Wednesday, August 14, 2013

EMOTIONS

sitting here in the lobby near the center bar at pechanga, where the internet works great and they have all the open tables a few near plugins. theres a song playing over the intercom that keeps repeating i cant, i cant, i cant stand losing, which is a great thing to play while in a casino. and i realize for all my problems im one lucky MF SOB.

u see i woke up at the spa yesterday evening at commerce with inadequate sleep, (only about 6 hours or less) and couldnt get back to sleep. so i left to where the net worked, downstairs in the hotel lobby, and was on the net so long reading RTP and replying to comments there and on the blog (some people post way too many, and others dont post nearly often enough) i didnt get done til after 8pm. i finally tried to lay back down later to sleep, but i no longer had the spa all to myself like i had for most of the day (happens a lot more than ud expect) and i just couldnt sleep. so i went to go play poker, and i made the mistake of sitting in the $4-8 omaha.

it really frustrates me to no end all the rich people in LA with money make all the omaha games $4-8 and up just because they dont like to play small. my God, u would think theres no poor people in LA. the fact no $2-4 games exist annoy the hell out of me but they dont annoy no one else because no one else has a roll as low as me who plays professionally. but if they existed the bankroll needed to beat the game would be sliced in half and although the game would no longer be worth $16 an hour $10 an hour could be achieved easily enough still.

so anyone in less than 5-10 hands (played hands that is) i was already out $120 and not in a happy mood at all anymore. Spencer definitely knows his stuff in how variance works in that game since he has so much experience. but if i just had the roll i still feel it fits my style better than any other game. i guess thats why i came to Pechanga, (wanted to play it where its$3-6) big wins are possible in omaha cause i made $500 at Pechanga in the later session after the $200 loss in the early session last wednesday.

Being stuck that when i left the omaha caused me to not play $40 NL my best, and i lost a bit more, and was down a lot when i went and posted on RTP once last night i think to $1067. later i won a bit in $4-8 stud, played some more NL, and had recovered to $1137 when i left commerce.

was dead tired, trying to sleep on 2 city buses, and then on a tour bus where i slept about 90 minutes. im still really tired now and not sure what to do. am afraid ill forget my cell phone is being charged at the desk in the poker room.

walked in, realized today is the freeroll day again with the afternoon splash pots promotion im missing out on sitting here typing. wed is by far the best day to be here. so i know everyone will be quitting the cash game very quickly to play the first morning freeroll at 11am. for those with play time in earlier in the morning, too early for me to qualify. so im on tilt more now.

quickly lost the $40, and rebought $29, and started winning, too tired to remember the hands except for one near the end where i had 88, called $10 preflop, and the flop was 456 the lady who raised and was shortstacked went allin, i called, and the deepstacked guy who was hitting everything called behind me. turn comes 7 and i shove, he calls and i wanted him to fold fearing he would hit the river, but he was drawing dead with a3 and then i suddenly had $285 in chips. had only $113 at the start of the hand. cant remember what i won the earlier pot with.

i do remember a guy raising to $7 preflop, me folding a5 diamonds, and flopping the nut flush had i stayed and then 2 guys going at it putting in $100 more on the flop, turn and river each street for a pot of about $300-400 and of course id had the nuts all the way if id seen the flop. so i had the potential where i couldve won really huge.

right at the end i gave back about $60 on a hand and ive forgotten that hand too, im really too tired to do anything and have no business playing once i finish this blog post. hate to go here and NOT PLAY--but maybe i should just grab the first shuttle out of here and get some rest. thank God i am back to $1234, i couldve so easily been down to under $1000.

guess im doing better than i was a week or so ago in cali but my God my life is so stressful its amazing i dont have a heart attack. such an emotional roller coaster, thinking of taking a break in vegas for a few days just to be able to afford a room and relax.

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  1. in last post, when some1 said get a cheap room and relax. u were against that. not classy. i think u said.also, to say u play poker 4 a living is a joke.sleeping on a bus and a spa . lol. dude, y spent the money to go to vegas ,if u just want to rest?

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    1. well the ideal situation would be to be back in vegas paying weekly again but not in the same boat as before. meaning $2500-3000 or so this time.

      might as well stay in cali in the meantime since winning here is a lot easier than winning in vegas despite the high rake.

      im litterally shocked at the differences between the play here and vegas, now that ive investigated these low stakes games much more fully than i ever had in the past. in the past i didnt keep rebuying in the $40, instead i martingaled to the $100, $200 etc and this time im not doing that, so im getting a lot of experience i never had before.

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  2. Tony, you are certainly proving to be a fighter/survivor. Doesn't seem like a very enjoyable life, though. You could be making much more money with a minimum wage job.

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    1. Or he could call preflop raises with a suited ace to see if he flops a nut flush or hits two of his suit and is four-flushed with the flop. Only added stress in the nut flush play is getting beat by quads or a boat or maybe straight flush. Poker pros would know if the nut flush play is profitable in the long run or not....

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    2. jobs r 4 the "slaves" ,sir. LMAO.plus what sounds better i work at walmart,mcdonalds,etc,etc,OR i am a poker player.it is all about image(playing poker,action,etc) NOT the reality(sleeping on buses,no money 4 glasses,not making money,etc).

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    3. i know and my grammar is worse

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  3. Your inadequate diet, irregular sleep patterns, and lack of exercise are a ticking time bomb for your heart.

    I am wondering who will win the race to kill you between that, septic infection from lack of hygiene, or minorities and muslims.

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  4. Let's see, you're "one lucky MF SOB," but your "life is so stressful it's amazing i don't have a heart attack."

    Uh huh.

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  5. "my God, u would think theres no poor people in LA." - Poor people should not be gambling. They should be providing the essentials for themselves and their families. Oh yeah, that's what normal "poor" people mostly do.

    "thinking of taking a break in vegas for a few days just to be able to afford a room and relax." So you'll be in Vegas in 17 days? Someone you know and trust will be there WITH A CAR!

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    1. Ronald Reagan has risen from the dead????

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    2. He already owes the lightning36 Taxi Company for the last two trips. His tab continues to grow ...

      Oh yeah - don't forget to invite Tony to the Obama fund raiser you will be attending in Las Vegas. Surely Tony could spare a hundo or two.

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    3. I was going to invite Tony to my birthday dinner at Gordon Ramsay Steak at Paris, but he'll be ordering chicken fried rice in some God forsaken Cali casino instead. And that Obama fundraiser is now a Hillary 2016 fundraiser.

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    4. good luck collecting that taxi tab,sir.

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  6. "my God, u would think theres no poor people in LA." That's because most of them have a JOB.

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    1. not true, hardly anyone in the ghetto is employed

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  7. One can not become a professional in any field without first having their basic needs met. This sets the foundation on which one can then move forward, achieve success and become the professional they dream of being.

    (I've taken the liberty of compiling a suggested list of basic needs you should be striving to obtain, only once your basic needs have been met can you possibly move forward in your strive for success/become professional.)

    A. A home.
    It does not need to be fancy. A room in a shared household or a studio flat work very nicely for a single person. Somewhere, where at the end of the day, you can return to and safely lay your head to sleep. Somewhere you keep all your possessions, somewhere you can prepare a meal, make a cup of tea, take a nice long bath, read a book or watch some television and relax.
    2. Clean clothes, comfortable shoes, toiletries and any medication one might need.
    2a: A nutritious and varied diet including lots fresh fruit and vegetables.
    3. Three bank accounts:
    3a: One specifically to cover daily, weekly, monthly essential living expenses, which may include any loan repayments you may have, rent, transportation costs, groceries, clothing, cost of utilities/internet/phone/insurance etc, .
    3b: One specifically for the purpose of saving for a rainy day. Everyone, should have a bank account where they put $1, $10 or $100 a week; whatever they can afford after their weekly/monthly essential expenses have been covered. This account will save you when a rainy day comes, it will help you stay afloat through tough times and pay your essential living expenses.
    3c: One specifically for extras.(Most people would keep money for vacation, cinemas, restaurants, massages, gadgets etc in here. This is where you would store your bankroll. The funds in here are what are available to you to play poker. If you have a winning session. You take that win, you divide it by 4. You put 2 portions of the win into your essential living expenses account, you put one portion into your rainy day savings account and you pop one portion back into your extras/bankroll account.
    4. Friends/ a social circle. Friends are people you laugh with, enjoy the company of, engage in conversation with, debate with, celebrate and commiserate with, friends will hi 5 you when something great happens, they will lend a shoulder should you need to cry.
    Friends are not people who are there to service your needs and do all the shit you can't be bothered doing for yourself, friends are not there to pay your bills or perform a constant stream of favours. A true friend needs/expects/demands absolutely nothing from you more than honesty and loyalty.
    5. Sleep: Regular, restful, uninterrupted sleep.
    6. Work: Part time or voluntary work can be just as rewarding to some as a full time high flying/high paying job. Daily work brings a sense of achievement and contributes to your mental well being. If you were to work, even a small amount. Perhaps even reading to the elderly in a nursing home once a week, volunteering that would make you feel good about yourself. Taking an hour or two out of your week for others would bring you a LOT of satisfaction, I promise. You could do part time paid work, even 2 hours a day, supervising a school crossing in the morning, or rounding up trolleys in a supermarket car park for a few hours a week. This would do a few things, it would give you an additional sense of purpose, you might make friends....and you'd be earning a little pocket money.

    Everything starts with the 1st step Tony. Until you remove your massive ego from your life equation you will always be stuck where you are now, broke, homeless and lonely.

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    1. I cannot believe that you went to the trouble to type all of that - commendable...

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    2. This is a very good post. Although, it's a shame it had to be written. One would hope a 40+ man would realize this already.

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  8. Allah is super-pissed. And he's in Vegas.

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  9. "...no one else has a roll as low as me who plays professionally.." You may want to think about this a bit further... Maybe just maybe 1+1 does NOT = 3. People that play professionally dont have low bankrolls and dont go about professional playing without a plan and a roof over their heads.

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    1. but a lot of them do, too. i know some guys who were homeless and played everyday for a living, i guess because of some of the low games i frequented a lot in life. some of them were better off in that they had a car to sleep in or a friends house, one who respected them enough to not want them to go to mental health to be allowed in

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    2. Tony I assume you are referring to Vince in the above post. I would hope you know he has done quite a bit for you in the past. If I understand correctly he wanted you to make the mental health appointment so you could get services, not because he doesn't respect you. He is trying to help you out. It's your choice if you don't wanna do it but I think he's looking out for your best interest.
      I expect that you feel he shouldn't put conditions on letting you stay there, but he's probably concerned that you will end up on the streets and wants to see you get some type of assistance. I've only met him once but he hardly seems like the type of person who's trying to run your life. You have enough of those folks around. He probably just wants u to have a safety net. Just my thoughts on it. Be safe out there in Cali

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    3. Well put Tatude. Saint Vincent de Las Vegas should be under no heat from Tony. And Tony should not waste a single brain cycle questioning Vince's motives or conditions at any level.

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    4. Thanks Lester. Just wanted Tony to know that Vince is a real friend and his motives are genuine. He does alot of things to help Tony without asking or expecting anything in return and if he did it was to help Tony and not ask unreasonable things from him. He's got a few good people who actually try to help him as frustrating as it can be. I've met Vince once and he really seems to understand Tony. Many have said it, but Tonys lucky to have him as a friend. Tony gets so much negative feedback on a daily basis maybe it affects his ability to trust people. Being Autisric doesn't help in understanding the subtle nuances of social interactions. And yes I know it doesn't explain or justify everything he does just something to think about.

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  10. You won enough for a decent motel room and plenty of food. So go relax and get some rest, some good food, before your days on earth are over. Can be anytime, so take care of yourself while you can.

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    1. the spa for $35 is about the most i can afford, and some days i dont even make that. u cannot spend $80 of the $100 u win on a good day, because then u cant ever grow the roll. it only is growing about $200 a week if that. my days on earth would be over a lot sooner if i started spending the money, it would be zero within 10 days.

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    2. exactly. weekly room then go to walmart or wherever and get glasses,food, and clothes.

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    3. let be clear, not one reader is being fooled here, we all know that u do NOT want whats best for me in the long term, u dont want to see my roll grow enough to get me back in shape, u simply want me to spend everything i have so ill be out of money with no way to earn a dime as quickly as possible because u find it hilarious. a real supporter would never advise me to be wasteful and spend money i cant afford thats needed to generate income with. the way i am doing it, i am getting better off financially every week.

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    4. oh i dont have to worry about u spending it. u will just lose it at the tables bcuz IT IS A CONSPIRACY.

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  11. went to make the bus to pechanga, missed the bus, and then i saw a bus pulling up going to morongo. id never been there, so i got on it. $18 fare and they reimburse $35 in free play, and $10 extra for my new signup. so i slept on it, and then played poker, the $40 NL dont go there, just $100 buyin and up in $1-3 and today wasnt the right day for omaha8 $3-6. so i found myself playing $2-4 holdem. i was up $80 once, and still left up $31 in the game plus $13 win off the free play.

    am now washing laundry, 5-6 shirts, no pants, near where the bus left me off. went looking for a thrift store in walking distance saw none, and i still need to find one soon. about to leave and catch a bus, laundry soon dry. had a hard time finding a place to use wifi, cause as usual mcdonalds had no plugs. went to a computer repair shop and he dont have the battery i need, but he did show me a new way to shutdown the computer so i wouldnt get the err message each time.

    that poker room dont have a good selection of games, they said $40 NL never goes, and the omaha is only on alternating days. but they had one weird promotion where if u got 66 and QQ dealt to u within an hours time (dont have to win pot, just stay in til the river) u get $750 (went up $50 per hour) no one ever hit it. i had a shot at it, with 14 minutes to go to get dealt QQ but couldnt do it.

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    1. living the life,tony. i would say buy a sleeping bag but i know how u r about spending that bankroll. so go to mcdonalds and dig some cardboard out of the dumpster.

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  12. http://www.techdirt.com/articles/20071206/032748.shtml

    http://voices.yahoo.com/mcdonalds-wifi-customers-8006626.html

    http://www.ohgizmo.com/2010/01/22/im-lovin-it-free-wi-fi-at-11500-mcdonalds-locations/

    a lot of online articles about just how impossible it is to use the wifi at mcdonalds while plugged in, and how u almost have to be in a nice restaraunt or a starbucks.

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    1. McDonald's knows that after the initial four, five or six dollar purchase a wifi user will maybe an hour later might spending another 99 cents but in almost all cases will be sitting there freeloading off of the wifi. Any serious wifi sponger should be taking a second battery with them anyhow. Why would McDonald's do anything about the bottom one percent of their customer base?

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    2. totally not true, the vast majority of those wanting to plug in their laptops have no intention of sitting there more than 30-60 minutes at most. if even 1% of their customers boycotted the place, it would make news headlines and seriously impact their bottom line.

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    3. I guess I stand partially corrected. The customers that use the drive-through and park to eat their food can use a cigarette plugin adapter for their laptop battery charging needs. The demographic that needs to use McDonald's wifi for 30-60 minutes and also needs to be plugged in because they have a dead battery is such a small fraction of a percent why in their right minds would McDonald's Corp Mgt even consider the BILLIONS of dollars in retrofitting their properties to cater to wifi laptop battery challenged customers?

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    4. lester (and anger is a gift) do u know why this issue bugs me so much? its because i order food, i spend money in there. and same way with being charged for ice water. i dont just ask for free water, or order coffee. (never order coffee, not even at starbucks, instead i buy food at starbucks). and it bugs me people ordering coffee with a much better battery dont have these issues and i do, when im the one paying the stores bills by ordering FOOD. but enough of this, im about to sleep and unless Josie gets the password up and working, no ones comments will be approved for about 10 hours in a few minutes.

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    5. LMAO.they dont have these issues bcuz they have jobs. u know money ,so they can buy a new battery and such.and so what,if u dont buy coffee at starbucks.the only reason u r there is 4 the wifi y else pay 4 overpriced crap that they sell aka starbucks. u shouldnt b buying that food anyway. u could have 3 meals with that 7 dollar purchase at starbuck.so dont get all high and mighty that u buy FOOD at these places. u sleep on the bus dont u. that isnt y the casinos or city which u r riding is there 4.so, do u pay extra so u can sleep there. or in the spa? if i was going to the spa. i wouldnt expect to c someone sleeping there.

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  13. You are a Christian and a Republican right?
    I've found just the church for you!
    Plenty of people who think just like you do....you should feel right at home.
    Maybe one of the good Christian folk who worship here could offer you a room for free!
    Here is their forum....eat your heart out!
    http://www.landoverbaptist.net/

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    1. OMG, that is some funny shit.

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    2. i think its a satire site, i looked at it, and its too far out to be seriously what they think

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    3. It is a satire site...and it's brilliant!
      The Satan's entertainment section is my favourite.
      You're welcome:-)

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  14. Mr Subliminal posted a question about tipping dealers. Whats your opinion?

    http://mrsubliminal.blogspot.com/

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    1. will read soon when I have time. But the people who have large incomes should tip much more per hand than the people trying to survive, and the same way when eating out or anything else.

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    2. if u cant afford to tip at the table or restaurant. dont play or eat out. save the surviving b.s too.

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    3. he (subliminal) doesnt say what the limits r. is it a 1/2 nl game? the fact that the person won the hand earlier doesnt influence my tipping. like i said b4, i tip on how the dealer runs the game.so, i would tip the dealer a dollar on the 25 dollar pot bcuz half the pot is yr money.

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  15. i never have a problem there.mayb the problem is staying there for 5 plus hours.

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    1. mcdonalds.i have used there wifi .when i lived in florida,texas,california,and now here in colorado. i just wished taco bell would get wifi.

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    2. ive never been asked to leave at mcdonalds when on wifi, the only issue is NO OUTLETS. id bet u money sight unseen at any mcdonalds we've both never been to and dont know about wont have an outlet for use. read the articles i linked.

      they could easily make money charging for the wifi by asking for say $2 for 2 hours. this solves the problem of people sitting there too long without eating, and the cost of the power outlet is less than 5c for the $2. besides theyre missing out on at least $100-300 in orders everyday by not having those outlets because i wont eat in there at all and order $4-7 worth of my normal food without it. and lots of others wont either if they cant get online.

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    3. loveland colorado has 2 outlets. the one in bakersfield on mt vernon and columbus has more than 2. also,mcdonalds wants u to eat and go not eat and loiter.

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    4. they use to charge in 2007 but now it would b stupid like charging 4 refills.

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    5. McDonalds make way more than $1/hour for their seats. They don't want to encourage people staying and using the wifi. If they start charging, they will push away people that wants to eat there and have access to free wifi, and draw in people that just wants to use the wifi. Bad business.

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    6. Tony, I love your ideas. Turn the spa at commerce into a homeless center. Transform McDonalds from a restaurant to an Internet cafe, filling seats with bums on wifi for $2 an hours.

      Love it.

      What else you got?

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    7. a couple more putting cots or futons on city buses 4 lo limit poker grinders . also, having a change machine with rolls of pennies and nickels, so cheap fucks and ppl with lo bankrolls can tip poker dealers.

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  16. sometimes its a good idea to keep playing when u get ahead, at least as long as u have over $200 more than anyone else on the table. once one guy got lucky and finally had me covered whod been winning a lot of pots, I left. new roll, $1569

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    1. scared money? huh.at least u r running good

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    2. and u know if id continued to play with $398 on the table, (over 20% of the roll, u wouldve been the first to say how dumb that would be)

      that was all off 1 $40 buyin

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    3. not the 1st. lol. mayb the 2nd. also, real pro poker players know when to take advantage of good situations but scared money doesnt

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    4. It's a good idea to take the profit off the table when it represents a sizable portion of your BR. Congrats on the win.

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  17. i knew enough about taking advantage of good situations to stay as long as the situation was still good (in other words, as long as i still had everyone else at the table covered by $100-200 and they were scared of my image.)

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    1. like i said scared money. of course, u will have ppl covered .it is a 40 dollar nl game lmao. plz. u r scared money with no bankroll.just a stake. good 4 u. now pay some bills lol .NOT. or at least buy some glasses.

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    2. A few days ago you said only donkeys DON'T hit and run with small wins.

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  18. I was going to comment that my new roll of $1300 give or take was bigger than yours but I see you had a nice score at the NL$40 tables.

    Congrats and keep it up.
    $2000 isn't so far away now

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  19. Received an interesting emal from Tony worried that I was mad he had lost the suitcase I've given him and explaining why he didn't pick it up. While its not a choice I would make it was given as a gift as was the clothing I've given over the years and its his to do with as he chooses. It may not seem like a big deal but he was concerned enough to email me and wasn't seeking anything else. It may be a small thing but it does show that he thinks of others and not just to gain something from them. Just wanted to point it out. People are quick to mention the things he does wrong so gotta give the man props when he does the right thing even if its a small thing.

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    1. fair and balanced like fox news

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    2. Not sure what point you're trying to make, kinda like your dozens of other comments. People are up his ass for everything he does wrong but not much gets said when he does something right. Don't care if it changed anyone's opinion. The people who follow his blog only see one side usually not the best. There's alot more to his story than what appears here on the Internet.

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  20. new roll, $1626, and a new high for california. and i need to deposit quite a bit more into the bank to feel safe when on the bus. also i think my old acccount at the commerce is good for life so maybe i can also keep it in the players bank. am quite surprised ive been so successful in the $40 NL here. can it last? cannot believe i couldnt find ROBVEGASPOKER email in my contacts somewhere, wouldve sworn i wrote him before.

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  21. new roll, $1681, and still think that as soon as i spend a little money purchasing something i need (other than a day pass at the spa) ill start losing BIG--so i have to resist and do whats been working. cannot believe the % of winning sessions i am having here in LA--its over 90% of my sessions.

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  22. new roll $1579, lost $102 in $4-8 stud, and im ready to sleep now.

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  23. Tony, I got your message. I decided to answer it on your blog as a comment since you said I don't comment much on your blog, and also you have the option, since you have to approve the comments, of whether or not to post this or just read it.

    I don't comment that much because, believe it or not, I've got issues of my own to deal with and I'm usually quite busy. Unlike you, I prefer NOT to discuss my personal problems in public, that is not at all what my blog is for. I am super busy right now and really don't have time to write this, but I don't want you to think I'm ignoring you.

    Another reason I don't comment much is that I don't really feel qualified giving you advice, unlike so many other of your readers. I really can't relate to your situation, if I was in your shoes the first and foremost thing I would be trying to do is get a steady roof over my head permanently, and everything I would be doing would be geared to that. I probably think you should go visit your mom and stay there for a few months, but what do I know?

    I also don't necessarily agree with those that you should try to get a real job. That's because with your history, I don't see anyone hiring you for a job except someone who knows you and is doing you a huge favor. And I have my doubts that you would last at any job very long.

    That's why I think trying for gov't assistance and perhaps some kind of program for people with your issues would be more advisable than what you are doing now....but again, I'm not in your shoes.

    I can't help you decide about Cali or Vegas. I tried the $40 NL game at the Bike once and thought it was the worst poker game I'd ever played. I hated it. I couldn't imagine anyone making any money on it. The fact that you have (at Commerce) indicates that either you are a better player than I am (especially for this game) or variance. I also worry that even if you constantly win, you can't win enough at that level to ever break out of your current situation. You do the math, even if you win at your current wait, is there ever going to be a time when you can afford a permanent residence?

    I can't help you get into the Bike. I play there less than 10 times a year and have no contacts there. I'm just a player like you and they don't even know me.

    And if you remember what I look like, you know I don't have any size 34-36 pants lying around.

    You have never mistreated me, that is true. And I think I've always been fair with you. I've never ever said any of the horrible things about you or to you that many others have, right here on this blog--even those who you consider your friends.

    I just have other things that I have to deal with in my own life right now.

    Oh and my blog was misbehaving and not showing my email address, that is fixed now....it is robvegaspoker(at)gmail.com

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