Monday, June 15, 2015

its time to say farewell

i probably should get out of the tahoe Biltmore really soon. Been here 6 whole days now (much longer than usual) and running out of comps, but when i came i had over $160 stored up from previous much shorter stays. and im still nowhere close to running out of food in my hotel room as much extra food as i brought this trip. its a good thing i got me this 2nd suitcase because i really needed it.

but since i came with $8900+ had $8800+ after paying the cabbie, $8900 plus again after doing the $50 atm promo across the street and picking up $45 in free play at the Biltmore, and then briefly had $11,168 a day ago, thats a pretty sizeable overall win on the VBJ. only about $100 or less is profit from the 3 nights i played poker, so its over $2000 won off the VBJ.

yes ive given back a bunch since, have over $500 less than i did, and at one point last night was out about $900, but wasnt out that much when i went to bed. after depositing the $2500 in the atm and then losing a lot since, i did have to take out another $800 from the atm again to have enough to bet with.

But its getting time to get back to reno. Lightning will be coming in 8 days, and i've got a drs appt at his office scheduled for 10.20am june 22. (they said to come in 30 min early which to me is stupid). but thank God its with a regular MD at his office for $120 instead of at some urgent care place with 100s of others in the lobby. at least now i feel i wont be as likely to be rushed in and out by the dr. and ill have someone i can consider my regular primary dr. at least until i move out of reno that is.

ive got so many things i need to ask the dr, and mom says i should have them do bloodwork to find things wrong i might not be aware of. by the way mom has tendinitis so she has to try and type with only her left hand. just seen a dr herself recently and she forgot where lightning lived, or remembered that by Lightning i meant John. (when i told her and Mark he was coming to visit). neither did Mark know who i meant by lightning.

should ask the dr why my scalps in such awful shape, and make sure ive got no infections. why i feel like ive got a bump in a couple areas, and a strange feeling in the chin at times. why i feel temperatures changes where the scalp is in poor shape. why i have to urinate so often and for such low amounts. why my eyesight is deterioating. and anything else one of u might think would be a good idea to ask id never think of.

and even if i lose $1000 again on the VBJ, i will still be at $9600+ which is better than when i left reno. this machine is certainly +ev overall. the way i bet may cause more variance, but im still getting all the big bets in at positive counts, and thats really all that matters. the fact i keep doubling them bets is just a sideshow and wont affect anything in the long run.

one of the Mexican security guards here who i think is new since he had the wrong name for the slot supervisor on duty has a habit which drives me up the wall. (anytime theres an attractive women playing a machine along, hes always coming over to chat her up. he must really be wanting to get laid awful bad). one girl i heard him asking if she was married or not. dont the women find this annoying? i would if I was a woman and the guy wasnt white.

it bugs me because i dont feel the same freedom to go up and talk to a woman and feel id be accepted. i feel a woman might get mad if i talked to her and have her BF beat me up or tell the management im bothering her. and i resent the fact the security guard can talk to her without having to worry about all these repurcussions. good looking guys can do whatever they like without ever having to worry about being charged with sexual harrassment, and ugly guys like me get in a lot of serious trouble if they try to go around talking to women. especially those of us who are socially awkward and have disabilities like aspergers. This has resulted in numerous bannings in years past in the casinos. (all of them about 15 yrs ago when i was young enough to still be interested in trying to talk to women--back before i felt ugly and old and felt it was pointless). lets bury once and for all the opinion its things i do in poker rooms thats got me banned. that was for very few bannings. (harrahs joliet). other bannings had to do with things outside of the poker room, think Binions, Venetian, etc.

For instance, once a casino near KCMO banned me because the girl i had rode to the casino with her and her family complained about me giving her money to kiss her. and they thought i was bothering her when i wasnt (it was her friend i was talking to, who needed money for a cab that i later met at another casino after id gotten her phone number). but she complained that i was still bothering her because she didnt like me hanging out with her friend. this girl had originally agreed to do it, and her family was broke and looking around for money in the slot machines and had told me about it. this was back in the days i was homeless alot thats how i met these types of people. the casino claimed they had a previous issue with me, when i was talking to a different women on a prior visit who didnt like a question or comment id made and complained.

u see, when u have autism its hard to know how to be appropriate when making conversation because u dont know social cues and cannot read others feelings. its why i cant establish trust with anyone and am scared of being setup and harmed by everyone i meet. or why i feel abondoned by every women whose ever once really liked me. (a great example being Josie, Britni and claudia).

then the other 2 major bans in vegas both involved being unable to relate to women instead of bad behaviours in the poker rooms. the MGM i got banned for trying to stop a hooker from leaving whod ripped me off, and the valet (her friend who she tipped) lied and said i grabbed a female guests coat to stop them from getting in their car. they didnt listen to my story when they seen id previously been 86ed from MGM elsewhere other casinos. now one time i did go in the poker room years later and a guy working there thought he recognized me from another property. (this was years ago and the earlier incident was even more years ago). ive not been in there in at least 10 yrs now. so he checked with security to see if i was banned and security came by and said yes i was and had me leave.

and the excaliber back when it was mandalay resorts group  and not the MGM? (but still a group of 4-5 casinos). that too had to do with a woman being friends with the security guard. she also got me banned at a place in mesquite once when we went out there. her name was Terry she was friends with a girl who used to work at binions in the snack bar. she was also friends with a security guard at the gold spike when it was a casino and talked that security head into letting me come back in.

sometimes she wanted to hang out and she was basically homeless and had issues. eventaully she moved to kingman and ive no idea what became of her since. she was needing money but when she got irrateted with me, wanted me to get the hell away and then told all the employees i was bothering her. mesquite it all started with me not wanting to see to see a movie in the theater. she sat in the security office most of the night because she claimed she was afraid to go back to our room.

at the time i was so broke i had no friends in the poker room to stand up for me anyway--all i played then was low stakes stud basically and the excaliber the employees didnt like my scalp allergies but i could still always play til the girl complained like hell to staff i was bothering her and would get away from her, yelling and screaming, and made the pit boss at the craps table think i was taking her money when it was money id gave her to play i was trying to make sure she bet a certain way. we were using a coupon and i was trying to fix it so there would be a small profit. (not the type of player whose welcomed).

and for that, im 86ed for life because i dont know how to fix it and lost Grumps friendship in helping me. the lady in charge didnt like me complaining about women having special privledges and her not listening and taking the other girls side because she was a woman.

so u see, all my bans are basically caused by my autism and not knowing how to interact and relate socially with women and its something i cant help due to my disability. ill never know how to talk to people without upsetting them. but it does make me very bitter towards sociable and attractive people because it makes me feel like they think theyre privledged and feel like they think they are better than me due to it.

26 comments:

  1. If you read your post you'll reach the conclusion I've held for some time that you simply do not belong in a casino. Also it sounds like god has seen fit to grant you diabetes.

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  2. Sounds more like the women are trying to take advantage of you for your weaknesses.

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  3. so u see, all my bans are basically caused by my autism and not knowing how to interact and relate socially with women and its something i cant help due to my disability.

    That's not exactly what I see. I believe your autism makes it difficult to socially interact with people, especially women. Does autism make you believe it's okay to grab, touch or threaten someone? Does it make you think it's okay to engage in illegal activities (prostitution) then be completely indescrete in your public interactions with these women? You put yourself in most of these situations, why is it so difficult for you to take any responsibility for the things you can control? When you blame things on something you can't control you give up any hope of changing the things that you can.

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  4. Tony I agree with you. I think it is clear that you should stop gambling and get a job that works with your disability. Why do you not do programming or similar type work?

    MIV

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  5. "one of the Mexican security guards here who i think is new since he had the wrong name for the slot supervisor on duty has a habit which drives me up the wall. (anytime theres an attractive women playing a machine along, hes always coming over to chat her up. he must really be wanting to get laid awful bad). one girl i heard him asking if she was married or not. dont the women find this annoying? i would if I was a woman and the guy wasnt white."

    Tony when was the last time you looked at your own skin color in a mirror. You are not exactly the whitest guy in the world. Don't be so racist. Maybe those women are attracted to people of different ethnic appearances and lifestyles.

    One of your biggest problems associating with women, seems to be that you regard all women you see as being hookers, either because of the way They are dressed, or who they are keeping company with. You are just so racially jealous, shit scared of your own shadow. So paranoid about your own age, medical and physical appearance, but you do nothing to change yourself.

    Until you get all this stupidity out of your head, get off your ass, help yourself, and change your attitude, your life will continue as is.

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  6. You've enjoyed some positive variance on -EV games. You are mistaking this "luck" for "success". You are doing the exact same things you did when you went from $20,000 down to $10,000. The drop from $10,000 to $0 is going to be much more painful.

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  7. You are right that when a good looking guy who looks like money approaches a women, he is treated differently then a guy who is ugly and looks broke.

    Also you tend to approach a lot of women who are either homeless, headcases, and prostitutes. These women may be better to avoid if your looking for a girlfriend.

    It is better to have no girlfriend then a have bad girlfriend.

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  8. Why Tipping Should Be Banned

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_vivC7c_1k

    I thought you might like this.

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  9. I had an interesting conversation about tipping with a friend of mine who is a dealer. Generally if you are playing poker full time you tip at least $4,000 a year to dealers alone.

    He said it is important that people tip there dealers because a lot of full time dealers make an average of only $15,000 without tips.

    I said using your logic then some full time poker players make only $15,000 a year. So if they lose a pot it would be nice if the dealer threw them a couple of chips.

    He agreed with my logic that I had a point but he said he rather keep his money then tip the players.

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  10. "...But its getting time to get back to reno. Lightning will be coming in 8 days, and i've got a drs appt at his office scheduled for 10.20am june 22. (they said to come in 30 min early which to me is stupid). but thank God its with a regular MD at his office for $120 instead of at some urgent care place with 100s of others in the lobby."

    Well Tony a doctor is technically a business owner and as such can make up his own rules about how he runs his business. Anyone who may take issue with the 30 minute rule has the option to take their business elsewhere.

    While you may consider this rule stupid, it is very likely a rule created by this doctor for a very good reason. Good luck!

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  11. Hey TBC I just read this and its very hard to understand what you are saying. I get the part about Asperger and Autism. I think it would be hard to take care of yourself and play cards effectively. Women usually want men that have steady income and are nice to them. You have to take your time and get to know someone over several dates. Once you get past a certain age most women lose interest. That might be a problem you should consider.

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    1. A single man in his mid 40's, with good personality, social skills, a good career, should have no trouble attracting women's interest. Tony has the age part nailed, just need to work on the other stuff.

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  12. "ive got so many things i need to ask the dr"

    You seem to have an idea that maybe you can spend one minute explaining a problem, the doctor can spend one minute telling you what it is and how to fix it, and boom--on to the next issue. Maybe knock out 15 in 30 minutes.

    That's not how it works. Pick the one or two things that are most important to you to get analyzed and/or treated, so that there's enough time to really figure out an answer and a plan. Expect to go back in a few weeks for test results, maybe to discuss whether the prescribed treatment is being sufficiently effective, etc. On that visit, if, say, one problem seems completely solved, then great--you might have time to talk about another one.

    Bottom line: it's likely to take many visits spread over many months to get through your list. It's impossible to do it all in one visit. Problems that have been developing for years cannot get solved in 30 minutes.

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    1. Would Tony actually get to have 30 minutes with the doctor? Where I live (in Canada), the standard doctor's appointment is for 10 minutes. If there is a lot of issues, or a longer examination is required, you have to make a special appointment.

      Yeah, pretty funny Tony thinks he can cram a life long list of problems into one appointment.

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    2. I would put money on the Doctor giving Tony at least 2 referrals to see specialists (A General Practitioner isn't going to be able to do much on some very specific issues) I know that I have a hard time doing this in my life.. seeing a GP, getting referral for insurance purposes, waiting for that appointment, taking all relevant info back to GP, rinse, repeat... If Tony is expecting the doctor to write him a couple prescriptions to cure all life's problems, I'd say don't bother... all he is going to do is get mad at wasting his money and be 86ed from a doctors office.

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  13. "one girl i heard him asking if she was married or not. dont the women find this annoying? i would if I was a woman and the guy wasnt white."

    Sigh. You just can't NOT be racist, can you? And you assume that since YOU are, everybody else must be, too.

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  14. "and for that, im 86ed for life because i dont know how to fix it and lost Grumps friendship in helping me. "

    I have no idea why you would think that. You may remember that I continued to do other things for you (take you to dinner, let you use up comps that I wasn't going to use) even after that. The only thing that changed is that I realized it probably wasn't worth investing time and energy in the project if you couldn't even do something simple like keep a fixed mailing address for long enough to get written responses from the casinos.

    I remain willing to help you write letters as needed. But the second time around, it will be harder to convince me that you're genuinely interested in getting your bans lifted--to the extent that you'll be willing to invest the time and energy needed to do it. As I told you from the get-go, it's going to be a long, slow process requiring a lot of time and effort. Your tendency is for issues like this to be intensely important to you for some reason at a certain time, but then the winds shift and it's suddenly back to a low priority. You're not good at directing sustained interest in and attention to getting a problem resolved. But there's no other way for things like this.

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    1. I have had one ban from a casino in my life. I talked to security guards out front, that obviously did no good. I sent letters, never got an answer, I made phone calls, voicemails were never returned. Finally I sent a detailed letter, with copies of my ID and players card, sent it certified with signature confirmation required and ALSO sent it standard mail. This got the attention I wanted. Received a call from an investigator a week later, and a week after that I was allowed back. I think the fact that I took the time to get the documents together, spend the money for confirmation, and have them physically sign for it made it where they knew I was serious. At least with the signature confirmation you know that someone knows that the letter came in and its not just hitting file 13 on arrival.

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  15. Tony, what is your race? What about your ethnicity?

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  16. [B]tony bigcharles ‏@sevencard2003 2h2 hours ago Reno, NV

    Down $322 peppermill $1,2. After lightning leaves I'm never playing poker again and nothing but vbj the rest of my life[/B]

    Don't sup[pose you want to take a bet on this Tony?

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    1. That would mean the very end of this blog too, since its very name is: "tbc's blog about grinding low stakes poker".

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    2. I guess this really depends on what your hourly rate is for VBJ vs Poker.

      Whichever one you make more money on is the one you should focus on.

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  17. The reason that the Dr.'s office wants you there 30 minutes early is because you are a new patient and there is paperwork you need to fill out. They will want you to fill out a medical history form, among other things. The Dr. will not see you if you don't fill out the paperwork. If you get there late and filling out the paperwork will make the Dr. late to his other appointments they might tell you, you have to reschedule, so get there 30 minutes early like they said.

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  18. Tony, I hope you are OK after taking the $700 plus loss at poker. I understand it is not easy for you to accept this kind of loss, but it happens. When no one hears from you for over 24 hours after something like this, some of us begin to wonder if you are OK or if you have done something to cause more problems for yourself.

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    1. Or on a positive note Tony went to a church service to calm himself down and regroup....

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