'll get it

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  38. Look Tony, can you see now that this escape to California is a really bad idea? Everyone told you it would be; lawyers, counsellors, accountants, people who work at universities, IT professionals, casino dealers,and assholes. We've all said the same thing. We are not all wrong. Can you see that now you've a.) Lost 1/3 of your stack b.) Have no where to sleep or put your stuff. This is bad. You have no friends there. Call your mother. Didn't king of donks say he'd give you a plane ticket home to your mom? Take a week off,see your family and take care of you body. Please.

    I should be laying in the sun right now but I'm writing this instead. THAT'S HOW WORRIED I AM.

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    1. Josie please go out and enjoy your day. It will not help Tony to sit there and worry about him. His addiction is to fucking strong and words are not enough to change him.

      You have worked hard to live your life and enjoy your free time Josie, go do it without the guilt of a bum who doesnt care about himself.

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    2. I have a BS in accounting though I work in retail....
      I'd prefer to fit in on the accountant side but I'm pretty sure I'm lumped into the asshole side....

      Why couldn't you have also included handsome retail workers in your list love? :)

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    3. the only way grouchie is an asshole (although ive not really considered him as one--actually thought he was nice at one point for offering to hang out--but then never showed up--) is by not offering to hire me. at least that would be INDOOR work and since im be in a store putting small items on shelves, doing paperwork and running a cash register, id enjoy the work and find it fun and have a boss who understands me a little bit so id be less likely to be fired. he would understand im better off having less interaction with people. the only ones who offer me work offer me jobs i feel like are too physically demanding for me since i feel i have no strength i get worn out something awful just lugging the suitcase around. id like to work at like a walmarts or 7-11 and lowes would be about the same as long as i wasnt forced to lift the items too heavy.

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    4. So you say that grrouchie is an asshole for not offering you a job, but what have you done to make him want to hire you? You can't even maintain a neat and clean appearance, let alone attempt to be polite to strangers.

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    5. Tony, people who get jobs like that are educated. Are you willing to go to school for a few years and get a degree? If not, physically demanding jobs are probably your best opportunity.

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  39. Running back to Kansas is not the answer to his problems nor is it a stop-gap. Tony will find a dollar and a way to gamble. When he cant find a dollar he will be angry at his mom, his son for menial things because he cant do what he wants to do which is gamble gamble, must gamble.

    Your clothes are falling apart, your body is falling apart and your life is falling apart but "you will show us" that you can survive at poker/machines.....um yeah its been going great and it aint bec your roll is small.

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  40. Wonder how much was blown away this past year or two on those "good BJ machines"

    Good luck in digging yourself out of this hole Tony. You can wish for a whole lot things like cheap places to stay and games with low rake, but like my Dad always said, 'wish in one hand and crap in the other and see what fills up first'.

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