I hate to just sit in my room doing nothing but playing online because ive got so little on Bovada i cant play very high there. and the overhead of $317 per week is killing me. if i could live somewhere with no cost, or for under $400 a month (almost no cost) i could earn enough to survive online if i needed to.
But i just cant sit in the casino losing money. the $633 i told u i'd won this week in the Peppermill poker room? i lost $413 of it today. all the last 8 months or so, ive recovered from those losses by making subsequently larger buyins til i won. But its been quite a long while (several yrs) since ive had a roll of under $10,000. i thought i would never go below this again, but i was wrong. so i can no longer raise my buyins. i had to flat buyin for $100 all 4 times--well $113 once. but i cant afford the $200,$300 $400 buyins to get even.
i shouldve only bought in for $40. this is the min buyin, and is what i used to buyin for the first time in reno when i came with $1750. within 2 yrs (and with the help of a $750 royal flush jackpot in the sands the first week) i had it up to $17,000. but i never play shortstack no more. in fact even buying in for $100 now feels shortstack. ive forgotten how to play a shortstack, because i keep wanting to see the flop with small pairs, 6-7 suited, 8-9 suited, etc. the hands u DO shove with with a $40 stack are hands u only get dealt in like feels like once every 50 yrs. Unless of course theres a $5 straddle. then u shove much more liberally.
i'm so glad i made it out of louisiana with over $8000. think of how much worse this struggle would be if i was under $5000. i should've went back to shreveport but i didnt realize id find cheaper rent there, and i didnt think i could play $1-3 good anymore so stressed about money, and with having to lower my buyins. besides i think i ran way above average, (by winning $9000 in april) and i sure didnt think it would continue. (although i still was winning over $5000 in may before coushatta took out a big chunk of that).
when i get low on money, i cease all live BJ play, all video poker play, and im afraid to play higher than $1-2. i look for the cheapest living accomomendations and spend more time online.
I dont think i made any bad plays today, but i do know i cant play well stressing over the $317 weekly overhead. i might need to get to toledo the least expensive way (interpret this to mean riding the train in coach). no private sleepers.
the final hand, i had QK (which id just won an extremely tiny pot with) and the flop comes 24Q with 2 hearts. well a few of us called $8 preflop, and it was checked to me so i shoved my last $70 or so. one guy calls with 35 suited (open end straight flush draw) and of course, turned the straight.
now when i had KQ suited a few hours earlier, i flopped top pair, rivered top 2 pair, but the other guy rivered the flush. the money went allin on the flop or turn.
and when the game first started short handed the guy on my left who wouldnt chop its just us and the flop comes 66J and ive got 6K. turns out hes got 6J flopped him the full house. i lost my whole stack this hand very early on. but who wouldnt?
and the other $100 or so loss yet unmentioned, i called a bet of $30 (into a $40 pot) on the flop of 5JK with AJ. (likely my mistake) turn comes J, he goes allin, i call, he has 555JJ to my JJJA. if i fold the flop (or preflop to the $10 bet) i get out of trouble. but overall i played well.
it feels good to be relaxing in my room on bovada, this is what i felt like doing earlier. but i didnt wish to quit stuck. need to set a 1% stop loss and stick to it, but when down $100 in the first few minutes, (over 1%) i didnt wish to immediately leave and go back to my room. i dont really know if this would be the wise thing to do either? not if u play for ur living.
was not rebuying in for $300-400 to get it all back in one hand wise? i dont know. simply because im not sure im not playing too many hands since im short. maybe when short u shouldnt see the flop with QK suited or unsuited. or maybe i should stick to $40 so ill know how to play shortstack.