I'd like to use this update to talk about my friend Ray in Toledo, and how i feel about whats happening in his life since i came to Toledo. Mentally, financially, spiritually, etc. One thing i dont wish is to feel like im a burden to him, though he welcomes me to live in his home as long as i would like, even if he cannot drive me back and forth to detroit everyday.
I've been told everything in his house is mine in the way of food, tons of old tshirts, etc. including letting me have his front door keys. things were going good in his life for about 1 week with his poker results, before it all came crashing downhill, and now hes broke and dug into his credit for about $1000 or so, not sure of the total.
he's basically never got into $2-5 NL, (kind of like me) but unlike me thinks he can easily do it with much less than $5000. (i recommend $30,000). he tried it a few times in motor city when stuck, and thought it would be easier than winning in $1-2 because he felt he could read their hands easier instead of them being on any 2 cards, and he could isolate and take down dead money. he really wishes to spend most of his time in detroit in $2-5 instead of $1-2, regardless of it he can afford it. he thinks since he keeps throwing money away in keno or pickem poker VP machines, he's better off in $2-5. the good news is hes never played BJ, or has any interest.
he is seriously wondering why hes been losing and if God's plan for his life is to just sit alone in an empty room and go work out in the gym til he dies. i've never seen a reason to work out myself, but it seems to help him get women to write online, its amazing how many seem to want to meet him or how many dates hes been on. (he dont mention hes on SSDI or plays poker because he knows then no one would write). like me, he knows how much modern liberalism has destroyed women turning into good Christian wives. now i have lots of respect for being open and honest with women and dont like the way he dont mention this, i feel its wrong to not be open and upfront with the women. its not fair to the women, and isnt conducive for building relationships, which is the ONLY thing i want with women, (someone to love me i go home to every night, certaiinly not to go out on dates). i wonder if God is judging him in poker results over this? hes wasted about $100 or more some months due to spending too much on meals on dates and these women dont love him. mostly women in their 50s wishing to get drunk or sleep around, which he has no interest in doing. not many women under 40 write him. he knows how affirmative action works in toledo, how factories only hire blacks and women now, 49 out of 50 of their new hires in the Ford plant. he couldnt get in no matter how much he tried and had connections, being told they wont hire due to affirmative action requirements.
hes basically a very good person, one of Gods best servants on earth, as much as he does for others such as letting Nick live there for a while due to problems between Nick and his wife. without expecting anything for it. i've never met anyone more unselfish. this is why he seems so wierd to all the rich moneyed people reading my blog who are greedy bastards. Ray like God, hates greedy rich people and this is why he helped start a union once years ago, before unions were corrupted by the left. remember, Jesus went after them with a whip, and said its easier for a camel to go thru the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter Heaven.
Ray admires Man In black, due to the fact hes worked hard in low wage jobs his whole life. Ray did too til he became disabled. this is why hes getting a much better form of social security disability. he admires Vince too.
Truth be told, he is worried because his truck quit running, for 2 weeks now we've been spending $160 per week to rent a rental car, splitting the cost in half. he knows this cant continue and must get a car right away, but he dont wish to pay over $120 per month, (too little income) or put it on his $11-12k in unused credit, because he hates to touch it, worried he wouldnt be able to repay. i told him its better than having a monthly car payment then not be able to pay, least then the car wont be repossed. he was surprised to learn how many used car dealers will accept visa.
he cannot stand the idea of not having a car, and his family wouldnt like it, so of course this is his #1 priority. its effecting him to where he cant play good poker.
keeps him from getting good sleep, causes him to stress out and throw money in non poker games, (horrible idea) Now lets be honest. if someone is engaging in self destructive behavior and u care about them, and they refuse to change, how does it make u feel? any of u able to relate or know someone who fits this description?
i worry its MY fault for coming to toledo, since he used to not go to play poker nearly everyday. not since the old days in his early 20s before he worked, and was living in tunica doing nothing but grinding stud and omaha 20 yrs ago. its true that the BEST way for someone struggling financially to have a better life for themselves is to start relying on gambling for extra income instead of the govt. it makes u feel so much better about yourself morally. im a wondeful example of how it makes ur life better. im now usually always way over $10k instead of way under $5k, sleep indoors now, and dont rely on panhandling.
but not everyone is cut out for it. some just too dumb, some just too stubborn, some just unable to deal with the pressure of the swings. to survive, u must never straddle, never post or sit til the BB passses u. and rarely tip unless winning. most people cannot do it, they succumb to others who like to tell u what to do.
the music ray likes to listen to is so immoral and ungodly, (heavy metal and other rock) its no wonder u cant think well with them on using headphones. plus he knows too much coffee, too little sleep, not enough time spent in the gym, hurts him at the table. plus he keeps getting up leaving the game or changing seats/tables if not winning. u cant do this if u are a professional. u realize winning hands could take hours. he seriously dont see much money u need in reserve at ALL times. and that it could never be spent. he thinks i should spend it on my medical health.
i feel im putting pressure on him by living in his house and going to play poker daily. so i went to detroit today, took a hotel for a couple nights, (might renew for the week, seems decent enough and low enough cost and possibly safe enough too). but its too far from the casino for low uber fees, theres surcharges like crazy in detroit overnights. but if i can get to the casino and back without needing his help, it takes pressure off him to go more often. since i didnt need to go when he would go home, i ended up winning $375 here after earlier losing $175 in toledo. this lets Ray get to sleep much sooner tonight (not playing no poker) and he hopes to spend the entire day today viewing dealerships in bowling green and oregon looking to buy some cars he seen advertised online.
the bigger question is am i ruining his life by getting him into poker again? winning $500 or so per week sure would give him a better life, it would for anyone in his situation. i felt this is the solution for flushdraw too. it was for me. or is he not capable of winning due to being unable to conquer his demons on playing other games? or would he conquer those demons if less stressed? he worries he might destroy his credit but he definitely wishes to play $2-5. but does anyone on here agree its easier to win in than $1-2? hell if i believed this, id play it myself with the $18,000. he even thinks u can win a hourly higher rate in $2-5 than in $1-2 and he refuses to believe the players are a lot better, he thinks lots are drug dealers he knows, spoilt rich guys with money. including the guy who ripped him off and lied about what he would pay on his old truck he knew from poker. ($75 less than he promised on the phone).
im trying very hard to make Ray a better life, but am i wrong? should i hit the airport today for atlantic city? i wish he would succeed, im tired of seeing him broke. winning in poker should be so easy and the solution for everyones financial troubles. i will see him tonight when he returns to detroit after going car shopping. i can either go home, go to the airport up the street, or stick in this area living in the hotel. but i cant afford the uber fees.