i probably should get out of the tahoe Biltmore really soon. Been here 6 whole days now (much longer than usual) and running out of comps, but when i came i had over $160 stored up from previous much shorter stays. and im still nowhere close to running out of food in my hotel room as much extra food as i brought this trip. its a good thing i got me this 2nd suitcase because i really needed it.
but since i came with $8900+ had $8800+ after paying the cabbie, $8900 plus again after doing the $50 atm promo across the street and picking up $45 in free play at the Biltmore, and then briefly had $11,168 a day ago, thats a pretty sizeable overall win on the VBJ. only about $100 or less is profit from the 3 nights i played poker, so its over $2000 won off the VBJ.
yes ive given back a bunch since, have over $500 less than i did, and at one point last night was out about $900, but wasnt out that much when i went to bed. after depositing the $2500 in the atm and then losing a lot since, i did have to take out another $800 from the atm again to have enough to bet with.
But its getting time to get back to reno. Lightning will be coming in 8 days, and i've got a drs appt at his office scheduled for 10.20am june 22. (they said to come in 30 min early which to me is stupid). but thank God its with a regular MD at his office for $120 instead of at some urgent care place with 100s of others in the lobby. at least now i feel i wont be as likely to be rushed in and out by the dr. and ill have someone i can consider my regular primary dr. at least until i move out of reno that is.
ive got so many things i need to ask the dr, and mom says i should have them do bloodwork to find things wrong i might not be aware of. by the way mom has tendinitis so she has to try and type with only her left hand. just seen a dr herself recently and she forgot where lightning lived, or remembered that by Lightning i meant John. (when i told her and Mark he was coming to visit). neither did Mark know who i meant by lightning.
should ask the dr why my scalps in such awful shape, and make sure ive got no infections. why i feel like ive got a bump in a couple areas, and a strange feeling in the chin at times. why i feel temperatures changes where the scalp is in poor shape. why i have to urinate so often and for such low amounts. why my eyesight is deterioating. and anything else one of u might think would be a good idea to ask id never think of.
and even if i lose $1000 again on the VBJ, i will still be at $9600+ which is better than when i left reno. this machine is certainly +ev overall. the way i bet may cause more variance, but im still getting all the big bets in at positive counts, and thats really all that matters. the fact i keep doubling them bets is just a sideshow and wont affect anything in the long run.
one of the Mexican security guards here who i think is new since he had the wrong name for the slot supervisor on duty has a habit which drives me up the wall. (anytime theres an attractive women playing a machine along, hes always coming over to chat her up. he must really be wanting to get laid awful bad). one girl i heard him asking if she was married or not. dont the women find this annoying? i would if I was a woman and the guy wasnt white.
it bugs me because i dont feel the same freedom to go up and talk to a woman and feel id be accepted. i feel a woman might get mad if i talked to her and have her BF beat me up or tell the management im bothering her. and i resent the fact the security guard can talk to her without having to worry about all these repurcussions. good looking guys can do whatever they like without ever having to worry about being charged with sexual harrassment, and ugly guys like me get in a lot of serious trouble if they try to go around talking to women. especially those of us who are socially awkward and have disabilities like aspergers. This has resulted in numerous bannings in years past in the casinos. (all of them about 15 yrs ago when i was young enough to still be interested in trying to talk to women--back before i felt ugly and old and felt it was pointless). lets bury once and for all the opinion its things i do in poker rooms thats got me banned. that was for very few bannings. (harrahs joliet). other bannings had to do with things outside of the poker room, think Binions, Venetian, etc.
For instance, once a casino near KCMO banned me because the girl i had rode to the casino with her and her family complained about me giving her money to kiss her. and they thought i was bothering her when i wasnt (it was her friend i was talking to, who needed money for a cab that i later met at another casino after id gotten her phone number). but she complained that i was still bothering her because she didnt like me hanging out with her friend. this girl had originally agreed to do it, and her family was broke and looking around for money in the slot machines and had told me about it. this was back in the days i was homeless alot thats how i met these types of people. the casino claimed they had a previous issue with me, when i was talking to a different women on a prior visit who didnt like a question or comment id made and complained.
u see, when u have autism its hard to know how to be appropriate when making conversation because u dont know social cues and cannot read others feelings. its why i cant establish trust with anyone and am scared of being setup and harmed by everyone i meet. or why i feel abondoned by every women whose ever once really liked me. (a great example being Josie, Britni and claudia).
then the other 2 major bans in vegas both involved being unable to relate to women instead of bad behaviours in the poker rooms. the MGM i got banned for trying to stop a hooker from leaving whod ripped me off, and the valet (her friend who she tipped) lied and said i grabbed a female guests coat to stop them from getting in their car. they didnt listen to my story when they seen id previously been 86ed from MGM elsewhere other casinos. now one time i did go in the poker room years later and a guy working there thought he recognized me from another property. (this was years ago and the earlier incident was even more years ago). ive not been in there in at least 10 yrs now. so he checked with security to see if i was banned and security came by and said yes i was and had me leave.
and the excaliber back when it was mandalay resorts group and not the MGM? (but still a group of 4-5 casinos). that too had to do with a woman being friends with the security guard. she also got me banned at a place in mesquite once when we went out there. her name was Terry she was friends with a girl who used to work at binions in the snack bar. she was also friends with a security guard at the gold spike when it was a casino and talked that security head into letting me come back in.
sometimes she wanted to hang out and she was basically homeless and had issues. eventaully she moved to kingman and ive no idea what became of her since. she was needing money but when she got irrateted with me, wanted me to get the hell away and then told all the employees i was bothering her. mesquite it all started with me not wanting to see to see a movie in the theater. she sat in the security office most of the night because she claimed she was afraid to go back to our room.
at the time i was so broke i had no friends in the poker room to stand up for me anyway--all i played then was low stakes stud basically and the excaliber the employees didnt like my scalp allergies but i could still always play til the girl complained like hell to staff i was bothering her and would get away from her, yelling and screaming, and made the pit boss at the craps table think i was taking her money when it was money id gave her to play i was trying to make sure she bet a certain way. we were using a coupon and i was trying to fix it so there would be a small profit. (not the type of player whose welcomed).
and for that, im 86ed for life because i dont know how to fix it and lost Grumps friendship in helping me. the lady in charge didnt like me complaining about women having special privledges and her not listening and taking the other girls side because she was a woman.
so u see, all my bans are basically caused by my autism and not knowing how to interact and relate socially with women and its something i cant help due to my disability. ill never know how to talk to people without upsetting them. but it does make me very bitter towards sociable and attractive people because it makes me feel like they think theyre privledged and feel like they think they are better than me due to it.