Won a $500 drawing over the weekend, got my $495 withdrawal on Bovada by WU a lot quicker than expected, and yet i still have a roll of only $2282. thats awful, with both those 2 things i shouldve been very close to $3000.
But of course i went partners with Herbie on the drawing, (reducing my share to $230)--and then lost multiple sessions of VBJ, plus we went to GVR with $315 and i came back with $73 after buying a little food and paying him for gas. the poker games there are normally good $1-2 games but i sure couldnt get anything that night and the table wasnt as good that day either. And i still dont quite have the 50 hours i need before dec 15 for the Jan 15 freeroll.
And i have little left online either now, just $26 on Bovada, and 33 chips on seals, which at $1100 a bitcoin are worth about $36. im wondering if i should sell and take it, nothing is backing it up and bitcoin is as valuable as GOLD.
and ill be due a big net and phone bill of $30-40 each within a day or two.
Herbie said i should be in vegas playing poker instead of in Jean, and offered to let me ride back to vegas FREE and drop me off at Vinces and i decided against it, mainly since i still had $2546, felt that enough to work with, and wanted to check the mail monday for a letter from Carmen again. of course, that night i lost $150 on the VBJ again, and u notice the new roll as of now after paying for a tour bus, this ride, misc expenses etc. I do NOT think i made the right decision in deciding against it.
So im on the bus and while on the bus i get a little worried of being robbed, the ONLY seat not taken is in the very back of the bus, surrounded by blacks, mostly women, all the older asians and mexicans are up near the front. no white people at all on the bus, maybe 1-2. this one black lady whose a regular who said she helps host the bus got me on, talked to the driver and owner and paid $25 for a ride into LA. (of course its also the same black lady who panhandled a few bucks off me before too when broke, or possibly her friend) i think its her sister. But the guy i was sitting next to was an older black guy off his medication who got into some argument with security and i was sure glad to not be on that bus any more, was worried about him pulling out a knife or something and thinking this white guy will sure be an easy target to rob. of course had he done so, the other passangers wouldnt have cared since i was white and felt me being white id deserved it. so i was extremely paranoid on the bus the whole way.
so paranoid that in fact when he stopped in barstow for a 30 minute break i couldnt stand being on the bus no more and was going to go up the street get a motel room, and later catch a train since barstow has an amtrak station plus buses. just to be away and to feel FREE of all these goddamn bags. herbie said to get rid of those bags and not be carrying them around and why do i need pots and pans, but someday ill have an apt again. so yeah i had 3 bags under the bus, and i was going to just leave them and be a free man. instead the bus was still there about 15 min later (after the 30 min break ended trying to figure out where i was) and i changed my mind last minute and ran to get on it claiming i was looking for wifi across the street and had been mistaken on the departure time. was i ever relieved once i reached Atlantic and Pomona and got off the bus safely. and carrying these damned bags to this hotel was a real pain, especially crossing the bridge. had to leave 1 behind and come back for it later. and i wont have anywhere to put these bags when i leave. at most ill be able to store 1 at commerce if that, i dont know on that.
i really didnt have the money to abandon the bus, but with $2300 left i still felt a lot richer than i really am considering how little money i survived on in cali the previous trip. and i thought it might save me being robbed of $1000. its too bad racism exists, if black racism did not exist, i wouldnt have had to fear my safety. But we can never get rid of racism til we first get rid of all the racists, those who hate whites and were taught to hate them from birth. and they carry out that hate by voting democrat and playing the knockout game, which the media tries to pretend dont exist.
now i feel its dumb to pay $350 for a week so i refused, $70 for a day is dumb too but i need sleep before i play at the commerce, and tomorrow ill just start using the spa. or take the bus into reno, sac, or vegas. i should just go home to KS. i dont feel i treat my family right, but i dont feel too guilty because i know i dont have the money to treat them right so i dont feel i should go til im in far better shape--that way i wont be a burden on them. i dont like being around people. id like to be around a woman whod love me, but dont want to be around others im not really close to. just those i can relate to.