out of houston and my new poker experiences now that im someone new and fresh

 why is it that over the long run it doesnt matter whether u play well or badly at poker and u are just as likely to win playing poorly as you are playing well? and the ONLY thing that really affects whether u win or lose is the CITY in which u are playing? why is it that whether i played BJ well or not never mattered and i was just as likely to win on a 6-5 vbj as i was to lose on a machine with an extra promotion attached that added enough to the payback to bring it up to about $100.25 or more back on every $100 ran thru it while i was in nevada last month?

why did i lose solidly the last 2 weeks i was in houston, every day for like 12 days in a row when ive never seen that happen once in the last few years of playing and never lost more than $900 at poker at any time for the overall month in the last 3 years? some years i had zero losing months when i used to keep good records before i lost the Iphone. and had i never had that iphone stolen from me in samstown las vegas a few years ago, id still be keeping accurate records on the iphone. 

never have i ever lost 3000 before (at poker i mean) in 2 weeks. i know i lost that and more all the time when i played games outside of poker, but not at the game im dependent on to survive. not in 30 years of daily playing. i wonder how astronomical the odds against this actually are? no wonder my nerves are shot and i say so many things i regret that make people hate me and me afraid to return to places i played 

its the once in a thousand years downswing others have talked about that only happens to 1 out of 10,000 people. i dont know how to handle it mental health wise because in my real life experience, its never happened. but to lose 3k right when ive returned from over 20k on video blackjack losses?

the only good news was i won over 4k the first two and a half weeks of that month before then, but still counting the money i spent on my airbnb while in houston, i didnt make a dime. 

why do lyft and uber drivers constantly report me for not wearing a mask when i make sure to always have one on, and worry anytime now ill have too many false reports and my service suspended? i think they lie because they dont like my attitude. (my uncomfortableness in being asked to rehash how shitty my days going by drivers who couldnt give a fuck how its going and just like to hear themselves talk their little script which they think will get them more tips) or maybe the drivers dont like me constantly complaining about how the gps is taking such a horrible route no one would ever use if driving normally without using gps. 

why do businesses do whatever they can to make their customers so angry it will lower their sales and make the client want nothing to do with you or your product? such as candy crush on facebook (which i ONLY play from my laptop, never my cell) always turning the music back on about every 5th time i log on no matter how many times ive permanently switched the music off in my settings. leave my damned setting the way i put them. 

why do tens of millions of people have to live out of motels or airbnb without any way to obtain housing because they have no proof of credit or income? we are rapidly running out of motel space in this country because of this, and because of Biden letting people en masse come across the mexican border into texas. remember how i said extended stay america in vegas, reno, and a lot of other cities has reached increases of over 100 percent a year in prices compared to a few years ago to unsustainable levels. and yet they claim the inflation rate is only a little over 5 percent what a lie. of course its being claimed by the same people who claim the vaccine is safe to take. so theres that. so many cities and smaller towns i cannot ever move to or visit because theres nowhere to get a hotel at a reasonable cost. Montana, Reno, and new hampshire are excellent examples of this. 

all those people coming into the US, the govt pays for them shelter in hotels so almost no motel space is left for those in need of housing and those traveling across country. all of them are being used up by illegals living there. 

and its all because liberal white women working in the poker industry as dealers or floorpeople or in their corporate offices and the poker news media who read my blog didnt want to vote for Trump because he reminded them of a guy who wanted to date them they werent physically attracted to. such bullshit. 

what is going to happen in this country when the military takes over as they did in australia and people are being shot in the streets for protesting (which theres millions of online videos). and every casino or business requires u to be vaccinnated to buy food or have a place to live, or even to walk into a hospital to receive medical care? let alone for being able to sit on a poker table. and all the left wing sheep who read this blog are just letting it happen. and then people wonder why im such a complete emotional wreck all stressed out. 

why wouldnt i be when prices keep going up and my roll is no longer at a point where it can no longer emotionally handle a loss of $200-300 since im down to my last 21k soon to be only about 19k once housing is paid up for a month again?

even though ive won all 3 days now since leaving Houston for good, i still arent winning nearly enough to live on. i need at least $200 a day to survive and not be on the streets, because if u make less than $73,000 a year in this country u are going to have a very hard time not worrying and obsessing over homelessness night and day til u mentally snap and end up in a mental health center. and as far as i know i dont think ive ever had a year where i won that much. im not sure because of the lack of good records. 

ive only won about 375 in the last 3 days which isnt nearly enough to grow a bankroll. i quit almost every time with the smallest possible wins out of fear of losing it back, and i feel like i cant afford to lose even 100 without it really emotionally upsetting me. 

the players are still all dicks, even though ive found better rules and structures in the cardrooms here than the cardrooms in houston. im no longer acting first in the sb on the button straddle, but i still have to deal with assholes daily who arent even fit to live and just like to flaunt their wealth by buying in way too deep and wont run it twice just to be a dick to the guy whose struggling to not have to rebuy another $100. the object isnt to bust the short stack dammit, its to bust the big stack who doesnt care and has plenty to reload. i feel like a lot of guys would gladly pay $500 just to take the short stacks $100 because they get a sick sadistic sexual thrill of causing those who are suffering emotionally mental anguish and pain. no one ever listened to the words of Jesus about having empathy and caring for others. but what can u expect from those who didnt vote trump? Trump was the only one in this country to ever have empathy and compassion for those who are marganilized and suffering such as the disabled and the poor. 

a guy today in a new poker room i visited, at first i got screwed by the dealer not getting seat change because they only had 2 seat change buttons and both were given out and i was number 3. and i was in the 9 seat next to the dealer and didnt see seat 3 get up and a new player sat there instantly and they said i was too late to ask to move because he already had his chips on the table. that wouldnt be the rule in most casinos ive played in. 

and then i had waited for the blinds to pass and the bomb pot to pass, and sat behind. and then i had to shove KK and suddenly had $117 instead of $100. and a few minutes later right after getting screwed out of the seat change, had JJ. 

so i shoved again and one guy with well over $800 said he was going to just gamble and called with A5 offsuit, then refused to run it twice because he was an asshole. reminds me so much of Joey sal.

flop comes KK5QQ and i lost my stack. got counterfeited on the river. was good til then. 

i got up and waited for the other table to start about 30 minutes later, but i figured it would in about 10 minutes. nope. 

everyone could see how mad i was though

now the first day i won the most. it was a little over 250 and it was in an all bomb pot cash game. i had over 650 when i quit the table and i wonder what wouldve happened had i stayed and played but im terrified of having more than 100-200 on the table. im not in a position to risk more than one percent at a time. 

its terrible to be a winning player lifetime of well over a million over 30 yrs and not be able to comfortably sit once u have more than 200 in front of me.

this is what blackjack and video poker losses and play will do to someone it will ruin their life and is why casinos are bad 

i pray to God theyre never legalized in the state of texas

so far ive visited 3 new poker rooms and theres another 10 in this part of the state ive yet to visit. i have no idea where ill find a place to live and what room it might be near. i might just fly on out of here but to where?

and then i also worry that my landlady on airbnb will give me a bad rating when she goes to clean the place tomorrow and sees i slept on the mattress and constantly ate crackers in bed. i wonder how to remove them from cracks in the mattress. and i hope i dont get blamed for the fact the sink never drained properly that i told her about. it was that way when i moved in. 

i cant get an airbnb here til i decide which poker room id rather be near and first ive got to visit a hell of a lot more rooms. some of them are a big uber ride away. ive wasted too much time playing near to where my hotel is. 

sinking faster than the titanic

 im not sure whats going on and ive never seen anything like it. makes me wonder if i did the right thing in coming back to texas from vegas. there is only 1 reason i still think i mightve done the right thing, and thats that the $2400 ive lost in the last 6-8 days i lost that and more in less than 1 hour at the pioneer in laughlin right before i left town. 

So maybe the fact im only playing poker without any way to play video blackjack or video poker or live blackjack is helping me lose the money just a little bit slower even if im not winning anything. i suppose things could always be worse even when emotionally it doesnt feel like they could be. 

when i used to live in texas, i never had a month where i didnt win at least 5-6k or more. and the first 5 days i was here in texas before Bill Potts left town for an unknown location (i still have no idea if he is in VA or NH or PA) all i know about Bill Potts is he wanted me to retweet his opinion that there should be another civil war, and the united states should be broken up into 2 parts. (which id rather not do).  i was up over $2500, and a week later i was up over $4000. now the month is up almost, and i have exactly the same $21,800 i had right before i paid for the airbnb which took me down to a little under the 20k. if i were able to renew the airbnb right now for another month at the same price, i would be again under 20k.

all the money i won in Houston was won on those first few days, beginning with the $884 i won the first night back and of course, never won again. a high hand for $500 had a large part to do with that. ive never won that again since. 

i am wondering if im so emotionally depressed about the losing i cant play my best. im afraid to go back to this one room after the scene i made when i walked out mad and after what i said to the guy working the floor. 

now ill grant u this, one of the reasons im losing is because some of these rooms are now taking a rake which is illegal of $3-15 depending on the pot and they werent doing this a year ago, but just membership and time fees. and remember i talked about how one or more of the places was doing it totally free for a while or at times only $5 per hour. 

so that could have caused my wins to decrease by $40 or more a day, but still, i dont think it accounts for nearly all. im either running bad, playing bad, the players have gotten better, or am not playing my best due to previous losses in vegas and since vegas depressing me, and knowing my airbnb is about up putting on additional stress. ill have to go back to living out of a motel to reduce the costs to about 1300 a month or less. im really going to miss a real kitchen, real living room, real bathroom and right now ive got 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms which of course i dont need anymore. im going to miss all kitchen supplies and miscellaneous things such as cleaning supplies, towels, etc. 

here are a few hands i played tonight. tell me if im playing poorly. 

one hand is omaha and its a game with 2 hands of omaha per orbit, the rest of the time its NL. i had AA35 single suited and didnt raise because im in the blinds and i dont believe in ever raising from those positions in omaha, and rarely in NL. some people are complete and total idiots or assholes who raise every time its limped around to their BB or straddle UTG. they dont understand how its not a good idea to bloat a pot then be forced to be first to act every round. 

flop comes 334 with 2 clubs and i have no clubs. i pot it and only 2 guys call. now granted, if i pot it preflop the loose asian guy ive played with all week long and often lost to, i dont think he will fold his 2467 with 3 clubs and one spade no matter what. 

turn comes 4, everyone checks. river comes 4. guy whose in the SB and first to act bets $25, which is maybe just under half the pot. i feel obligated to call, since only 1 hand beats me. then the asian guy makes it $175 and the bettor quickly folds, and then gets mad i was mad he made such a dumb bet, that he cant possibly win since he will get snap called every time hes beat and never get paid off when hes behind. but his $25 let the other eventual winner win a much larger pot and be able to make a much bigger bet. i had to call the first better i had him beat, but he thought i played it bad for calling the other guy and said not to blame his bet. 

and the asian guy shows the 267 before i called, and almost 100 percent of the time people do this its an attempt to get u to fold. i am always bluffing every time i show 1 card. but turns out he wasnt. arent people usually bluffing when they show 1?

now a bit later, at another table (i moved to an all NL table without any hands of omaha) i raise it preflop to $10 with AQ. a guy with a large stack makes it $20 and one other guy and me both call. what would u do in this spot? reraise? fold? i think i had somewhere between $125 and $200. 

flop comes 357 i check. he bets i fold. he shows J2. so i folded all the hands id won and called all the times a guy actually had the winner. no matter which table im at. how do u know who is bluffing and who isnt? this was a white guy, young, and id just recently moved to his table. 

another hand, another table, another day, i had JQ of diamonds and called a raise preflop. flop comes 852 all in diamonds. guy bets $25, guy goes allin for $225, i call, and then the bettor goes allin with K6 suited for $130 more. and i paid him off too. the loose dealer who went allin for $225 had the ace hi flush draw but missed.

another hand i got 33. i raised preflop tired of not being aggressive in late positon. a bit more than i shouldve to $30. flop comes 29T. i bet he calls, turn comes Q i quit the game when he bet. would u check the flop with 33 after making it $30 preflop in late position hoping to take down the blinds and limps?

i have TT and raise it preflop 2 callers. flop comes K65 we all check. turn comes 8. i bet only 1 caller, and i put him on a mid size pair, probably with a straight draw. well the 7 comes on the end, so what can i do but check and he bets big. i dont see how i can win so i fold, and then he shows A5. so i wouldve been good. 

im so tired of playing in houston and just want to go somewhere no one knows me. i know of other cities in texas hosting all bomb pot games or plo8 games instead of plo. and i think i should avoid plo til i get my run good back. no matter if the plo is where most of last years wins came from. maybe the plo players have got better. or maybe Ray is right and i play way too many double suited hands such as J779. Ray says TTQK with 3 of the same suit is a better hand than my double suited hand. 

and im getting really tired of playing where straddles are legal. and where i act first. that and people who constantly raise in the blinds. i try to see flops with KK27 double suited on the button, and then someone just burns off my chips making it $10 and then everyone calls. and no i cant pot it because it will not help they still all call and hit regardless of the fact they originally all tried to limp $3.

this isnt as much the case in NL so i think i should return to it. i have more moves there, but theres so much more people it seems bluff me, and every call i make im then shown the nuts. in omaha people usually have the nuts it seems because bluffing is pretty pointless in a game thats PL instead of NL. 

a few thoughts about poker and about long term housing

 even though im feeling fairly safe being on a high floor of an apt complex enclosed in a building locked behind a gated community, i often wish i could take time off to relax from poker, and get a very fancy big 2 story house (not an apartment, no matter how the nice the apartment is) or a place in a rural setting outside of town. But when i dont drive, nor have the ability to learn how to drive, its not easy. i did learn however how to search on airbnb by the state instead of by the city and i didnt realize at first this option even existed.

Bill Potts did say however he thought the bottom door lock could be picked by a credit card, but i dont see how. the top 2 locks on the door are fairly safe however, and without a main key to the building no one would ever be able to get into the elevators to even reach my floor. 

to get the prices on airbnb down to a more reasonable level, since most other cities in texas and the rest of the USA are much higher than Houston except for a few smaller holdouts, i wish they had a forum where u could state the type of place u were looking for and how much u were willing to pay. 

This place feels too big for me, now that im here by myself and no longer collecting $31 or $32 everyday from Bill Potts. and its still good for a little bit more than 2 weeks. 

hopefully i have enough food to last that long, so i wont need to make any Uber trips to a walmart store. i bought $134 the first trip with Bill Potts and $60 the 2nd trip so i think im good. 

its nice living in places with all kitchen supplies furnished instead of hotels. i was getting really sick of hotels in vegas and Laughlin after having been away from hotels when i was living in florida.

now ive got over $3300 cash more than i had when i arrived in Houston on august 26, which is almost 2 weeks ago. now of course a large portion of that went for airbnb, food, transportation etc, but most of that was not paid for with cash but out of my bank accounts balances.

so where did the cash come from? all of it from poker of course with the exception of a little bit of rental income. but its nice to be in the 22s instead of the 19s where i was when i first arrived once the airbnb was subtracted out of my roll. 

i guess that shows u how much money can be won playing poker and nothing but poker in texas. no machines, no blackjack, etc. and if i can win this much in less than 2 weeks with a roll of under 20k, imagine what could be won with a much higher sized roll.

picture a guy who buys in for $100 every time and plays 365 days a year and makes $36,500. but thats about all i can afford to sit with unless i get stuck. now that the roll is back over 20, i can sit with $200 if i want and still have 100 buyins so i can be a little more risk adverse than i really want to be. 

how can i be so horribly risky at blackjack and video blackjack yet take so little risk at poker? something just doesnt feel right with the way i do things. 

if i was buying in $300 (but i cant without at least 30k) i would average 300 a day, which is a little over 100k a year. and of course if i were rich like some of the local asians guys who buyin deep, i could make 1000 a day buying in 1000 every time i sit. most of these guys do. at least in the bigger cardroom. in the smaller room, most still dont buyin for 1000. its more rare. 

so a guy with a 10k roll can average 36500 a year in houston and a guy with 100k roll can average 365,000 a year in houston both playing the same game, $1-3 PLO or $1-3 round of each. or $1-3 NL with 1 hand of omaha per orbit. 

it really doesnt matter if u are a good player or not, Omaha is all luck according to Bill Potts and a smart guy wouldnt play nothing but holdem (his words, certainly not mine). the money u make in houston is not based on your skill level, but by how deep u buyin and this is why he left the area. that, and because he wants to make a difference in this world by fighting masks and vaccine mandates and by supporting libertarian candidates such as mike cherry in virginia who is running. he will be working full time for the libertarian party about 2 weeks a year. he never could handle the fact houston wont offer $5-10 NL holdem and only offers it for omaha. this is because he always makes the minimum buyin and to win money in houston u have to cover all the deepstacked 1-3 fish sitting with well more than 1000 in front of them

i often wonder how my life would be different had i taken far more risks at poker, instead of all the foolish risks on non poker activites just so i could gamble a lot higher to where i could make enough to get rich. i could easily have well over a million with an excellent credit rating since id never ruin it if i ever got an initial card. 

Bill Potts claims i have enough to buyin 500, because thats still 40 buyins, which he says should be enough, but unless im stuck $500 and desperate i hate having that much in front of me. it makes my decisions so much tougher. now earlier today i won a $575 pot that wouldve been well over $1000 had i not ran out of money on the flop with AAA in the PLO game. but i made over 300 for the day and im happy. without any possessions to sell, with no bitcoin to sell, nothing of value to my name, no car, no government assistance, no long term housing, im scared to death of sitting with more than i absolutely have to in front of me. 

and thats not how a winning player is supposed to feel, but i feel if i change anything at all, ill no longer win. imagine how angry i get now when i keep playing instead of hit and run to be on the safe side, and then give it all back. i feel like such a donkey when i dont hit and run, and also when i do. 

also, we need to be working on a way to convince lightning to visit houston.