Friday, April 25, 2014

Trip to KS--and how im feeling about it.

well for the first time in a long time (maybe cause i hadnt ate a real meal all day--just junk food) my tooth was feeling funny tonight. but now its ok, i took 1 aleve only instead of 2, and then i ate a meal in the coffee shop. shouldnt have wasted $78 last night taking a room at 7am here, but i didnt feel like wasting hours on multiple buses getting home.

and im so pissed. im way out in the middle of nowhere, on a dealers angels VBJ machine but it hits on soft 17 instead of standing, and im wonder if that would make it unbeatable. for the 25c an hour i might otherwise beat it for might be disappeared with this rule. also my chart isnt right for that rule, i would assume i need +4 or more to now be over 100% instead of +3 running count, maybe even plus 5.

ive not been winning, and i cut my max bets way down to 3 spots of $18, which i rarely bet. trying to avoid overbetting after the big drop the day before of over $500. no more $50 bets, thats for sure. but on good counts i lose most of my money because ive been told not to lower my bet then and when u lose a ton of hands in a row its horrible.

at one point tonight id got back about $200--and then i put it all back in again but $9 and then it got spent on food. im back in the $3700s again from about $3910.

so ive been talking to mom thinking about going home tomorrow, and she is arranging for roy to get me at the airport and is reassuring me i wont be forced to put out money for things i dont want to do while in ks. she is so controlling of mark (and me as a kid) i worry being made to spend money on things i dont want to. Josie knows what she is like, remember how she cleaned my apt while i was in vegas without my consent, then charged me a $100 fee since Mark found an adult mag hidden under the bed? if it wasnt for her religious beliefs, she would allow Mark to visit me instead--but she thinks vegas is sinful and dont care for los angeles either.

this is why i can only handle a weeks stay or 10 days at most--if i catch the plane home may 4, which is a lowest fare around. but that might go up if i dont book it now. and i dont think i have enough to go back to vegas to live--i think i should get off the plane then catch a bus into LA. because its the only way ill stop playing VBJ machines.

and as far as going to toledo--i dont have the money. the only reason i was going to visit my family in the first place was i thought id be going thru KS anyway on the way to toledo--u see i thought i was taking the amtrak from Kingman az (by way of laughlin) and i thought id be about $2000 better off.

none of this wouldve happened (big vbj losses i mean) had amtrak not screwed up by not telling the shuttle driver about my reservation--id been on the way to KS a long time ago. their screwup really made my life a lot worse, and my life will especially be worse when i get back from KS. i just hope ill still be over $3000 or i dont know how ill survive. ill need money desperately when i get back.

and although the plane is nicer and faster--i still worry the whole time im landing and taking off about crashes. not so much while in the air but definitely upon landing and takeoff.

i fully intended to not bother to go--when i took all my stuff out of my place in vegas 2 days early and walked 6 miles in the middle of the night to come here (almost getting hit by many tractor trailers in the dark)--but after talking to mom and Josie, i feel i should and i also feel like its Gods will i go and id be letting him down if i dont go and he would be very angry. and i should be getting to sleep now--i do have a ride to the airport i think--and i need to wake up in time to check out too. i think the plane leaves at 4.04 pm so i should be there by 2.30 or 3?


21 comments:

  1. LMAO.of course, it is never yr fault,tony

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  2. Please go and don't stay too long.

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  3. Tony you need to go. Think of others for once. Also Vegas airport sucks, make sure you arrive at least 2 hours early. Grab a Cinnabon while waiting it is my routine and those things are so damn tasty!

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  4. stop blaming amtrac and everyone else for your degenerate gambling problem. you lost money bc you play negative ev games and go on tilt when you lose plain and simple. it's not amtracks fault that you do this. stop making excuses. you have spent over 20 years shoving money down the toilet by playing these stupid machines- then you complain about not having money for basics like food and shelter.

    you're not an ap- you're not even close to an ap.you constantly make negative expectation bets away from the poker table, then you act shocked and angry when you lose.at best some of these machines might be very marignally +ev if you actually played a winning strategy or had anything resembling discipline which you don't. what's the upside in playing these idiotic machines that maybe return a quarter and hour if you play perfectly (which you don't) but will end up costing you a lot more than that in the long run.

    the bottom line is you are a degenerate gambler. if anyone gives you a glint of hope that a machine is beatable you'll flush thousands into hit because you want to believe you can actually make money with this nonsense and whenever you lose it's always some idiotic excuse, that doesn't change the fact you've spent 20-25 years losing at these things, and if you have another 20-25 years you'll continue to do the same.

    stick to poker. you're a weak tight passive nit with tons of leaks but you can still eek out a tiny hourly rate in 1/2 games filled with awful players.

    and actually track your results honestly over the next few years, and figure out your true hourly. cherry picking a small sample and saying you have an 11 dollar win rate is laughable. you don't have anywhere close to that- if you did you wouldnt constantly be homeless and hungry.

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  5. "none of this wouldve happened (big vbj losses i mean) had amtrak not screwed up by not telling the shuttle driver about my reservation"

    Your life will never get any better until you take responsibility for your own actions. Do you SERIOUSLY think your VBJ losses are Amtrack's fault? Get a clue.

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  6. am on the bus heading towards henderson, from boulder city, on the way into vegas. made my first connection, and by 1.25pm will make my 2nd connection at the galleria mall, where ill need a cab. should be at the airport though before 2.30pm in time to make a 4.04pm plane, hope i remember the times correctly. supposed to get into wichita at 8.20pm. Roy will be picking me up, talked to him on the phone earlier.

    lost back yesterdays $172 win before i went to bed, and a little more, down to $3700 now, was briefly back to around $3900

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  7. the vast majority of what im posting now and remaining in contact with the world would not be possible without my new laptop battery--such as here on the bus. its come in handy multiple times, such as when i was talking to lightning on the bus the other day. im glad i bought it while the opportunity was there--i certainly wouldnt consider spending any money as broke as i am now--or even more when i return

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  8. need to sleep, arrived in lyons about 30 min ago, mom is asleep, and was talking to mark awhile before he went back to sleep in his room, i am on the extra bed in the basement other room. more than 3 rooms in the basement. Roy had me give him $75 for gas, and we visited the casino for 2-3 hours first. i won $169 in the $1-3 NL game, its loose enough, but no transportation of any kind which is very bad, and its 20 miles away from any bus. then i won $57 at a $5 BJ table paying 3-2. no video BJ of any kind, except even money bartop. i couldnt get Roy off the mississippi stud tables hes playing instead of poker, and naturally, he lost all. so i played BJ while i waited, and felt too broke to martingale with a $5 min 6 decks but very deep penetration. no 6-5 here at all. all are 3-2. so i just flat bet $5 til the running count reached +7 (to account for 6 decks to make it over +1) but maybe if it was deep enough it wouldnt need to be +7 to be better than +1? but yeah the most i bet was $10 and the least i bet was $5. i didnt win the $57 due to good counts i won it due to winning a lot of hands in a row on a negative shoe. finally cashed out at minus 17, never betting over $5 so i won a lot of hands.

    the poker hand i bought in $100 (minimum) and i had QQ about 20 min into the game i made it $27 short stack shoves for $47, and a guy puts me allin for my $100. i call, and he dont have me beat at all, he has a6 suited. i flop top set and he flops 4 clubs, but luckily dont hit so i left the game up $169

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    1. more than 3 rooms in the basement, you say? Is that FOUR rooms then? 12 rooms?

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  9. roy eventually leaves broke and we hit the road for lyons, a 90 mile trip. roy is wondering if i want to come back to wichita fri when he will be at the VA hospital there anyway.

    also Benny will think im dumb for this, but i missed out on a good promo because i didnt know if id ever be there again being there is NO transit of any kind. u get $100 reimbursed of slot losses for new signups.

    the sad thing is, it takes a week to get it or longer. otherwise id have bet $100 on the even money BJ, and either won $100 or got it back in slot play and then played it thru slowly to cash out $90 or so. but im thinking im dumb for not doing it anyway, yeah i couldve easily lost the $100 and then had to make sure i was back to be reimbursed, then again, maybe id won the bet.

    being down so much is why i didnt do it, $100 seemed like way too much on a $3700 roll. wouldnt have if id still had the $5800 roll. how do was i to not do this?

    also if i fly back on allegiant, theres a $50 match play at golden gate i found out about but u have to be there with 24 hours of arriving and show ur boarding pass on allegiant. i should take advantage of that.

    mom asked such dumb questions on facebook as to why id fly back to vegas if i want to go to la instead. (like u can fly wichita to la cheap instead)

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  10. mark has his own refridge and microwave here in the basement, he pretty much lives in the basement. the door connecting it to the rest of the house mom locks at night. so i cant get in the upstairs either. only 1 cat and its upstars

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    1. I hope there's a way out of the basement if there's a fire. Otherwise, that doesn't sound too safe.

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    2. You should call the Lyon's fire department and report your mom. Locking the basement door MUST be a fire hazard. You should demand unfettered access to the entirety of the premises

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  11. i should probably go to reno as broke as i am if benny dont think im too broke now to risk doing the promo he told me about, especially if he knows this girl id feel a lot more comfortable seeing a pic though. but ill need a cheap place to live thats for sure. but i dont think pokers beatable there benny dont realize limit poker the rake gets all the money

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  12. LOL HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, YOUR SO FUNNY TONY

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  13. disregard females acquire currency

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  14. what difference does it make if the door to the rest of the house is locked? this basement could be rented out without ever needing to access the rest of the house, the door to the outside isnt locked.

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    1. TBC livin the dream. When im in Vegas in May for a month Ill stake you some for the .5/1 dollar game at the Quad. Bwilliepoker

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  15. Tony, you should take a family picture with all of you in it.

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