Monday, June 20, 2016

im sorry for not being honest with my readers, so i lost again. This is proof God almighty will judge the wicked for their sins

This is a really sad blog entry to have to write. the smart thing for me to do would be not to tell anyone this. But ive never done the smart thing my whole life as an adult, so why start now?

i just lost $1982 on the VBJ machine here in the tahoe Biltmore. so my new bankroll is $7351. and it deserves to be that too, for lying to my readers by underestimating the amount i came back from louisiana with. why did i do this? well i wanted to have some money to play VBJ with here in tahoe, and still have over $6000 to work with to get started in reno. and i figured if ive subtracted the money mentally already it wont cause a complete emotional and mental breakdown when it inevitably will occur.

for over a week things were ok. everytime i listed a $6000+ roll, it was an $8000+ roll. everytime i listed a $7000+ roll, it was a $9000 plus roll. dont get mad, its PPP who told me i shouldnt be honest about how much money ive got. and since i spent the $36 mom wanted me to finally once id recovered over $500 in this vbj, i figured i was "doing the right thing". in fact i did ok as long as i had the discipline to stick to the 1% rule.

today and the last 2 days i lost the discipline, 1 hand tonight while stuck heavily was 4 spots of $100, and the 5th spot was $70 for $470 bet. the running count id estimated to be plus 23 growing heavily every hand, and the dealer got BJ 2 hands in a row due to all the big cards left as i was betting big both times. it was the first time ive ever seen it this high in many months.

i will get close to $190 in bitcoin to hit my bank on tuesday. so it will increase the roll slightly. but this is because i got the rest out of bovada today finally id been waiting on which puts my new online roll at only $28. so im playing lots of sngs $1,3,5 only

im tired of playing this VBJ finally after tonights horrible $1982 loss, so i now wish to get back into reno (and grinding $1-2 much earlier than this thursday now). my last 3 sessions of live $1-2 NL were all winners, for about $380 total so i feel comfortable playing $1-2 NL once more. im really disappointed i couldnt get the $9000 up to over $10,000 though. were i to have succeeded, i was going to tell 1 more lie and claim i won it here in the biltmore.

truth is, in coushatta instead of losing $4000 in poker i lost only about $2500 in poker, and $1500 on VBJ. not $2000 VBJ and $4000 poker. this doesnt mean i wasnt truthful with kristi (ak gal) about security wanting me checked out by mental health for things i said right before i left for good. but i overestimated the loss. i wish id stayed put in shreveport, i wish id went home to Rays house with the extra $2000 instead of needing to worry who i can rent from in reno, etc. lots of poor decisions, and they all stem from the feeling of panic and terror once the $10k was wasted in shreveport on BJ over a relatively short time period. i think the first poor decision which started this was moving out of a nice safe room in the ramada bossier city for $700 month simply because of a nonworking fridge which wouldnt get cold enough. this is why i was staying downtown in the casinos, needing to earn free nights which were fairly easy to get if u played BJ enough.

the poor decisions started in NJ and PA where i won about $2000 a month on live BJ. this gave me a false sense of security and the feeling i wouldnt lose no matter how poorly i played. this too is probably why i got the emails offering me 4 nights a week at the taj, 2 nites per week in the trop, and all other days i put in 4 hours in harrahs ac for a free room (plus the $27 resort fee). atlantic city lifted my ban officially years ago, but they lifted it BEFORE joliet. but its never showed me banned there since. i dont think harrahs knows about ballys, so i did all of my ac nj playing in harrahs since i got mad that one time in ballys in NJ this one december (the night of the blizzard i flew Philly to Tampa).

i wish Benny Profane was an honest guy, and not out to lead me to believe things untrue all the time. such as info on machines he claims he will tell and hasnt, and pretending to be a female in reno wanting to meet. Ray offended his wife big time by joking with her online (with the fake profane benny id) the same way he does with PPP, lightning and AC, but like me, his wife isnt capable of understanding humor. because i could sure use a good woman to love me and a steady free place to live to get on my feet.

theres no uber service this time of night to reno, (only the $120 cab parked across the street which sits there all night often) and considering id have no room for sun night, it wouldnt be wise. the smart thing is to take todays 238pm amtrak and have a room booked downtown 1 night while i look for housing. this would be only $18 to get to reno, and would hopefully stop me from losing more on the VBJ here in tahoe.

before tonight i had some wins, some losses, but i was never down more than $400 and was up over $400 some of the time.


43 comments:

  1. All that above bs aside Tony, I do think you're better off in Reno. You seemed to be more stable and on top of it there. I'll see you out there sometime. Now get to grinding!

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  2. Ray is offensive to women in general. He may be a good friend to you but he is pretty much a misogynist and I would walk away immediately if you ever tried to introduce me to him. I really think he hates and objectifies women and you may think he's being funny but there is a cruel and perverted streak to his "humor".

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    1. That is just to men and woman (both) that i know are SELF-RIGHTEOUS in their efforts to help Tony!!! Maybe you should wonder why you don't see this. That means i do have a problem that pretend to be Christian and selfless in their efforts and aren't. Now anyone i offend that reads what i write and take it out of context i most definitely will apologize to. But the ones i know (trust me i know things you wouldn't believe) are more selfish than selfless i will speak my mind to female or male. I will continue to do this until "Jesus" comes back.
      To say the least there are very good people that support Tony too, that are selfless in their efforts, my comments aren't and were never directed towards them. And i also know why your disconnected to this understanding to MS. Chang. Enjoy your day. You wouldn't even know me to meet me, and i am not interested in meeting any of Tony's bloggers. I am here for other reasons you can't possibly see or understand.

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    2. By the way in "GOD'S" world money doesn't make someones opinion more important than others. Remember that too Ms. Chang.

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    3. That was explained to you out of respect to my friend Tony, Ms. Chang ( just so you know ).

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    4. Ray, you don't think your first post above comes across as self righteous?

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    5. Nope, not when you represent the message of Jesus Christ pokerdogg. IF i did leak a lil bit of self-righteous attitude it wasn't meant to be. Wasn't meant to be self righteous, this isn't about me at all i can assure you of that. I could have written it differently but there is a reason it came out like that. Sorry if it sounds self righteous i can assure it isn't. I have my reasons i promise P.D.

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    6. Pokerdogg if it does seem like that too, this is where people's personal experiences reflect on their ability to understand one another in a different light all together. That is not directed at you personally either. When you see a person frustrated and unable to reciprocate help you want to give them, it is because they have an understanding of a situation they know you can't possibly understand. Therefore constantly bombarding them with advice they already know is the right answer, does more harm than good at times. They are frustrated because the person trying to help can't see this. So they continue with the same mistakes because they aren't receiving the understanding they need.

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    7. All this nudge nudge wink wink, signifing nothing.

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    8. Ray, you are as mentally retarded as Tony.

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    9. Guy at the Mirage told me Jesus is coming back May 23, 2018. Can you verify that date?

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    10. What is up with the inappropriate use of quotation marks today? First Flushhdraw and "she" now Ray and "GOD'S". Not certain who is trying to do what; I mean Flushhdraw is not romantically interested in a tranny and Ray is not mocking God, right? Right???

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    11. the Bible says there will be many false prophets in the last days, and there will be a great falling away from the truth. the bible says too no one will know the day or the hour of the return of Jesus.

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    12. http://www.hebroots.org/hebrootsarchive/9807/980715_c.html

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  3. While it works for awhile (kinda) the stop loss you use (leaving town)often costs you lots of money, but it does get you to change up your play for awhile. A more effective stop loss would be something that keeps the loss from getting so big. Something like if I lose $200.00 I must get up from the machine (regardless of the count) and take two laps around the casino and drink 8 oz. of water. Anything that would stop you from going down the martingale rabbit hole before you loss all the money in your pocket.

    You talk about going to reno and "would hopefully stop me from losing more on the VBJ". YOU stop the losing by moving on. YOU choose this as your method to stop...because it is easy and a habit. YOU could choose to practice so self-control techniques and learn another method. Might help in a bunch of areas.

    You are lucky security did not call the cops and you did not end up on a 72 hour health and welfare hold.

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  4. Best of luck, Tony. You've made things challenging for yourself. Fortunately for you, you're able to buckle down when things get tight.

    s.i.

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  5. Coming clean in this post was good for your soul Tony!

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  6. I hate the "SIN" not the "SINNER"... Jesus will prevail!!!

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  7. "dont get mad, its PPP who told me i shouldnt be honest about how much money ive got"

    Do you really believe this is what I said or meant? My advice was to stop broadcasting your net worth to a bout of strangers on the internet, because no good can come of if. I never said to lie about your sweet, sweet roll.

    If there's one thing I'm certain of, it's that you are going to do whatever you want to do . . . constantly update people on your roll . . . show bluffs . . . play VBJ . . . make racist/sexist comments. You will never take responsibility for your decisions or actions. It's always someone else's fault

    But, the true bottom line here is that, at least from my perspective, I don't care the slightest bit. Indeed, to properly use the world's most misused phrase, "I couldn't care less . . ."

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  8. No single person is going to save Tony. The only person that will save Tony is Tony himself! This will happen through strengthening his relationship with "Jesus Christ".

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    1. What steps do you suggest Tony take to strengthen that relationship? Bible study? Attend church? Follow what Jesus reportedly said? Matthew 19:21 leaps to mind:

      "Jesus said unto him, If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me."

      Or do you suppose what the Messiah had in mind here was Tony donking off his stack to someone with a far smaller roll than him?

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    2. except for flushdraw, no one who takes the game seriously has a smaller roll than me. and even he dont need the money as much, since guys like him and ray have ssi paying their bills and providing housing. im the poor he talked about they should give to.

      about the rapture, this means no one knows when it will happen. but we know when the tribulation middle period and end period will be when Jesus returns the 3rd time for good, it will be 3 1/2 and 7 yrs to the day.

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    3. Make up your mind, Tony, half the time you're bragging to your loyal readers that you have more $$$ than most Americans.

      As to the rapture, I may not be a christian any more but I've spent a helluva lot more time in church, in bible study (directed by a bishop!) and in studying christian theology than you. It's a great shame that someone with your mental struggles fell under the spell of a weird, hate-filled, highly unorthodox cult that ignores the few positive elements of the religion.

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    4. Tony says "except for flushdraw, no one who takes the game seriously has a smaller roll than me. and even he dont need the money as much"

      That is absolutely not true.

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    5. Good thing Tony didn't follow the Morons. What would he do then?!?!

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  9. There is no god. Jeebus ain't comin. Just live your life to the fullest cuz when you die that's it.

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  10. Tony how shall I put this delicately. First off dipweed I'm not on SSI I'm on permanent disability. I worked for over 30 years and paid into the system before I got sick and had to be put on disability so you can take that "they are paying his bills" bullshit and fkn jam it and if you think for one second I'm giving you any money from my bankroll or living expenses you definitely need at least 72 hours of psychiatric evaluation. You're on drugs bro.

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    1. Lol, let em all think SSI FlushhDraw. Congrats on your retirement by the way. I am not on it either.

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    2. Could you gentlemen explain the difference?

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    3. SSI = Supplemental Security Income. It is benefits for disabled individuals who have not paid into Social Security enough qualifed quarters to qualify for RSDI. It is not funded by Social Security funds but by General Tax Revenue. To qualify you must be aged (+65), blind or disabled and basically have no other income.
      RSDI is Retirement, Survivors and Disability Income and is funded by Social Security funds. To be entitled to receive one of these three you must have worked the required number of quarters and your benefit is determined by the amount you paid in.

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    4. Its often otherwise referred to as SSI and SSDI with SSDI as Social Security Disability Insurance.

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    5. Very good ag now explain private policies. Sometimes when you organize a union in major companies they get pissed off and start overloading you with work. Then you have to take it upon yourself to start suing disability companiea for not honoring their policy. So there are many circumstances behind someone on disability and many types too. Always read the fine print these think tanks are beatable!

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    6. Now we have unions called company unions that aren't really unions anymore. They don't really stand for the hard working person. Its all smoke and mirrors.

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  11. Also read about the ERISA act of 1974. Private disability companies are protected by this act. They can cut you off and you can basically almost die and your not able to sue for any punitive damages. Obviously someone paid someone off again.

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    4. JD:

      I'm somewhat familar with ERISA - it was set up to establish some minimum standards for pension plans so that companies couldn't make big promises and then underfund the plans or make vesting too difficult.

      Broadly speaking, ERISA is seen as a positive step for protecting workers. Not perfect, of course, but a step in the right direction.

      s.i.

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    5. They always start out with very humble beginnings. Then right in front of your eyes things seem to change. Like that affirmative action... going back and doing a huge injustice to a group of innocent people to pay back stuff that happened in the past. Affirmative action created more prejudice and injustice than it could have possibly ever made up for.

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  12. What the fuck Tony! What's your current plan for not going busto?

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  13. What do you make per hour on poker, BJ, VBJ, and Vpoker?
    Or which one do you make the most on?

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