I'm tired of living a life of fear due to never being able to beat anyone up, not being legally allowed to own a gun, and being picked on as a kid, a teenager and a young man age 18-24.
I dont feel comfortable in AC NJ. i walked from the Trop to the BOA to deposit some money the other day while waiting to move from one hotel room to another (and thats another thing im tired of. i want a long term stable place to live again--like i had in Reno for as long as id have wanted to remain there.). Besides i fear taking a $5000 loss or thereabouts sooner or later on either BJ or any other type of game id be martingaling.
after leaving the bank i went to the 7-11 to buy some sandwiches, etc. on the way there, (and on the way back) no less than 3 different people (at 3 different times) ask me for money or attempt to, and all 3 were black. one a guy on the way towards the store (its only a 1 block walk from the Trop to Atlantic av from Pacific) one a lady who kept wanting my attn to ask me a question (clearly wanted to bum $1) on the way into the door of the 7-11, and thirdly a guy after i left the store with my purchase. u can see the poverty and destitution here in atlantic city NJ. PA and NY casinos are killing this city into oblivion. no wonder im getting such monster FREE deals. ($800+ in free play for sept and 8 free nights available to use on weekends with a value of about $300 a week or so additional). Plus a lot of gifts i never claimed because i had no where to store them. such as free luggage, free ovens, free vacuum cleaners, free expensive liquors, free fans, rice cookers, etc. i couldve sold them i suppose but i had no idea of anyone in AC willing to offer me immediate cash for these items. somehow i earned a high status from previous machine losses at the Trop. either that, or AC is really getting desperate for customers who could potentionally lose $1000 or so.
the live table BJ is quite a bit better here than Vegas in my opinion considering the large numbers of 8 deck shoe games with 80-90% penetration instead of 2 deck games 50% penetration and shitty rules. i have played a little of it.
and its not worth gaining $50 a couple times a week in free play if im going to bet way too high on the machines. u see tonight, i lost back almost $1900 after picking up my $50 in free play.
i played in 3 different poker rooms in AC im banned at (and it seemed no one in the poker room even knew i was banned there). at least not on the graveyard shift. still however, i was afraid to use a players card, and id feel a lot more comfortable in a poker room ive never been in where i know theyre is $0 chance of any trouble. plus, id like to find a pokerroom with safe deposit boxes so i can withdraw everything out of my bank acct. especially now since ive now got 3 w-2 forms ive had to sign this year. one for $1400 at the orleans, and 2 at the Tropicana, one for $1560 and one for $1320. the actual taxes owed would probably be less than $1000 if i actually filed.
this large bankroll of $22,200+ makes me quite uneasy. im not used to having such a big target on my back considering i was pretty broke and or homeless for over 20 years of my life. even those years where i did have a decent size bankroll, it was still LESS than $10,000. I would feel a lot better if the money was "buried" somewhere, and i lived in a part of the country outside of the cities where no one knew where i was ( or who i was) or what casino they might find me playing in. and let me tell u, here on the east coast theres an awful lot of choices, including some small rooms that dont get a lot of business that ive never been to before. if i wasnt too lazy to list them all, i would guess theyre's at least 20 or more of them. (counting PA, De, NH, WV, etc) and of course i could take an amtrak to anywhere else no one would know me either and arrive in less than 24 hours. i still think my life would be much better if i was far less public on the net, but theres always something im wanting to say within a day or 2 of silence so of course i feel inclined to post something somewhere, usually the easiest place is twitter.
i cant go stabilize my life too much before i see a dr in KS mid october and my family (but i am tired of not having a long term room to store my things and to have to constantly be awake about 12 noon moving hotel rooms). this is why i really wanted to do this in the last week of August (before i came out east-- to have it out of the way before i traveled east). im worried also about why my stomach is so fat when otherwise im very small. i wonder if i should do a lot more walking etc, but poker causes u to have a very sedentary lifestyle. but at times i feel a bit bloated, and yet i still dont eat much. maybe i eat twice a day instead of once when u count snacks, etc, but still i dont eat much. i eat more when i have a fridge at home and food in it and a microwave and am at home online, much more so than if im at a poker table, dont want to get up or waste comps on highly overpriced menus.
-------UPDATE-------the Tropicana fucked me
i went back downstairs after typing this blog entry (which i wasnt ready to publish for another day til AFTER i left AC) played a bit more 3 card poker (and lost another $500--and then won back about $282 of it on a live poker table for the next 6 hours and now im dead tired falling asleep). wish id done nothing but play live poker yesterday.
theres only 1 thing that finally got me off that machine, and that was when i was playing all 5 spots for a big sized bet to get back some of what i was down. one of the 5 spots had a bet of $120. now anyone who is familiar with the game of 3 card poker, will know that if u play the hand instead of fold, u have to bet the same amount as the original bet a 2nd time, so its like when u lose, u lose twice ur bet. i was dealt AJ7 all in diamonds on 1 of the spots, which of course i would play. when i hit play, it FOLDED my hand, (although the tech swore the sensor was working correctly) and id swear it done the same thing 1-2 other times during the hour also. so seeing that it cost me $240, i waited a long time and complained vociferously to the slot supervisors, and management who swore nothing was wrong with the machine and they didnt owe me anything, finally his main supervisor over all the slots (and it was like 45 minute wait for anyone to even show up) showed up (a black woman) and she told me i couldnt be paid, because as long as the tech claims its sensors are working properly theres nothing they could do. now she did see, i was playing very high stakes, had a lot of play on my card, and obviously wouldnt fold AJ7 suited. especially when on the other spots i played lesser hands. so she said they could give me a one time courtesy comp of $75. i really wanted to call gaming, but i didnt know if theyd take my word over the casinos. ill never play that machine ever again, because its not working properly regardless of their claims and i only got $75 back of the $240 i was supposed to get.
if i was on a live table, thats like folding my hand, (refusing to let me play it how i want, (a gaming violation) to force me to play it differently than i chose) and then telling me theres nothing we can do and we're taking ur money. surely i couldve convinced gaming to pay me? i dont know and didnt risk it and accepted the $75 but im not at all happy.
their VBJ machines arent working right either, more than once it bet a $5 bet without me touching any buttons of my money sitting in the machine just because their sensors werent working right either. luckily it didnt do it on any big bets, and i made extra sure to always bet that spot and that alone when playing 1 hand, so it wouldnt choose what to bet on that spot for me. im not playing that spot anymore either. and im definitely getting outta AC now. might not even wait til my rooms up sunday morning. ive now gone about 24 hours without playing it at all. too afraid to anymore.
incidently ive got $34 worth of bitcoin online and about $110 on Bovada still too. what change was supposedly made to the VBJ in the el cortez i dont know about since i left? and its nice how about ALL the rooms in ac offer fridges in the casinos. also nice to not have to pay for wifi at the trop too like i do at the taj. Considering Dover, Harrington, Maryland live, Jacksonville, Erie, Bethelhem, Foxwoods, Mohegan, Niagara Falls, Nashua, Manchester,Salem, Toledo, Detroit and Grand Rapids, Columbus, Charlestown, soon within the week. leaving anytime.