after another drop of $3000 in one day, mostly on the VBJ (which makes no sense since BJ is +ev if u are betting most of the money on good plus counts) i again feel i should leave, (regardless of a ton of promotional value and free play ill receive in the future) and go somewhere ill have to PAY for housing, (work like a slave for long hours-grind poker) and have to PERFORM WELL (or i wont get paid).
why would i want to do this? because even if the VBJ is plus EV (and im running WAY below expectation) i dont think it has anywhere near the $14 hour $1-2 NL poker has for me and i need to stop being lazy (and do some actual work to earn my living). ive depended on VBJ for far too long.
deep down inside, i feel like BJ is easier to win at because its all math saying winning in the longterm is inevitable, and unlike poker, you dont have to play well to get the money. i dont feel i can beat lots of different poker games, (and have less confidence in my skills). especially in any game with blinds of $2-5. i feel like most of my roll came from wins at VBJ in crystal bay and the el cortez and im hoping that wasnt all a misperception.
Poker is work. but i do have some skill because my $150 deposit on Bovada is now up to $469. i fear leaving town not knowing where ill live and not having any income, i worry how ill afford motel rooms if i leave. right now i need sleep, but i feel i have things i should do. like close out my new wells fargo account, and take the $2000 out. my boa acct barely has about $12k left. not even that. its actually 2 boa accounts, one with $2500 and one with $8900. it had over $20k when out east.
how can i leave the safety of these isolated desolate mountain areas far from most civilization when nuclear war is about to break out, as the prophets of the Bible foretold in the book of revelation? we all know america is the great mystery babylon to be destroyed in one hour. and that the judgement of God is coming from Russia (putin) who sees himself as the defender of Christians vs moslems. the bible considers america a whorish and wicked nation whose forgotten God due to abortion, gay marriage, and the way obama wont stand up for israel and favors moslems and palestine instead.
this is the safest place to be in a nuclear attack. and how can a nuclear attack not come? many famous preachers seen visions of it before they died. the apostle John too wrote of it in the Bible. Turkey is a member of Nato (like the US is) and just this morning Turkey shot down a russian plane. if russia goes after turkey in response, turkey will use nato to retaliate. its getting bad folks. we all know that obama is the last american president.
russia is very angry isis blew up their airplane. they are bombing heavily. now they are going to be mad at turkey too. and russia has said and long known the us govt created and armed isis. russia has reason to attack obama. they will see themself as doing the world a favor. they know he is pro moslem and hates ordinary americans and is doing whatever he can to destroy this country. they know how weak he is. the safest thing we can do is to emigrate out of america before we get attacked by nukes. its only a matter of time. certainly not more than 2 years.
if nothing really happened in Benghazi, (and they werent secretly arming isis) do u think that obama and hillary wouldve ordered the attack on our gay ambassador chris stevens in libya when their kidnap plot failed? no, they did it to keep his mouth shut. thats why theyve prevented anyone from testifying the truth to congress.