I should be out celebrating the way other people do it (by spending money on themselves). yet old habits die very hard, and i just cant hardly bring myself to spend any money for fear of starting a big freefall. only thing im able to bring myself to spend money on all the time now unlike in the old days of me as a kid is taxicabs. and thats mainly for my comfort and my peace of mind going home after dark.
Mainly what i should be spending money on is medical and dental care. eye exams. teeth exams and extractions. A complete physical and a good inspection of my scalp. And of course, since all my clothes look quite used (and are) a lot of shirts and pants should be bought NEW. i still dont have nearly enough pants, am always having to wear pants longer than i should.
Since i have a nice steady safe long term place to live, i can start owning far more things than i used to own. ill never want to leave the place im in now as long as i am in vegas. Im renting from the right landlord, a nice upper floor in a secure building, and in a fairly good part of town as far as being convenient to certain buses and shopping.
and i keep winning. Tonight i started off wasting my time and my bankroll by losing $47 at Terribles in the $2-4 game with Tiger Valdez, but then i walked to the Hardrock and proceeded to get it back, plus $669 more. so i finally have a roll in the $19,000 now for the first night ever. i was even winning $100 more at one point.
i made a lot of poor plays because i was worried id lose my entire stack to one of the 2 guys who had me covered from cali. once i just called on a flop of 10 3 5 offsuit when i had QQ, and saved a lot of money by doing so. the one guy bet $10, the asian guy makes it $25, and i only called after raising preflop. (i dont even remember for sure if i did that). turn comes K, asian guy checks, i check, and the one guy who lives in vegas bets $40. asian guy calls and i call. river comes 8, asian guy checks, i check, same guy bets $50. asian guy calls, and i feel like i cant win but call. asian guy has 53 for a flopped 2 pair, and the winner had KT for 2 pair on the turn.
i dont think i played it the best but by pot controlling it the way i did, i saved money. it wasnt a table i couldve made either of them fold.
Herbie was in there briefly, left to go to Hooters but told me Koala was no longer in the game. earlier id got a text he was playing.
the other regular with the huge stack had already left, and at one point he had well over $1500 on the table. but he is the guy i beat 3 times for big pots to get so many chips in the first place. he called every one of my shoves, and i won all of them.
it feels good to be doing so well, but why am i getting all this money so late in life when im old and no longer desirable by young women? instead of in my early 20s and 30s where it couldve done me a lot of good, and radically changed my life? shouldnt be easier to win now--and it makes no sense.
sure i play better, but so does everyone else. and why do i have about $7000 in winnings for the last $70,000 coin in at video bj? thats about 110% payback.
When i was young and lived in Toledo, maybe Ray will remember the story of the fire department incident with the married lady i met online who wanted to fool around who was a few years older than me back when i was young and good looking. i sure didnt remember him ever telling me dennis pulled a gun on him. But he acted like i shouldve known about it.
Dennis didnt even know who Nick was, and that surprised me -- the toledo nick that is.
anyway, about the fire dept story. i met a girl online, and she wanted a guy to come fool around at her house while her husband was at work. id seen her twice before at her house while he was gone, and i wanted to come over but was afraid he might be home. now as we all know, i had more emotional health problems at that age than now, and i did some weird choices (such as how i got the felony). and riding a bicycle around nude.
so i called the fire dept, claiming there was a fire, (figuring if he was home hed come out, and if only she came out, id know she was alone and it would be safe to come knock on the door). this was long before the internet was invented by Al Gore. However it didnt work out so well, and after that, i never got to see her and she lost interest. also her husband had tons of questions as to what was going on.
But yeah -- all this money makes me nervous and until i have a casino safe deposit box--im not comfortable. sure its safely in the bank for the most part--but what if it got seized there? i sure couldnt ever go to the emergency room with all that in the bank id get sued.
the vast majority of people u run into every day are broke and fuck, and getting quite desperate for money. and its going to get much worse when the dollar crashes and everything else. the govt wont be able to function and send out checks, there will be riots, etc. Banks will crash and be unable to access deposits. prices will skyrocket. there will be 1000% inflation monthly as in Germany in the early 1930s.
so i dont feel safe when im not at home. Especially walking thru parking lots at night filled with drunks, drug addicts and homeless people. and all society wants to do anymore (people under 30) is to vote to have more legal drugs, more of a decline in morals and values, make families less valueable, etc and all because Gods been kicked out of the schools and replaced by the horrible evils of multiculturalism, diversity and political correctness.
a very large percentage of the population of las vegas, has either no home, no money in the bank, no job, no car, and depending on loan and pawn stores to survive, or on the govt.
and ill never feel safe. i feel like the only way to reverse things is to vote republican en masse. i seem to feel like i can only identify with people i can relate to like myself in the same boat, and i feel like that fits fewer and fewer people. a lot of times i cant even relate to Ray as much as he is like me and believes my mom is right. which is why i cant find a good woman. im too repulsed my the vast majority of thems worldview and beliefs of whats wrong and whats right cause mine are a lot different. what young people today find normal, i tend to find as repulsive and offensive.
for example, i cannot stand the one ad always playing on the TV in the taxicabs which feature a young girl in a casino who works for tips being bisexual. its the same ad that then comes into the card sticking to the outside of the window torn corner. that rings a bell, uve seen that ad, right?
--and now for the story of the 57 of clubs.
This was a hand from the previous day, and i raised with it on the button to $15, i hadnt had much to play. got 3 callers dammit. flop comes 68T and im not too unhappy with the flop. they all check, so i felt obligated to bet but probably shouldnt.
turn puts up a possible heart flush and hits my straight with the 9. guy bets, guy calls, and i call. river comes J, and guy checks, other guy checks, and im thrilled to see it get checked. i had only $46 left.
the second guy who checked had almost the nuts, a king hi flush. why he checked there ill never know. was so dumb since i wasnt betting no matter what and was calling no matter what.
i see this situation come up all the time a guy wont bet a hand he should. because his checking simply does me a huge favor. often im not going to bet no matter what and will call all bets no matter how much, yet people still try to checkraise. it feels so dumb. why are people so dumb? explain their thought process on this hand.
i do wonder if its been a good thing ive opened up my game? i still havent opened up my 3 bet range, and i seldom even do it with JJ. would like ideas how to open up my 3 bet range