Well it looks like i wont be riding the rails quite as soon as id liked. u see, it keeps being sold out if u dont book either the train to Denver, the train to St louis, or the train to Toledo a few days ahead of time. there were multiple times in previous years this wasnt the case, and i cant tie myself down because i could change my destination. airlines dont usually sell out, instead they just increase the price. so this means amtrak doesnt charge enough. for if they sell out, it means they couldve got more money. its better to have to pay more and still be able to get a seat than to not be able to get on it at all, right?
its finally starting to really dawn on me (and upset me royally) just how stupid it was to lose over $20,000. like losing a years income, and for well over 75% of my lifetime, my bankroll was never near this high. But could i have stopped this from happening (with the exception of keeping my bets or stakes really low)?
i havent really been playing any differently in reno than i did in vegas, except i spent much more time playing poker in vegas than i did in reno. But im playing using the same methods i did downtown vegas. the only difference is i played the $25 table once, but this isnt where i lost. Only thing i think i do wrong is bet way way more than my bankroll allowed. ive been told my total bets for all 3 spots combined should NEVER be over 2% of the roll.
Plus, the players really upset me, (of course, this is why i always wish to play alone). about the only time i dont wish to is when the count is horrendous and i dont wish to have to eat up cards the entire rest of the shoe by myself. Then id like ONE player and only 1, to sit down. more, i fear will cause others to join also, and i certainly dont wish for the empty spot next to me to fill up which i need to keep open for the times my bets move to 2 spots or more. im sure not going to bet the same amount of spots every time. the way most of these people play (like the guys in front of me who REFUSE to hit 14 vs 8) to stick me with the bust card which theyre supposed to take of course, every time. or give me the 6 for my double down on 10 which theyre supposed to take for their 20 instead. its like theyre trying to make me lose on purpose, or are much more mentally retarded than me. or like the house is shilling them the money to play with to help me lose. How else could they not even be trying?
so many things offend me when playing (and losing). Like the cocktail waitress always putting the drink on the right side of me when i previously request it on my left and always immediately moving it there. the dealers trying to encourage the sucker side bet, which i wish no casinos offered, but theyre never going to stop because this is where 90% of the profits come from the suckers who bet it. always having to refuse the insurance because they keep dealing themself an ace. (if 1 of the big casinos stopped offering insurance to speed up the game, theyd get all the business). AND ESPECIALLY THE BLACK GUY THE OTHER DAY IN THE SILVER LEGACY WHO COMMENTED ON THE FACT I HAD A LOT OF MONEY "AND WAS WINNING BIG" (I WASNT) WHEN HE FIRST SIT DOWN. this is where i started losing the whole $10,000 plus in one sitting last week. of course long before my 3 final big bets, hed gone from the table about 15 minutes prior.
God i hate it when people do this. (act like ur winning simply because u got lots of chips). its either employees feeling resentful seeing u with so much money-and mooching off u- or broke people whod like to take it from u outside. this black guy, i assumed all he sees is a white guy with $$$ so assumes hes rich. he doesnt see me as a human being, just as a rich white republican.
i tipped close to $40 over a few hours 2-3 times before the big losses, usually while up $1000 or so early on. but im sure tipping next to nothing now. maybe 2-3 $1 bets every shoe. i wish i had this back, truthfully id be much better off health wise and money wise if i had back every tip ive ever given out while doing much better over my life. i dont feel i deserve good health since im not winning, or making wise decisions. plus i dont see myself sticking in town long enough to fix it.
well im glad this long overdue chore of updating the blog is over with. and its time to go pay my $800-1200 monthly uber fee and go play some poker. if i put in my $14 hourly here in reno, eventually in several years ill be back from the $25,000s to the $45,000s. no more online bitcoin BJ either, ive lost close to $5000 in this too over the past 4 months. theres only 1 good site left, and ive not been winning there and sometimes its not letting me login. poor management and maintenance. the other good site, bitzino, shut down suddenly on me.