Pokerdogg (and others) are right. The main thing killing me since i left both vegas and reno is the outrageous per month costs on housing (for the most part). and to a lesser extent other transportation costs. Its not going to be easy to change that either here in Tampa. But its $1550+ a month in rent right now, and except for atlantic city, was that way for much of the east coast time in DE and MD. it would be far less in reno, vegas, and even deadwood if the $20-30 a nite was available long term.
would also be less in Laughlin, Evansville, Biloxi, Toledo, etc and many other places. i could even get it reduced here in Tampa if i could get a landlord to rent to me a normal apartment. My lifes been such a waste, so much of my life was lived in a motel instead of an apt. and i always gave up all the cheap apts that i ever had.
All of the bad decisions i make that cause big losses (wonder if pokerdogg would suggest i should cap losses at 1% of the roll each day or if $112 would be too small?-maybe 2%) are basically taking place when ive been playing way too many hours (shorter sessions definitely helps--was the biggest factor in renos obscenely hi win rate). its because im dead tired and dont feel like folding or playing poker any more and just want to get even so i can go.
staying at home and playing online would help to solve that too, but i first need to get the expenses cut down to where i feel like at $40 a day i could at least hold my own and not lose ground. Sure wish i had me a $300-400 a month apt somewhere now. i am living way beyond my means staying at this hotel, but im afraid if i stay anyway else ill feel too unsafe sleeping in the room. at least now the only place im feeling unsafe is on the bus back and forth. That too could be solved if i was winning so much (or lived close enough to make the fee low) to use Uber every day.
i was going to use Uber today to go to Derby lane instead of the hard rock, but had to cancel that idea since Uber had surge pricing in effect today for 7.9x the normal rate. so i sure wasnt going to pay that. no idea for the reason. its the only casino ive still not visited, (not counting any offshore boats --not even sure if tampa has any--or the cardroom 35 miles away in sarasota FL not on public transit from tampa, only in their own city).
im just glad i still believe online poker (but only on Bovada) can still be beaten for maybe $40+ a day without a large amount needed to get started.