Wednesday, June 29, 2016

woke up cursing pretty bad (dream of electrical fire in my suitcase, and im trying to put it out with gasoline, candles and matches.) must have some kind of symbol meaning

Well i need to get moved out of here for sure. they raised the rent to $350 this week from $300, although the clerk did say this week is a busier week, but next week would probably be $300 again. but i really need to see about leaving town, (or living for less downtown or in the worse neighborhood) but i wouldnt save much if i was paying for uber much. i might not save hardly anything at all. need the frequent breaks walking home and back too. so i dont feel obligated to put in more hours at once than i want.

cant move out, because i filled up the fridge today. had i paid the rent 24 hours sooner, i wouldve got the old price still. ive being told by 100s of locals its been on the news alot how theres not nearly enough housing in reno, and how some living in monthly apts for $550 a year ago are now paying $800. who wouldve ever guessed this would be?

still, if im averaging $16 an hour, (which my phone records show over 1273 hours of play) i should be able to play at least 60 hours per week which is $960 per week. (and not worry about rent) But this week even with todays win, i made only about $360 for the week. this is why i cant afford this high of rent. u got to remember all the wins in shreveport did a lot to raise the average. (even though the average included the losses in foxwoods too, MD live PLO, and the stalemate in toledo). it includes wins in detroit too though and phoenix. if the true average here is $12, then im only making $720 per week, plus im paying for things like food, phone, laundry, etc too. not like rent is the only expense.

after the nap where i woke up about midnite, i went to the peppermill, for 3 hours til it broke, and won $113. i ended up $3 better off than i was a week ago after id just paid the rent then. (but i owe the phone though).

food sure is less in walmart than in the Raley's grocery store in North lake incline village.

Now--the big question--where should i go to live? should i live with ray without charge except my food, and his gas, bug him everyday to drive to detroit, since i couldnt win in toledo, or play in the lousy room in toledo? just so the last $8000 dont all disappear on rent over the next 6 months? (about what it will cost).

should i live in ac nj (which id enjoy more with my privacy and freedom) but the cost there have gone up since its summer. i dont get free weekends.. still get 2 nights twice per week, but only weekdays.

the cost of rooms on white horse pike went up too. i might need to pay weekly to cover weekends even with the 4 free nights. not entirely free, still over $60 in fees.

what would really help in ac nj is the free slot play in BOTH the trop and the taj. about $300-400 monthly in Taj ($20 various days) or $600 monthly in the Trop ($50-75 some days). but this would be cut off quickly without additional play.

they keep raising the amounts since ive not yet returned to ac. but this goes down quickly once u start to redeem it. even if u do play, but not in the large scale i once did. but yeah this would be a very large incentive to go to NJ and milk it for as long as it lasts. at least there the $1-2 would go 24 hours. big annoyance in reno and toledo.

or i could live with vince. play $4-8 hilow in the orleans, where i might still have enough left to grind out $75-125 per night? or $1-2 downtown? see the nice new room in encore, except im too broke for $1-3. or their $1-2 plo which seems to go daily, and in all likelihood wont once wsop ends. wynn never had plo this low before.

could live in the commerce spa for $40 night too, if i could store enough laundry somewhere. Could ride the train into denver for $193, then live 5 nights free in the isle, but then fri and sat id need to sleep outdoors. least it would be cool enough (and safe enough) to do so there, unlike cali. and the poker would go 24 hours with good enough rake back promos, with $1-2 going instead having to play $1-3.

so little u can do with an $8000 roll, and why i cant let it decrease. so much u can do with $20,000. such a big difference in the QUALITY of ur life. the biggest issue with so little is u feel u cannot win no matter how well u play, and u second guess all u do because every dollar means so much, when u are too low to handle normal variance. i wonder what the minimum roll is needed to be able to emotionally deal with standard variance?

its funny how when u have $19k u feel like u can lose $5000 in BJ without it causing u too many problems, but when u have $8000, u get scared to buyin more than $50 since u can no longer afford losses. not having enough of a roll to buyin $200 effects me more than u can ever know.

this is why i couldnt return to shreveport stick to the good $1-3 there, (and win it back same rate as before). there is a HUGE psychological factor between the 4 figure roll, and 5 figure roll.) not for young people, who can replace it over the years, but once u are 47, too much of ur life has gone to be able to replace it and start over. plus im too old to be homeless. (all i think of is going to the room to relax online or sleep). i wonder the oldest age is u dont mind sleeping outdoors.



19 comments:

  1. Time to plan your escape from gambling Tony.

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  2. Same questions, different week/month/year. Just look at your past blogs for advice.

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    1. and then he will do like always and ignore them

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  3. I'm older than you are and enjoy camping. Go home to your mother and son and get medical/dental stuff done and then regroup. Regrouping is underrated. I would say the same to anyone in your situation.

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  4. quit gambling. It's proven over and over you're just not that good at it. Plus it's a terrible habbit, along with being a sin. Move on... or just finish that measly 8k on bj then be homeless.

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  5. U should live in Shreveport. I can buy a trailer, land, & a car & u can rent it, everything!

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  6. Tony I have sent you a promo from the Virgin River Casino in Mesquite. I don't remember exactly what is there and the other casinos in Mesquite, but there appears to be a good accomodation promo happening there at the moment. Take care.

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  7. You talk like your playing on scared money with 8 grand! Put your nose to the grindstone, ditch your mind set. Get back to your 20 grand and lose the dirty itch for BJ. (Basically get your head out of your asshole it stinks up there)

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  8. I took a look at your AK hand. No offense intended, but if you're going to play AK that way, just fold it preflop. I would generally reraise with AK, but if someone is tight I might just call. If they are a really tight player, you can just check call them down on an Ace high flop. I'm sure you know this, but just because someone bets out on the flop, it doesn't mean they're strong. If I were him I would generally bet out with 10's-Kings, so the only thing you're scared of is Queens or Aces and Aces is extremely unlikely since you have one. Hope that helped.

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  9. the only reason Tony got to 20k was because of bl and vbj.get back to basic Tony and win a big one or go broke. its all up to you.....

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  10. chase your dreams tony and live life the way you want to. Fuck the world

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    1. This is great advice . . . especially if you wish to be dead by 50.... How about finally following though on benefits . . . securing health care . . . This would seem to be the more prudent route. But, of course, you'll do as you please, u see . . . and that means the path of least effort. Good luck sweet boy

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    2. Tony: read PPP's comments at least twice.

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    3. Tony: +1 to Lester's comment.

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