Friday, June 27, 2014

i just cant bring myself to "turn loose" of any money. (always feel like i might need that money sometime in the future). i cant do nothing with money--but "invest it"

So when i went to pay my rent today, again i paid for a week instead of a month, even though paying monthly wouldve saved me quite a bit of money, almost $100.

still think i might find a nicer place to stay longterm. at least with better climate control and a better kitchen, and better internet. but i cant beat the deal i have now. But u see, if im really making good money off poker, eventually i won't need the good deal i have now on cheap rent. paying an extra $200-300 a month wont seem like much at all.

got over 55 hours of poker logged so far of $1-2 NL, and still have a win rate of $35 an hour. im sure by the time i get to 200 hours it might then go below $20 an hour, but anything over $10 an hour is very good. living in reno is cheap. and ive got all the time in the world to get in more hours than im getting in now. $10 an hour could be as much as $2400 a month.

also i feel like this tooth should be gone ahead and taken care of before it gets too serious. its starting to feel funny again--but id really like to avoid the pain of the needle. if u spend like $500 to be completely sedated, how do they give u the needed shot if u are asleep? u dont open ur mouth if asleep. no idea how it works, do any dentists read this blog?

Playing on bovada right now as im typing, and my $20 deposit a couple weeks or so ago is now at $179 still. $29 of which is currently on my PLO8 game. i also need to go buy more food too. just too lazy to make the walk.

i also wish i had books in here to read--tired of having to be on the net everytime i want to read something. i never watch TV, so id at least like to read. i dont like paying the high prices most cost new though. considering buying a large bulk quality online of the type i like "used" of course, to make the cost tiny. Christian fiction, comics, (such as Archie, etc). i imagine i could get a great price.

im glad ive got that huge size bag from sears when i bought the fan and towels. u see it makes it great to throw out all of the trash, i hate the small little bags u get at the grocery store, they arent nearly big enough. and i also dont like wasting money paying for bags. i dont like wasting money paying for ANYTHING.

not sure, but isnt tomorrow supposed to be the weekend Nick will be in reno? i also keep forgetting pokerdoggs vegas trip days, wish he would stop in reno too.

i think im doing so well at poker in reno is because im playing on a lot deeper level than my opponents and my reasons for making certain plays certain ways is too advanced for them to understand, so they either think im a donkey, or dumb. Plus ive not been here long enough to gain respect. I've played many pots in ways u wouldnt expect a "tight" player to play. i dont even know if my image is actually tight. but when people from higher limits sit in $1-2 who play 20-40 limit and 3-5 NL, they sure do play badly if they feel the stakes are beneath them.

its a much better game when i play with guys with money than guys who are broke. its hard to beat guys who are broke. (the vegas grinders). its why i moved to reno. (well not entirely). the action at the table and the average pot size is much better when most of the players have far more chips than me, why would anyone want to have the table covered for? u dont want to be the one with most of the chips unless its a tourny. no matter how much my roll grows, i tend to always buyin $40 min, and then slowly add to it over the next few hours.

the only way to really grow a bankroll is to NEVER treat any of the money like it can be disposed of foolishly just because uve been running well, this is the quickest way to lose it all back. still faults and all, i feel like i should be given a lot of credit. ive lived indoors for many years now instead of outdoors and mostly with NOTHING coming in from the govt. all my own money and all off of poker winnings. so im doing something right. i dont get enough credit for getting by.

this blog is a great success story, compared to 15-25 yrs ago panhandling to survive, nowhere to live, and even to the big struggle it was to survive when i first got on RTP with under $1400. its a great story of how a guy with no other opportunities and a disability, can make a go of it from poker, and give himself a better life if people only believe in him.




27 comments:

  1. "if u spend like $500 to be completely sedated, how do they give u the needed shot if u are asleep? u dont open ur mouth if asleep. no idea how it works, do any dentists read this blog?"

    I'm no dentist, but something tells me that a dentist would easily be able to pry your mouth open with some device, use that device or another one to keep your mouth open, and do the work needed while you are unconscious. Seriously, think a little bit.....

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  2. "the only way to really grow a bankroll is to NEVER treat any of the money like it can be disposed of foolishly just because uve been running well"

    You mean like donking it off in some stupid -EV VBJ machine??

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  3. new roll $3710. lost $924 at the casino, $528 on $1-2, reducing my hourly win rate to $25 from $35 previously, and the other $396 on the VP machine big split 25c machine in the hi limit room. (its in there cause u can bet up to 40 credits, also on the 50c, $1 and $2). there is NO cheaper bigsplit machine at the peppermill like there is at the nugget in sparks. there its 1c2c5c10c.

    and im tired gotta sleep. contrary to popular opinion that loss was what i call variance. it wasnt inevitable, and neither was the winning days that got me over $4500. its just the normal ups and downs. sure i didnt have to lose the last $400, but i know why i play machines, and thats healthy to know--its because i just want to be by myself for awhile--and to get away from the emotional pain of a big loss. its too much to deal with--so i withdraw from the world, and play a machine.

    and i think a psychiatrist would agree with that assesment. how to prevent it, neither me nor her would know.

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    1. I can't believe you quit down for the day. You still had money left, you should be doing everything possible to be up money at the end of each and every day. That's how winning professional gamblers approach things.

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    2. What would happen if you just WALKED OUT of the casino and IGNORED the machines? Or maybe use the the gym in the hotel part of the casino or went for a swim in the pool or went bowling or went to go see a movie or even (gasp!) volunteered at a homeless shelter in Reno?

      http://www.homelessshelterdirectory.org/cgi-bin/id/city.cgi?city=Reno&state=NV

      Trust me. God would be smiling if you did this.

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    3. Any addiction psychiatrist will tell you that you can't lose the money if you don't put it into the machine. Exact same concept for alcoholics/drug addicts. Don't put a drink or pill in your hand and it can't get into your body. If you want to be alone then go back to your apartment and play micro stakes poker. You are not as powerless over machines as you think. If you don't carry so much money on you then you can't lose it.

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  4. i mentioned on twitter first thing about 24 hours ago that the US department of justice seized the domain of myredbook.com same as they did with fulltilt, pokerstars, etc. login and u see the exact same emblem. weird no one commented on this.

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    1. Were you a frequent user of myredbook.com?

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    2. no im way too broke, but its one of the most helpful sites.

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    3. Lovely. An upstanding and decent citizen claims that a website accused of facilitating child prostitution is "one of the most helpful sites". Why don't you call up your mom and discuss with her your disappointment in regards to this move by the FBI?

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  5. Figured id start out today taking it slow, been playing omaha last 2 hours at the casino. Up a small amount

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  6. Would like to discuss last nights mistakes. First mistake was rebuying $300 at poker when out $228 and feeling on tilt from a bad beat (asian rich lady called my allin with ak on flop of 992 with a7 and hit 7 on end). Shouldve either quit or rebought less. Soon thereafter I got k9 hts, called a raise to $11 multiway action, flop comes 926 two hts one diamond. Raiser bets $75, I made a bad call. Guy check raises allin, original raiser is allin already, and I made another bad call. He had a set.

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    1. How did you determine the Asian lady was "rich." Are there many rich asian lady's playing $1/2 at Reno? Was she talking about her winter home in Rancho Mirage? Did she have a yacht? Was her husband a CEO of a fortune 100? Tell us, sir - how did you make this read?

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    2. Her jewrlry, the sheer number of hands she stays in, and how heavily she loses most everyday I see her

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  7. Still down $8, sat at this omaha table over 5 hours, its loose so I aint left

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  8. You want cheap used books to read? Downtown library 301 S. Center Street
    Reno, Goodwill bookstore 18180 Wedge Pkwy, Goodwill 6407 S Virginia St, Salvation Army 125 Gentry Way! Did you ever got to the bank and change your account to ATM only so you have no monthly service charge? I think not.........

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    1. i figured if i got the balance over $3000 id not have to pay anything, so i didnt expect to be charged. the other month i wasnt charged any fees when i had a high balance. dont know whats going on since i got charged anyway. i only want to read the type of books (or comics) u cant really find except for online.

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    2. Get a steady address and EBAY then!!

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  9. trying to decide where to have the bovada money mailed to, and how much to withdraw after winning so much in last nights $20 Plo8 mtt. its about $570 now. would rather it not be sent to where im living now. i really need it since im down to the last $3400

    and i also enjoyed the day with nick, and id like to figure out how to post the picture of me with the donkey on here Nick took and put on twitter.

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  10. this might sound like a really dumb question--but would buying a second fan make it any cooler in here? its been many years since ive not had air conditioning, the only times i didnt were when i was a kid at one point when me and mom ONLY had fans to cool us off since she was poor, and when i lived in cheap rooming house places for $50-60 a week and under $200 a month back when i was under age 25.

    i figured since i survived then id survive now, but now that im older it being hot in here bothers me alot more than i thought it would. id like to move, but dont know where else id get a good enough deal id be able to afford long term.

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  11. at least i finally was able to post the pic of the donkey here. i did it thru the link on Nicks twitter, me saving it to my laptop did NOTHING to help me repost.

    and i won $60 my 2nd session of $1-2 NL before i went home to bed, so now my roll is at $3488 plus just a little over $500 remaining on bovada. and ive got to pay for those comic books too on ebay right away.

    was nice to meet @PaYs6to5 from twitter at the Peppermill too.

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  12. i paid the $35 i owed ebay for 100 walt disney comic books and shipping

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  13. Hi Tony, don't know what happened to my post a few days ago, but I am in Vegas now. No chance I can visit Reno, got to stay focused to work. So far played a few hours of 1/3 @ the Rio, game is very soft. Will try some 2/5 later.

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  14. ive been told i can buy an air conditioner, and then i could have air conditioning (without having to pay any additional money in utilities per month and that most of the other tenants in this building do this). ive been told it will only fit (he went and measured) if its 16 inches or less wide, and not a fraction of an inch more, and that most are bigger in size. now where would i buy this at? and how much will it cost?

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    1. well considering it's an electronic appliance i would look either in shoe stores or pet stores for an air conditioner.

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  15. would like to discuss the final hand where i think i played it well. (playing it well means misleading my opponent as to the strength of my hand?)

    i had QQ and raised it preflop to $7. 2 guys called. flop comes AQ7 with 2 spades. im first to act, and am hoping i get raised. i bet $16, a guy made it $32. and the other player folded. now i wanted a raise, but not a damned min raise. im not sure if he has a better made hand, a worse made hand, or a flush draw. I only call, which is probably a big err. turn comes total blank, 3 clubs. i'd hesitated a long time before calling the flop, and had talked about how much the min raise worried me, asking him if he had 77, AQ or a flush draw. i said i didnt want to give him a free card if hes on a draw, and shoved the turn for about $110. he calls so fast i worry he has aa, but no he has A7 for 2 pair, and i finally got my double up to get ahead.

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    1. oh god
      nice set up handed
      lmao@worrying about aa

      you basically played it in a way to let draws that would call the flop fold the turn and get guys to fold ak/aj

      well done

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