Saturday, August 3, 2013

theres no internet here, but before i left i brought up this page and closed the laptop with it open, so i could type while on this shuttle bus. it just wont be saving as i type, so i hope nothing goes wrong. had a longer than usual rest last night, and it would be easier if i didnt wake up as often feeling a need to use the bathroom. because where i was sleeping im worried about getting charged with trespassing instead of just told to leave, and no, im sure not saying where it is. also im starving to death but want to eat somewhere i have comps or can get $1 meals

so there was no poker game at 9am here at Barona, and they said the $3-6 limit usually starts a little before 10am, and next is the $1-3 NL ($100 min). the $1-2 NL with the $40 min buyin dont usually start til 11am. so since i have never played a machine here, (they give u no free play for signing up for a card) i sat at the 50play 2c multi denominational VP machine for a few minutes, but i couldnt figure out why it wouldnt let me bet. then i noticed a sign saying $1 min bet, and that sure screws up those who martingale. ud think the casino would want their business, not discourage them from martingaling, and insisting they flat bet.

anyway i won $58 on the VP, was briefly up $108, and new roll is $659. i was going to make sure that if i did lose, i would lose less than $20. but i started off winning. one thing that irritated me was the machine auto held cards, sometimes different than what i would hold. such as holding JT suited instead of just the J when there were 3 suited cards in ur hand. one time it auto held 3 to a straight flush when id have normally held the high card unsuited instead, (jacks or better) but went with their hold and got a straight flush on 1 of the hands.

never did play any poker there, ive seen other people id swear are homeless just riding one of the many casino shuttles in the middle of the night just for something to do. me, i did it to hide out in a particular spot where i wouldnt be cold and relatively safe and get some sleep, and to also be close walking distance back to where i could plugin a laptop and get wifi. Only once have i played poker at barona, buying in $40 running it up to $75, and then losing it back which i talked about in a different blog a few days ago.

at 7pm last night, after leaving the starbucks by the village club i walked back to the village club and sure enough, the $3-6 omaha had broke up leaving only the $6-12 omaha, way too high so i didnt play. instead i went up to the trolley station to catch the 8pm barona shuttle to get some sleep. so i really didnt play much poker yesterday. lost less than $20 in the $3-6 omaha earlier in the day at the village club before i walked to starbucks, but at one point was $63 ahead, and of course lost it back rapidly. $3-6 with a kill almost every pot is a pretty big game. especially when they use a $2 small blind to get a $5 rake every hand. (both blinds are taken upfront unless it doesnt get to a flop).

still wouldnt mind going to sacramento, blueeyedmurphy on twitter offered to drive me if i make it to ventura, so if i die out in the desert u know who to blame. but i doubt ill make it to ventura. but now im wondering if the rake is higher in sacramento making it not a good option, seems to be that way, although ive not yet gotten the details on what they take if its no flop, or how late the omaha8 game goes.

id also like to visit the palomar club at 5526 Broadway at least once but theres so many Broadways i dont know which citys Broadway that is. i heard that if u get there at 9am, and play til noon, u get $50 more if u play the entire time from 9am to noon, the game at that time of day is usually $3-6 holdem, probably unbeatable and tight, but should check it out.

-------12 hours later---

sitting in the starbucks in chula vista, by the trolley station, was worried sick when my laptop died earlier it would delete my post since i had no internet at the time and it wasnt auto saving, but when i plugged it in and opened the page, it came right up, what a relief. spent the entire day playing at Sycuan, where of course u cannot charge up anything or use a laptop at all, i only go there because i like the poker there better, particularly the $1-3 stud. am happy to report i now have a roll of $721, won about $60-70 there, and spent very little today, the $2 an hour there in food comps is very good for never running out of food. actually won in that game today, and only left earlier than i intended because i started losing back too much, at one point my roll was at $767.

theres a good article by mike caro titled "scratch" in the newest edition of Poker Player newsletter that u all should read, describes what often goes wrong when im sitting in a poker game, and start out playing my best and later frustrations set in. Let me know what u think AFTER reading it.

early on today at Barona i got aggravated at the machine i was at, because it right near a BJ table, and i heard the dealer giving out very bad advice that benefitted the house, and i hate it when dealers do that. (he was telling the players they should never surrender anything). that is a very good rule for the player. if i can find another bus, i might go out to Barona later to sleep, dont know how safe it would be sleeping in this area of chula vista, i never have, or i could make it over to the village club, but then what would i do? i think i might still be able to make the last bus to oceanside too as far as that goes, but then id have to go withOUT my suitcase hidden away in El Cajon, their city buses have shut down for the night, lots of suburban buses shut down early unlike Vegas.

ive saved the link for all the 24 hour starbucks places, and it shows one in lake elsinore, never did visit the casino there. heres the link for those interested. http://www.openwifispots.com/guide_free_wifi_wireless_hotspot-airports.aspx

still wish i knew how to get on the tour bus to Jean from the los angelos area, for anyone interested in finding this out. the only fear is now that i have no phone or net, if i go there ill have no way to grind on seals. but ill have a few weeks of free housing betting micro limits on VBJ, never making a bet over $3. earlier i didnt have the discipline to bet that low, but now i certainly do. its amazing how much discipline u get when it suddenly dawns on u that maybe u cannot recover 100% of the time from going broke like i always have in the last 5-10 yrs.

there is free wifi on the busses in the san fransisco area, and also in the Reno area, and also some airports, finding a lot of links about free wifi but i need it in a place indoors where i am alone. i loved being at Vinces house alone when he was at work playing online. ive no phone, but when he gets around to reading this new blog, id like him to write me on facebook and tell me what id need to do to be able to stay there free for awhile or anyone else in vegas. would going to Opp village to ask about jobs or that other vocah rehab place do it? i dont want to go to KS yet, something happened there years ago and i never came around for 10 yrs after mom called the police on me, and it had nothing to do with Mark, but with her and she was worried for her safety. after that she wanted me to stay away for many years til she finally let me come there to live in 2005-2007

also i feel like poker is my only real ticket out of a bad situation. it got me out of a terrible life before, that i've never wanted to talk about in this blog when i ran away from home, and only gave small hints of. i would be judged too harshly if the true story came out, and being judged by almighty God is enough. Not only that, poker also kept me away from panhandling and a roof overhead, most of the time without any type of assistance from the govt. i sure hope the other players arent 100x better today killing off that option from being viable. one thing really making it hard is much higher prices, and higher jackpot drops that never existed then. i read in that same magazine tonight that club fortune increased their $1-4 game to $2-6. and i had to hold a flashlight to the paper to see it because i have no glasses. if anyone knew my life truly before poker, theyd understand why i will never give it up, poker has been a saviour to me.

36 comments:

  1. "also i feel like poker is my only real ticket out of a bad situation."

    Wrongo. AgSweep and Seattle Irish had you set up for it but you rejected it. Having a case worker to help you navigate through the system and see what assistance you qualify for was right there for you. Of course, that meant that you would actually have to do something for yourself instead of begging.

    I guess you'd rather be homeless and and on the run. So be it.

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    1. they wouldve just said i dont qualify unless im suicidal, i was always told that as a young kid 18-21, why would it be different now? theyd certainly think im not bad off enough to use a case manager.

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    2. Tony,

      Do you ever try to do something good for your life? Or do you just prefer to make excuses for why things will not work out instead of putting forth an effort to change for the better?

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    3. Tony:

      Honestly, what do you think your lawyer was doing? Do you think he was just trying to mess with you? Do you think he was dumb and didn't know what he was doing? Do you think he had it in for you and was trying to screw you over?

      Your lawyer said, many times, that the #1 thing you needed to do to get everything straightened out was to go to NAPS and see the doctor there. That was #1. From there, they may have assigned you a case manager, they may have got you signed up for both short term or long term housing, they could have got you food stamps, they could have got you a positive letter for your SSI meeting, they could have got you job training and they could have got you a job. They could have gotten you health care and dental care and new glasses.

      They could have gave you EVERYTHING you needed. They weren't going to make you stop gambling. They weren't going to take all your money away. You could have gotten plugged into the system, built yourself back up, worked a job and played poker on the side. You could have made something of yourself - something to be proud of.

      SO, instead of listening to what your lawyer told you to do MULTIPLE times, you are simply going off of a guess about what may have happened based off of 25 year old information. You trust 25 year old information over the advice of a lawyer who deals with this type of situation every day.

      Horrible decision, Tony. Very poorly thought through.

      s.i.

      p.s. - and NOW you're holding out some lame offer of, "I'll go ask for a job at Opportunity Village if someone will let me stay at their house"???? Why would anyone trust you to follow through on anything like that? WHY?

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  2. oh forgot to mention to Steve L in cali from RTP that i arrived at HG that night long before i sent him that message, had no service earlier, and was in the other room hidden away in the $2-4 stud game that broke about 8.30-9pm. i think i got there about 7pm, i left union station on a bus about 5pm and went straight to HG. he must of not recognized me since we havent met. i wish he had told me a long time ago he was there, all i remember was him telling me he couldnt make it down. is he sure it wasnt the next night he went looking for me? how can he, as an adult, worry about what his parents think? unless hes much younger than i guessed. anyway might be back soon, at least for oceanside area. i figured since he said he had no money--that meant no job committments

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  3. Your hourly for 2013 at panhandling is 13.50, your hourly for working is $0 because you refuse to do it, and your hourly for poker is about -$4. Nice to see you're double dipping the tell people what they want to hear to try to get something out of them strategy. Unfortunately all sincerity is gone from your life.


    If your mom died next week and hadn't seen you in two years, would you feel guilty at all? Or just angry when she leaves everything to Mrk?

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  4. well sounds like a good plan, tony

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  5. Quote:
    Originally Posted by hamsterdam View Post
    Anyone who looks at you is gonna assume you have no money to begin with...

    well i dont think thats what this woman assumed at Barona who was out celebrating her birthday. she had 2 big suitcases sitting in the hall all by themselves and i didnt know whose they were til she walked up talking into a cell phone about being homeless. very good looking woman, wish i had a picture instead of just her email address. anyway she invited me out for icecream, it was 50c each, good deal, and i seen her asking the manager something about something she supposedly bought earlier, seemed some kind of scam to me, she told me earlier i should learn to hustle when i mentioned also being homeless and sleeping outside near here.

    she was on the phone with someone who was going to pick her up and she had been in an argument with some guy who was her friend and thats why her stuff was here. she had wanted like $1-2 to play machines i gave her, then i felt she needed more again, and i wanted to offer her $5 for a hug and kiss so id know she really likes me and wasnt using me for money. earlier she also asked me if i used drugs, she seemed to. real jittery kind. maybe meth? i know little about drugs. Carmen would know what she does. But i couldnt ask that with other guys around. i got talked into playing a machine, and i lost $27 on that damned machine while she was walking around, because once i got $5 stuck i didnt want to leave it. now im pissed, i went back to my laptop and now should sleep, and i hope its a valid email, for i sent her an email, probably will never hear a word. told her about my phone no longer being good too. she said i need to earn money using my laptop and i told her about my blog. but she seemed kind of high and not really understanding. sure was a good looking woman, wish i could go home with her.

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  6. I see that you now think that lightning36 is a hater according to your tweet. You really deserve to go busto for that remark.

    And as for "poker has been a saviour to me."... you certainly have been worshiping a false god. Looks like you will be enduring the fires of Gehenna in the afterlife.

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  7. "i wanted to offer her $5 for a hug and kiss so id know she really likes me and wasnt using me for money."

    My head just asploded.

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    1. Tony -

      Explain what you mean there. Why would offering her money for a h/k give you information as to whether she was using you for money? Is the thought that she would need to say, "I'll give you that for FREE, sugar!" so you would know for sure? Because, to most of your bloggers, neither an acceptance of that offer or a rejection would give you that info. In fact, most non-whores are going to be insulted by the question. Of course, we may need to exlcude tweaking meth-heads from that population sample...

      s.i.

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    2. May be Tony meant he is offering a hug and kiss if she pays him $5.

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    3. well if she is a hooker, she will say that NOT enough. if she dont like me at all, she wont do it for any price, but if she accepts or gives me anyway, then she is ok. no email yet. and no sign of her at Barona tonight. if chaperone (can someone post a pic of him? andy? cutter? Benny?) is walking around Barona, why didnt he take her pic too? and of course id only use the room to sleep, common sense should tell him not only do i never steal, im too afraid to anyway. i did get ripped off terribly once by John from cali i sold a room to at palace station, from room service charges, and ive never used room service. so its dumb to think id fuck him over.

      also i only wanted $20 more from Herbie, $80 instead of $60 for 2 weekend nights, and he got so mad, he walked out and paid more than that even though i told him as he was walking out the door id go ahead and honor the deal even though i felt he was taking advantage of me. him taking a room a lot more costly, shows not only stupidity, but that he really was taking advantage of me on the price.

      the main difference between me and others is i dont fuck people over

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    4. BTW, you have so little money you can't afford to tip a dollar to a poker dealer, but you can spend $5 for a hug and kiss?

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    5. Amazing logic, Tony. So, paying a woman $5 for a kiss will demonstrate that she likes you for reasons other than money, and a guy who would rather pay more money than take a deal that you offered and tried to revoke is trying to take advantage of you financially? Is this Opposite Day?

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  8. Yeah, I am sure that giving her $5 for a hug and a kiss means that she really likes you. Start of a true romance. You really have some twisted views. Please get some help soon.

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  9. Next powerball drawing is $400M with a cashout value of $230M. I am in!!!

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    1. When you play this ball of power.
      Please buy a ticket for me as well.

      Every time you do this I will owe you a beer when your next trip to Vegas comes.

      Also, I split profits (after taxes) 49.69/50.31

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    2. I will add you in for same cut as Lightning and Josie, that being 80oz of gold coinage. Not going for the split of the jackpot net explicitly on the pending draw(s) as previously mentioned though in order to keep my astounding feats of generosity a secret until I execute them....

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  10. She was a good looking women who you were afraid was using you. Is there any other kind of good looking women that do not use you????

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    1. Claudia never used me for anything, neither did Carmen

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    2. Carmen tried but couldn't get ahold of you

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  11. arrived Barona 20 min ago, new roll $764. been a long time since i took a room, but its working, for a long time my roll was in the late $500s to the mid $600s. managed to secure a win of $63 at Sycuan, almost all of it in the omaha game. too bad this casino dont have omaha8. if i can ever get back in shape enough to return to Jean for housing again, omaha and NOT holdem, NOT stud, will be the game that does it, and im still interested right now ill go look up transit into lake elsinore and see if theres a shuttle.

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    1. Tony:

      So, now the goal is to get enough scratch together to make it back to Jean? And what is it you will do in Jean? Last time you were in Jean you were looking for any way out of there - you thought it was the world's worst idea to be in Jean and were mad that people didn't talk you out of going there in the first place.

      And now...your #1 plan is to go back to Jean.

      Perfect.

      s.i.

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    2. the swings in omaha r worse than any poker game. gl

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  12. somehow ive got about what i came to cali with, certainly having been losing money gambling, but everyone is right that i dont have enough a roll to make it off gambling either. well, the only way to grow the roll is to continually spend $0 and keep plugging along. it will eventually hit something and take off.

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    1. People aren't telling you that you don't have a roll to make it off gambling. People are telling you that you don't have the skill to make it off gambling. You could have $10,000 and eventually would lose it all again.

      You just don't listen.

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  13. TBC, you can always type your post offline into Notepad then cut and paste it into your blog.

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  14. woke up and put on last clean shirt out of the 5 id carried around in the laptop case, sitting in the lobby using the net, trying to see about bus connections to the palomar or lake elsinore. still at $768, roll unchanged. First thing when i woke up and plugged into the net some different woman walked up and was trying to sell me a starbucks gift card cause she said she really needed the money. i told her my own problems and she eventually left. she seemed like she might be on meth too. wish i had the money to take care of one of these girls and get them off the streets and have them for my girlfriend instead of the type of bums u often see them with. i think of lot of guys force their woman to beg so they wont have to, but i have no proof.

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    1. lmao. get a job .get the money. get the meth whore.

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    2. should of gave her 5 dollars 4 a hug and kiss. imo

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    3. So she would then be with a different kind of bum? You slay me, Tony!

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    4. i think it was the clean shirt. she thought u had money.

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    5. But is your cardboard box large enough to sleep two people?

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  15. played at Palomar $3-6 holdem 9am to 12am, was down to $22 of my $40, by the time i got the $40 bonus and then immediately cashed out and got this bus to a starbucks ive never been in before. at one point i was up to $93 90 minutes into the promo. but now after expenses today im still up a small amount, new roll $781, and trying to get out of here much further north while i still have todays daily bus pass. i dread going to all this effort and i dont know where ill store it but i need the clothes if i can ever find a cheap hotel. any help from lester or anyone on cheap enough rooms?

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  16. TBC you wouldn't know a good thing if it whacked you upside the head. Everyone tries to help you but you just spit in their face. hell a year ago I offered you a free place to stay in vegas yet you said I may rob you because you had more then me. Well guess what? I still have a roof over my head and you are homeless. Who is laughing now?

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