Saturday, January 24, 2015

How many of u have noticed im getting tired of updating this blog for free all the time, and just want to spend more time alone in a room, not having to be around people? or having to do things others want me to do at all?

but this blog keeps getting more and more readers. (or at least it looks like its getting more and more readers.) still no ads being sold, but the average viewership somehow went from 1000-2000 to 3000+ views per post. now i attribute some of that to people checking to see if ive posted yet because the viewership is always higher when theres more time between posts, but not that much higher, so the viewership is going up. and since im getting fed up with negativity and not getting paid for my work, im not so sure if thats a good thing or not.

Ive held back on a lot of blog posts ive wanted to do that would either anger a lot of people or get me committed to an institution. but its getting hard to hold back anymore.

No one but me (and maybe Ray) knows the struggles of the real life day to day grind of poker. and im sure its why this blog gets so many readers. i dont sugarcoat the truth, and the truth sure is ugly in this world. not having a lot of money to back me up, or a car (both of which would make my life 100x easier and less stressful) makes my life a lot different than the glamourous lives of the tourny pros u read about in Card player magazine. People who have jobs, homes, cars, or govt assistance who also play poker for spare change have no idea what its really like for the true grinders like me, whove stood the test of time.

most of the time u will have a high stress level, be quite angry at others stupidity and life of ease compared to urs, (and the feeling they arent earning their money like u are really really earning anything u win). u see, u actually have to PLAY GOOD POKER to win. and looking back on all the missed opportunities (and the lack of money back then to take advantage of them online opportunities) will then make u angry too.

so naturally, when taking an hour long bus ride back to ur hotel and coming into a room where the overhead light by the door is not working and the only light that works either being the one by the bed or the one in the bathroom far away, u are going to be pissed off the maid came in the room and shut the light off. Shitholes like these dont have do not disturb signs to hang on the door, (or working lights either it looks like) and u sure dont want to leave ur door open where anyone walking by can force their way in while u look for the light. nor do u want to let a tiny bit of light in opening the window. so u stumble around and stub ur foot feeling for a light.

nothing makes a customer angrier and drives them away more than a motel being so cheap to upset and anger a customer so royally to save about 25c in electric bills id gladly pay it to keep the lights on. i dont appreciate having maids come in my room hardly ever, and people living in apts instead of hotels dont know what a relief its like not to have to deal with it. they dont even think of things like this--and what type of hell others have to go thru that werent born so lucky as them.

some hotels are worse. at least this one dont shut off all heating and cooling air power so u either walk into a very hot or very cold room where the temperature must be readjusted immediately, at least they left that alone.

and another annoyance. wasting money replacing the soap simply because i opened it, when the soap was completely fine. now i got to go to the work of tearing the paper open again when my teeth can barely open it.

my health is in such bad shape and i need to see a dr for so many things (it looks like maybe im getting diabetes PPP said being tired a lot more could be a sign too besides needing to urinate a lot and in very small quantities) but i pretty much am sure ill die of 1 of 3 things. a heart attack, murder, or a bad tooth. i just hope my friends in the poker world hold the same type of funeral for me they did for Chad Brown.

things like this wouldnt bother me so much if id not missed my first bus, and came home stuck much less, or if id came home a winner. i was rushing out of the Taj right after eating in a cab to the bus terminal (because i dont feel safe walking to the jitney at night or waiting for it at night) i gave myself 8 minutes (and wished id had more time) but i still didnt make it to the terminal in time, i missed it by under 5 minutes and had to wait 55 minutes til the next bus. im pissed enough ac has gotten so much more unsafe than when i was homeless 15 yrs ago here in the summer and the streets so much more empty of tourists (making them 100x more dangerous) and the city's population so much more destitute and desperate for money--that i have to waste the extra money instead of paying $2.25 for the jitney. im pissed about the times i had to waste that money due to it raining too and that was during daylight hours.

so i didnt want to just sit there 55 minutes, the same guy asking for money twice, so i caught the first bus 8 blocks up the street to the Trop not to play poker, but to see a few hands of BJ on the machine to recover the $261 i was out when i left the Taj. yes i know it shuffles every hand. but it still pays 3-2 and has decent rules so its still over 99% payback even though it cannot be beaten over the long run.

lost quite rapidly and of the $1298 i had in my possession when i arrived at the Taj today, i left the Trop with only $194 of it. was in a rush again to make it to the bus terminal by 10.40 so i again paid $10 for a cab. (cabs really overcharge by the mile for short distances here). its about 1.2 miles. ive never seen any city where its that bad. made the bus this time 5 minutes to spare. the first time i went to the bus terminal i still had $1037 of the money after expenses.  after buying some milk and food at the nearby gas station when getting off the bus to go home, ive now got even less than the $194.

its weird theres no hookers on white horse pike, or dope dealers, considering the rooms cost so much less out here than in the really bad areas of AC. ud think theyd want to go to where they could rent the rooms for half the price. or maybe those prices are only given online or to those with credit or debit cards. but dont ALL motels make u have one of those or are there still motels that dont? maybe MIB knows.

yes prices are less in (and outside of) atlantic city than about anywhere else outside of reno or laughlin. yes games are a lot easier to win here, people are much more out of patience here and make bad plays. the wiser players avoid AC. casino players and sports and horse betters are the ones coming here and those who use the buses.

and yes ive won a lot more in AC than i ever did at de park too. and a lot more than i did in vegas. But all of that means NOTHING if i cannot refrain from trying to get even playing games i shouldnt. im lucky Vinces friend Dave walked me to the BOA atm after dark the day before where i deposited $1500. at least it kept me from blowing any more on the VBJ. i had to give him $10 too, i wonder if vince wouldve approved of him charging me that? he is here in town for a week then returning to vegas.

and if i dont stop playing stud being in AC isnt good for me either. i really miss the game and its my old road game, but it just dont seem beatable anymore. i lost $140 of the poker loss at $10-20 stud today, and the other $158 of the poker loss on $1-2 NL. (and won $49 on a machine at the taj). cannot seem to win at that game. i dont play it bad but the others arent too bad, they have played stud a lot in their lives but they made 2 suckouts on me that hurt.

im still disappointed i left a rather interesting book called "fuse of armageddon" behind in my hotel at ballys the day before too.

thinking maybe its best to go to toledo. im sure the games suck there, but at least Ray would be able to understand me and be available for talks consultations, and to help me avoid games i shouldnt. i just wish he had a bankroll of his own. i see a lot of rent prices in toledo under $500 too, but not nearly as many as evansville. i wonder if theres any other cities really dirt cheap like evansville ive left out? kind of would like to just play online like i did in Butte MT. it was less stressful, just staying home all day. and still i went to the cardroom some nights. i dont know how i was lucky enough to both see an apt for $230 a month in 2002-2003 and not only that get the landlord to actually rent to me when i was just passing thru on a greyhound bus and had only about $800 to my name if i remember right.

Final thing pissing me off, i paid $35 for a nice new suitcase with wheels. 2 weeks later one of the wheels has came off. i cant figure out why they come off, maybe its from so much overuse, or wheeling it down stairs or concrete?

48 comments:

  1. Time is running out. You need to PayPal me $5000 IMMEDIATELY. I promise to do as I have posted many times -- that I will host a dinner in Las Vegas to celebrate your life (filets and cabernet in PPP style). Any money remaining will be sent to your family.

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    1. TBC- this sounds like a great idea. you should def send him the $

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  2. Dragging your suitcase down stairs instead of carrying it like a normal person is probably going to result in acceerated wear.

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  3. "my health is in such bad shape and i need to see a dr for so many things (it looks like maybe im getting diabetes PPP said being tired a lot more could be a sign too besides needing to urinate a lot and in very small quantities) but i pretty much am sure ill die of 1 of 3 things. a heart attack, murder, or a bad tooth. i just hope my friends in the poker world hold the same type of funeral for me they did for Chad Brown."

    I'm pretty sure that Chad Brown did things in his lifetime inside and outside of the poker world that made him a most respected, admired and loved person. What have you done with the aid of your highly advanced IQ during your lifetime, that has led you to achieve the same as Chad Brown?

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    2. since neither are true, i guess the answer is "yes"

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    3. Where did u get that idea from? Regardless, I am sure it made no difference.

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    4. Tony that is fucked up man. Chad died of cancer. He got all the support because he was a straight up nice guy and very likable. He helped people out every chance he could get. Unlike you.

      MIV

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    5. Sad thing is you could have gotten your teeth fixed here in MD. That could have been one less thing to concern you about on your list of 3 items.

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  4. Tony Chad Browns send off was held at Binions. Maybe if we show a death certificate we could get them to issue a one day waiver for you.

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    1. This comment had me chuckling. : o )

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    2. I bet all the Dealers/Bosses who have had run ins with TBC would showup just to make sure he is really gone

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  5. Have you thought about Daytona? The poker room at the dog track has a lot of soft games going and the rooms are cheap in the off season. I was there around Christmas and made a tidy profit.

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    1. i wouldnt call WINTER off season. florida has a lot MORE people in daytona right now wanting rooms than in the hot summer. if u were there is it on a busline?

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    2. Daytona is busy during the summer, during February for speed week, March for Bike week and early spring. Florida is a big State with different climates and tourism seasons.

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    3. I use to live in Daytona so here is a quick rundown. The dog track is a little over a mile from from Intl Speedway Bd which is the main road. It is isolated and would not be safe to walk at night. You can get a cab fairly easily. Votran is the bus system and it can get you around the area but doesn't run all night and doesn't go all the way to the track. You can get rooms within a couple of miles in 1 star motels for $49 or less. You would have to try to work something out for the weeks when rates triple. The temp. today is 63/38.

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    1. Tony, for god's sake stop leaving the lights on all day long when you are not there, a total waste of electricity. Just install a flashlight app on your iPhone and turn that on before you enter the room.

      Tony says... "No one but me (and maybe Ray) knows the struggles of the real life day to day grind of poker..." Just another example of how out of touch you really are. Tony, you have no idea how easy you have it in some ways when it comes to grinding poker for a living. You have no family to support, you have the flexibility to work the most profitable hours, you have minimal living expenses (or at least you have to options to do so in Vegas or Reno). Granted, you do have obstacles that most folks don't, but that is not "the struggle of grinding poker" as such, but more like "the struggle of being Tony".

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    2. Tony says "...Ray would be able to understand me and be available for talks consultations, and to help me avoid games i shouldnt. i just wish he had a bankroll of his own."

      What? I thought Ray is some sort of old time gambler that knows it all, he doesn't have a bankroll? May be I got it mixed up, but isn't John Doe the alias for Ray?

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    3. Pretty sure the iPhone 5 has a built in flashlight.

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    4. it has one. i dont understand how to use it.

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    5. "it has one. i dont understand how to use it."

      Genius!

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    6. Just so you know pokerdogg, i have a 4 figure bankroll tony has a 5 figure bankroll, so Tony is now in a much higher league than me. I also have steady money coming in from investments i made back in my 7 card days on the road. And i have a "Poker Mobile" that is paid OFF!!! If you must know....."Kitty Kat" Martin i have an android myself w/flashlight built in too.

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    7. http://en.kioskea.net/faq/33287-use-your-iphone-5s-as-a-flashlight There's this crazy thing called the "internet"...

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    8. Alysia, so what you are saying is the internet can be used for more than porn and gambling?

      MIV

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    9. Did I read this wrong? That an iPhone can be used as a fleshlight?????

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    10. It is true lighning36. Just hold the iPhone in front of you aiming the light towards you, put your hand between the phone and your eyes, and you will see your hand lights up. Works best in a darkened room.

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    11. iphone flashlight sounds too complicated, no wonder TBC can not get it to work....my android just has a picture of a flashlight and I tap the picture and flashlight comes on.

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    12. Cremate him and sprinkle ashes over his fav VBJ machine

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  7. My comment is about the soap, your comments were amusing.

    First of all, you're not supposed to open the soap with teeth. You're supposed to be able to open it with your hands!

    Second of all, all you have to do is take the opened soap you are using and which is still good and put it in a drawer before the maid comes in. She will leave you a new bar of soap but you can retrieve the old one and use it without having going thru the horrific ordeal of opening a new one.

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  8. "and another annoyance. wasting money replacing the soap simply because i opened it, when the soap was completely fine. now i got to go to the work of tearing the paper open again when my teeth can barely open it."

    Pure gold. The most creative literary minds couldn't make this stuff up. That extremely thin paper on the bars of soap is enough to put you through a "horrific ordeal". But hey, if you don't get your tooth fixed soon, you'll be dead. As they say, death is nature's pain relief.

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    1. And then save all of the unopened soaps and go stand outside of the Walmarts and sell the bars for 25 cents each.

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  9. If you can not open a bar of soap you have even bigger problems than all of us are aware.

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  10. "How many of u have noticed im getting tired of updating this blog for free all the time, and just want to spend more time alone in a room, not having to be around people"

    Easy solution for you.....Don't blog anymore (it will give you more time to gamble), and spend more time in your room alone (and that means you can stop texting people to meet with you). I see this as a positive as it gives you much more time for other things to do.

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  11. You know, being so bitter all the time is bad for your health.

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  12. TBC Your thought process is what makes people read this blog. I know it is hard to grind poker for a living. This is why most of us do not try this. We have boring jobs we go to every day or we are retired and just play the money we can afford to lose. I would hate to be you my friend and have to go to the casino and play with fish that suck out on you every day. I hope you health holds out for you because there is not going to be any memorial for you like Chad Browns. I think he died of cancer not because he was gay.

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    1. Yeah, that AIDS comment was a bit bizarre.

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    2. And so what if Chad Brown had been gay and/or had AIDS? Keep up the homophobic and bigoted posts TBC. Maybe you can get some more teabagger and Fred Phelps blog followers.

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  13. RUN, TONY, RUN!


    Issued by The National Weather Service Philadelphia, PA
    Sun, Jan 25, 4:08 pm EST

    ... WINTER STORM WARNING IN EFFECT FROM NOON MONDAY TO 6 PM EST TUESDAY...
    THE NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE IN MOUNT HOLLY HAS ISSUED A WINTER STORM WARNING FOR HEAVY SNOW, WHICH IS IN EFFECT FROM NOON MONDAY TO 6 PM EST TUESDAY. THE WINTER STORM WATCH IS NO LONGER IN EFFECT.
    * HAZARD TYPES... HEAVY SNOW WITH BLOWING AND DRIFTING.
    * SNOW ACCUMULATIONS... 10 TO 18 INCHES.
    * TIMING... PRECIPITATION ON MONDAY SHOULD BE A MIX OF RAIN AND SNOW, ALTHOUGH THERE MAY BE A BRIEF PERIOD OF ALL RAIN FOR SOME AREAS. HOWEVER, ANY MIXED PRECIPITATION IS EXPECTED TO CHANGE TO ALL SNOW MONDAY EVENING AND BECOME HEAVY AT TIMES THROUGH TUESDAY MORNING BEFORE TAPERING OFF.
    * IMPACTS... SOME IMPACT ON THE MONDAY MORNING COMMUTE, THEN SIGNIFICANT AND WIDESPREAD IMPACTS DEVELOPING MONDAY EVENING AND CONTINUING THROUGH TUESDAY AFTERNOON. AREAS OF BLOWING AND DRIFTING SNOW WILL BECOME A FACTOR DURING MONDAY NIGHT AND TUESDAY.
    * WINDS... NORTHEAST 15 TO 20 MPH WITH GUSTS UP TO 30 MPH MONDAY, THEN BECOMING NORTH 15 TO 25 MPH WITH GUSTS UP TO 40 MPH MONDAY NIGHT INTO TUESDAY.
    * TEMPERATURES... MAINLY IN THE LOWER TO MID 30S MONDAY, THEN DROPPING INTO THE UPPER 20S MONDAY NIGHT AND TUESDAY MORNING.
    * VISIBILITIES... AS LOW AS ONE QUARTER MILE AT TIMES.

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  14. I took a break from commenting but I'm going to add to the commentary if you approve this:

    I feel bad for you. Not for the reasons you think either. You're scared, defensive, lonely and isolated and paranoid. Things are out of control and you don't know where to turn so you lash out. Fine. I get that. You're like a flash flood of emotions, but have no idea of the damage done when it's over. Rinse and repeat.

    I took a break from commenting simply because it's really pointless to give you advice when what your really, REALLY need is a hug and a glimmer of understanding of your personal hell that you have to live with every day. The daily details of life are torture.

    I know you're doing the best you can but really, have you looked into getting yourself a life coach and understanding the meaning behind life?

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  15. Tony,

    Like many of your readers, I care about your well being and I want to see you succeed in both poker and life. It makes me sad when I see you blaming other people for all the bad things that happen to you. It pains me to read all the anger, bitterness and resentment in your posts. Being a professional gambler is not an easy life, but it could be so much easier for you if you could better control your emotions. I respect the hurdles you have had to overcome in your life, but I don't think you have an accurate view of other people's lives. You think most people have been given an easy life, I think most of those people with a good life worked hard to get where they are and they didn't make excuses or blame other people every time they had a small setback. I know it's hard for you to see the world through another person's eyes but try to do it, it will make you a better person. Stop dwelling on the things you don't have or can't control and be thankful for the things you do have. There are many positive things in your life so focus on the good stuff and you will be so much happier.

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  16. "Ive held back on a lot of blog posts ive wanted to do that would either anger a lot of people or get me committed to an institution. but its getting hard to hold back anymore."

    It is a good thing you shared the horrors of not knowing how to use the flashlight app on your iPhone and the pesky hotel soap packaging. Those two aspects of your life are exactly what your readers want to know about Tony. That might sound like a wisecrack but think about it for a minute and it will ring true...

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  17. Hey Tony is your mom aware of this blog? I think she should know how her son is doing.

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  18. well Tony get your teeth fixed while you still have the money and you will feel alot better about yourself and anybody that has diabetes that has a meter could check your blood level and that would give you a heads up on your sugar level.Living the life you do is a hard way to live but you seem to manage it but sooner than later it will wear you down and then you will be in bad shape.everyone has problems but you only seem to think of yourself and that is not good for your own well being.Every one needs to be around friends and loved ones every so often. EVEN YOU. you need to take some time off and visit your family before its to late.....

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  19. its weird theres no hookers on white horse pike, or dope dealers, considering the rooms cost so much less out here than in the really bad areas of AC. ud think theyd want to go to where they could rent the rooms for half the price. or maybe those prices are only given online or to those with credit or debit cards. but dont ALL motels make u have one of those or are there still motels that dont? maybe MIB knows.

    YES ALL HOTELS REQUIRED A CREDIT CARD. IT IS A WAY FOR THEM TO WEED OUT THE UNDESIRABLES. IF SOMEONE CAUSES DAMAGE THE HOTEL/MOTEL CAN CHARGE FOR DAMAGES. EVEN IF THE CARD IS APPROVED FOR ROOM BUT DECLINED FOR MORE MONEY THE HOTEL AUDITER HAS A CODE TO FORCE A CHARGE TO THE CARD FOR MAXED OUT DAMAGES. I HAVE DONE THIS MANY TIMES WHEN SOMEONE SMOKES IN ROOM OR STEALS A TV.

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