something to break up the daily routine, something to make sure i dont ever play anything but poker, and to make sure i play poker CORRECTLY. with the right size percentage of my roll on the table (not too little either) or even worse--too large. (such as last nights $480 in the $2-6 spread limit game with NL overs at tx station). that had a big effect on the final hand i talked about briefly in the comments, a hand where i had TT preflop, didnt raise a straddler, nor the guy betting the flop of 783 rainbow, and lost on the river to Q7 when a 7 hit.
and the best way i see to get the most needed change (playing somewhere no one knows anything about how i play --or knows me from my blog) is to play at totally different venues than the places i usually play at. and the only way i see to avoid playing with people who know my game inside and out--is to no longer play in las vegas. my only concern is after knocking the roll down to under $2800, (and was lower than that til last nights win) is how i can afford to travel and pay for housing. but ive been researching criagslist, and theres lots of cities with motel for weekly rental for $200 or less in many cities than have pokerrooms i dont go to.
i think that even with a higher cost of living than remaining in vegas--id still be better off cause id win a lot more out of the games. one thing holding me back is the fear of making the initial commitment--and the cost of airfare if its not bought in advance. i dont see anywhere i can fly tuesday morning for under $130 for example if not bought in advance. and ive not used greyhound in over 10 yrs--too old to use it anymore. i only use tour buses, megabuses, amtrack, planes, and yes even cabs in rare occasions.
another thing i should change, is to quit playing games that i dont feel like playing anymore. whether its due to not wanting to leave because im stuck--feeling hungry or tired--or just wanting to play something else--i need to learn to get up and leave the game--regardless of whether im behind or not. am particularly bad at this on slot machines. thats why u need a real time life buddy who shares ur interests and hangs out at the casinos with u.
tonight--first thing i did when i woke up in my room here--is not want to leave and walk to the giftshop to buy nyquil recommended by AKgal for my horrible cold--and shitty food in the giftshop to avoid waits in the coffee shop for much better and cheaper food. instead i logged into UP, and proceeded to lose $50 of the $100 id left there in the PLO8 game. i called $1 to see a flop with 2457 on the button, flop comes 346, and i lost the whole stack. one guy turns a boat and the other guy had a2. i was playing the high would hold up and an ace would come for the other half. what would u do on the flop?
i wouldve quit that game earlier, but i was trying to get it back to $50 first, was at $42 before that hand, and been playing about 40 minutes. and that was the real mistake in my opinion
but how do u change bad habits that got picked up some time back--and metabolized over the years?
but also i shouldnt feel hopeless, and be expecting to lose. i should think, hey, im a new immigrant whose just arrived here from the Ukraine with $2800 and ive got a whole new life ahead of me if i discipline myself. all i have to do is do whats right. i should see this money as an OPPORTUNITY not as a failure. tatude was right when he said all the negative talk wasnt good for me and i shouldnt allow it on my blog--and maybe thats why he left.
i remember a lot of times id been much worse off than i am now--even $1000-2000 worse off in less than a year ago even--in which instead of being unhappy so much with the current state of my roll--id been extremely happy.
yeah i should not sit and play in games i dont want to be in--simply because of not wanting to deal with paying for a bus or ???? this would help a great deal--and one way to avoid that--is to be in bigger cardrooms with more choices of games. and maybe also with $2800 i shouldnt be afraid to spend $200 or so of it on a weekly room in a location i want to be at--instead of not being able to turn loose of a dime of it.
and as soon as i hit publish and am out of the tub (its not good to stand under a shower with a bad cold)--ill have to go spend something on food--for im starved and cant play til i eat or ill play awfully. and i never use room service for ordering food--cant stand the wait and the high costs.
and to play too small (games such as $2-4 $2-6--in places without a strong enough promo making it plus EV) thats just as much an error as playing too high. for when i play too low and get stuck--not wanting to leave stuck--or feeling like i can recover it in such a small game--i go out and try to get it back playing other types of games than poker.
one of my largest mistakes with the roll of $10k-15k was in playing too small. i had no business buying in $50-100 then. i shouldve bought in $300 or more every time i playing $1-2, and got some experience with $1-3 and $2-5. maybe id have hit the big time instead of draining it all away. i know if id used some of it to find a really good long term apt in a good area of town id love to keep id made sure i kept it paid up and never lost it. so maybe u can now understand with these examples why playing too small is also a mistake.
the only really big change ive made for the better in the past year is i now carry my laptop with me everywhere i go.