I could be sure the bump in my chin/jaw area and the tinier one further towards the front of the face was connected to my tooth (or unimportant) if it wasnt also for the bloody scalp that at times feels hot (but certainly not a fever) it sure dont feel that way this morning, could just be that i have too much hair. but ive got infections in my scalp years ago that got bad, so i dont know for sure if infections coming from the tooth. back in Dec the dr barely looked for less than a minute and didnt think i had a tooth abscess then. (when he said it was strep). But yes i should go see a dentist or dr. its a huge cost, and im afraid to have the work done without being put to sleep, and i have no one to bring with me, (which all dentists require to put u to sleep).
and ive lost interest in this blog too.
yesterday wasnt good. was deciding whether to pay for another week or not, or just the final 2 days of the month, and i ended up taking another week. probably i shouldve got a plane out of town, either to mom to have her help me get medical care (with my money) or to vegas, reno, etc. am sick and tired of either long ass commutes or huge uber fees. i kind of blew up at the dogtrack when still being stuck when i first got there, then winning a pot and a share of someone elses high hand table share, was up just over $100 for the day then, and then blew it all and $486.
it was the most incredible game. and though i couldnt afford it, didnt want to leave because the players were awful and the action too good. 6 people seeing a raise and allin to $63 preflop, including me who had AK. i called a guys $34 bet in EP, (mistake?) and i didnt reraise worried of aa or kk, and sure enough he had it. (he didnt raise the guys allin because according to the dealer, he wasnt allowed). the final hand i busted on i had JJ and the asian guy makes it $20 with the big stack whose doing that with tons of hands, i said fuck it and shoved $176, and he calls with 77. sure enough 7 comes on the turn. I left with $300 of the $802 i left the house with. (that was correct to not buy the final $300 when on tilt that much right)
left quite angry when being in such need of money for medical care id kept talking about to a dentist playing at the table, who was telling me his opinion of whats going on with my tooth and what he thought most dentists might charge. he said i couldve had more than one abscess that might spread but of course, he didnt look at the actual tooth, or bother to feel the lump. also the dealer probably didnt like what i said as i was leaving either. but im under such pressure due to worrying about my health. i had over $12,900 at the start of the day and after that big loss, and paying the rent, i was in the $12,000s.
Think ill stay away from there for a while. but the game sure is good there. im still not sure that game is honest either. its the game in the ghetto.
i wish i could bring myself to see a dr. im quite angry an office visit costs so much one online service called zocdoc that finds u a dr to set an appt with, dont tell u the cost, so when trying to book, i asked them to email the cost first, turns out its $300. WTF? why does that come up when searching "cheap office drs visit tampa" i remember when i paid a dr in iowa $40-45 in a small town in iowa sometime 1995-2000. also wish id go see a dentist.
surprised a flight to MSP is only $161, why so much less than most places? reno is always over $550, and rapid city always over $650. vegas is sometimes $217, phonix sometimes $255. KCMO is at times $312 which is a place to then take an amtrak to hutchinson, and st louis is also that price or less.