Thursday, March 9, 2017

I am so glad to be out of Jacksonville and by the time u read this, ill be playing poker in Cleveland

$15,700. Thats it. How'd it get so low? well for one thing im not winning here in Jacksonville. Now im not claiming the games arent beatable, for i won over $150 today in $4-8 stud hilow, then lost more than this in $2/2 NL. But i do know i dont feel like i have the bankroll for any of the games i usually feel i have the roll for. (even when i had the same size roll or LESS in years past). This is NOT the main reasons for this low of roll however.

why'd i come here? well i wanted to protect myself from losing my money in BJ. now to do this, i shouldve came with the $45,000, before i went to reno, and this wouldve been solved. coming after most of it was lost was a little too late. im paying $375 per week for my room, and $30 a day with uber. this is way too much for me to handle without cracking up under the pressure mentally or financially. this afternoon my allegiant i purchased 2 nights ago when i first realized i wouldnt be able to survive here before the price went up--will touch down in cleveland, and Ray will be waiting to pick me up. we will play some poker, then go home to toledo. we will most likely visit columbus for their promo within the week too.

But spending $625 a week? when i can live with Vince or Ray for a fraction of this, is dumb and stupid. yes i like my independence but the critical thing to do is once u are in a big hole, to stop digging. in reno i paid for less when i lived there long term near the peppermill, and i wish id just paid the $250 per week to live in the vagabond instead of needing to earn free rooms while in reno. wouldve kept me from playing as much BJ. id still played but less.

im not sure i could even earn $625 per week here in Jacksonville. the rakes more, no comps, nothing is free. if i ever return i think ill stay in orange park executive suites for like $269 per week. its a mile walk, no more big uber fees, dont look no safer than budget suites in vegas, but no more unsafe either than this. i do like the option of PLO8 in the other room, and the mon-wed-fri stud 8. the stud 8 players much much too loose, i turned $96 into $261 in it.

im very much on edge, due to financial stress. the $4500 in bitcoin i lost online playing BJ since coming to Jacksonville to get away from BJ, (well not all of it, it didnt all arrive yet) but enough of it. being dumb enough to purchase from other people for over $100 juice twice. simply cause i hate the week wait thru coinbase. im going to get banned if i dont go somewhere i can relax without huge expenses and stress. i got in trouble twice this week here, but not thrown out--just talked to. this don't even count me blowing up on the pit boss in reno in BJ. both times i felt the others were needling me, once this guy was laughing at me, another time i got slowrolled. took some horrible beats too. theres definitely a clique among the regulars. and this one guy and his friend i think mightve worked together against me in the 3 handed PLO8. the night i lost the $2000 in it. since then ive kept my buyins so tiny they werent enough to work with. (like $40 in $2/2). i only played $2-5 NL twice with $100 or $100 and change.

for as many years as ive played poker for a living its very embarrassing ive played so little $2-5. and no tourneys in which there was substantial money in play.

the uber drivers suck here horribly, tonight i had to complain to uber, get the fare reduced by $6-7 when the driver really screwed up big time again way out of the way, likely intentionally cause he did twice. he got a 2. and this afternoon he, once accepting the fare, the guy never showed or moved his car. i finally got him to cancel since if i did it id be charged. he was driving someone around in his car not thru uber when he accepted and 20 minutes later he was still waiting for them to exit his car.

I would like to talk a little bit about the criminal justice system in the US and how it needs to be reformed. Lightning as always misrepresented my record in his comments on the old blog, and i didnt like what memphis Mojo said about my personality either. the only reason id say anything unkind is when under stress over money, so if i was dealing (a stress free job full of free gifts continously) i sure wouldnt need to ever be unkind to survive and pay my bills. i never tried to rob a soul. i only pretended to, which shouldnt be a felony. trying to rob someone should, but NOT pretending to. but this isnt the way the law works, they didnt believe me, thought no one would do this who wasnt serious so they claimed i "must of changed my mind". even my son couldve had a serious felony (burglary) my mom told me never to tell a soul, but he got lucky the guy wouldnt prosecute. he was having mental health problems so bad he didnt realize it wasnt his house he was entering.

being charged with a felony shouldnt force u to get low paid min wage work for the rest of ur life, and never being able to look for a normal job. theres no incentive to seek work if u cant get good paying work. even gambling for $17 per hour is double min wage. the problem is u need a bigger roll than most would ever dream is needed. why did 1000s of us vote for Trump, especially those in poverty unable to get work, people like Ray, Vince, etc? its because we were left out. Ray would tell me of not getting factory jobs blacks could get with affirmative action. Vince would tell me how women are favored given priority over men. Trump won big due to economic issues, not because the US is racist. the only racists in this country are those who arent white. my mom used to work cleaning houses, when i grew up in poverty. but in this new world, only immigrants are given this job nowdays. no white maids in hotels less than 10%. its a big lie most people believe that americans dont want these jobs. u cant even work at mcdonalds without being surrounded by those who arent like u, so who would feel at ease working there? i got outrageoud in reno while playing BJ and every single dealer in a row being asian. lots of races discriminated against in dealing, white, black, mexican even, because they only wish to hire asians. sure u see a few, but the vast majority in some places are asian. thankfully this isnt the case in toledo, detroit or jacksonville, but it sure pissed me off in the silver legacy. none of the asians ever talk to thank u for tips or root for u like the older white women do or the men.

but yes i couldve not gotten into gambling and been so heavily dependent on it to survive constantly stressed, afraid to turn loose of $1. couldve found work had it not been for the felony, when i last went all over town applying for work (below age 30) no one would ever call me in for an interview because of my felony. now it would be over 20 yrs so maybe its less important but im totally bummed out this many years later. no work history would be a bigger issue now than the felony.

instead of ruining kids lives for years for buying weed, or other minor felonies, why not clear records after a certain period of years without any issues? if 7 is too little, surely 20 would be sufficient to clear the records and seal them. mine took place at age 20, 28 fucking years ago. sure trying to rob a place might make some think twice before they hire u, but joking around pretending to rob the place then admitting u dont want the money and arent serious shouldnt ban u from working the rest of ur life. and with this im tired of writing must sleep to be up for the plane. im not publishing this til im boarding the plane though.









36 comments:

  1. 15700 wow going down the drain. Of course to be honest i probably would have lost that much also except i would of had fun and just went back to work so no problem. As we all know Tony has always made his big adventure to 45 k thur the bj and vbj tables and machines and never thur his poker playing so it shouldn't be no surprise that he is losing it the same way. paying big money for his hotel and living expenses and riding Uber an airplanes and taking vacations it is no wonder that he isn't living on the streets again right now and dont even get me started about his bit coin adventures so he can play bj on line and paying the juice because he cant wait a week for the free transfer, LOL i cant see how he isn't broke already.he needs to change his blog title to how to blow thur your life savings in three easy steps because he certainly is not a professional poker player hell he isn't even a recreational poker player.I do miss the part where he needs to get his teeth fixed but cant do it right now as he is to broke,

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  2. Tony - you're 48 years old! You're on a perpetual treadmill in terms of lifestyle and money. You get ahead, but as soon as you get ahead, you do something terrible to set you right back to where you were when you started.

    You got your bankroll ALL THE WAY UP TO $45,000!!! Congrats. Then you continued to not learn the lessons of the past and played blackjack and other leak games, turning your $45k into $16k. At what point will you learn to stop with the EV- games? Are you planning on driving your roll down to $8k? What's your near term future plan to stem that tide?

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    1. "yes i like my independence but the critical thing to do is once u are in a big hole, to stop digging" You should have stopped digging about $15,000 ago.

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    2. to eliminate costs. this way if im not winning in poker, i wont feel the need to play something else to cover the days living expenses.

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    3. Your insistence at using the day's result as a anything remotely relevant is just one of the multitude of reasons you aren't successful at gambling.

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    4. You know the problem is that you cannot walk away being down for the day. This simple fact about you is what triggers these absurd slides in your bankroll.

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    5. To be fair, it isn't like Tony got the role up to $45k with discipline and hard work.... he gambled on -EV positions and put together a winning streak. So to congratulate him for being that high, and then say he "threw it all away" is a bit unfair. Live by the gamble, die by the gamble. The best thing he could do would be to realize that living expenses aren't going to be what breaks him. What breaks him will be the -EV pit and machine action.

      Next time you are up to nearly $50k you should spend 20-30k getting your life situated. My Dad's neighbor is selling a doublewide in Vegas for $9k.... you would be in the same position as you are now, but would have eliminated 75% of your monthly costs.

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  3. Yes but Tony got his roll up to 45,000 BECAUSE he played blackjack. The mistake was betting like $3000 on a single hand. Even though he is down to 15K, my advice is STILL to move up to 2-5. I know it's risky, but 15K is a decent bankroll for 2-5.

    The biggest issue is rake. You simply cannot survive in a game like Jacksonville playing 1-2 where they take out 2.5 big blinds on preflop takedowns, take 3 dollars out of 10, 3.5 big blinds out of big pots and shit like that. Phil Ivey could not beat those games. Go up to 2-5, however, and that 3.5bbs becomes 1.4. That even sucks but it's manageable and beatable. Action probably isn't as great in Ohio but definitely a good decision to lower rent costs. I think Tony is on track to get a lot back as long as he doesn't make any big mistakes. Having never gambled, half of you don't even understand which decisions are the real mistakes. Moving up would not be one. And neither would blackjack be if he could keep his damn betspread to a level that gets comps but doesn't break him.

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    1. the big and small blinds both $2. if theres a rake taken preflop often its only $1, not 2.5 BB. lets say 3 in for $2, u raise, no one calls. $1 taken on the $8. or say $10 in the pot. then $2+1 for $3 total. but not 2.5 BB

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    2. Let's say it goes EP makes it 10. 3 callers. You ship to steal. 5 dollars is coming out of that pot. It's simply unbeatable

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    3. why would it ONLY make the game unbeatable if this is PREFLOP, but not if its post flop? or also not if its $2-5 instead of $2/2 when this occurs?

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    4. Moving up to 2/5 is a bad idea because he can't handle losses. Most of his BJ and VP losses were triggered by losses in poker. Once he is stuck, his brain flips a switch and goes into gambol at whatever cost to get unstuck. In 2/5 his losses, when they happen are going to be bigger. Tony simply don't have the mental fortitude to handle the swings in 2/5.

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    5. Tony. Because if you're playing 2-5, the rake is far far smaller of a problem in terms of percentages. All you need are 10 big blinds in the pot to escape the rake cap versus 25 big blinds in the 2-2NL game. It's night and day when it comes to the type of action you need in the game to be making money. Whether the game is no flop no drop is also incredibly important.

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    6. 15k is not a good bankroll for 2/5 nl when that's your entire net worth.

      this goes even more for tony who

      1)sucks at poker. he can't beat anything above 1/2 nl long term
      2) has huge tilt problems

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    7. right the rake is a smaller problem but the players are a lot better and tony sucks at poker

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  4. "Pretending" to rob somebody is properly a felony. (1) It scares the hell out of people, which you have no moral or legal right to do. (2) It opens the door to people getting hurt or killed by how they react in what they believe to be righteous self-defense. When you "pretend" to rob somebody, you are "pretending" to threaten them with lethal force. A person put in such a situation is legally and morally justified to respond with any force needed to escape the situation. Try "pretending" to rob somebody who has a permit to carry a concealed handgun, and see how funny the results are. (3) If "pretending" were a legal defense, then anybody whose genuine attempt got foiled prior to getting the money would claim to have been "pretending."

    But I agree with you that we collectively treat ex-felons terribly. Once a person's prison/parole/probation time are done, he should be returned as a fully participating member of society. No discrimination in hiring, housing, credit, insurance, civil rights, and so on. Not only is it immoral how we treat such people now, it's hugely counterproductive. When we effectively cut off all their paths to being good, self-sufficient citizens, we greatly increase the rates at which they will return to criminal means of surviving.

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    1. There is one very obvious prerequisite to our Hero getting his felony expunged. That would be an absolute stop to his revisionist history efforts and simply own up to what he did and show genuine remorse.

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  5. PPP would have won your "fake robbery case". wait a minute, if he tries cases the way he plays poker, maybe not

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    1. Fuck PPP. That chicklet toothed retard things he's so special. Fucking loser that will be alone for the rest of his life. I hope he enjoys his steaks and red wine, fucking homo loser.

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    2. Fuck ppp that chiclet toothed bitch. He thinks he's all high and mighty living in his ugly 2br condo driving his base model Audi A4 and blowing $100 a night on steaks. It's hilariously sad that he spends his weekends (alone, of course, who would ever spend time with PPP u see?) playing 1/2, trying his hardest to finally run up $200. Holy fuck ppp might be more pathetic than TBC. By the way you're a fucking idiot too tony.

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    3. Gotta love a PPP fan club. I have an anonymous reader who writes the same kinda crap - but this one is actually clever with a reference to PPP's teeth which may or may not be on the smallish side. Well played PPP has chiclet teeth (BTW nice spelling, you horse tooth jackass).

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    4. Hmmm ... hadn't really thought about the teeth before. More evidence that TBC = PPP -- a bigger secret identity than Clark Kent/Superman!

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    5. my teeth are not made from chiclets of course.

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    6. "Arise, O LORD; save me, O my God: for thou hast smitten all mine enemies upon the cheek bone; thou hast broken the teeth of the ungodly."

      Psalms 3:7

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  6. It is likely you could get a public defender in the state of conviction to get this felony reduced, expunged or get a certificate of rehabilitation. 20 plus years of no further crime would certainly make this possible if not probable.

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    1. If only he had the time to do these things. He is in the right state ...

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    2. Towards what end? How will Tony's life be improved if he gets this conviction expunged? He'll now go get a steady job? He'll pursue that college degree he always wanted?

      While Tony MAY qualify, he certainly won't do the work needed to pursue this, and I'm not sure what possible benefit he would receive even if he did have the motivation:

      http://www.helpforfelons.org/felony-expungement-sealing/

      "Most first time offenders can have a felony expunged or sealed but your chances of this happening are much greater or will happen if you have:

      Completed all court orders including but not limited to; prison sentence, probation, fines or reparations.
      You’re not a repeat offender.
      Have not been arrested or convicted since your release from prison and/or probation.
      Your original conviction was non violent or a sex crime although this varies by state.
      You have furthered yourself through education and/or working.
      Time passed since conviction."

      While Tony would be able to check a couple of items off the list above, there are a few he couldn't - has not pursued a job or further education, and he has (pretty certain on this) been arrested/convicted since that first time.

      Additionally, if the original arrest happened in Kansas (not sure where the hotel armed robbery occured), then it may be moot, as only 20 states expunge, and Kansas isn't one of them:

      What states allow felony expungement and record sealing?

      The twenty states listed below have some for of misdemeanor or felony expungement.

      Arizona
      California
      Colorado
      Connecticut
      Florida
      Illinois
      Indiana
      Kentucky
      Missouri
      NewHampshire
      NewJersey
      NewYork
      NorthCarolina
      Ohio
      Oklahoma
      Oregon
      Tennesse
      Texas
      Utah
      Washington

      s.i.

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  7. so close to southern fl, isle hard rock and didn't even bother to check out any of the 10 rooms in south fl? Absolutely insane....

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  8. Apols for going off topic with this post but eye just have to ask PPP if he has ever run into Alfredo Pelicci at Lupo Verde?

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  9. Last time you went to Ohio all you did was complain you couldn't win there. Why didn't you go back to Shreveport?

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    1. Last time you went to (insert name of city here) all you did was complain. What makes this time different? I know you cannot answer but I'm illustrating that you are never happy.

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  10. I hate to spoil the comments on this blog but TBC has stated on numerous occasions that he suffers from Asperger's syndrome. If this is true it can mean a person's basic thinking is not going to be very rational. All these well meaning tweets are going to be ignored. Tony is always going to be Tony.

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    1. I know quite a few people on the spectrum. I've seen them express joy and most of the time, they don't seem like miserable bastards. Comprehension of the range of other people's emotions is one thing. TBC's state of paranoid misery is a completely different kettle of fish.

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  11. Cheese and crackers you have a felony. I thought felons can't vote. If they can't they should. They live in this country and are affected like the rest of us. I'm glad for gay marriage too, why state's denied that in the first place I'll never know. Let the glbt community be as miserable as the rest of em. Please, thank you your welcome all that. Tony your 48 learn from your mistakes dude damn. Redash777 on twitter OUT

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