Friday, December 27, 2013


am eating in the burger bar next to the V pokerroom, for $15 just for a burger and fries--severly overpriced--not even all that big--but i paid with part of the $71 in comps i discovered i had. using comps for tourny buyins would be far more wise.

i was stuck $340 on the VBJ before i left Jean, and i guess i shouldnt have came up here with Benny, and ill really be screwed if he dont bring me back to Jean later--for all my things are still in Jean. and i never checked out of my room and its still good til tomorrow.

i just wanted to do something else, but i wouldve lost quite a bit less had i not raised my bets way up trying to get unstuck.

now my roll is down to only $2392. thats awful. and it will be less, just found out they dont take the tax off here when paying with comps like they do everywhere else. actually i think its illegal to charge tax when using comps--so i could call gaming if i wanted to make a scene.

there goes me having enough money to make a go of it in Biloxi

anyway--the hand i wanted to post. I bought in $100, and had just won a pot a hand earlier i was still counting, and turns out id just got my chips up to $220, and shouldve quit, but i was doing ok, in a fairly tight game with lots of regulars, and needed to win more. Ah, greed.

so a guy makes it $12, the one loose kid makes it $50 after another guy calls, and the 2 guys on my left been talking nonstop how the kid is always trying to make moves with nothing, and theyre right. so i shove, the asian guy calls, and the loose kid folds after his $50 raise.

asian guy calls so fast i worry im behind, but no, he has JJ and beat me on the river. had i won the pot, theres the entire $340 back i lost in jean. so i rebuy $115 and lost that an hour or so later when i had KK preflop and the tightest guy reraised me allin preflop with AA. the 2nd decision was bad, but the first decision i did all i could do (got the money in preflop with the best of it)

But still, the games here are horrible--and seems the only solution if i want to win is to return to los angelos immediately. right?

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

PLO/8 tourny at GVR

After dropping my $3400 roll to the $2100s briefly since returning to vegas from cali and Jean, the split in the freeroll at LVH, the wins at the stratosphere, Wynn, and the nugget, i was up to over $3000 again when i took the room at samstown sunday night for one day.

When i woke up about 7am, i played $1-5 stud downstairs, but the rake, $2 jackpot, and ante is so high in that game combined that i cant seem to ever win in it, and i was down $90 by the time the $2-6 holdem finally started up about 1.45pm. i should never play the stud there really.

Vince didnt make it by til a little after 5pm, but by the time he arrived, id gotten back all of the loss but $40. we went and got some food, and then went over to GVR to play the PL0/8 tourny on mon nights ive never had a chance to play and the $45 on his buyin was his Christmas gift from me. he busted out early (shouldnt stake people in games they dont play much--he thought a35k was worth betting on a 3 person flop of 447 when they both checked to him--and he also thought he had a nut flush draw when he didnt).

i doubled up more than that early on, and by the time we got down to 10 players, i was the chip leader with 22,900. the total prize pool was 736. and it paid 3 spots only. but then i started dwindling down and at one point had less than 4 BB. eventually we chopped 5 ways, $200 to the chip leader $125 each for everyone else, so i got our buyins back thank God, keeping me barely over 3000.

By then Vince was too tired to drive over to Jean, so he gave me 1 free night at his house. im in the room Jim and his gf used to live in, and Anne is also living there with Vince along with her dog, whose quite friendly being a pit bull terrier, i dont see how he could bite a soul, and i never thought it was possible for these dogs to be friendly but he was licking my face.

anyway, after i was lying down in that room to sleep with 2 blankets and a sleeping bag, (there no more bed in there) the floor seemed wet, and i was unsure why, i moved over to the other side of the room, where its dry, figuring its just water somehow. kind of smelled mildewish and i figured id point it out to vince the next day. then later when i went to the bathroom, the dog follows me back into the room from where it was sleeping on the couch with anne, and i would swear he was sitting in a really odd way, and i think i saw it use the bathroom, for there was a new spot that was wet. Vince really needs to be told about this but not in front of Anne, im sure she wouldnt believe it. i dont think im seeing things, and i have no other explanation how the floor got wet. id have woke him up, but i doubt he would believe it.

so its just as well i try to find my own place to live, either in Jean, or take that $150 flight to biloxi on dec 28 if it dont sell out. But i still dont think i have enough to travel with, to Ks, cali, biloxi or somewhere else.

i do need to stick to NL though (or that gvr tourny) and find loose action games--i learned that while in cali

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

now everyone will understand why i belong in Jean or CA instead of vegas

not only did i blow way too much at Palace station on VP (which i then won back later on the VBJ at slots of fun, today i blew way too much at slots of fun betting way too high on the same VBJ (once i got stuck i bet about $250 on one round of bets, which lost) and my new roll is down to $2900 now, and i still need to send mom and son their Christmas, king of donks even sent me a text reminding me of this. too bad neither of them has a paypal, it makes sending cash a pain in the ass. i see ads for $1 WU, but there isnt a WU anymore in Lyons, the closest one is 9 miles away and my mom would be pissed if i did that instead of mailing a check.

the morning started off badly, (had $3443) and i went to use my riviera coupon book on the way to slots of fun when i woke up about 6am. lost BOTH the $10 BJ match play, and the $25 BJ match play so walked out of there pissed, (still with way too much cash on me--$882--even after the $1200 deposit in cali--due to wins since leaving cali). and by the time i quit playing the VBJ at slots of fun, i was down to $372 in cash. seems all my problems stem from having too much cash on me at times. but im sure not spending a ton of money to go to a bank before i play in a cab, and then not having enough for doubles and splits, nor am i leaving it in the hotel room i was checking out of. not really a good solution unless u have a long term place to live no other person lives but u. in commerce theres an excellent solution, ur money is at the cage which is an easy walk from ur table. but in vegas they do that for hotel guests only and i have to constantly change casinos for 1 day at a time because if u stay 2 nights instead of 1, u only get the coupon book once.

but yeah in Jean the VBJ gives MUCH better odds and payback and rules than the one at slots of fun here in vegas, even though slots of fun can pass 100% i think. difference being i think the one here in vegas needs the comps to make it plus EV and Jean can be plus EV without the 1% comps.

and the loss was made so much worse by the huge bet on the final hand. one piece of good news, if i am still around vegas in jan and feb, i have $75 more in free play coming for both of those 2 months. Thats if i dont go to Biloxi for the promo. or back to commerce where hopefully i can still win at the same rate i was, although some think i just ran really above average both trips. i seriously wouldnt know without making 100 more trips.

so how am i supposed to survive in vegas with only $2900 unless i move back into Vinces, which of course he would let me do, with a new price of $75 a week instead of $70.

Herbie thinks i should do the LVH freeroll this week, there will only be 6-7 of us splitting up $2500 and its chopped without playing any time less than 20 qualify. but do i have time, and will enough show up for there to be a game? its pretty dead over there. ill be there at noon today, and hopefully others show up too. otherwise if no game i cant get the hours in and i fear once they get their hours there will be no game all day friday, and i really need to include friday to make it. freeroll is 11am saturday.

maybe one of u will come qualify seeing its $20 hour (with double hours +EV) but we have to keep the game going. at night its easier to get it going sometimes, more tourists. id hate to get slightly under 24 hours, then not be a game to get the remainder of the time in. 25 hours wins u the minimum, 30 hours for the maximum. i got between 6-7 hours last night. Mark would certainly appreciate it if readers showed up. i found out i had $39 in food comps there too, so i can eat a few cheap meals.

im sick enough i missed out on the stations freeroll, that wouldve been easy money and i was about 8 hours short. potential of really big money if u do well in that tourny.

lets hope the hot water works in the shower here. i never could get it to work at the riveira, and didnt test it at palace. and i wish id made one final attempt to go back by that motel near commerce i left the bags just in case my stuff was still there before i left. my mother told me i was about at the bottom in judgement according to the mental health doctors as a teenager. and thats my worst subject. my highest was in my other type of intelligence.

yeah i wish id used the $3400 roll for poker, id like to know how id done with the higher roll. i told lightning i was going to the wynn, but instead im in my room on bovada. im worried $2900 isnt enough for $1-2 and $1-3 NL in vegas, but it seems its what im playing anyway. certainly isnt enough to travel to KS NOW. but later in the year works out better.

nor am i worried about NewYearsEve. ill either go to Jean, cali or stay at vinces a few days.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

on the one bus, a guy threw up all over the bus, and on a different bus, going to a casino, the people running the trip had one person say a prayer in spanish, and another person say the prayer in English.

yeah the other day, after leaving the commerce and heading to my motel in Whittier CA, a guy with his wife girlfriend or whatever, across the aisle from me, threw up all over the floor of the bus and then they both got right off. odd lightning never mentioned this since i sent him a text about it. he immediately laid down on the grass outside, seemed sick but no idea why. (drugs, drinking or something else?) a woman at the front of the bus got a newspaper and the driver used it to cover the floor, no idea how soon they took the bus out of service, i got off about 2 more miles up at my stop.

And tonight, on the bus into Jean NV, they said a prayer God would bless the driver and keep him safe and get us there safely in Spanish, and again in English when the black lady took over the microphone from the drivers wife. the black lady (same lady who panhandled me for $5 that one day by the way) used the words our heavenly father and ended it with in Jesus name, (the way the Bible teaches u to pray) and which Obama has ordered our military Chaplains not to say. Lots of them have refused his order as a matter of conscience, and have lost their jobs over it--and the same for not performing gay marriages. This is because obama is true to his muslim faith, and thinks a pedofile (Mohammed--who raped and married a 9 yr old girl) is equal to Jesus, and finds the use of Jesus name "discrimination".

if people would quit listening to liberal news sites, and go to sites such as worldnetdaily theyd learn the truth to whats going on in the world.

anyway i felt so good the other day when i made over $500 in one day, and was up to $3510. (i felt like i should stay in cali and could afford the higher weekly cost of living). but the next morning, soon as i checked out of my motel and sat in the $6-12 stud at about 6am, i lost $200 rapidly, --i do not have the bankroll for that game no matter how bad the others are-- and $92 more in $40 NL earlier. so being out $292, after about a 30 minute break on the computer, i moved to $4-8 omaha. but it wasnt as loose as it normally is, and i lost a bit over $100 more in that too. so i changed my mind about staying in cali, managed to get a seat on the bus to Jean, (and being near a window luckily actually fell asleep on it) got to Jean, took my 2 free nights, and ive also got $57 in unused comps too. since arriving ive won back $108 on the VBJ, making new roll $3171.

before i got on the bus i deposited $1200 at the bank of america to be safe, so $2598 on my money is in the bank instead of in cash. but i didnt feel all that safe once the bank was closed and i had to do it outside especially with lines of people at the 3 atm machines but there were a lot of people around, so i wasnt robbed when i yanked the money out of my shoe and stuck it in the deposit atm. id much preferred the inside of the bank to be open, or it been a far better neighborhood than east LA.

the reason i had that much cash was i emptied my acct at the cage in the commerce to not have it left behind in cali.

when i got to Jean, i got quite disappointed no more letters from Carmen, unless of course she sent one and it got sent back.  did i say anything to upset her? she seemed happy in the first letter. Hard to find a good woman. AKgals friend michelle dont like me either, as far as getting to know me in person. i miss claudia, and wish she had been serious about wanting to get to know me better instead of just playing around. i feel so bitter and jealous everytime i think of Claudia and hamsterdam having sex. i wonder if carmen was upset i said vince didnt want her to know his address, but i explained how vince was in the wrong about this. so i stood up for her, even told her i was looking forward to us hanging out once shes out.

makes no sense she would want to stay at the prison voluntarily waffles said she couldve got out sooner, but didnt want to. ??? if she isnt interested in hanging out, wish she would find me a girl in there whod love to keep me company once shes released.

and if people smoke, wtf dont they carry a lighter instead of asking guys who dont smoke all the time if they have a lighter. i shouldve told the guy id buy him a lighter if he let me fuck his woman. its quite annoying and its so hard not to go off on people who do such dumb things, and want favors all the time when their life is far better than urs. they shouldnt ask. at least that guy had someone to love him. i guess im bitter ive not been married 20 yrs ago. sure missed out on a lot in life.

and i no longer feel like this 3100 is anything to live on. sure dont feel its enough for housing, or to play poker in vegas. games in vegas are so bad, unless im just playing in the wrong games. the guys in cali said almost ANY state has better action in the games than vegas does. ill bet thats true too. nor is it enough to travel to moms for christmas like she and others are saying i should. too stressful. i think once im back over 10k ill be relaxed though, and have certainly learned a lot about how i mismanaged it in the past. i keep refining and improving my VBJ betting methods too.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

making the right decisions? yes or no

too bad i didnt spend most of my life here in los angeles, away from machines, away from tougher players and tougher $1 2 games, i wonder how high my money would be now had the vast majority of my time been spent here instead of NV?

After taking a room for a week yesterday I was down to $3017, and after eating at Burger King, (where i walked after making the ATM deposit) and paying my cab here, i had $2990 left. lost 2 buyins for $98 total at $1-2 $40 buyin NL and thought i was finally going to have my first ever loss at the commerce. I decided to move to Omaha, and was pretty card dead but man were the pots awful huge and the players very weak. at the lowest point i was stuck $122. but i managed to get off that game with a new roll of $3025.

I think the reason im doing well this time not having any losses is my game selection has improved, and instead of playing the FUN games (think plo8, stud, and higher buyin NL) im playing the games i do best in instead. For isnt that the only real reason for playing is to increase my roll --and in turn my circumstances? it sure isnt to have fun or for enjoyment. Fun and enjoyment is what u do with the money when all is said and done, its not for the tables or while u play. Not if u want to be successful. we can all agree on that, right?

so my better decisions is why im still over $600 better off than when i left Jean, despite having spent over $500 since coming here this first week. (and maybe a little bit of luck)

i probably shouldve just taken the original hotel i abondoned the bags at, its closer by far. and theres also better motels i found more convenient to the bus with fridges and microwaves for no more than im paying now. in fact the place i took yesterday i originally thought was convenient to my bus, but i looked at the map wrong and found it wasnt. paid $17.85 plus tip to get there for $20 cab fare, every trip at that, so when i got into my room and turned the heater on full blast, i looked up online google transit (which ive come to depend on for bus schedules thanks to Britni) and it was showing NO BUS in the area at all, and said to drive or taxi 4-5 miles away to get the bus, and im thinking WTF? cause im still in a pretty populated major suburb not far away. so i sent out a few emails to my most trusted advisers.

turns out i was wrong, or actually, google transit was wrong. there is a bus 3 blocks from me, on a major street, and i can use it to get to the commerce or transfer to another bus even though its not the closest or the most preferrred bus. its run by a TOTALLY DIFFERENT bus company, and is why it dont show up on google transit but has its own website. Herbie told me this isnt the first time things dont show up on google transit. so i looked up their schedule, downloaded it and its only showing weekdays. now granted i did this from my phone and NOT my laptop, but then why was there a bus today?

i paid for a cab anyway cause i thought it might only be 1 an hour, but it seems like every 30 minutes, looking at the schedule but i have no idea if theres one this sunday morning since its not on google transit. and their site says weekdays. maybe that means everyday i dont know. yeah i seen a bus leaving just as i was crossing the street, so i think wasting todays $20 on a cab mightve been dumb. cant expect to win $200 every night. tonights been the worst night yet and im not quite done playing yet.

and i still could really use a better battery too, and i sent KOD a message, but he hasnt returned my text yet. and i havent even looked at emails yet, i simply went to create and type up a new blog before i did anything else.

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

it would probably be a good idea to never leave cali to go back into Vegas, or anywhere else for that matter.

why? because as long as i dont leave the los angelos area, i cant ever lose any money on any machines. i'm doing ok here, won $132 on day 1, won $63 on day 2, and $72 on day 3. (although $39 of tonights win came from a mixture of stud and omaha8, so my $40 NL results are now not so clear). thats still more than i would make if i had any other type of income or employment so of course poker is what i should be spending my time doing. still have not played the new $100-300 PLO/plo8 mix, i just cant bring myself to risk buying in for the $100 min in that game with such a small roll. (unless i was stuck a lot more than that, then i might be able to justify it).

i'm probably making an err not finding a weekly motel near Hollywood park, since that bus runs all the time, and theres a lot of motels on that main road. simply because of the AA $100 24 hour promo im told they have. i have a hard time believing thats true, and if true, its cost me between $60-70 one time so far. where i folded aa postflop but wouldnt have if the promo was going. id have lost over $30+ i had in front of me and got $100 back. Id also have to lift the old ban for hiding out in the raceway asleep upstairs, but thats been over 5 yrs ago probably longer, and wasnt for any behavioral issues. im sure most people have not been barred for far less.

i think i got barred since i wasnt a known regular customer, and they thought i was some bum, also theyd spent some time looking for me on another floor too. But they did mention at the time i could talk to someone after one year had passed.

i think i might be missing out on about $200 a week not doing that promotion. so it would be worth trying. also it would be nice to have a room of my own too.

The main thing is to be where i can find the easiest games, (to spend all my time in those games playing) and to play my best in those games. and i feel this is much easier in cali than in vegas, and i feel i mightve wasted a lot of years of my life by being in vegas instead. not so sure that was a wise choice, i should probably try to remain in the area and save up 10k or so. its too bad WEC dont read this blog anymore, he could probably give advice on this. in the same light, going up to WA would probably be a poor idea too, especially since pokerdogg aint been around and i dont know how to reach him. why is it a bad idea? because i think the games would be 100x tougher to win in, more like vegas. and for that matter i guess that would also rule out living in reno.

but what about fresno or sac? or are those games much tougher than the commerce area? and are the games in pechanga any different than commerce? truthfully i dont have enough LA experience to know. even if i returned to vegas or Jean, id still feel like i made progress because the last time i returned to Jean and Vegas from cali, i had LESS. about $600-700 less. i dont even know if the games at places like Barona are different than LA, since i wasnt playing $40 NL while in san diego, being much more broke at the time.

i am a bit afraid of leaving the commerce, due to not knowing where id sleep i sure dont want to have to fall asleep outside again, and besides at the commerce my cash is always behind the cage so i feel safe, never having to have any cash on me once i leave the casino. i dread leaving the LA area for good and carrying it all with me when i do.

and i took my 33 chips off seals and sent $36 to my bank it should arrive within a day or so. i have 4 chips left there, one buyin only. but i still have $20+ on bovada. have not been playing online at all lately since leaving Jean.

Sunday, December 1, 2013

I'd be a lot better off financially had i listened to Herbies advice last night

Won a $500 drawing over the weekend, got my $495 withdrawal on Bovada by WU a lot quicker than expected, and yet i still have a roll of only $2282. thats awful, with both those 2 things i shouldve been very close to $3000.

But of course i went partners with Herbie on the drawing, (reducing my share to $230)--and then lost multiple sessions of VBJ, plus we went to GVR with $315 and i came back with $73 after buying a little food and paying him for gas. the poker games there are normally good $1-2 games but i sure couldnt get anything that night and the table wasnt as good that day either. And i still dont quite have the 50 hours i need before dec 15 for the Jan 15 freeroll.

And i have little left online either now, just $26 on Bovada, and 33 chips on seals, which at $1100 a bitcoin are worth about $36. im wondering if i should sell and take it, nothing is backing it up and bitcoin is as valuable as GOLD.

and ill be due a big net and phone bill of $30-40 each within a day or two.

Herbie said i should be in vegas playing poker instead of in Jean, and offered to let me ride back to vegas FREE and drop me off at Vinces and i decided against it, mainly since i still had $2546, felt that enough to work with, and wanted to check the mail monday for a letter from Carmen again. of course, that night i lost $150 on the VBJ again, and u notice the new roll as of now after paying for a tour bus, this ride, misc expenses etc. I do NOT think i made the right decision in deciding against it.

So im on the bus and while on the bus i get a little worried of being robbed, the ONLY seat not taken is in the very back of the bus, surrounded by blacks, mostly women, all the older asians and mexicans are up near the front. no white people at all on the bus, maybe 1-2. this one black lady whose a regular who said she helps host the bus got me on, talked to the driver and owner and paid $25 for a ride into LA. (of course its also the same black lady who panhandled a few bucks off me before too when broke, or possibly her friend) i think its her sister. But the guy i was sitting next to was an older black guy off his medication who got into some argument with security and i was sure glad to not be on that bus any more, was worried about him pulling out a knife or something and thinking this white guy will sure be an easy target to rob. of course had he done so, the other passangers wouldnt have cared since i was white and felt me being white id deserved it. so i was extremely paranoid on the bus the whole way.

so paranoid that in fact when he stopped in barstow for a 30 minute break i couldnt stand being on the bus no more and was going to go up the street get a motel room, and later catch a train since barstow has an amtrak station plus buses. just to be away and to feel FREE of all these goddamn bags. herbie said to get rid of those bags and not be carrying them around and why do i need pots and pans, but someday ill have an apt again. so yeah i had 3 bags under the bus, and i was going to just leave them and be a free man. instead the bus was still there about 15 min later (after the 30 min break ended trying to figure out where i was) and i changed my mind last minute and ran to get on it claiming i was looking for wifi across the street and had been mistaken on the departure time. was i ever relieved once i reached Atlantic and Pomona and got off the bus safely. and carrying these damned bags to this hotel was a real pain, especially crossing the bridge. had to leave 1 behind and come back for it later. and i wont have anywhere to put these bags when i leave. at most ill be able to store 1 at commerce if that, i dont know on that.

i really didnt have the money to abandon the bus, but with $2300 left i still felt a lot richer than i really am considering how little money i survived on in cali the previous trip. and i thought it might save me being robbed of $1000. its too bad racism exists, if black racism did not exist, i wouldnt have had to fear my safety. But we can never get rid of racism til we first get rid of all the racists, those who hate whites and were taught to hate them from birth. and they carry out that hate by voting democrat and playing the knockout game, which the media tries to pretend dont exist.

now i feel its dumb to pay $350 for a week so i refused, $70 for a day is dumb too but i need sleep before i play at the commerce, and tomorrow ill just start using the spa. or take the bus into reno, sac, or vegas. i should just go home to KS. i dont feel i treat my family right, but i dont feel too guilty because i know i dont have the money to treat them right so i dont feel i should go til im in far better shape--that way i wont be a burden on them. i dont like being around people. id like to be around a woman whod love me, but dont want to be around others im not really close to. just those i can relate to.