Tuesday, February 13, 2018

I'm homosexual and i've got Aids, are u sure u want to sit next to me?

Well its been a long time since ive had any poker losses, and the bigger sized $4500 loss has been close to 2 weeks past now. But all good things must come to an end. i slowly started adding on to my stack in the nugget tonight, and i went from being up a bit less than $80 to losing the entire $168 i was in for. i rebought $300 and started straddling because i felt on tilt, and really i shouldnt have been ($168 isnt that much as many good days as i had had previously).

i dont think i played the $300 rebuy too well, and i lost it, then left to see if the El cortez still offered the VBJ.

turns out it did, and id almost got back the entire $500 on the VBJ, but then i lost the whole $2468 with the exception of $570. $2000 was what i had when i went to the el cortez from the nugget on me.

i went and sat at the gemtiles machine for an hour or 2 then and only lost about $21 in the whole time i was on it. which is odd it wasnt much more. i was getting tired, and i needed to go sleep so i could wake up this afternoon and move my things out of my hotel and into my hotel room in the nugget using my new suitcase. at least this morning it dont have to be done by 11am. but i just couldnt bring myself to get up as stuck as i was.

Then finally an old man went and sat down one seat over on a different type of machine with a goddamn cigarette. so i told him, "i'm homosexual and I've got Aids, are u sure u want to sit next to me?" then i just left because i sure cant play with his cigarette there. without him sitting down, i dont know what wouldve got me off that machine.

----this was actually typed up immediately following the session, but i felt it would be too early to post since the other blog had just come out. now tonight, i feel if i wait much longer it will be old news. im happy to say i did recover $100 in the nugget so now im at $17,500 but i was up $200 once. i do NOT want to have to commit to 2 more months, 5 weeks, or even 1 more month in vegas, so ill have no choice but to leave. and a motel for 2 weeks in los angeles is about 1100 even for a cheaper one thats not too unsafe.

only difference between today and last night is absolutely everything has now been moved out of the other hotel.

12 comments:

  1. I saw the post's title and thought you were finally coming out. Disappointed at the content. That's okay. When the time is right ...

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  2. "ill have no choice but to leave."

    Sigh. I'll never understand why you so frequently phrase things this way. You always have choices.

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    1. Tony, I absolutely agree with Rakewell on this. With your lifestyle, you have a hell of a lot more choices than other people committed to remaining in one place for long periods of time. If you leave, its not because you are forced to do so, you leave because you decided to go.

      Unfortunately in almost every case when you decide to go, it is as a result of a spur of the moment decision based on panic because of taking a huge loss on a vbj machine, slots or a bj table.

      You have proved time and time again that you are capable of making a comfortable living just grinding out 1 2 NL. Unfortunately you allow your demons to get to you and you crash and burn time after time. Despite all your friends and some enemies telling you to stick to poker, you just cannot help yourself. You have a serious gambling addiction, and until you accept this, you will never achieve anything in life. All your money will eventually disappear into a machine.

      Tony you have a choice to clean up your act, or continue as you are doing. If you choose the latter some day someone will find you lying in a gutter, dead.

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    2. Absofuckinlootly well said Koala! I will hold out hope that Tony has a come to Jesus moment in the desert with Lightning. Not necessarily starting a bush ablaze CTJ moment but something life-changing nonetheless....

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  3. This explains why you have not been with hardly amy women in the last 10 years

    Even my 400 pound, ugly friend can get dates

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    1. In Tony's defense, I think you have to be a member of the Amish sect to get a date with an Amy.

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  4. In summary, you got so tilted from losing $168.00, that you chased that loss to the tune of minus another $2000.00?

    It's pretty amazing that you've not fixed your tilt issue in the decade I've been following you, Tony. You are capable of change.

    s.i.

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    1. Ummmmmm.... like a glacier can changed its course if given enough time? I will say I find it positive that our Hero reads books outside his gambling time. It would be even more positive if our Hero would bail out of the casino when he is on tilt and go home and read instead of lighting a big chunk of his roll on fire.

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  5. Dude has panic disorder along with other issues, needs zoloft, depakote, and a host of other drugs...

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  6. No he does not need drugs. That is the last thing Tony needs. What is going to happen if he became dependant on those drugs? With Tony's mindset, gambling money is far more important than money for medicines. He would never buy medicines if it affects his roll. Then without the drugs to calm him, he would become far more dangerous than what he already is. Tony has survived most of his adult life without them, I fear it would be a horrible mistake to introduce him to them at this stage in his life. He gets by as it is, without doing any serious harm to others. The only person he really harms is himself. He knows this, but his gambling demons and lack of emotional control sometimes get the better of him and he panics.

    Those of us who know him well, try to talk him down from his anxiety highs and reason with him. Unfortunately because of his autism, and other factors in his past which were beyond his control, Tony has problems with accepting the norms of society. He has no verbal filter, and readily jumps from a topic in his threads to something else at the other end of the spectrum all in the same sentence. That is Tony.

    All we can do as non professional helpers to Tony, is to try and steer him in the right directions. Sure there are times when he drives us all crazy, and more than once he has got a good kick up the ass from one of us over his antics. I would venture to say, that these kicks up the ass were justified, and that in most cases Tony realizes why he got them. But that won't stop him from making those same mistakes again, and I really don't think medicines is the way to go as long as he is addicted to gambling.


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    1. He needs to start smoking weed. That'll calm him down.

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  7. tony bigcharles
    ‏ @sevencard2003
    4h4 hours ago

    Lost $3700 vbj at Hoover dam so I changed my mind about getting a room here. Taking uber to wynn to play PLO then a bus to California got $15,000 left
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    Outstanding Tony, just plain Brilliant.

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