Tonight (thursday night-the night im WRITING this--not the night u are READING THIS--) was a bit of a roller coaster of a night. i bought in for the usual $40, which grows throughout the night either thru me winning, or adding to the stack. I did good early on and had it up to $192 at one point, and then knocked it all the way down to $38.
a bit on tilt, especially after losing a big pot with KK to AJ offsuit (who shoved over the top of me preflop), i shoved my last $39 over the top of a guy who always straddled $5, and had raised his straddle to $20. all i had was 33, but i was ready to go home and play on Bovada, and if he dont have any pair we are 50-50. everyone got out but him, and hes thinking and hes claiming the way im talking about him having 2 overs "tells him a lot about my hand". and then he shows 44 and mucks. man did i get lucky there. and eventually i built the stack back to $215.
then i lost it again, and rebought for the remaining $138 in my pocket. i was extremely sick and pissed with the hand i lost. for i had KK again, (just call me ROB from now on) and i called an EP raiser to $17. the guy behind me on the button called whod just recently sat and had me almost covered. (i shouldve raised him out). flop comes K79 with 2 diamonds, and the initial raiser bets $20. i put him on a very strong hand, either AK or AA and i dont like the flush draw, so i made it $45. enough to hopefully keep him in WITHOUT him having a diamond draw, and scare the other guy into folding so he "wont get squeezed". instead the other guy calls, original better had AA and shoves into my top set, i go allin over the top, the guy behind me STILL calls, and i fear hes on a flush draw, sure enough, he has Q6 diamonds and hits the turn and i dont boat. i do beat the AA guy for a very tiny small pot of about $30, and the guy who just won a pot of over $560 leaves and quits. all of that money shouldve been mine. thats a huge swing.
somehow i eventually recover, and cash out $290 ($112 up for the night) and still at $22 per hour for 152 total hours logged.
tomorrow i want to visit a cricket store (and possibly a verizon store) and talk about a better broadband plan. seems like the best cricket one is $65 (instead of my now $35) for up to 8GB, but that still isnt nearly enough. and any company other than cricket or verizon id need a new modem and those are very expensive upfront.
i sure cant get credit, due to 2 unpaid bills to phone and internet, one over $300 and 1 over $200, both of which never were paid. anyone else have experience with using broadband modems?
and this is how i know im not "addicted to gambling" for people addicted to gambling need to gamble higher and higher to enjoy it, and me, i need to gamble LOWER and lower to enjoy it. which is a big reason why i buyin $40 even with a $5000 roll, it helps me play a lot more relaxed and less pressure. if i lose twice, im still out not much and one $100 double up recovers me off a 3rd buyin.
think of how much id be on tilt if i lost $200 twice, cant risk that emotionally, so i stick to low starting buyins til im stuck, and im not going to ever change it, as well as its been working out for me. the less money u have on the table, the more fun and enjoyable the game is, and the more well behaved u are. (the less money u have invested on the game that is)--of course u want the biggest stack possible--without having to buy one.
all the times id get really upset--it was all when losing BIG money--mostly always on machines where it was much easier to bet way too big. the smaller im risking, the more i can focus on just making the best play. i imagine once i pass 10k in the next few months--$100 buyin then will seem the same as $40 buyin now, etc. so buyins will slowly grow as the roll grows. eventually it will be fun to test out the $3-5 game here, it runs quite often.
i also wish i had a lot more on bovada too so i dont worry about running out of money there. won 4 out of 4 sngs since being down to $43, and am now at $62. all $5 double or nothing. my win rate in double or nothing sngs is well over 70%.
i will be under $5000 again soon as i pay rent again first thing in the morning, and u wont even have seen this post before i pay it.
another thing that really bugs me--my bank claims it has to send me a new atm card cause its saying my data may be comprised, this is the 3rd time they did this in the last 5 yrs and i just sent them an online message they need a different address for me. this is getting annoying changing my debit card number so much. i wonder if depositing on bovada so many times in the past causes this.
ok--everything ABOVE this line was actually typed a day sooner, but since the last post had only been up less than a day and had under 400 views, i couldnt yet post it. now it will be okay to post, its about 800 views now and will be 2 days old instead of 1 day old. so it can be time for a new post.
Tonight was the worst night ive ever had in the Peppermill. (at poker that is). loss of $775, all at poker. the worse night was when i lost $500+ at poker and $400 more on VP. tonight i put only a $20 in the VP to cool off, and actually cashed out $26 after briefly running it up to $80+. so i lost NOTHING on VP tonight.
i did have to use the ATM though, after leaving the poker room since i had $0 cash left. i made the mistake im not supposed to make u see--bought in the game for way too much when on tilt and stuck. my system of buyins really wouldnt be so bad if i would always cap the loss at $200.
Had a lot on my mind tonight too, people in my way walking slow who i could tell were high on meth and talking about drugs in food with attitudes on the way to the poker room, having a long wait for a seat, then getting the wrong seat (seat 1) my family in Canada and the way they lie and dont treat my mom right (and i dont stick up for my mom as much as i should) and the way one of Akgals friend (and even people from my blog) talk about her. had a long conversation with AKgal about this friend of hers, and also about another twitter post she found offensive, then i showed her what this guy said directly to my mom on facebook way more offensive than anything i put on twitter. Calling her a retard for her beliefs in God and anti obama posts, and saying she has an iq of under 50, and how she is to blame for how i am. Justin Boucher who supposedly works at the Mirage according to facebook and Akgal. he deleted it all off facebook hoping i wouldnt see it but of course facebook emails me new posts. lying about a stake of course no one would ever give, etc.
far more offensive than anything Josie, Seattle irish, PPP or Koala say about my mom, even though some of their comments arent nice at times either. I really should be there more for my family when someone mistreats them in words. i finally did today to my cousin Jean in canada, who has my mom blocked on facebook. showed mom her replies to me in Pms, and mom said it was all a lie what Jean said to me.
mom deeply cares about their soul, and wants them to be able to see my dad again someday when they die, and wishes they would accept her as a part of the family. she is really hurt by the way they lie to her, block her and didnt want her in their lives after my dad died. she knows a lot of them are athiests even though some of them lie about it.
so anyway i sit in a seat i dont want (only seat open) and buyin for $40 as usual. lost it rather quickly and of course forgot the hand, and offer a guy in seat 2 $5 to move and he accepts and i get to sit seat 2 instead, thinking that will really help improve my disposition and chances of winning. but heres where i make the first error. i didnt have the proper change to buy another $40 or so, so i ended up rebuying $130 since i had no way to break $100 without going to the desk to rebuy instead of from the dealer. if i could, id just bought the $30 and left the $100 in my pocket. i didnt want the oddball $30 in my pocket since i could never rebuy anyway with only $30, so i went ahead and put ALL of the $130 in the game. and that was a big mistake cause it got me buried deeply way too fast. (remember how i said yesterday on RTP to relax, enjoy the game and make it fun for both me and my opponents, i need to keep my buyins low?)
so i have $130 on the table give or take a few bucks, and i get dealt 67 offsuit, a hand i normally dont play. i limp the extra $1 in the SB, and the loose guy in seat 3 makes the usual raise hes been making to $7 (and he soon left broke of course). about 5 people call him, so i do too when i really shouldnt, thats a pretty large mistake. the game was quite loose all night, and more chips than usual were flowing around.
flop comes up 763, and im relieved, thinking nows my chance to get unstuck and ahead. my plan is to check raise enough to get it HU. i check, he bets $35, asian guy in late position makes it $70 i dont like him in, but unless i want to fold, i feel i got no choice but to make it all in. he also goes allin, with nothing but AA, asian guy calls, (who flopped the straight) and both me and the AA went broke that hand.
perfect setup on the flop to bust the guy with the AA, i dont think anyone wouldve folded my hand on the flop. most wouldve preflop, but not seattle irish, who always gave me shit for folding in the blinds. i wonder what grump or vook wouldve done.
added $100 to my stack and lost that too within the first hour i was out $270-275. the first 2 buyins were lost in under 20 minutes according to my phone.
thats when i shouldve left, and went home, played on bovada. but i didnt want to do that, didnt want to write down a big loss, so i pulled out the remaining $500 i hadnt yet deposited in the bank and rebought.
for about 2 hours i was about even or slightly up about $20 off the final $500, til the following huge hand took it all.
Again its a loose game, so i call a $15 raise multiway action with 57 clubs. and since im so deepstacked i dont think its a bad call. im first to act on the flop of 567 with 2 spades. i bet $85, and the black guy on my immediate left whose playing rather loose and winning (he moved there soon as the other guy i told u about went bust on AA) he thinks and calls. (i wanted noone to call). he ends up being the ONLY caller, thank God and he has my $500 covered dammit.
turn comes 2 spades. i dont like the spade. so i check. would u check? he bets $90 and i call. would u fold, call, or shove?
river comes 7, and im so relieved to hit the boat, i check, knowing he will bet, and he bets $200. i shove, he calls, and he has 23456 of spades. i didnt even see the possible straight flush, and he had it on the TURN. id never lost the whole stack if id not hit the boat, thinking i couldnt lose, and if id never bought in $500 to start with. had i made smaller buyins all along, id never had so much on the table. all because my 2nd buyin was $130 instead of $40-50.
so i left, had no more cash on hand to rebuy anyway, and went straight to the atm. took out $480, (thank God my card works, the email from the bank says it wont after july 30 and my new card is on its way to vinces now--i need to immediately update my address with the bank). and thats when i went to the 9/6 JOB VP and sat there about 30 min at the 1c2c5c10c 100 play. id have sat at the VBJ instead if it was in this casino instead of sparks.
then came home to make this post, and sleep a few hours til my 1pm sng for sunday freeroll. 20 of the 40 entries will get paid sunday, $100-2500 and i sure need the money now. its seldom ever chopped, and $2500 for first can sure come in handy. surely i would once per year if i did it every month.
also, i blew up at a spammer. u guys with blogs, u have no business posting the spam comments referring u to someones website. many times the website is entirely inappropriate content, but sometimes its a poker website. this one guy with a muslim sounding name is always posting this comment then a link to his website. take a look, im sure not approving it or the link to his website which i edited out to prevent u from clicking it.
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