Tuesday, May 20, 2014

its good to be "home". even if i wont be able to afford this "home" for long and need to find something cheaper.


its funny how one of the things i was disappointed in Benny about was him not introducing me to the woman he said "reads my blog" because to be honest, ive still not arranged to meet the girl who was writing me on tagged, (the one in reno who offered to meet me between 930am and 3pm before her kids get outta school) and 2 women from meetme.com (formerly myyearbook.com) who gave me their phone numbers, one about 4 months ago and one about 9 months ago--both of whom i NEVER called. why? cause i was afraid theyd not meet once i called, because my lifes too messed up. and i wanted to feel like i hadnt lost them yet and theyve be available to call sometime when my lifes going better. (of course that never works out, because women willing to give out such private info as their phone get snapped up quickly and arent still single that many months later). but i guess cause of the aspergers thats just how i am. i was simply waiting til i was well off financially, enough to take time off from gambling and go out on a date.

anyway, onto the rest of the blog--its just that i was thinking of that--and im sure most of u would be surprised i never called those 2 women. not even with a text.

i am happy to have my phone up and working. while staying at the Tahoe Biltmore in Crystal Bay, id forgotten my laptop charger (it was in my room here in Reno thats still good til friday) and i had to do without using my laptop most of the time i was there except for the first night. Worst yet, when i got really mad right about the point i was getting stuck my first $1000 on the VBJ is when i slammed down my phone so hard it broke, and i finally got the power to turn back on about 24 hours later, didnt think it would ever come back on, and i dont know what i did different to get it back up and working. so i had no net at all for sometime. didnt get AKgals text til much later when i finally got the phone working.

had a room there friday night after taking the $45 airport shuttle there from reno fri at 3pm, and no room saturday (cost too much). cost me $67 for friday, and sunday i used $35 in comps for it. their comp rate on the VBJ isnt nearly as generous as Jean, or even as generous as slotsoffun (circus) for that matter. For what i lost and ran thru in coin in wouldve been $300 worth of comps in Jean.

i shouldnt have went (considering how much more i lost over what my expected loss was without counting) but after the way things went wrong at the Eldorado, i just wanted to go to where id be mostly alone away from people, doing something id feel comfortable doing, and wanted to prove id do well there. i couldnt believe my bad luck, i never ever made a bet over 3 hands of $30 the entire time i was there. i did run into 1 guy who bet large and won heavily, but didnt even use a card, and also one guy who was quite good but bet really small, and told me about a machine at a truck stop in Fernley hes seen recently, and said i was the first guy he met whose play he really admired as far as being good, and who knew about counting.

at least i had no problems there. But thats only due to a nice security guard, who by the way, happens to be a young black guy believe it or not. u see, the lady running the front desk of the hotel, her housekeepers didnt realize my room was occupied, and couldnt figure out why my room was locked. so she sent him up to see why the door wouldnt open. i was getting fed up with all the knocks on the door by housekeeping, since i knew checkout wasnt til 11 and it was only about 10.30, and i thought it was so rude for them not to wait til i was out. so when i heard someone out there the 4th time, i yelled out how rude it was to be disturbed, and id be out when it was time to check out, (not realizing it was security that time). so he goes back downstairs and asks if the rooms occupied, and sure enough she finds the paperwork and realizes it was occupied. so she tells him she dont need him.

anyway, i check out about 15 min later, and complain to the lady asking for her boss, after she refused to store my bags unlike the other lady who was really nice. i said she was being rude, and she had the security guy come talk to me, and thats when i first found out it was him at the door, and he tells me it was all a misunderstanding that she didnt realize the room was rented, and wasnt intentionally disturbing me. (why couldnt she have explained so id not been mad?) anyway found out its the hotels policy never to store bags once someone checks out, but the MAIN ISSUE is he wasnt mad, wasnt offended, and was friendly and helpful and i was grateful for his good mood, and then felt bad and was calm myself too.

i only wish the same security officers at the eldorado who threw me out wouldve been so understanding. that guy was also black, and i was surprised he threw me out when the floorman actually didnt tell him to 86 me altogether like id thought, but he said HE was doing that because HE didnt like my attitude. and i never called him what i said on RTP. i only wrote that cause i was mad. the floorman only said he didnt want me to play BJ, and kept my coupon, and that i had to leave the game. (when he got pissed off i didnt respond to the dealer asking if i wanted insurance--and me not responding because i was pissed she didnt just say "insurance closed" like most do--and finish the hand)

funny thing is, the black dealer on the VBJ machine was the only dealer who dealt me winners, seemed all my winners happened when he was dealing too. the other male dealer on the VBJ was especially horrible as were most female dealers.

Nick in sacramento from RTP and i talked, he said he used to be a floorman in cali, and he said me cursing using the F word when angry at the cocktail waitress is probably why i got 86ed. (that, and my previous history of being asked to not play poker many years ago before Margie let me in again). but as i posted on RTP, i felt like she was being rude interrupting me when talking to the BJ dealer to ask for the floorman to let me get a new shoe instead of starting in the middle of someones old mostly finished shoe, so i could get a entire shoe for the promo coupon. he said theyre far more strict if its a woman or a cocktail waitress u blow up at, than if its a male employee.

and im down to only about $1240. had a tiny win tonight at the Peppermill for an insignificant sum, and it was mostly off a double up of some goodlooking young girls $7 straddle who ive seen before at the eldorado and im sure is a regular. she called, i had bought in for the $40 min, and didnt want a call. i had AQ. board totally missed me and i somehow still won. good thing only she called. it will be a long tough fight climbing back, but if i can buyin for $40-50 still in other places around town, and rent is so cheap here (though i need to move to reduce mine by $30-40 a week if i can) i guess i dont need to go to cali after all. i was disappointed when i walked to the sands no game this evening in the poker pit, it never got back up once it broke this afternoon. i also walked back there later on after running into Benny at the cal neva BJ table, talking to him a long time while walking to his car in Circus garage, and made sure he isnt still mad. i bought some food with some comps and took it back to my room since i never bought food yet for the fridge til fri, but i wish i had something to eat when i wake up tues.

Pretty much everything that went wrong in Reno--i have no one to blame but myself for not doing what i was supposed to be doing, and letting myself get too worked up by others actions at the casinos. also me being afraid of that needle and wanting to postpone the tooth removal til mon was a horrible mistake, now i have no money and of course, the work still needs done. could easily qualify for foodstamps, medical, or even SSI now. (income anyway)

also its too bad i dont have no money on UP (just the $3 on BCP) and that i didnt prepay my rent for a month to get into a place with a real kitchen and save money. the sands if the $2-6 spread is going, at least its only a $1 blind when 5-6 handed and its often shorthanded, so thats good for us nits. and i need cereal and milk, but cant buy it if im moving out fri, also need a knife for sandwiches.

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22 comments:

  1. So basically, same shit different day?

    What difference does it make if the security guards, dealers, pit bosses, etc. are black, white, green or purple? You seemed to be surprised that a black person would be nice to you.

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  2. Did you call the dentist to cancel the Monday appointment, or did you just not show up?

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  3. So is your plan to just lose money slowly at the 2-6 spread games in Reno until your expenses exhaust your roll? Then what? You should figure out which city you want to be homeless in and go there before you're broke.

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    1. well i thought id beat it for about $40 a day (enough to survive) but--that game at the sands never seems to go, and im not playing $3-6 fixed thats for sure. id much rather be homeless in cali than reno (less problems with the police) and someone suggested lucky chances would be a good fit for me like commerce. but the rakes a lot more though, and the blinds. so i didnt think so.

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    2. Lucky Chances might be a good place for you, right across the street and surrounding it are cemeteries. Maybe a good place to bed down for the night...And if that tooth gets bad, you won't have far to travel.

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  4. It is good to see you owning up to some of your mistakes Tony. Getting your head on straight is the first step in rebuilding your bankroll. Good Luck!

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  5. Am I the only one who had trouble following this? Please translate into English. Thank you.

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    1. I assume much of Tony's writing style is the result of his autism. I've heard the condition described as having 100 different thoughts bouncing around in one's head, without any particular order. This clearly comes across in the scattered nature of his writing. I don't think you can fault Tony for this.

      Of course, his use of perfect grammar and "words" like "dem" is a whole different thing . . .

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    2. when did i ever use the word "dem?" that word was used solely by the black pimp

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  6. ..."i was getting stuck my first $1000 on the VBJ is when i slammed down my phone so hard it broke... "

    WTF, Tony????? WTF?!?!

    You donked off at least 1k playing VBJ? You got that monkey all over you now, sir.

    That addiction done ate a hole into your soul.

    Now, you will battle. Now, you will grind. Now, you will go into survival mode and grind poker like your life depends on it (which it does not - social services are awaiting you, with only minor follow through on your part needed). You'll grind poker and, hopefully, you'll grind back up, just as you always have before.

    But....then that soul-hole will start to yawn and gape - - - sucking whatever is good in you back into the abyss out of which neither light nor goodness can escape.

    You got to break the cycle, brother. You got to smash that universe to bits. Nothing will change for you until your take that fateful leap. A whole new world is awaiting you. a world full of the things you SAY you want.

    I wish you the best, Tony.

    s.i.

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  7. Man it is so hard to read your blog. You go from 3K to 1k in a heartbeat. I guess that is part of VBJ . I think you can play good but your variance is killing you. You could rent a room and get your tooth looked at for 2K but it is part of your bankroll. I just booked my flight to Vegas for the World Series of Poker in June. I hope I run better but I know even if I lose all my bets I will at least have a place to live and food at my house. I wish you luck but man you live a tough life.

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  8. ive not been home again (man is this room going to waste) because i got a free room at the atlantis after putting in 10 hours of play there. (sad thing is, u cant save it for later use, and worse yet--i didnt have my laptop with me). but the good news is im now sitting at $1307. still awful worried about friday though, and the other cheap place to live in reno--the price has gone up.

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  9. i almost thought i was going to lose $200 at the atlantis, but somehow kept recovering--and ended up turning a profit besides.

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  10. disregard females acquire currency. read it,learn it,live it

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  11. good thing Tony left Vegas before he lost all his money there since he was doing so good. Oh look the grass is greener up there in reno where rent is cheap and blackjack promos are so much better than staying in Vegas where the worlds biggest poker tournament is about to start up...Great choice Tony

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  12. well, i paid the rent for another week--hope that wasnt a mistake. also paid for some food, and then won back a bit in the $2-6 spread limit at the sands. leaves me with $1221, and i need to wash laundry really soon too..

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  13. Tough life, last time I checked you were still over 4k. And just so you know, social services in Clark county no longer does medical cards

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  14. didnt realize i hadnt updated the blog in so long, almost a week later, and im still at only $1256, (just had a small win in the sands $2-6, and i need to do my laundry too). down to the last clean shirt. lots more business since its the memorial day weekend. im assuming the reason clark county stopped giving out medical was due to obamacare? (they think everyone should be covered anyway??)

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  15. theres not really much to update when the roll is this low, and im afraid to do ANYTHING. (play, spend, etc).

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    1. How about going back home to Kansas to regroup.

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