Thursday, October 3, 2013

well i guess its time to get on out of Jean, and back to playing live poker (much easier than online) while im still up a little bit since coming to Jean

wasnt going to do it til i had a loss of $400 or more, and for a long time it looked like it would never happen. id been happy if id passed $2500 before it ever happened, and at one point it looked like i might. i was up to $2265 at most, and then was winning about $100 on the machine too, but that was in the middle of an exceptionally high count where i couldnt stop while ahead then, nor could i lower my bets. and by the end of the shoe i wasnt ahead anymore.

the good news is right now, with my final small win, and new roll of $1686, im still up over $400 on VBJ since coming to Jean and thats not too bad for 10+ days of playing it, and getting a room everyday too. ive lost 5 small deposits on Bovada and another $215 in live poker at southpoint since coming here though. For some reason that day Benny didnt want anyone knowing on RTP that he was in Jean, so he had me keep it quiet on RTP that day it was him, but now its ok to mention it since hes long gone out of this area. hell we both lost big at southpoint that day.

dont really feel like making a blog post, am not in the best of moods after such a big drop, (i was hoping when i took the big drop id still have close to $2000 left). also before tomorrow i got to pay virgin mobile $30 too so i dont lose my phone, since its prepaid ill have it shutoff immediately so it MUST be paid, same as the net had to be paid. they arent monthly contracts anymore. and thats why monthly contracts are PREFERABLE to prepaid.
 
so instead--ill have this guest blog post by MIB (man in black) that was originally supposed to be in the comments section of the OLD blog. i asked Josie if i should publish it or not, and she told me i should give MIB time to cool off, but never answered about whether to publish it, i told her to login, and look, and use her judgement, but i guess she never did. i left the decision whether to print this totally up to her--but she gave no word one way or the other.
 
and heres the blog post-------------------------------------
 
 

    1. Well it looks like I got an email from TBC. Here is what it said

      TBC Email:

      I went to find ur facebook page, (because id been feeling like since u like Johnny Cash, i must of misjudged u--and felt like i should forgive u) for the Bible tells us if we do not forgive others, and hold grudges when we feel we were mistreated, God will not forgive us. I dont know how u feel about Jesus, but i was going to go to ur facebook page to find out. Was quite disappointed when i couldnt find u on there, u must of removed me when u got mad. Looked thru lightnings friends list too, didnt see u, so i figured u must of blocked me off facebook entirely for u to not even show up there.



      Truth is, im not really afraid u were going to harm me and take my money--its just that u could physically do it and that worried me. ive always resented the fact i dont know how to defend myself. i wouldnt have this terrible fear of minorities if i just knew how to defend myself. But that certainly dont mean that u would--just because u could.



      I've been judging u harshly because of that day at Samstown. were it not for it, id have seen u the same as everyone else, and really appreciated and welcomed ur help. (various offers u made to me). Something just rubbed me the wrong way that day, since i was in need of money, found $20 on a VP machine, pointed it out to u, and u took it all for urself and refused to share it with me when i was the one who seen it and told u. Made me feel u were more desperate for money than me, and wouldnt hesitate to screw me if u got a financial benefit out of it, and been afraid to get close to u since. I felt like the only reason u didnt give me my half was because u knew u could beat me up if i insisted. And that made me afraid of u ever since.



      But God dont want me to judge u, condemn u or to carry the anger and bitterness around anymore. U are a good man, uve made multiple offers to help (me being paranoid too afraid to ever accept because i hadnt spent time with u getting to know u as a friend, (so id feel secure and safe). U arent as bad off as i worried u were, and if u were going to do something wrong to come up with a large sum of money so u could be back in action, u wouldve done it long before now. So i shouldnt worry about this.



      i hope u realize my aspergers makes it very difficult to see things in the same light as others do, and i didnt feel like i was being unreasonable towards u. But now that ive talked to close friends, and had time to think things over, i realize now that im been dumb, and silly, and i hope u can see it in ur heart to forgive me too. A person without a mental disorder probably wouldnt have worried the way i did. its just that most all ur offers involved u either being around me when i had money, finding out my address, or me being in a room in ur name. But i worry that with everyone--and i probably shouldnt. i wonder how many other good friends other than u i pissed away.







      i need to get out of Jean and into vegas soon before this $2000 goes down to $1400 or less, it almost did a few hours ago. im not sure where ill be living, probably with Vince so i feel safe, or somewhere downtown or on Boulder hwy again. the stratosphere game sucks too bad to live around there at one of the 2 places near there. But it would be nice to see u next time im at the stratosphere, and to apologize more effectively, ill take u to eat at the mcdonalds, burger king or carls Jr by there. I wish the stratosphere wouldnt got rid of their even money nickel VBJ, but im sure its for the best.







      I really would like to see u get into playing poker again. i would like to find one guy i could hang out and play poker with a large portion of the time, and everyone goes to places i cant, or has no interest. i hated seeing ur blog go too.


    2. My Response:

      The reason you couldn't find me is because after you kept messaging my friend Tiffany, I removed and blocked you. And in regards to I could possibly harm you, hell TBC my 12yr old daughter can harm you also. You aren't that strong. And in regards to the $20 left in the machine. You didn't point it out to me. I saw it while I was standing with you on my own. And if you resent me for not giving it to you that is fine, but to tell you the God's honest truth I ended up turning it in. I know I told you that I kept it but in reality I gave it to a security guard at Sams Town named David Kelley. He is a friend of mine from way back and I knew he would turn it in to lost and found. 90 days after turning it in I got a call that no one claimed it and the $20 was mine to keep. I claimed the money from Lost and Found and used it towards food for my household.


      Yes I understand that your Aspergers makes you see things differently then others. I have 3 Autistic Nieces so I understand it somewhat. However being told by you that you feel I am gonna rob and harm you just shows me that my friendship is not needed or wanted by you. Saying NO to an offer is one thing TBC, but to call me outright a criminal is fucked up.


      I would love to play poker and get back into action also but I don't have a Bankroll for it. Hell even if I had $1,000 I would be able to get started. But with being on unemployment and barely scraping by I prioritize how my money gets spent. And food and a roof over my head is way more important then sitting down at a poker table.
    and thats the end of his letter---and i wrote him back again after that but heard nothing the final time, although he did send one more letter. he wont be upset with me posting this, since it was his idea to post on the blog in comments, this was what he wanted posted.

    its just i felt bad for not trusting him for so long--and thought i did the right thing by surprising him sending a letter off apologizing out of the blue. in fact lightning and Josie said i did do the right thing, and said if i did things like that more often id have more friends and get more positive feedback. What i dont understand is why me sending him a letter telling him how bad i felt made him more upset, (at least it seemed like it did)


    23 comments:

    1. Tony that was a big step for you especially the apology and offer to but him a meal. It's a big improvement on your social interactions. I don't know MIB but most people get offended if someone questions their honesty etc. especially if they are honest people. It may take him a while just try not to make the same comments. It's good you don't immediately trust people you just meet. I don't think you gauge people as well as others so it's good to err on the side of caution. However it's not a good idea to tell people you don't trust them as they will get offended if they are just meeting you. Some things are best left unsaid.

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      1. I don't mind someone being cautious. Hell I don't trust many people either. However I have know TBC for close to 2 years. So if I haven't ripped him off or assaulted him by now then what makes him think I am gonna do it now?

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      2. absolutely, thats why it suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks when u got mad how stupid id been and why i sent the apology explaining myself and how i am. and also why i sent the last email about how i no longer was feeling that way and didnt know why u still thought i did.

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      3. The reason is because I know you TBC, You say you are sorry and will change then a month later you are back to your old ways. I have seen you do this with countless others.

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    2. played 2 small $3 sngs on Bovada, now have $22.40 instead of $20, so its going in the right direction sticking to nothing but sngs.

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    3. Josie- If you are reading this please email me at mrlimitholdem@gmail.com

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    4. For the record MIB has proven to be a man of his word to me. I trusted him enough to temporarily front an online deposit for him a while back. He did not rip me off. I don't make a habit of doing this but I had read and heard enough about him that I was not concerned.

      Cheers MIB!

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      1. Thanx Vook. To me all a man has is his word, and once he loses that he has nothing

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    5. Good quick article on aspergers in general and addiction. Not long and pretty much hits home (if there is anyone left here questioning that tony has aspergers or an addiction)

      [url]http://www.treatment4addiction.com/conditions-disorders/aspergers/[/url]

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    6. I could be wrong but I don't think Jesus ever called anyone "nigger".

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    7. Why are there TWO photos of MIB? One is great, but two?

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      1. I didnt even want one photo. But I copied and pasted 2 times so 2 photos came up

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      2. Two pictures of MIB and yet not one of me has ever graced your blog, Tony. Sometimes I question whether you REALLY love me...

        s.i.

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    8. Me and cooldave hanging out playing omaha at suncoast. I took care to only call white people that name but it really wasnt good judgement. Hard to comprehend why its wrong when black people call black people that all day long. Shouldnt that be wrong too?

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      1. Tony:

        It's a complicated issue involving privilege, power, in-group/out-group dynamics, reclamation and re-impowerment, and historical oppression. Would be happy to have that conversation with you at some point, but for now I would advise you to not use that word (even with other white people) in order to avoid a lot of trouble and a potential butt-kicking.

        s.i.

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    9. Still hanging onto $1391 and living at vinces. Mom still wants me to visit and I still might because I dont think this is enough for live poker. Samstown now offers omaha both thurs and sat. Too bad I cant do the binions promo. Was a little upset at cokeboy cause hes never wanted to meet in real life, and I think konas a troll hes never said anything positive that I can remember

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      1. Tony, maybe the fact that cokeboy99 lives about 1,700 miles from Las Vegas and rarely makes it there has something to do with it.

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      2. Wrong....we have met in real life. My first trip to Las Vegas in November 2009, I played at a table with you at Bill's, you recognized me due to the hoodie I was wearing. I got there as Aces cracked was ending, we played 3-handed and then heads up for a bit until I left to continue my vacation. You wanted me to sit and talk to you about the hands you played and how you played them but I wasn't interested due to it being my first time in Las Vegas and the limited time I had to see and do things. Also, I have only been to Vegas twice now, with a third trip scheduled, so it's not like there are many opportunities....I have played at a table with Lightning36 at the local casino too...

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      3. Also I have played at a table with grrrouchie, last year when I was in Las Vegas. I have no problem meeting with people I speak with online, but you weren't in Vegas December of last year, and I don't rent a car and don't go off-strip while there.

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      4. i cant remember that far back. lots of my last 10-20 years is blacked out

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    10. Man INBLACK is not honest! I staked him in a Binions Classic tourney a while back we registered together and He said he had to go to the bathroom.... Twenty min later I look around and he's gone..... Come to find out he got a refund and left without taking his seat.....tony dont trust this guy

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      1. Who the fuck are you and why the fuck would you make this shit up? I take my reputation seriously. SHOW SOME PROOF OF YOUR DUMB ASS ACCUSATION

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      2. jay cooley is the guy tatude staked who ripped him off

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