Friday, April 25, 2014

Trip to KS--and how im feeling about it.

well for the first time in a long time (maybe cause i hadnt ate a real meal all day--just junk food) my tooth was feeling funny tonight. but now its ok, i took 1 aleve only instead of 2, and then i ate a meal in the coffee shop. shouldnt have wasted $78 last night taking a room at 7am here, but i didnt feel like wasting hours on multiple buses getting home.

and im so pissed. im way out in the middle of nowhere, on a dealers angels VBJ machine but it hits on soft 17 instead of standing, and im wonder if that would make it unbeatable. for the 25c an hour i might otherwise beat it for might be disappeared with this rule. also my chart isnt right for that rule, i would assume i need +4 or more to now be over 100% instead of +3 running count, maybe even plus 5.

ive not been winning, and i cut my max bets way down to 3 spots of $18, which i rarely bet. trying to avoid overbetting after the big drop the day before of over $500. no more $50 bets, thats for sure. but on good counts i lose most of my money because ive been told not to lower my bet then and when u lose a ton of hands in a row its horrible.

at one point tonight id got back about $200--and then i put it all back in again but $9 and then it got spent on food. im back in the $3700s again from about $3910.

so ive been talking to mom thinking about going home tomorrow, and she is arranging for roy to get me at the airport and is reassuring me i wont be forced to put out money for things i dont want to do while in ks. she is so controlling of mark (and me as a kid) i worry being made to spend money on things i dont want to. Josie knows what she is like, remember how she cleaned my apt while i was in vegas without my consent, then charged me a $100 fee since Mark found an adult mag hidden under the bed? if it wasnt for her religious beliefs, she would allow Mark to visit me instead--but she thinks vegas is sinful and dont care for los angeles either.

this is why i can only handle a weeks stay or 10 days at most--if i catch the plane home may 4, which is a lowest fare around. but that might go up if i dont book it now. and i dont think i have enough to go back to vegas to live--i think i should get off the plane then catch a bus into LA. because its the only way ill stop playing VBJ machines.

and as far as going to toledo--i dont have the money. the only reason i was going to visit my family in the first place was i thought id be going thru KS anyway on the way to toledo--u see i thought i was taking the amtrak from Kingman az (by way of laughlin) and i thought id be about $2000 better off.

none of this wouldve happened (big vbj losses i mean) had amtrak not screwed up by not telling the shuttle driver about my reservation--id been on the way to KS a long time ago. their screwup really made my life a lot worse, and my life will especially be worse when i get back from KS. i just hope ill still be over $3000 or i dont know how ill survive. ill need money desperately when i get back.

and although the plane is nicer and faster--i still worry the whole time im landing and taking off about crashes. not so much while in the air but definitely upon landing and takeoff.

i fully intended to not bother to go--when i took all my stuff out of my place in vegas 2 days early and walked 6 miles in the middle of the night to come here (almost getting hit by many tractor trailers in the dark)--but after talking to mom and Josie, i feel i should and i also feel like its Gods will i go and id be letting him down if i dont go and he would be very angry. and i should be getting to sleep now--i do have a ride to the airport i think--and i need to wake up in time to check out too. i think the plane leaves at 4.04 pm so i should be there by 2.30 or 3?

Monday, April 21, 2014

Easter Sunday services

i woke up about 12.30pm, and decided to attend an evening service instead of a morning one, and thinking id have to go on my own, i went looking for churches on spring mountain i thought would be nondenominational, and of decent size. i wanted to be where i could easily catch a bus from the wynn or V, where i guessed id probably go to play where id been doing good.

Found a church titled "lord of the harvest" which i figured would fit the bill, and then cooldave88 answered my twitter and told me he would take me, so we both attended services together. i was quite surprised to find out the church i chose was a Filipino only congregation, and we looked out of place im sure, but they were friendly, but all the music wasnt in English, so we understood none of it. also when the pastor spoke he only spoke in english half the time so we didnt understand that part too well either, but we could see they were devout.

i suggested maybe we should go elsewhere once i seen the church and how small it was but dave swore it would be in English and didnt want to look for another one starting at 7pm as close as it was to 7 then. a picture of the service is enclosed. notice all the words in a foreign language on the projector. is anyone here able to translate or know that language?

after the service dave and i drove over to the casino a ways out that Benny told us about with the dealers angels machine, but the rules sucked it hit the soft 17. comps arent that great, but not one person ever played it the whole 2 hours we were there, so i loved the machine. i won over $213 on it and im sure its beatable if u count it. dave won $80 and i heard it does give a lot of good mailers.

then dave dropped me off at the nugget, where i lost back all the win. also ran into a guy who knew who told me about another couple of promos, one involving $50 free play for using a certain ATM. the other was a coupon for $25 at a bar in north las vegas. but yeah i couldve been way up for the night, and now im stuck about $30 and dead tired. and i hope Benny waits til i wake up this afternoon to get in touch, and calls before he goes home to reno with his woman.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Tonights freeroll tourny at the Riverside in Laughlin

am checking out of my room at the pioneer now and boarding my amtrak shuttle, so i no longer have to worry about anyone finding out im in laughlin (and messing up my plans to travel to KS to spend it with family). been so worried about this the last 2 nights. a big part of the twitter feed the last few days was misleading, but of course the people i sent emails to knew the truth, at least most of it, but not quite everyone i emailed. But the lions share of the "inner circle"

and ill be glad to be in ALBQ tomorrow afternoon, arriving mid afternoon, deciding now where to book the room for a week where the shuttle still picks up at, and will basically do the deciding while on the train, as long as my cricket wireless is active.

Earlier today i wasnt mad, for i started off today winning $153 on the Pioneer VBJ (making up for last nights $174 loss on it) and of course, at Riverside Laughlin i won $142 in last nights omaha8 game too. I really enjoyed the movie though the food cost a lot more than the movie and am thinking i really should go way more often. The story and the message in the movie "Gods not dead" was quite powerful and i can get at least some of u to go watch it, i wonder what i should offer as an incentive to achieve this. Mom suggested i go and see it, and im sure glad i did.

But heres the story on the dammed tourny. there were 5 tables of us, and when it gets down to 10, thats when deals and chops become suggested, otherwise it pays 5 spots, $500 for 1st, down to only $50 for 5th. many weeks im told its chopped even money at 10 players $100 each, but certainly not nearly all. To be fair to all, i really love the way the chop works here because to avoid anyone being unneccessarily needled or pressured, they give everyone 2 cards face down, one with the word YES on it, and one with the word NO, so the vote is by secret ballet. everyone pushes the card of their choice to the dealer, and those cards are shuffled to avoid knowing whose is whose. the other cards are also pushed in face down and collected, and then the dealers turns over the cards to see if any say NO on then. ive never ever heard of any other casino doing it this way. a lot of what the riverside does is great, very good promos there.

its not entirely a freeroll, u have about 20% of everyone elses stack if u dont take the $15 addon, so of course everyone takes it. i worry often about busting out early on, but somehow i keep surviving and make it to the final table but had to start shoving quite a bit, i was so often down to very few BB always less than 10, sometimes by quite a bit. blinds double rapidly every 15 minutes. 300-600 etc are not used. 1k 2k, 2k 4k, 4k8k, etc. so they get really huge quickly making the later rounds total crapshoots.

and almost every time i had the worst hand, (or my opponent had the worst hand against me) the worst hand was winning every time.

now at the end, this one guy who had a sizeable lead earlier didnt have so much of a lead at the end, and one old guy with diamonds and a dog right inside the poker room, had a lot more chips than him. so once we hit 10 players, they first have a 10 min break, then the first vote. after each player is knocked out, they vote again. good system really.

so we go to take the first vote, and the chipleader is late coming back and they want to vote for him, but cannot, and soon he comes. sure enough theres one no vote and we all assume its got to be him, and he sure dont say or act like he votes yes. no one else says they voted no either. his rings are worth so much, he obv dont care about the money.

finally we get to 9 and vote again, still 1 no vote. im having to make weak shoves. by the time we get to 8, i have become the new chip leader. the guy in 3rd place (who really wants to chop) suggests that I and the original old man with the dog get $10 extra each from all, and he gets $5 extra, and the other 8 all get the other $150 each (minus the $25). of course im voting yes for that, being chipleader. and suddenly this time theres 2 no votes--cannot imagine where that 2nd vote came from, one of the players suspects its me--but damn sure wasnt me. i think the original guy from the earlier tables was the no vote that time--he clearly voted no later on at 6 players.

and i think the reason he now said no was he also had about the same amount of the other guy who wanted the extra $5 each, and thought it was unfair that guy gets $5 extra. but hell i just wanted out of there with something, id have gladly took an even money chop--but didnt want to appear too eager to take a raw end of a deal being chipleader. granted i was only at 60k next biggest stack was just over 40k and to show u what a crapshoot, i still had only 6 BB.

so later on 2 bust out (one at a time, with votes in between) not at once-- and we are at 6. now heres where things get interesting. i still suspect the guy with the dog was the same NO vote at 7 players. 5 of us get paid even if no chop, so this is the true bubble. im being forced to make many shoves, and starting to run poor, im down to 28k from 60k blinds 5k 10k and make 1 bad play shoving my 58 clubs (it won for me twice earlier) against a guy whose been folding way too much, and this time he has AQ and dont fold and i lost. so im suddenly down to 8 chips and cant make it thru the next BB.

so another old guy whose been wanting to chop in seat 1, he dont have enough to make it thru either, and UTG he shoves knowing he will be BB next and has enough for the BB, but then not enough left for his SB. (blinds just increased again to 10k 20k) the old man in seat 10 whose BB it is now, needs only about 4k more to call him, and its like a 50k pot preflop. if he calls, i have a shot to make the money cause the UTG guy might bust.

the guy folds (wtf???) and i am 100% sure the guy only folds to make sure i am the bubble (with only 8k left and blinds 10k-20k knowing ill be the BB 2 more hands. remember this is the guy whose been refusing the chop, (for the simple fact of wanting to deny me the money). even if he was offered $600 and everyone else take $50 each, he wont chop and thats more than first pays.

so im livid when sure enough, i bust out, (only one who bubbled). they didnt even vote at 6 handed, because by then the new chipleader (original old chipleader from many moons ago) now again swears he wont chop no matter what now that hes just won a ton of chips so he says not to pass the cards out. meaning i never get to see if there wouldve been 2 NO votes at 6.

all i can think of, as i leave the room to rush to mcd next door in the aquarius and to my room at the pioneer, is all the serious crimes id like to do to the old man, and the poker room staff. im way too wound up to do anything but come here and start typing away. how dare the old man hate the idea of me getting any money so much as to play the way he did and vote the way he did everytime just to make sure i dont get any of the money--even when im chipleader and wanting to just make sure i get something. i dont blame the new chipleader for not wanting to chop because he was pissed from before no chop when he then did want a chop, but this guy was just too much.

excellent example of the type of assholes guys can be when they have a lot of money (think hamsterdam) and why im not an asshole, when i have money is when i am trying very hard to be nice to others, and not all that much when i dont and need to just survive day to day. for others its the exact other way around, and this is very difficult for me to accept.
serious update--i missed my shuttle to amtrak, it was amtraks fault, i was 20 min early waited 90 minutes, it never showed, called amtrak and found out they forgot to tell the driver so he didnt stop because he was late thinking he wasnt picking anyone up. so amtrak refunded the entire thing at my insistence (normally its nonrefundable)

went back to the pioneer and slept all night. am now trying to get into vegas as soon as possible where i will see Benny whose enroute from reno now. booked a flight on allegiant to wichita for $86 on april 25th next fri  so i will now see mom 3 days SOONER so this is a good thing, plus its a lot cheaper. so i wont be in albq or dodge city now. just as well, this plan is a lot better.

one final and important update--i found transportation to vegas--which means i can now post the blog--that will make u happy. im now on hiway 95 headed north on a different companies $60 shuttle that left at 1pm, the last one of the day and i phoned at 12.52pm 8 minutes in time to let the driver know--so i got lucky otherwise id been stuck in laughlin

won $98 on the VBJ this morning at the pioneer, so overall i made about $75 off VBJ (and earned 4 nights comps which never got used)

Monday, April 14, 2014

why am i still here?

down to only $5400 after getting that bovada check even, and buying new phone and laptop batteries and the phone still works horrible and dies even with a new battery and charger, now im being told the charger might not be much good since it got bent. also i cant find any space on it and it keeps not updating applications it always insists on updating that i never use and cannot delete to free up space, because they come with the phone. about 90% of the memory is applications i cant delete and the remaining 10% is applications i desperately want and need, such as bravo live, etc. wish i knew more about tech savvy stuff.

and i lost over $400 today, mostly all on poker. lost $260 in the $1-3 at the wynn to start with. then went to the V, and lost over $200 more on the good VBJ and was stuck about $500. went to the bad VBJ machine (old binions and wynn kind that allows 7 hands at once and pays even money on BJ). there i won back all but $80 of the VBJ loss. played so long i got $15 in slot free play. went in the poker room and lost all day long, over $200 worth. then went back to the VBJ, and won back about $100 more on the BAD machine. why i won there when i shouldnt i dont know. played omaha8 for about 45 minutes and lost over $30 in it too.

a lot of the people playing at the V are regulars, but i imagine its that way in ANY poker room. People like a room, and it wins their business. and im down to $34 on UP, and im still counting that as part of my roll, unlike my $24 left on bovada.

still undecided how to leave vegas, where to go, and where to settle down to live cheap longer term. got to be where i feel safe of course, and where poker is available at the games i want to play and the buyins i want. Benny is coming into town this weekend for 3 days and i could possibly return to reno with him, if i was still around but id need to get another place to live.

i just dont update the blog often enough anymore--and none of the VBJ places were really suitable except for Jean as far as free rooms, empty tables without people around that much, and beatability. im sure theres places as dead in people as Jean and the river palms on the VBJ in the middle of the night, but who knows where that is.

One thing im really grateful for is my tooth hasnt bothered me too much--im really going to dread that someday. also it seems amtrak fares have increased, and bus fares too--the nice lux bus to la is $84 and its always sold out, unlike the much cheaper daily $25 and $30 ones. (megabus, mexican bus, gotobus and greyhound ones.) its $249 to KS tomorrow instead of the $158 one way of 3-4 months ago.

in a way id like to stay in vegas and rent a nice luxury place of $200-300 a week, but i fear id lose my cash on the VBJ if i did. id like Benny to teach me to beat the one he knows of, and id like a replacement of the one in Jean. the ones in Vegas now just arent cutting it. so im pretty sure the ones in Laughlin wouldnt either--they sure dont have the dealers angels kind. was also invited to appear on todd witteles radio show but didnt see how that would assist.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

todays PLO8 tourny at the Venetian

ill bet donkeytax is glad he didnt stake me in it, for i made it only to like 24th place out of 43. most of the money was lost on a flush draw and wheel draw, (down to 4k from 12k) and i was at most 18k early on when av stack size was 13k. blinds moved up very slowly, but i eventually was dying off at 3 BB, and i went allin and lost. i also paid my BB, and then the table immediately broke and i got a new seat in the BB again, when at only 8 BB so that sucked.

but i dont think i played it that bad, just didnt get lucky in key spots. i made one bad call paying off a full boat with a nut flush. and as usual, most of the win today came from VBJ. i was up $84 on it when i sat in the tourny, and then later made about $200 more on VBJ, and then lost back all of it. on the way back to my room to sleep, i spent $11+ at mc donalds for the first time in my life. guess thats what u call an expensive meal to treat myself.

new roll $5967 so im not down that much for the day (although i was over $6200 just a couple days ago). some of that went on things i needed, like batteries, shelter, food, etc. id be in so much worse shape were it not for over $1500 in VBJ wins in the past few weeks.

the only thing i need still before i leave town is the laptop battery im expecting by friday, and the bovada check that might not come til next week. then i can see my family (or go anywhere else).

the $300 i entered the tourny for is one of the most expensive tournies (not counting a couple HU events of NLO8 with yappy dave). in 25 yrs as a pro, thats unusual. and i think its my best game, i just didnt get any decent hands except one aa23 that doubled me to 18k from 9k early on. but it didnt cost me more than $140. i used $160 in comps for the rest. i was sad to miss out on the $2000 payout though for making the money. that would do a lot for my roll, and i thought i had a fair shot at it today.

must admit, i am not used to such long tournies though--maybe more experience in the past wouldve been good. i dont have the roll for $300 tournies either--and u know what? neither do most of those playing in the tourny. (roll is supposed to be $30k).

somehow my sleep schedule got messed up so im no longer sleeping the best hours--and i know im tired now and must sleep. now these are the hours most people sleep--but not for poker players--we shouldnt be sleeping now. and im down to $26 on bovada, took most of it out and lost over half the rest.

Friday, April 4, 2014

getting a few things taken care of thats been needing to get done

well i just got back to the house, and as usual, im playing online PLO8 while im eating a pizza that just got done in the microwave, while im updating the blog, dead tired and will sleep soon as this is taken care of. But of course, updating this blog is my primary responsibility i have in life.

So i went over to a store on rainbow planning to buy a laptop battery i was sure carried it, and they didnt have it. so i then went to another store on sahara, and they said they could order it for me and to pick it up in 5 business days, and they charged me $58 upfront which i paid. they also claimed that was less than most places would charge me-no idea if thats true.

So i still cant leave town yet (to keep me from playing VBJ) because of this wait--and the wait for that Permanent greendot visa to come in the mail carrying my name. im still doing quite well on the VBJ too--made another $180 today. also won both poker sessions, $185 at the V in the $1-2 and $228 at the stratosphere in the $1-2. have had almost zero losing sessions or days in the last few weeks. I was out like $400 or more on the VBJ at one point however.

and so id have less cash to help make sure i had no big loss, i went by the bank, gave them my correct address (instead of the gold strikes address theyd been using) and deposited $800.

my tooth isnt bugging me lately but of course it will still need done soon as i figure out who i want as the dentist sometime. just odd it dont bug me when i did so much a couple weeks ago. ive been avoiding sugar and cold ice though.

at a point last night--had bovada been included as part of my roll (which it cant of course) but if it had, my roll wouldve been around $6000. not bad considering where it was most of last year. and its nice to have a new phone again (my old smartphone is active again). but i think i got a bum charger--it charges at home--but wouldnt charge on the table at the V no matter which outlet i used and the battery dies extremely rapidly on playing any type of game on the cell, even if plugged in. i think it needs another new battery, and i need to take that into a store and have them look at it and find out whats wrong. its a $300 phone, or was when i bought it, i could probably get a bunch of money if i sold it on ebay, and i dont want it to have to be replaced. paid $15 just the day before for that bum charger too.

im curious to know--when am i ever going to start losing on the $1-2 NL, and on the VBJ? i am starting to lose on bovada--im down about $22 while typing up this blog post. usually im buying in $200 and playing 9 max $1-2 PLO8, but often thats not a game going with a seat open. (if its going, its full)

all the women i wish i had in my life, most all of them are on the bus, or walking down the street by a bus stop. wouldve liked to have taken pictures for u of 3 different ones today.

so what else should i get done besides seeing a dentist that is? ill have a working phone, working charger and working laptop on the bus soon i think. and no i havent given any women any money i feel like all the money needs to be stockpiled for massive losses that might be coming in the near future--and maybe a small portion of this should go for tourneys. to play daily $300 survivor ones ud need a massive roll of at least $15k. and id still like to relocate elsewhere.