Friday, October 25, 2013

In case anyone is wondering why im back in Jean

tired of all the people around Vinces house, and tired of walking home at night from the busstop, or paying more for a ride there than what the rental cost is. its a bit of a walk. Just want to be by myself for a while and relax, and besides ive never had nearly this high of roll before to play the machine in Jean. the times i did have a high roll to play VBJ were machines not nearly as good in payback and comps, with the 1 exception of the lucky club promo while it lasted.

Its nice being somewhere where im NOT a burden to anyone. I just discovered cooldave no longer has the same phone, so i hope he didnt think i was a burden calling and texting 1-2 weeks ago on the weekend hoping to go play at the same casino. worried Josie thought that for sure. SI never arranges a time for us to go play, nor does Grouchie. Vince cant afford to play any poker himself. Poker Johnny never tries to contact me. nor does stack, double bubble, or others i used to hear from long ago in vegas like donkeytax Ian and zippy.

i could live in Jean forever if i dont get SSI and never be a burden to any friends, govt or the tax payers. without worrying about going broke. But i would get exceptionally bored if im here for too long, being no live poker and the only poker i can play is online bovada from the room. remember, i cannot access UP here, so ive still not tried out the new omaha yet.

but the main reason im here is im ashamed of my lack of discipline, insomuch as staying off the poor paying 1c2c5c etc spin poker machines with the 96%-98% paybacks. at least here in Jean all the money im running thru the VBJ is getting a much higher rate of return, and overall seems like im ahead about $175 on the VBJ since arriving in Jean. as long as i can play the VBJ and arent stuck really heavy for the day---theres NO temptation to run over to the VP machine for a break.

have heard the VBJ (other kind) exist in reno at gold dust west, one place in carson city where id also love to play a bit of poker for the first time, and also in elko. i didnt know about elko. i dont know whats cheap to live in elko, u try and look up craigslist rent ads, they always list only places hundreds of miles away cause no one reads elko.

got an offer for $19 rooms weekdays and $29 weekends with NO resort fees at the Pioneer in laughlin, but considering how much better ive done at $1-2 NL than $2-6 spread limit, and the fact my rolls doubled from when it was around $1000, ive decided i dont really want to go play poker at the riverside. Only logical reason to go there would be if i was taking one of them really nice $400-500 monthly apts Mc Gee used to have thats really nice and safe. But i dont think i could get approved to move in.

and i bought some bread, honey and peanut butter among other things on the way to Jean, but a jar of peanut butter dont last long, and it makes sandwiches a lot more expensive than u would think they would be. one thing that would make my stay here tremendously more enjoyable sometime in the future when im in far better shape would be not just a car of my own, but a REFRIGERATOR of my own i could own, id never want to waste the $10 a day fee.

mom is sending my attys secretary something she wanted the judge to see. sometimes i wonder if i should go there NOW for 10 days before my nov 15 meeting with my atty, just to get an uptodate drs assessment of me from the same dr mark sees she said wouldve helped me get ssi if i lived in KS, but hes not yet met me. its  a different dr than the last time. the old one wasnt much help.

id really like to play a little poker over this weekend, so make some offers and tell me how much u need for gas, but it cant be an exorbitant amount that would make it nearly impossible to win.

and one final reason i wanted to go to Jean--i feel at home here.  But if i lose $500 or more ill get right out of here, so i wont drop to as low a ceiling as i did last time when i was down to about $1350 when i left.

so far, im up about $175 on the VBJ, and have a roll of $2499, along with about $95 on bovada.

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  1. if i could really do what i want, id live in an apt all my own where i could own a cat, (same as in KS or MT although i did not own a cat either place) and just sit and grind online poker all day. But the reason im not doing that and am here in Jean instead is because online poker isnt nearly as easy to win at and as reliable poker. its a worse option nowdays than even live poker.

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  2. the roll is now $2623, after one exceptionally good shoe, this is by far the highest roll in a year.

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  3. would kind of like to know the min required to get the place Grump used to live at to accept me as a tenant, and if paid it, id need that much plus $2500 for poker and misc to move in and start paying monthly. but the min would probably be at least 3 months rent so i wont have it anytime soon, but thats sure a good location and a lot safer than the other weekly motel downtown. and besides that weekly motel cost too much.

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    1. Monthly rent cost multiplied by six should work

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  4. N01 is wondering y. we all know u r a degen gambler.who rather gamble and try and pick up hookers then spend time with family and friends. the only exception to spending time with fam and friends is when u r close to broke or need something like clothes,a ride,food,etc,etc.

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  5. new roll $2222, lost back $401 and captain lucky is rigging the fucking drawing, i should complain to the gaming commission. same guy won twice and ive got 42 tix

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    1. Why would captain lucky need to rig the draw if he is lucky? Well, at least you are enjoying your relaxing break in Jean.

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    2. I guess that gives you a cushion of $99.99 more you can lose...

      "one final reason i wanted to go to Jean--i feel at home here. But if i lose $500 or more ill get right out of here, so i wont drop to as low a ceiling as i did last time when i was down to about $1350 when i left."

      Good luck, Tony!

      s.i.

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    3. Yeah, I think you should complain to NGC about the random drawing that some guy won twice when you had 42 tickets. They would definitely want to know about that...it seems the game is rigged.

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  6. leave yr microwave in the hotel room. LMAO.

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  7. in response to u thinking i hate u on RTP. i dont hate u.u r just a delusional pathetic person that uses autism as an excuse not to get ajob and only sees ppl as valuable asset to support yr pathetic life.also would rather spend money losing at poker and hookers than supporting yr son.when i first saw yr blog . i thought u were a serious poker player that is y i told u about melbourne florida , in the past. cheap living,poker room right by bus stop,etc,etc.then more i read saw u r just a degen. that rather panhandle and uses ppl 4 money and things bcuz u r too lazy to get off yr ass and get a job and build a bankroll and use poker as a alternative income.

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  8. a good son supports his elderly parent, instead of expecting his parent to support him when his parent has no income and is much worse off financially than him. The difference is im at least trying to make money honestly instead of being a ward of the state (i gamble, Mark dont, and that makes me unable to respect him--he is nothing but a clone of my mother and shares all her religious beliefs). When u get out of ur early 20s and start approaching 50-60 u wont see it the way u do now. Saying someone is a valueable asset is just another way of saying they are the type of friend u could always appreciate and never want to lose, and no one would see that in a bad light but u. Am very bitter how every woman ive ever gotten close to, (think Britni, Claudia, Josie, Sue etc) left me. And theres NOTHING cheap about FL unless u are in a real ghetto, its far more expensive to live than vegas. no one can match the low housing costs here if u just arent in a weekly instead of a real apt that is. and i havent given a single hooker a dime since my roll was at 15k in reno. Carmen certainly isnt a hooker, and she didnt get a dime either, with the exception of the $5 i put on her books to buy stamps the previous time she was locked up. and i already HAVE a job---its +ev gambling, dont matter if its VBJ or live poker. and theres nothing wrong with getting a little help from ur friends when u are just about out, but notice how when i have more money i can support myself just fine here in Jean. Hell, i dont even apply for food stamps like everyone else does. im certainly not a user nor would anyone think of me as one but a few trolls like u and JG.

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    1. sure,TBC.that is y is when yr job is not making money. u start thinking about ssi, kansas,college loans,etc,etc. LMAO.

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    2. Tony:

      Please explain this - I don't think you can be meaning what it appears you're meaning...

      "(i gamble, Mark dont, and that makes me unable to respect him--he is nothing but a clone of my mother and shares all her religious beliefs)."

      Are you able to respect anyone who doesn't gamble? Please tell me Mark never reads this blog. If he does, please delete your comment immediately.

      s.i.

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    3. no Mark does NOT read the blog. in fact mom dont read it either, she told me once shes afraid to read it, and she pretty much keeps Mark off the net entirely because she didnt like things he posted on facebook before she closed his acct, and says hes not responsible enough to use the net. although she did say when he was 21 he could use it again, so i dont know how much he uses it now. sure i can respect those who dont gamble, but not those who think others are sinning by gambling. God dont consider it to be a sin, and fuck the narrow minded religious bigots who think its a sin for me. (vook, WEC, etc). the only "sin" is if i do it on non plus EV ways, which im trying very hard to avoid and i think i keep getting better at how i make my bets.

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    4. Please point me to where in the Bible it says that God is OK with +EV gambling, but not OK with -EV gambling. I think I missed that passage.

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  9. so i guess u arent a good son either bcuz r u helping u yr mom? also,y b a warden of the state? GET A JOB,bum.with this so-called job now in jean. how much do u pay in taxes? i know autism. yr crutch. yr excuse.also,y does mark sure yr moms beliefs? hmmmmmmmmmmmm.SURVEY SAYS.U WERE NOT THERE.also melbourne (craigslist space coast that is where melbourne is,moron) has plently of reasonable places to live. mayb if u made more than 10 dollars a day at yr JOB . u could get a place. also, the ghetto is to nice 4 u . TBC u make nothing a day but u want to judge the ghetto as beneath u. i love how u have these standards 4 places to live . when u cant afford to live in anywhere really long term.u should b kissing vinces ass every fucking day.

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  10. So Tony, how much support are you giving your elderly mother?

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    1. why should i? she depends on the govt, the govt can afford it better than i can. Maybe if she had enough pride to refuse to collect her social security, and my sons SSI, maybe then i would someday when i had the money. and its NEVER the obligation of someone poorer to support someone wealthier. its always the obligation of the wealthier person to support the poorer.

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    2. u really r pathetic. u deserve all the misery and pain that life throws at u.y have a child if u were just going to abandon it.

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    3. Tony:

      Doesn't your bible command you to honor your mother? Your post mocks her lack of pride and self-sufficiency. That doesn't sound like a post that honors her.

      Perhaps you could post something about how much you appreciate her for RAISING YOUR SON FOR YOU, which certainly seems admirable. Without your mom, Mark would have spent his entire life in a group home, with no knowledge of family or the love of your mom. I would suggest you offer up some praise, rather than continuing to mock and belittle her.

      s.i.

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  11. Are you honestly suggesting Mark should start gambling to support you ? You have never helped that kid one little bit but he should do his bit for his old Dad ?
    Really?

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    1. No, im just saying that anyone who believes gambling is a sin against God, is someone i cant accept. if no one else can understand, maybe the PokerKat can since he also dont like right wing bigots

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    2. Yet you're fine with people who think homosexuality is a sin again God.

      So you get to just pick and choose?

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    3. but thats totally different, the BIble says nothing about gambling being a sin, it even shows multiple instance where dice were thrown to determine Gods will. the Bible clearly calls homosexuality a sin in multiple different verses both the old and the new testament.

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    4. "if no one else can understand, maybe the PokerKat can since he also dont like right wing bigots" Newsflash, Tony: YOU are a right wing bigot.

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  12. u see gambling was ONLY started by society as a way for those without any other way to have a chance to use their brain to earn enough money to create a better life for themselves, it was primarily to help those in dire poverty better themselves. and i see a lot of people who cant accept the idea someone broke and homeless might be far more intelligent than them, so they want to stop them from gambling. Mom thought id do better in life if i did well in school and had a good education, so she made sure i got mostly A's and got a year ahead the time i was growing up. she was bitterly disappointed i skipped out of college, especially since i had a deans scholarship after an exceptionally high score of 36 on my ACT test. i doubt i could come near that score now been out of school too long

    and thats what makes gambling so great. u dont need social skills, (which no one with autism / aspergers have. all u need is a high IQ) and u can make money. the thing that holds so many people back is the lack of the initial starting capital, and someday when i become rich, i can fix this. But it will have to go to broke people who dont smoke or drink or use weed, and thats going to make finding suitable proteges hard.

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  13. u see i may be considered a bigot by some people for beliefs i was raised with, but its funny they hate ME for those beliefs, and yet not my mom and son who share the same beliefs, only worse. Really, the only difference between me and my family, is i am trying to make my life better by using my brain, and theyre content to live off the govt since mom dont work anymore since shes old, and my sons lost every job hes had due to his autism. The only things i can be considered a bigot on is prejudice towards sins which are very destructive, harmful and damaging to ones life and emotional health, (and the health of all those around them). such as drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, and sex sins. And the wholesale slaughter of little babies before theyre born. But to find gambling a sin? thats fucking with someones livelihood and the ability to become self supporting and make a living.

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    1. Actually social skills are at least as important if not more important than having a high IQ. A truly successful poker pro can convince fish to be happy when he takes their money and keep them rebuying into the game so the pro can take more money off of them. Pros don't "tap the glass" and otherwise scare weak players away from the table....

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    2. Tony, I find it interesting that you acknowledge that despite your family's objection to your "livelihood," they still love you; yet, you seem to detest your family because of their feelings towards your gambling. Why is this? Why don't you love them despite their beliefs towards gambling?

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  14. Epic comment thread, Tony! So much wrong in here.

    It's so hard not to say anything about the continued gambling even against the promises and swearing off not to. You've said in the past that if your roll ever gets that high, you're done with VBJ or slot machines, yet here you are again, losing $400 at a time. LOL. Your BR is headed back down, buddy. Don't be a fool - quit that EV- crap and return to your bread & butter: poker.

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  15. No one is wondering "why". Everyone knows.

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  16. If your mother was employed she worked to EARN her Social Security benefits by contributing to Social Security. In any case as she is too old to work and Mark can't hold a job due to his autism (just as you can't) what would you have them do to support themselves? In reality, you are jealous because they have, with the government's help, the things that you say you want, stable housing, food and enough money each month to make ends meet. You are trying to achieve these goals through gambling and nothing else. Your choice. Their choice is to accept the help available to them. Their choice. Everyone makes their own choices and has to deal with the consequences.

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  17. What would you do about Mark if your mother died tomorrow? What was your plan if she died when he was young?

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  18. Tony, UP just got PLO/8 they have 1 game of .50/$1 blind with $20-$50 buy in so far.

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    1. why arent u playing live instead since live games have so much better action than online games? dont u think Bovada is still a better site?

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    2. I play live almost everyday and play online. Do I have to pick one or the other?

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  19. hmmmm........

    Proverbs 28:22 - He that hasteth to be rich [hath] an evil eye, and considereth not that poverty shall come upon him

    1 Timothy 6:10 - For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

    1 Thessalonians 5:22 - Abstain from all appearance of evil

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  20. I don't contact you to set up times to play because I haven't played in probably 2 or 3 months.

    I also have been keeping myself extremely busy trying to balance out my life with a 40 hour a week job, fixing up my house (Just recently painted and I am replacing all the carpet once it arrives) and spending time with my future wife and child.
    Planning a wedding and honeymoon and trying for the life of me to pay off the debt we are accumulating.

    I've taken a nice 4 day vacation to Pennsylvania recently and have gone trick or treating with my child once already.
    Tomorrow we are going to Fright Dome at Circus Circus and then Thursday we are going trick-or-treating one last time.

    November I am having my in-law's over to my house for thanksgiving dinner to have my whole family together. I haven't had the time or money to even think about X-mas yet, gotta start figuring out gifts....

    Glad to see you are doing better though and that your roll is up.
    Keep up the good work and remember to get back to poker instead of the machines.

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