Monday, July 24, 2017

u cant win if u play in the wynn

     Sitting at home cooking food and eating it up in preparation to finish up and be ready to move out of town on the 28th of July. I thought i might wish to remain in town longer since i now have a safe deposit box, but its just too damned difficult to win in the Encore poker room. im not sure why but this is a common opinion among most players of the wynn being more difficult. they do have loose foreignors coming in dumping off $500 or so in the $1-3 but for some reason its not easy like the $1-3 NL in shreveport is. most of the same players u recognize everyday. at first i was winning in there, then 3 days all in a row i lost over $350, over $625 and over $800. so today i went back to the nugget.

it didnt work too well, i never got up more than $1, and eventually lost $181. no one bought in over $300 on the front table, (very unusual) and i left to go play BJ in the golden gate. considering i lost over $750 in the nugget live BJ table the day before, i know the golden gate offers the better BJ game if u count as opposed to playing basic strategy.

none of the BJ tables were empty, (wrong time of day) but the closest table to being empty was $10 instead of $5 and contained only 1 young black girl betting $25, with another immodestly dressed black girl beside her and it was obvious they were a gay couple. and that they both were rich. now normally i wouldnt play here, (although RobVP would). she also smoked, but at least she sat in the end seat and not a middle seat, giving u the chance to sit far from her. and always betting the annoying sucker side bet (which means u win if the dealer has an ace--side bet, not your hand) plus other possibilities. i dont like bets which cause the players to root for the dealer to get BJ or any card other than 5 or 6. im rooting for the dealer to have 5 or 6 up every single hand.

Plus she took her double downs face down every time, which is unfriendly to the other players also, because it deprives them of info to help them play correctly. she misplayed lots of hands one which caused the dealer to not bust, but as soon as i went to 2 spots, then when she lost she told the girl with her, "this is why i like to play by myself". i told her how much i preferred this too, but its the only game which wasnt crowded.

like my going to 2 spots would be the sole reason shes not winning. lucky for me when i got my bet up to 2 hands of $150 i finally won both and when i left to return to the nugget poker room, i was no longer down $181, but up $33.

ended up in the same game and the drunk on my left was gathering a huge pile, cracking people with JK suited for huge pots just like he did right before i left. he had well over $700. earlier no one had much over $300. i bought in $120, and soon had it up to $505. shouldve left then but i didnt til it dropped to $349, but i then wised up and quit. i should do laundry too but im tired and dont feel up to it. 3 shirts left.

yesterday i built up the right image by making it $125 preflop with 7-2 off (showed it) and picked up 4-5 peoples $15 preflop raise or call. but i couldnt get it to pay off for me. i lost BIG yesterday. my hourly is $8 this month, early on it was $22. last month the hourly was $15. this entire yaer the hourly is $10 only.


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

ending your session early

    When u are up a much bigger day's pay than normal, this is when its the most difficult to play your best (if most of the other players have u covered that is). and when u are stuck, its alot easier to play your best because then u will have "no fear" by this i mean, u wont be afraid to take risks by shoving (u might even take some foolheardy and desperate risks.) u wont be folding winners. but if u are up, u might make some very bad folds, worried of losing back the entire stack. or at least the win, and it will seriously upset u emotionally.

now when im up, but only like $50-125, usually i want to keep playing if its early in the session, but not if its going on over 8 hours. but when im up significantly, (say close to $500) i cant play well.

tonight in the nugget, about 4 hours in and after a recent table change to where the stacks were bigger, i won a pot with JJ i thought about folding due to his reraise preflop over my $15 raise to $60, then continued to bet $80 on a flop with 2 hearts when my JJ was an overpair. 10 comes on turn, ive still got an overpair. he puts me in for my other $140 or so and misses his ak of hearts so i win a nice pot. then u see, i wasnt up much before this hand so i didnt fear so much losing my stack.

once this hand ended, and i had well over $700, (when i won 1 more pot soon thereafter) i then folded AK preflop to a raise and reraise from the big stack, who had ak too where id split the pot. so i left. took the $2 CX bus to the wynn right outside Binions, one of my favorite city buses. on the way thru wynn into encore noticed some 1c weird baccarat machine i figured id investigate later id never seen.

then i took a seat in the $1-3 NL and soon had turned $115 into $378. then comes a hand where a loose foreignor reraises to $42 some other guys $15 bet. i shoved with QQ when i thought of folding but i had him covered by close to $80. only he calls and the board comes 9TJ99. i show QQ, hoping to not see aa or kk then he shows me J9 of spades. wtf?

so i dont feel like playing no more and cash out, nice to still be up from the nugget. on the way out i go thru the wynn, and lose over $150 in the VB machine. turns out the min bet on the 1c VB is $6. wtf? it plays 3 baccarat hands but is basically a slot with weird bonuses and u often lose partial bets even if u win 2 of the 3 hands. not like i expected at all. never playing it again.

they do have $10 UTHE there unlike the $15 min in encore if i ever feel like a table game next time.

hope this was helpful when showing when its a good idea not to put in enough hours everytime.


Sunday, July 16, 2017

explaining my twitter comments

well my time in vegas will soon come to an end, hard to believe most of the 5 weeks are gone already. lightning has came and gone, and Koala is still here for a brief while longer. when he first came to town, we played much more poker together than he is doing now. i still sleep weird hours much different from day to day, plus i always need to leave the game immediately if im giving back too much of a decent win. been playing more in the wynn lately, since i got me a safety deposit box. and im glad im back to being just over $18,000. nice to no longer need to carry cash on me. im home now updating the blog and cooking eggs.

Bitcoin is dropping like a rock, so the $190 i had left online i took off the BJ site and left only $20. and shipped it back to the bank, which is what finally put me back over $18,000. since its only going to go down til the fork problems coming up in august get resolved, its best to stay completely clear of it til then.

Koala and i played in the nugget once, the wynn once, and planet H twice. soon he will go to reno/tahoe for 1 week or so, then return. he keeps losing BIG in poker, then recovering the money in BJ. he isnt counting though, he increased his bet in the golden gate from $75 to $100 when it was minus 11. i started out very bad, out $324 that day, and so did he. but he recovered, the shoe got good, then i finished the shoe by myself and ended up winning over $150. briefly the shoe was plus 21. they dealt out 7 whole decks or more out of 8.

i was lucky to recover some of my poker loss in Planet H on the big split VP the other night after i left or id be $250 worse off now.

when i posted on twitter the other day to @onechiquita (alysia chang) that money was more valuable than anything else, i meant that without it u cant survive. u sleep outdoors instead of indoors when u are without it. u cannot eat. u cannot find relationships either, u are under way too much stress to. yes the love of 1 good woman who will stick with u for life is very important and means more than anything in the world. but without $ u wont find it. and she didnt mention a wife or girlfriend. she said family and friends, which are nice to have, but lower down the list. many marriages have been ruined because people put their family or friends over their wives and girlfriends. i'm the ONLY man who puts my girl first, i visited sue every day in the state mental hospital when age 19-21 unless i was out of town. even when homeless and needing to spend the entire day panhandling to come up with money for a shitty rooming house or the shelter i lived in sometimes. but i never missed seeing the girl who i loved and the ONLY girl to ever tell me she loved me when her judge wouldnt let her see me for a while due to her running away. and she did til she took up with a black guy in the institution the time she didnt want me to go to iowa/st louis for over 1 month. he later got shot by the police like 2-3 yrs later.

when i knew lorna and britni in my pokerstars days of 2002-2009 then again i wasted money trying to find love, putting their needs first, or at least i felt like i was. maybe not their true needs, but their money needs. though Britni would get mad and say i got her to spend too much time on poker and i think she later gave poker up for good. ending online in the US did this.

so to AC, yes the love of a good woman is number 1, but without $$ u will never get this. first u need to be able to survive and care for yourself or they wont want u. this takes $.. which is why i say $ is over all else. either this or u need to be good looking and the only women who ever considered me good looking were like before i was 21. (a few women i had sex with before i met sue or around the same time). i wish i had the picture of my newspaper with my picture in it while this age.

wonder how many of my readers seen the video interview of me Pure aggression did which i talked of in the comments section of the previous blog entry?




Monday, July 10, 2017

$2-5 wynn

yesterday started off poorly in the nugget due to me making a very good read, so i started off behind and stayed behind until the very end. this is how the good read went down, which took place right after i first got seated. i got dealt KK, raised it to $15 in late position, the button calls, the SB calls and the guy who originally limped UTG makes it $60. well i knew he had a monster hand, so i laid the KK down, everyone folded, he shows QQ. and since id just sat down, the most id lost wouldve been $100.

eventually i got stuck $316, and ended up moving tables more than once from games breaking. ran into a woman who reads my blog i didnt know about who was on 3 of my tables. i finally rebought for $700 the final time, (much more than i should) but i did better off the bigger buyin, which is almost always the case. i didnt recover the money, but i did cash out $964 of the $1016. then the game broke.

originally i decided to go home, but i ended up going in the wynn instead. the $1-3 was full, so i sat in the $2-5. a group of 4 guys who appeared to be middle eastern foreignors (mostly) came in and i could hear them talking from the desk about wanting to play $1-3 but they decided to also play $2-5 and they joined my game, making it 9 handed now. (about 10 minutes after i had sat). so when they called me for $1-3 i decided to stay where im at, thinking it might be a good game.

i get all in preflop with ak suited, with 2 callers. this is when im down to only about $130 left, and one of the looser players (who lost about $700 and left broke with his girl watching in a short time) had originally raised to $35. one guy calls, whose new and i shoved. flop comes AT4,6,4 and it looks like its getting checked around again on the river. too bad i couldnt bet the flop. then the first guy suddenly says he didnt check, throws out $100. he backdoored the flush with k3 clubs, since there was only 1 club on the flop he wouldve been out.

i rebought $262 (if u are wondering why i didnt rebuy $264, the other $2 went for bus fare to the wynn) and proceeded to do better off the bigger buyin. eventually i had it up to $403, when the big hand id been waiting for all night took place. i limped UTG with aa, a guy made it $30 another guy calls, the loose foreignor (only one of the group still there) bets $60, and i shove, hoping for only 1 call, but if not, the $120 plus in dead money will get me close enough to even to quit for the night seeing ive played many hours. everyone folds but the loose guy, and i dont remember the board but its 5 cards something like 367TQ with no flush out there. he looks at his cards so long without giving them up, then showing them to his neighbor, i fear im about to be slowrolled big time. then he finally mucks, what a sense of relief. i quit then of course on my BB.

got my uber, buy some food in the Vons store then go home. new roll $17,200. of course it was $19,200 when i took the 5 weeks, and its getting awful close to july 28th when the 5 weeks are up and ill need to be back to $19,200 by then.

i finally got to meet the girl in person cdizzy wanted me to meet back in January. a girl named amber from austin tx who plays lots of tourneys in OK cali and vegas but very little cash. shes friends with some famous player named aaron fong whoever he is. her and her friend cheryl were in the Planet h tourney and i stopped by to offer an icecream sandwich and say hi. she said she would see me downtown later then never did the next day she said she would meet up, then the next thing i knew she returned to austin without ever doing so. i wouldve sworn cdizzy was very sure she wasnt taken and liked my photo, but it didnt seem this way from seeing ambers facebook posts. seems she was in love with some guy in vegas this year which recently ended. i think ill have ray find me a girl, its better is moslem or other traditional countries, where men dont need to look and a girl is arraigned for them when they turn 21.


Monday, July 3, 2017

what happened to the 15 winning sessions in a row?

I've noticed patterns lot while playing poker. seems both winning sessions, (and losing sessions) all come in streaks. Since i moved in here (must leave on July 28th) i needed to win at least enough to get my $17,100 i was down to after moving in back to $19,200 so i wouldnt lose ground if i tried to see if i could stay longer. instead im down to $15,600. The only bright side is i won $3500 in poker for the month of June. (july isnt out of the hole yet). Since i only track poker cash games, not tourneys since it would not work right mixed together, i really won like $600-700 less in June. normally i never play any, so no need to track them. this of course doesnt include BJ wins or losses either, nor should it.

Is seeing lightning, Koala, and other friends worth thousands of dollars which i desperately need for my physical health, other important needs, etc? i dont think so, i need to go back to Ray's house. its embarrassing to admit im too broke to afford $420 per week in housing when u break it down to the week. I'm not even convinced im taking in enough income to afford housing at all, even at the rate of $200 per week.

its a good thing i won those 15 times in a row, or id never got up to $19,200 before i spent the money on housing, then started losing on poker or BJ. (1800 on BJ, $400 of which has been recovered since on better types of BJ-live instead of a machine which shuffles every hand.) i've been told the sugarhouse real money website deals out 20% of the cards before they shuffle, not sure who could verify this.

i need someone in the MD live area to pick up $300 worth of free play spread out in $30 installments multiple times in the July period. and to give me a fair price too, im going broke here. the st louis offers i cant do without doing it myself since they involve the tables and i never returned there, but its for bigger amounts. $125 16 times per month. not sure if ill get it for July since i never went back.

the final hand tonight before i went home to cook the noodles i had 88. id been going from getting out of the hole to being up $90 (was in the game for $681) and my hours were getting close to 9-10 hours so i felt like retiring. one asian guy whose been losing and rebuying preflop raises to $12, i called with one other. flop comes 874 with 2 clubs, one spade. i see him look at the flop closely when i bet $30 so im wondering if hes drawing. turn comes J of spades. now theres 2 flush draws. he bets $30, and though i know he couldve raised preflop with JJ, i didnt think he was checking a pair on the flop, and i thought if he did have 9-10 or 5-6, both of which i felt werent nearly as likely as multiple other drawing hands, i knew i wasnt folding or letting him draw cheap, leaving me with a tougher river decision. plus he was loose. so i shoved over $300 to put him all in. he looks the board over real close like he might be overlooking something then calls with 9-10 and i missed the boat. no matter what u say, i need to win a big pot and go, im not going to only call and fear the monsters under the bed syndrome.

im sure lightning and Rob will do a better writeup than me of the game in planet H the other day, and me and lightning played there more than once, including the nugget too with DWP. i will say  Lightning cracked my aa with kk on the river when it went allin preflop for close to $500. i didnt go play slots or BJ that day instead me and lightning went to eat. maybe lightning will tell u about the deaf uber driver. me im lazy and anxious to finish this post. today went home too without playing anything but poker. i did sell $11 worth of foreign currency though, to slightly lower the loss.

cooldave seen most of the beats i took early on in the nugget, perhaps he can describe them i remember the ones later in the night long after he left easier. i think one of the early ones i had qq vs kk and one i turned nut flush draw, top pair top kicker she had kk too i had aq and i think she was the BF of the other guy, they all left to go play $2-5 cooldave said he was in the tourney with him and he is loose. i'm in such a hurry to get this post done and over with the least amount of work (unlike the trooper who prefers the most work possible) im keeping this short for once.


Sunday, June 25, 2017

is paying 2/3rds of your monthly income in rent a wise investment?

i slept much longer than i anticipated yesterday evening, so if Dan and Alysia (no i doubt they know each other) were looking for me in the Nugget poker room yesterday, sorry i didnt arrive til about 2am.

once i did, i played a very short session, of not even 5 hours. when i left i was still up over $250, which continued my string of 14+ winning sessions in the Nugget. 14 sessions isnt 14 days. i was up over $200 more earlier, but i called a bet with AK high all the way, because i felt a guy might be bluffing due to the flop structure of JT2 5 2 busted flush draw from the flop, but no, he had aa. he called my preflop raise, then bet into me on 3 streets from the SB.

I'm not going to say where i rented. looked all over the hotels reservation websites, looked on airbnb, looked on craigslist, etc, then finally found a place where id be by myself behind a locked door, and where i would feel safe since id have it to myself. Everything was provided for me to use, and includes washer/dryer without cost. just let it be known im paid up thru the end of July and im out over $2000 plus. one of the nicest places ive ever been in, and as long as no one discovers where, im safe here. close to 90% of rentals id be constant fear over home invasion in the middle of the night and being killed for my atm card pin. same way i constantly fear my entire bank account balance disappearing while im sleeping. i'm not going to tell anyone if its a hotel, a high rise near the strip or southpoint, or if its a condo in another part of vegas, but lets just say i will try to find lower priced but still safe accomodations once my time ends. i only make close to $3000 per month, sometimes more often less. when u add in over $500 monthly in Uber costs, plus food, phone, etc, im going to be spending $3000 month too, so i dont see how the roll can grow unless i can find a way to increase my income from $100 day to $200 day.

i dont even think Annie Duke (the best poker player i know) could win $200 per day in $2-5 NL against 8 first time players. good $2-5 NL players make only $45-70k per year. But maybe, just maybe $150 per day is $4500 per month, which still works out. this is why the number #1 priority of the federal govt is to stop inflation, which is best done by ending voting for demoncrats. inflation is one of the biggest causes of homelessness and poverty (increasing rental prices to where no one can get housing). almost as much as alcohol is the cause.

So yesterday i went to walmart and spent $61 for about half a months supply of food. loaded up the freezer and filled the kitchen cubboards.

when the time ends, if i cannot renew, or negotiate a lower price, i think ill return to either Toledo (really Detroit) or shreveport. for i need to be where i get the highest hourly rate, so if not there, would need to go to south florida. for if i returned to getting over $20 per hour, these expenses would be far easier. my hourly in the golden nugget went back to over $13 per hour from when it dropped to $4 per hour, when early in june i was down over $1300. now im up over $3200 in june. this is not the hourly for this month, but since jan 2017 in the nugget. i won so much in shreveport in 2016 ($33,000 in 5 months, and only $13,000 for the other 7 months elsewhere) id returned there long ago if i felt i had at least 25% chance of it continuing. But yes, increasing the income is the goal. not sure if increasing my standard initial buyin of $100 would help in this, or put me more on tilt if i lost it early, meaning id then be rebuying even much bigger, which means too big of swings. and in detroit i won $2500 plus in 3 nights of the final weekend.

controlling yourself from getting angry in the poker room so u can win easier and play your best is quite difficult with all the BS u need to put up with from the other players. primarily, watching them put empty water bottles and even worse, racks, on the floor. Unless they were to watch their mother trip over it, it will never stop. Then u get all the european guys or first timers in this casino who dont even know where the bathroom is, yet know exactly what the nuggets rules would be in certain situations, (mostly theyre wrong). and yet when u complain about improper behavior by others (for instance the guys in the Oaks club continually asking for setups) who gets banned for the game breaking up? you do, not the ones who instigated the problem.

or dealing with the bathroom attendent in the nugget on the night shift, who continously locks all the stalls except those in the further distance in the back, and having to walk thru the entire bathroom to get to it. his supervisor said once they do this when cleaning, guess its due to chemicals. so instead of those chemicals being far away in the back, when they wont endanger no one, because u wont be walking back there, they put them upfront so everyone must walk near and be around them longer while passing both ways by them?

or the guy on my table who insisted the 2 players turn their hand over (u see he blamed them both equally) which is wrong, u blame ONLY the player whose turn it is (who wont act). the guy whose not his turn should NOT turn them over, when he finally does first, and the guy who shouldve showed first folds ITS SIMPLY ENCOURAGING THE SAME GUY TO SLOW IT UP AGAIN THE NEXT TIME. only by making him turn over first and the 2nd guy not showing, will this behavior be resolved. so i got mad at the guy and tried to explain this to him (not the 2 in the hand but the one insisting both show and blaming both).

i blame Rob and the other bloggers for all the spam too, for unlike me, they just ignore it which is why it continues. for example i get the same spam comments from multiple madeup bloggers ids for certain asian gambling sites, which of course ill never post their links to. the comment is made to sound legit, but cannot be posted without being posted in its entirely which includes the spam link. now those guys they just delete it but me im more active. if possible i write the spammer or post on his profile cursing him out telling him off. if all the bloggers did this, the problem would stop.

truth is i shouldve left and went to rays house to save this $2000. but im sick of flying and lazy, not wishing to bother with it no more. $3000 in expenses when only earning $3000 (and i dont know if i truly even average $36k per year because my sample size is too small.) but its too stressful. let me reiterate, when u play poker for a living, nothing is fun about it. life is actually hell on earth when u must win to survive. people only do it because they cant get other work except for work paying even less.


Monday, June 19, 2017

Must find new housing soon

i've pretty much forgotten about this blog. used to be people would remind me to post when ive not been online in a while, but no, not this time. Theres not so much to talk about when im not on a road trip either. Good news is im doing what i should be doing (as far as regaining the money i lost since leaving Detroit). for the first night in ages, im finally over $17,000 once more. i only wish more of it wouldve came from poker, and not BJ.

that being said, im out of the hole for June now, up a little more than $1000 in poker for June. cash that is, ive never tracked tourney wins or losses. im not going to play no more either, for if i do i should probably track them too.

another reason to not play them is if they took 10 hours or more to finish (if u get to the final table). u would need to average 10x your hourly rate in winnings to make it preferable to just playing cash those 10 hours. This is why no serious poker players make thier living by playing tourneys.

the big problem is im losing my housing this Friday. u see, Vinces ex girlfriend from NJ who dealt in the Trop will be moving in with him, arriving on a plane fri night. and he couldnt convince her to let me live there too. so ill either need to leave town or find other accomodations. ive got over $300 in comps in the nugget to carry me for 4 days, and i might just move out early on tues and maybe fly out of here. there's nothing cheap in vegas thats safe, and i dont wish to spend close to $1300 and commit to 60 days for extended stay america.

i need stable housing so i can get ID in whichever state i wish instead of just louisiana and a passport too, for when 2018 comes ill no longer be allowed to fly. plus i need a long term MD too. u see, to order the documents for the big fee from the govt, i wont be doing no traveling til the documents would arrive, or id be out the fee for nothing.

never seen the nugget so busy except during the WSOP. theres like all 13 tables full with lists most of the time in here now, except for the slow part of the early mornings. but no PLO today or yesterday. for like 3 days, it went everyday.




Saturday, June 10, 2017

bankroll management in live poker

Poor bankroll management is the biggest downfall of any professional gambler. 10-20 yrs ago i stayed near broke most of the time due to leaks on video poker, playing the wrong forms of poker, and giving women money. i dont ever give women money no more, i dont play near as much video poker as i used to when Josie still read the blog, and i know better now than to waste time in $1-5 stud (it no longer even exists in most cities) and in $2-6 spread limit or even worse, low stakes fixed limit. no more of this wasting $500-600 of $3000-4000 rolls on even money or 6-5 video BJ in the same day either. im sick when i think of how much i wasted in the past 10 yrs or so, and how my skill level in NL poker would easily allow me a bankroll of well over $200,000 if i were to have been managing money properly all these yrs. wish i werent so lazy.

i think theres 2 good bankroll rules to follow. one, dont put over 5% of your roll on the table or lose over 5% in one day. ($750 in other words). next rule is, quit the table (not neccessaliry for the entire day) when u drop back 1% or more. (which is $150). the goal for $1-2 NL is to keep 100 buyins if u dont have other income, investments, govt checks or assets coming in or credit. if u do have these other sources 30-40 buyins should be enough. Bankroll management is more important than most people give it credit for, indeed much more important than ur skill level. bankroll management failures is why i dropped from a high in Reno of over $45,000 to the $13k or so i was down to last week before i had a slight comeback. good money management wouldnt let me bet 3 spots of $1250 each on BJ. 3 spots of $100 to $150 each wouldve been the correct bet on the count of plus 18. then i wouldnt dropped over $20,000 in the 3 weeks i was in Reno.

so this afternoon im in a game in the Nugget which keeps flip-flopping from tight to loose as players go broke or get up. when i left, it was loose, some new players sat down, most were quite loose or bad, including the guy in seat 9 on my immediate right. im in seat 8, since its 9 handed. theres some bluffers on the other side of my table in 3 or 5 and some bigger pots are starting to develop. im much older than many of the players and theres a good looking woman who i think lives in vegas in the seat next to me. not nearly as good looking as the black girl from ellis island who works in the restaraunt who sat by me and Vince in the BJ table at the longhorn last night, who i was shocked to find out was gay being she sure wasnt ugly like most women are who turn gay. i was curious how she knew me til she told me it was from the VBJ machine ellis isle got rid of. i thought she was a boulder street hooker sitting there as good looking as she was. another hooker who vince and i had just seen walking thru az charlies earlier was in there getting thrown out by longhorn security.

i got dealt 10-10 and made it $6 in early position, one of the loose newer guys raised from out of the  blinds to $30, and so did i and one other guy fearing i was up against a big pair. flop comes 2,3,7 and 2 hearts. so when he bets $45 on the flop, not knowing if he has one or not, or if he might have the flush draw or something else which dont beat 10-10 i call. turn comes J offsuit and he bets once more, other guy is out, i call. on the river i plan to fold if the flush comes and he bets or an overcard comes. river comes offsuit 8, he bets $130 what would u do?

i called, thinking he must surely put me on the flush draw (which i dont got) and think if he had an overpair, he would check, hoping ill bluff since in his mind, i couldnt call. so i thought if he bets, he must either have a set or be bluffing since ive showed strength staying in. turns out hes got KK and is good. i left while i still had $190 of the original $100 buyin that was once up to $467.

i will probably regret the rest of the year not trying todays $200,000 guarantee with only $200 buyin but proper bankroll management wont let me spend over $150 on any one tourney. tired of not cashing, then working 2 days to get back the buyin, but this is standard for tourneys. u need either staked to play tournies or be extremely well rolled to financially and emotionally, to not cash 15 in a row and when u do cash to min cash.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

is Uber corporate deceiving their drivers/riders?

This is not going to be the usual blog entry, but i never have enough material for my poker blog no way, and besides it should be updated more than once per week, im sure most would agree.

Yesterday i got an email from Uber offering me what seemed like the greatest deal ever. (at least for the riders, not the drivers). For $10, a line pass meaning i get unlimited rides anywhere in vegas for $5.99 (up to $25 worth otherwise priced). amounts over $25, id still pay the difference. i would get these much lower priced rides for the whole month. so i thought it would be a wonderful deal. i thought it would even include hoover dam lodge outside boulder city, because it appeared to be in the map coverage area. in fact i thought they mightve even sent it because they seen i sometimes like to take the $30-35 rides out there.

the map showed henderson, summerlin, and im sorry i cant find a link to the map to post here. (can only view in the app) but it does include boulder city. and it looks 2-3 miles outside. guess hoover dam lodge is 2-3 miles too far. but they made the map to look like it was in the coverage area. it wasnt when i tried to book it so i didnt go. of course, i didnt discover this til after id bought the pass. also my $5.99 rides have some weird 18c fee so im being charged $6.17 per ride. (took 3 so far).

used the first one to go to redrock, which would normally be like $25, so i never go of course. its really good action in redrock, and before went last night, my win rate at the redrock was over $100 per hour in the $1-2. (8 hours in Jan where i won over $900, $500 for flopping quads). i did turn my $184 in buyins ($100 plus $44 plus $40) into $500 even at the time the game broke. the bad news is when leaving the poker room, found a 5c 10c 25c 50c $1 bigsplitpoker machine where i proceeded to lose close to $200. then used uber 2 more times, buying food walmart on charleston/arville then to home.

good thing the previous night i won $1100+ mostly in the nugget then in P-ho, to recover most of the loss for June. over $225 of it was won in the $1-2 PLO in the nugget which rarely goes.

i prefer Uber to Lyft for one reason the nonstop social justice warrior BS lyft sends. (so does Ok cupid) promoting homosexuality. lyft sends it out asking people to opt in if they wish $1 of their ride to go towards one of 2 causes one of which is gay PRIDE.

but dont the drivers get paid based on the fares received, and get a portion of this? so if the guy spent 30 minutes driving me to redrock for $6 instead of $25, does this mean his share was only like $3 for 30 minutes work? if so theyre going to hate these line passes, and they wont know im getting the much lower fare and i for one would be afraid to tell them this. it just feels like theyre ripping off the drivers somehow, not letting them know this til long after the rides over how little theyll be paid for their time. would love feedback from uber drivers who see this blog. the drivers really hate uber pool and i dont use it thought its a little cheaper due to fear of a group of people getting in the back seat with me who might rob me or otherwise put me very ill at ease.

these type of fears cost me money my whole life, id be thousands richer in my roll today were i not to have spent extra on hotels 100s of times out of fear of sleeping in cheaper priced rooms. constant fear my room would be forcibly broken into while i sleep. i wish i could handle this fear like the trooper did, when he lived in desert manor.






Monday, June 5, 2017

i played a tourney, (second one this week) usually i do 2-4 every wsop but the smaller ones downtown

well i dont feel like i should be playing any more tournies on my own dime, because i dont have the bankroll to make it thru the variance before i start cashing in them, and when u do cash, its likely for a small amount than a big one. the problem with tournies is they just DO NOT PAY ENOUGH SPOTS. u see, the tournies i played in the old days online pokerstars, (not counting PLO8 tournies) were the double or nothing, 1 table, half the field gets paid. i always wished they had them with fields of 100 people instead of 10 people. and any other tournies i didnt feel were worth playing because it was too hard to reach the final table. then of course i discovered triple up sngs on ignition which pay 33% of a 9 player field, but id still prefer large fields instead of 1 table. i think somewhere i heard a live casino paid 25% of their players in an event or several events once, but i dont know where it was or if it was in vegas.

people who strictly play satellites which could pay out like 20% or more of the field, (with no intention to play the tourney itself, but to sell it) make money similar to this. so there are at least some people who agree that more people should be paid.

at least 120 of the 159 entries busted out before me in the mixed stud8 omaha8 event in the nugget. so its hard to feel i did poorly, yet i didnt get the money. after running it up from 15,000 starting stack to still being only 18,000 on level 12 break, to 54,000 by level 14 dinner break, to then 73,000 right after sitting down, within the next 45 minutes it quickly went to nothing and bustout when some powerful draws missed. blinds were 3000-6000 in omaha and bets were 3000-6000 in stud8 so its not that many chips. then it went to 4000-8000 before i went broke.

so this is why i said practically everyone but the ones with enough chips to make the final table (last prize money of $436 for 16th, etc) up to i think over $7,000 for first, would been better off chopping 40 ways of over $750 each. now i know this would never happen, but its idiotic for people who should know better to say on twitter that it wouldnt have benefitted the vast majority of the 40 who were still in. $500 profit is very good, considering only about 5% of the working class earns this on their jobs. nor do most poker players, less than 5% of the people who play for a living average $500 a day. even good $2-5 NL players only earn $35-50 per hour. as proof im right, if flush draws tourney wouldve had a flat prize pool of $750 each of the final 40 people, think how much better off he would be now. he too came within striking distance of the money, too bad we missed.

so i dont see why so many thought my statements incorrect on twitter. ive got too many rich guys with money and jobs reading it who dont play for a living and not enough grinders who depend on it to live. u always need to do whats best for ur bankroll, not to go for first only. otherwise why not just buy lottery tickets where only 1 guy wins it all?

Sunday, May 28, 2017

no progress

well, May is almost done and im still out well over $1000 for the month, making this the worst month since i started keeping records for poker only. this is why this years hourly is only $8+. and my mouth still feels funny since the work is complete, so im still taking the antibiotics. but i need a regular md, my sleeps disrupted nightly every 1-2 hours to use the restroom a very small amount. plus ive still got teeth on the left side needing work. and i dont know how long ill be in vegas would still rather be at Rays. its cheaper, and he leaves the house without wanting to wait all day. Plus he's there with me in the poker room much of the time.

the good news is theres better action in vegas than i remember on previous trips. looser games i think. too bad this year i wont be able to afford any of the tourneys, i just cant bring myself to do it when im not winning. remember unless u are staked, not more than 1% should be used to enter a tourney. even the NL horse or PLO8 events in the Nugget Grand are $250. seems higher priced than i remembered 2 yrs back when i think i last played.

i dont think ill ever have the $45,000 back, even in the next 10 yrs. all i can hope for is this never drops below $10,000 and the measly hourly rate i still earn continues enough to cover my expenses and that i can somehow improve my health.

Because Vince has his own washer and dryer in his condo, which i have keys to, i can have my laundry done here too. i think ill have to move out end of june when Lisa from NJ comes to live here.

the first week i was up close to $700 or more but it all went on dentistry. id almost turned a $2500 loss in may into much less. but now im still out a lot. had the loss once down to under $1000

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Budget dental of Las vegas, trip report

Before i went in, it quit feeling sore. But now, with 3 teeth gone on the right side, (still could use the one done in the far back on the other side) but figured it would be best to do just the one side where i could still eat from the other side of the mouth. the 3 removed was the part left from where the one broke off and fell out, and the one next to it in bad shape, plus one on the bottom i didnt realize was in this much need of fixing.

the total cost, (along with the exam xrays) was $889 and i prepaid it beforehand with a debit card. While in vegas and winning in poker between the nugget or the wynn, id built the $15,400 back to over $15,800, but with this plus medicines filled, im now in the $14,900s for the lowest point in some time.

Vince went to fill the prescription in the CVS near his house by desert inn and mohave, and when he took me back to pick it up with my ID, the power in the store plus the streetlights had gone out (i later heard it was due to some tree which fell) so i had to wait quite some time for pain medications. today when the work got finished, id felt more sore than i had before the work was done. before the work was done, much of the feeling was gone.

i was surprised they were able to do the IV sedation the same day. Vince prearranged this by not having me eat in the 8 hours before coming.

some of the articles im reading online claim its okay to eat food such as macoroni, mashed potatoes, milk, just no coffee. it said not to rinse ur mouth til 24 hours passed too. im assuming vince will be able to find salt to put in the water then? i couldnt stand having gauze in there another minute but it was needed to get rid of blood. i worry all the time about dry socket.

theres still 1 or more teeth which will need work on the other side, but the emergency ones needing fixed are taken care of. of course they did tell me i also need a deep cleaning done. the employees were mostly asian, its in an area of spring mountain filled with signs in asain.

Vince is talking on the phone with his girlfriend Lisa in atlantic city, who deals in the Trop poker room and is moving to vegas next month. i couldnt quite make out what he said but it seemed he mentioned about when they thought the other teeth would need done before they become an emergency too.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

its good to be home

Flying out of BWI into LAS yesterday evening was one of the better decisions ive made in the past month. no more huge poker losses, no more $80+ daily hotel expenses. am now paying Vince $100 per week (or $20 day). it would be nice if this option would someday exist nearby the nice rooms on the east coast. Maybe someday once Ray increases his bankroll enough to move out of Toledo, hes considering Florida.

in the 72 hours i was close to MD live, and horseshoe baltimore, i lost around $2000. before this i didnt do well in Parx, de park, or dover either. in fact, im still down over $2000 for May, which is the worst month ive ever had for as far back as i remember (poker only). But i did win $400 in the nugget poker room today, plus $241 in the Wynn. not too bad of a start. of course with rent, groceries, and $160 VBJ loss in the el c beforehand im not up too much, but its a good start.

Martingaling poker losses aint worked out so well for me this month, so i bought in only $200 in the nugget, both times, and $100 in the wynn. had the $100 in the wynn just shy of $500 shortly before Benny (from roughingthepunter) came in. but i lost 2 good pots. both of which i folded, and i begun feeling like im being bluffed, one guy was a known bluffer, one wasnt. so i left with $341, and walked to mc d by cc with benny across the street from the old riviera which closed down. i dont wish to play with this much of my roll on the table no more, since i feel so broke.

but im now at $15,600 instead of slipping below $15,000. of course theyres huge dental costs looming, but is this enough to start working with in vegas? im sure the Trooper or Flushdraw or Ray wouldve been happy starting with this, and in my 20s id been thrilled to. but now i feel broke.

the hand i feel i folded the winner i had JJ on a board of 3569 and got checkraised to $30 from $15, then $145 on the turn. id just caught him bluffing me earlier when i had QQ and the board was TT7, i checked he bet, turn 8, i check he bets, river 2, i check he bets A9 missed. i folded cause i had too many chips, didnt wish to give it back, didnt expect him to twice in a row, but would he?

then the asian reraises my $24 to $60 preflop, and flop comes aax and he bets huge and i fold QQ. so yes, i definitely need to go. u see why of course. were these bad folds? the less on the table, the more im comfortable til i recover a working bankroll.

Though theres only 1 good VBJ left outside vegas (within 40 miles) theres still 2 in NM it seems. seems motels very low priced in ALBQ. it seems tahoe biltmore is getting rid of theirs this month, the new one just got put in which shuffles every round.

if u see my twitter, u will see agsweep seems to have found me a dentist who does the lowest cost iv sedation i know of in the US here in vegas for $250 additional. i hope its in-house and not a referral which takes 2 months. i wish the teeth could be fixed cheap instead of just pulled, (ones gone actually 2) wheres theyres nothing left to fill or save. but if i run out of teeth how do i eat?

Vince is going to phone them tomorrow, explain the situation and see about getting me in there this week.

on the plane a woman who didnt wish to sit by some other girl who was in her seat, went and moved to the seat by me. then she was talking to someone before departure on the phone about some girl plus possibly herself being not let in the room she insisted be allowed in. good looking girl too, i wondered if she was a hooker going to vegas (lots of them fly in weekly). she shared her mc d food with me, and i spoke of going to play poker with $15,000. too scared to request her contact info however.

considered writing a phony blog of being in vegas under 24 hours again and flying with her out of town to start a new life with a new GF. but now too many seen me in person in vegas.


Saturday, May 13, 2017

leave the table when u no longer feel like playing, regardless if u are up or down

I think sometime this week ill return to Toledo/Detroit to Ray's house to see the dentist. if i went to shreveport, Reno or Vegas, i would have no one to accompany me to the dentist, which is required if they give u IV sedation. the reason im concerned is although theres no pain, theres a pimple which developed on my gums in the area where the decayed tooth broke off, and im reading online what the cause of this is. Flights from BWI are over $100 more than flights out of PHL, but the amtrak to toledo is a very low $75-95. im tired of high priced hotel rooms. my 2 nights here near MD live cost me $184. my last 4 nights in Dover Downs, (due to the $29 special) only cost me $140 total. my nights in wilmington cost me like $80 per nite. my nights by Parx cost me like $75 per night. plus i spent $80 once on uber in the past 10 days, $89 once, $171 once, and $77 once. Ever since i left NJ, my expenses went up, but theres some nice casinos here if theyd ever have cheaper living options nearby.

finally won today too. ($200 buyin, in the $1-2 NL in MD live about 2am. eventually left about 6.30 this morning with $445). i had it up to $642 once, then caught myself doing 2 dumb things. so i figured i better get out of there before i self destructed. i did find $20 in free play id heard of once in an email, but no room offers. so i ran it thru, cashing out $24. i'm still out over $600 for the month of May in POKER, meaning for just poker, it will be my worst month in the last couple years. no month last year was at a loss except for the $447 in june. and dont forget last aprils $9000 win.

i tried to steal a pot with 69 of clubs on a flop of 478 with 2 spades and 1 club. it didnt work. turn was another 4 so now i picked up a flush draw to go with the straight draw, which made me pay $50 more to see the river. then i missed totally. he showed 79, thinking he bluffed, but he didnt. river was A of spade, completing a possible flush, which he didnt have. he was definitely the wrong player to check raise to $65 from $10 on the flop. then i let the guy on my immediate right, (who i suspected of knowing who i was) bluff reraise his straddle to $60 preflop with 72 offsuit. flop comes 10 7 8 and i folded my 55. he did have me beat, but i shouldve shoved allin preflop over the $60. he was definitely deep enough to fold for over $400 more.

if i were to have stayed in the dover area, id be getting $168 next fri for hours earned. eventually theyll send a mailer to rays address, with $300 slot play. i'm glad hes got a car again, with excellent gas mileage he says. plus he says hes won over $900 in the past 2 weeks.

i wish something could be done regarding the collusion that goes on in smaller poker rooms, which the staff obviously dont care about since the colluders usually tip big off their ill gotten gains so they will be permitted to continue. i seen 2 guys checking it down, once with 9922 on the board, theyre last to act, with a nine in their hand, and simply check because theyre opponent is a woman whose a reg too. then these other guys claim they always check it down, asain guy with the rooms most hours reg, he has top set, and his opponent in seat 10 has the nut straight to his set of 10s . of course, against me they take my money. poker shouldnt be no friends. every man out for blood, no matter who its against.


Sunday, May 7, 2017

the path of least resistance

At one point since leaving Detroit for Atlantic city (never was intended to be my final destination by the way) i had $21,500 while at the high water mark. This was MORE than the $20,970 i had before i bought my plane ticket that morning. Since then ive been dropping steadily and if u look at my phone graphs, quite a bit has been on live poker, most of it in fact, (the $1500 on the 3 card poker machine in the Trop the other day notwithstanding) plus about $500 more on some regular slot machines, mostly gemtiles in the Borgata. Parx got rid of their old shufflemaster VBJ machines, not even the bad kind remain. so ive not lost one penny on BJ or slots here in Parx. Then well over $1000 got used on motels, hotels, trains, planes and Ubers in the past 3 weeks too. its been quite a while since i bought the plane tix.

What this all means is im at the end of my rope with no more tolerance for losing any money. I'm too old to start over from scratch with a roll of $2 or $3 thousand dollars. and having tasted big money on $45,000 not more than 3 months prior, i feel tremendously broke everyday (stressed out by it and feel i cant spend a dime, no matter how much its badly needed and will help in the long run). and whats worse, no one can relate to me over it, except maybe Ray, who would also never spend a dime on things he needed. Not only losing, i have no tolerance for policies which annoy me, inconsiderate things other do, people who dont care, people with insincerity who fake they care when only making conversation, microwaves not turning in circles (worry its not cooking fully and ill die of food poisining) fridges which freeze the milk, inability to get others to see my point mostly cause theyre too dumb to and dont care, and not having any friends around here to talk things over with while on the tables. (people who genuinely wish to see me win and improve and play my best-not the kind who wish to take my money).

and being in a bad mood (and worried as to how ill survive paying $75 per night for a long term place to live if i dont wish to waste more money on traveling) i dont really care WHO i get the money from, as long as i get it. whether the money comes from winning it from the other players, or out of the dealers and the cocktail waitresses tips (fuck them anyway since theyre union and like to flaunt in my face their $20,000 jewelry how rich they are) or whether i find it off someones wallet in the bathroom, or out in the parking lot of walmart asking for change. wasnt i told to stay in 1 place and not do no more traveling though im sure theyres many places id be much better off in and living much cheaper with steadier housing. i couldve tooken the $125 spirit flight into vegas tonight, but if i checked out of my room at 11, and the flight dont go til 7pm, and i cant bring my suitcase inside the casino, what was i supposed to do with my luggage in the meanwhile?

i feel like a lot of the players disrespect me (either because of reading the blog--or because since im losing and im not one of the regulars theyre used to seeing--feel im a complete idiot.) the glasses im wearing tend to make others feel this way. i'll make a preflop raise with a big hand and get called in 4-5 places. with hands most wouldnt call most people with. then they always end up hitting the hand no matter how far theyre behind like the previous night in the $2-5 game with KQ off preflop vs AQ suited for $105 left, and with 25 offsuit in the $1-2 then hit trip 5's on the flop into my overpair. I dont see the cliques here i seen in the Trop, but i can recognize thier regulars (and harrahs regulars) theyve been coming there everyday for 20 yrs. i dont recognize the regulars here.

i still wouldve liked to play the $6-12 hilow stud8 and omaha game, but ive held off on the time charge. at least with the time charge in the PLO last night they got out closer to 12 hands per down than 4. the good news is u dont have to call $5 to bring it in, checking the $2 in ur BB works if no straddle or raise. the min buy is only $100 too, so i feel the money goes faster. the lesbian girl in the game had over $3000 in front of her last night.

---more to say later--suffice it to say, just left Parx (where im now banned) and will talk about it later. right now im packing bags to catch the Uber to PHL airport. im soaked its pouring rain, and a long walk thru a huge parking lot and 2 streets to get home. where im going, who can say? truth be told, i need a long vacation away from gambling. i dont need to be forced to win everyday to survive. no one here can relate to how it feels.

---2 days later-- ended up taking the Uber to Newark DE. took me a room not far from DE park. checked in slept all day, then sat in the $1-2 PLO and started losing. eventually (Zin?) from TX sat in, started raising every pot asking how much is the max, dropped about $1000, a lot of which i won so eventually left the casino with a small profit instead of a big loss of $900. some of it was won on the VBJ, its not countable but its now standing on soft 17. guy was mexican living in brownsville with his friends. some of the dealers here know somehow of my blog.

On the hand at Parx which got me banned when the asian guy slowrolled me, flop was 9h TKd i bring it in preflop for $10 with JQd so ive got the nut str8 with the royal open ended redraw. with my luck (being out so much this week and month) i decide not to slow play so i bet $35 on the flop. he bets $80 so i just shove. he thinks awhile then calls. he is loose. board goes runner runner TK for 2 running pair. he looks forever then when the dealers getting ready to ship me the pot finally shows K9 for boat on the river. this is the pot of the night, well over $900, id be $200 up instead of another $700 down. close to 2 weeks rent. at $75-80 per night, i can only afford to live 200 more days without income. i used to be able to prepay 2-3 yrs if i needed to. and when living with a higher standard (by this i mean better hotels and uber over city buses) i cant really go back to the old lifestyle of poverty. not at my age. i feel i spend too much to live, its the cause of lots of stress. if i win $100 a day, i never got any better off. just hold my own is all. if i lose $100 per day i deteriorate rapidly. out well over $1000 for May and my biggest loss in 2016 was $447 in June.

i rose up to quit, and tossed the chips across the table so hard they intermingled with his and another players, so i got banned for 48 hours. i cant afford to live by Parx without a car, (to either sleep in which could easily be done here or close by where its safe) or to get to the lower cost motels down the road. i felt so sick when i lost. i was totally counting on it as hard as the flop hit me and as huge the pot was and overdue i was for the big score. its been like this the whole week and i finally snapped.

i was tired of living in this hotel anyway but everyday instead of spending money to relocate, plus time, its SOO easy to just renew the room, though i couldnt afford it longterm. i need a longterm residence so i just do it. the easy way. moving around isnt easy. plus i didnt know where to go. im heading south, so i should be in Baltimore soon this week. i feel i should go to florida or vegas or shreveport or reno or detroit or stl. i no longer get free play in trop, they cut off the $50 3 times per week. no idea why since i blew the $1500.

now today, i did win $300 in DE park and left early. bought some books up the street for 90% off, some food, then went to my room. played mostly $1-2 PLO. then moved to holdem when up $300, which was the nittiest game ever. not the PL0, the holdem.

--yesterday, now---. today i won $103, $53 in the game only due to the final 2 pots, and turned my $50 slot dollars from playing u get free for 8 hours into $50.49. but the whole $103 went for 2 uber fares, and my $83 hotel. im going to leave once i sleep first.






Sunday, April 30, 2017

Trip report, Parx

i've forgotten some of the things which annoyed me at Parx, and i should hunt up in the search feature on this blog the word "parx" so i could find the old entry which listed them. mainly, the $2 chips. by the way i found out at sugarhouse u can straddle from any position but the blinds. Parx is now under the gun only. Certainly ran up a huge Uber bill yesterday, since i stopped at the wrong bitcoin atm on the way, (too much out of the way) realized later online theres a closer one. Only $17,800 left.

i decided NOT to sit in the $10-20 stud8 Big 0 mix last night, and found a $1-2, which didnt go much longer, then moved to a fresh table when it broke. $60 min $300 max but one good rule is when coming from a broken game all options are open, from the min buyin to much more than the max (if u left the other game with this much). since it cannot be policed, im sure its abused constantly by people adding a few extra $100 chips. i eventually was in the game for $260, but left with $530. not sure if anyone at the table knew me from online, but possibly the guy on my immediate left did.

i was annoyed by the fact my comps had disappeared, as had any free play offers id got shortly after leaving last year. the waitress service is extremely slow when the rooms packed with people before the promotions end.

only went here because i didnt have a room fri night in ac, and i didnt wish to lose more on the $2 min 3 card poker machine in the Trop where i dropped $1500+ the day before. was so tired i slept 1 hour (less) on the train into Philly, then went looking for the atm. by the time i finally got to my hotel it was after 1 pm, and got checked in.

im glad to see Ray finally got his car replaced, thru financing. it will be a better car than the one he previously had. hope he does well this evening in detroit. Though in Detroit u can buy in for more by matching the big stack (greektown only, not motor city) here theres good selection of different games and with $1000 max in $2-5 instead of $500 u can martingale ur buyins.

im keeping this short instead of a loong dissertation into many things which pissed me off over this past week. too much work to type, this is long overdue needs to be posted now. suffice it to say a lot could be done out here with the $45,000 roll i blew in reno as far as the many things i needed to get done. here it could be invested in more poker, and if i did play BJ, would be in better rules.


Sunday, April 23, 2017

Good riddance to Atlantic city, their policies, and their casinos

 
 Theres lots i dislike about atlantic city and me coming here wasnt a good idea. wont be my first or last bad idea. idea was to get free rooms (minus resort fee) most of the time, plus pick up about 15 times per month $50 day in free play in the Trop (until they cut it off for me not playing the machines heavily like on previous trips). u see right now, id prefer to not use my 2 free upcoming nights ive earned from playing poker in Harrahs AC for sun and mon nights and just get the hell out of state to somewhere else, where yet im unsure of. the room i paid for on whitehorse pike ends sunday morning. paid much more for the week than i shouldve too, my first mistake. price used to be less.

but i've got $50 free play coming today, and tomorrow, plus monday. then various dates between mon and the end of april too. but when i left Greektown in detroit (before i bought and plane tickets) i was a full $2300 better off. im making nothing here. 6 of my last 8 sessions were losses in poker. i cant seem to win in $5-10 stud either, buyin too much on tilt when i play $2-5 and tend to sit too long. even when up, i sit too long and dont leave with much profit. when stuck, i dig the hole much bigger. and i miss not having free meals like in shreveport, or a home to eat cheaply in like Toledo and vegas. and im disappointed Ray still hasnt found another car. plus lost so steadily hes now got no money to invest in poker or the car.

i tried to somewhat fix my hours, for games suck 8am to 4pm. today ill be starting about 1.30pm instead of 7am. slept til 11 this morning.

here is a few of the major grievances regarding AC cardrooms, some of which are universal to all properties in town.

1. NO PHONE OUTLETS underneath the seats. pretty much in every pokerroom, with the exception of stud games in the borgata, and $2-5 or higher. (this means no chargers in $1-2 NL upfront of the room in the borgata by the door). only in the back section towards the other room, or in it. this really puts me on tilt, keeping me from doing what i need to do to avoid frustration or boredom. plus the very poor connections especially in the Trop, dont help either.

2. u need to buyin from the cage, of course sometimes they discriminate who they enforce this against.

3. in the Borgata u need to post the BB before u can be dealt in a hand. Plus in stud often theres collusion of folks anteing for friends.

4. when u buy chips from the borgata cage, all transactions must be in multiples of $20. but not when rebuying from the dealers. unlike other places, where u cant buy in odd amounts via the dealer, but u can from the cage.

5.the Nugget closes every night at 4am, even when the game is FULL

6. its 10 handed, not 9, everywhere u go.

Ray would like the fact u see so many nice looking women in the poker rooms here in AC. 2 white girls in the trop play there everyday, theyre probably about 40 or so. No idea if theyre winning players or not. they seem to know all the guys, particularly the black regulars. then theres shay the dealer from Harrahs and her friend (young black girl whose usually playing the mornings). their table banter makes them seem like enemies. i have no idea if she is taken, or if she prefers white or black guys. but shes playing in Harrahs every morning. i wish i knew which people have plenty of money, and which ones are pretty broke and really needing the free rooms sun-thurs for 4 hours of play. there seems to be BIG cliques among the regulars here, in BOTH harrahs and the Trop, and if u arent one of them u feel like an outsider, especially among the morning crews.

the only guy i know is broke is the deaf guy, always drunk, always carrying a beer, but almost never playing poker himself. but he seems to walk the Trop often, looking for who he can bum $1 off of (without speaking of course). sometimes he gives a quick backrub. and its very unsafe walking pacific after dark, (which i did lots in the days i gave $20-60 to hookers over 15 yrs ago). if u go to 7-11 or anywhere, u will be asked for money. u never should ask once its dark out, i used to quit when i panhandled in the 1990s once it got dark, why? because it makes u feel like a mugging getting ready to happen instead of nonthreatening request. plus, no one will give, theyre afraid to get close or reach for cash once its dark. this is one reason i dont like riding the jitney at night. or walking 1 block pacific to atlantic to the bus terminal to get the 554 out to whitehorse pike once its dark.

many of the rich folks from NYC with old money who frequent these places arent very good at poker, thats for sure. i didnt play it but i have it on good authority there was over $15,000 in the $2-5 NL in the Trop saturday night. i was too busy recovering $500 of my previous days losses in the $1-2 NL that night.

i was originally going to add some things, make this blog longer, talk on a few things at my table, but im sleepy, this needs updated, and im too tired and thought better of part of it. suffice it to say im still $1700 less off than when i left detroit, half on expenses the rest of losing stud sessions, 1 $2-5 NL session, or id be up quite a bit.

i do think ill go this weekend, instead of going back out to whitehorse pike for rooms. i get too tired to use the bus, wasted $30 4 times for uber. not wise, but saves ur life from danger. no idea which city ill go. theres daily $87 flights to south florida, and motel prices are down now.






Saturday, April 15, 2017

atlantic city NJ trip report

Well im finally making progress since leaving Detroit, but not nearly as quickly as i was in detroit, since Detroit offers better games. Sure NJ offers better games than PA, but PA might still be better because at least their $1-2 NL games have phone chargers, and theres not long bus trips out to absecon each way and back. instead, theres a nice hotel up the street, with a much better fridge, but at least this one isnt freezing my milk, and the wifi is working good. i dont care much for this microwave though. im worried it dont cook enough and ill get food poisining. its got an old fashioned timer on it where its hard to do partial minutes. so because i fear it wasnt cooked good enough and some steaks were still stuck together, i cooked it close to 3 extra minutes. (steak 6 pack). still paranoid its not heated enough, too bad i dont own a food thermometer. hope ray is correct about maybe its been cooked before they packaged it.

winning $250 TWICE on aces full (which held up 20 minutes for the hi hand, minus $20 tip) in Harrahs ac today helped, and so did the loose action 1 player kept making with multiple preflop raises 90% of the time. so i won over $700 in the game. some of it i need to use for a new laptop. for my screen on the top of the laptop, slants and wont sit properly, its broken off and theres mechanical things sticking out. i dont know how to properly describe it. except to say its falling apart, although other than this, it still works properly to use the net. but i sure do hate spending the money to replace it, but it should be done and quite soon. and no i dont feel at ease buying online craigslist or in a pawn shop, afraid of getting one which wont work right.

theres no walmart or best buy or target or Kmart or office depot convenient near me and everything here in the AC NJ area is big Uber expense, or lfyt. fares in NJ much higher, probably due to laws forbidding u from pumping ur own gas.

i kind of miss shreveport. steady housing, free buffet every day, and good games. but i think i won so much above normal id do much worse if i returned but i do think finding a dentist not too high would be much simpler there since i checked on one before. by the way for those who dont know 1 rotten tooth broke off and fell out close to 1 week ago, but it still needs a dentist, others need out, and theres pieces left under the gums. the one next to it looks hideous too.

im sure the Trop will cut off my free play before long, for im staying off the machines and my $150 in free play per week will not last long, they cut u off quick. plus i dont have nearly the room offers since the Taj shut down. i thought id get plenty of rooms from Harrahs, but truthfully, i think id rather have steady housing, such as vegas or toledo or shreveport. im getting too old and my suitcases worn out.

Borgata had over 8 stud games going. i got stuck close to $800 in $20-40 stud yesterday but recovered it with over $200 profit before going home. the nugget is closing at 4am every morning, even if the table is full of people. the showboat is reopened, but without a casino. Hard rock is thinking of buying the Taj.




Thursday, April 6, 2017

making the RIGHT decision, in the eyes of Almighty God

I'd like to use this update to talk about my friend Ray in Toledo, and how i feel about whats happening in his life since i came to Toledo. Mentally, financially, spiritually, etc. One thing i dont wish is to feel like im a burden to him, though he welcomes me to live in his home as long as i would like, even if he cannot drive me back and forth to detroit everyday.

I've been told everything in his house is mine in the way of food, tons of old tshirts, etc. including letting me have his front door keys. things were going good in his life for about 1 week with his poker results, before it all came crashing downhill, and now hes broke and dug into his credit for about $1000 or so, not sure of the total.

he's basically never got into $2-5 NL, (kind of like me) but unlike me thinks he can easily do it with much less than $5000. (i recommend $30,000). he tried it a few times in motor city when stuck, and thought it would be easier than winning in $1-2 because he felt he could read their hands easier instead of them being on any 2 cards, and he could isolate and take down dead money. he really wishes to spend most of his time in detroit in $2-5 instead of $1-2, regardless of it he can afford it. he thinks since he keeps throwing money away in keno or pickem poker VP machines, he's better off in $2-5. the good news is hes never played BJ, or has any interest.

he is seriously wondering why hes been losing and if God's plan for his life is to just sit alone in an empty room and go work out in the gym til he dies. i've never seen a reason to work out myself, but it seems to help him get women to write online, its amazing how many seem to want to meet him or how many dates hes been on. (he dont mention hes on SSDI or plays poker because he knows then no one would write). like me, he knows how much modern liberalism has destroyed women turning into good Christian wives. now i have lots of respect for being open and honest with women and dont like the way he dont mention this, i feel its wrong to not be open and upfront with the women. its not fair to the women, and isnt conducive for building relationships, which is the ONLY thing i want with women, (someone to love me i go home to every night, certaiinly not to go out on dates). i wonder if God is judging him in poker results over this? hes wasted about $100 or more some months due to spending too much on meals on dates and these women dont love him. mostly women in their 50s wishing to get drunk or sleep around, which he has no interest in doing. not many women under 40 write him. he knows how affirmative action works in toledo, how factories only hire blacks and women now, 49 out of 50 of their new hires in the Ford plant. he couldnt get in no matter how much he tried and had connections, being told they wont hire due to affirmative action requirements.

hes basically a very good person, one of Gods best servants on earth, as much as he does for others such as letting Nick live there for a while due to problems between Nick and his wife. without expecting anything for it. i've never met anyone more unselfish. this is why he seems so wierd to all the rich moneyed people reading my blog who are greedy bastards. Ray like God, hates greedy rich people and this is why he helped start a union once years ago, before unions were corrupted by the left. remember, Jesus went after them with a whip, and said its easier for a camel to go thru the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter Heaven.

Ray admires Man In black, due to the fact hes worked hard in low wage jobs his whole life. Ray did too til he became disabled. this is why hes getting a much better form of social security disability. he admires Vince too.

Truth be told, he is worried because his truck quit running, for 2 weeks now we've been spending $160 per week to rent a rental car, splitting the cost in half. he knows this cant continue and must get a car right away, but he dont wish to pay over $120 per month, (too little income) or put it on his $11-12k in unused credit, because he hates to touch it, worried he wouldnt be able to repay. i told him its better than having a monthly car payment then not be able to pay, least then the car wont be repossed. he was surprised to learn how many used car dealers will accept visa.

he cannot stand the idea of not having a car, and his family wouldnt like it, so of course this is his #1 priority. its effecting him to where he cant play good poker.

keeps him from getting good sleep, causes him to stress out and throw money in non poker games, (horrible idea) Now lets be honest. if someone is engaging in self destructive behavior and u care about them, and they refuse to change, how does it make u feel? any of u able to relate or know someone who fits this description?

i worry its MY fault for coming to toledo, since he used to not go to play poker nearly everyday. not since the old days in his early 20s before he worked, and was living in tunica doing nothing but grinding stud and omaha 20 yrs ago. its true that the BEST way for someone struggling financially to have a better life for themselves is to start relying on gambling for extra income instead of the govt. it makes u feel so much better about yourself morally. im a wondeful example of how it makes ur life better. im now usually always way over $10k instead of way under $5k, sleep indoors now, and dont rely on panhandling.

but not everyone is cut out for it. some just too dumb, some just too stubborn, some just unable to deal with the pressure of the swings. to survive, u must never straddle, never post or sit til the BB passses u. and rarely tip unless winning. most people cannot do it, they succumb to others who like to tell u what to do.

the music ray likes to listen to is so immoral and ungodly, (heavy metal and other rock) its no wonder u cant think well with them on using headphones. plus he knows too much coffee, too little sleep, not enough time spent in the gym, hurts him at the table. plus he keeps getting up leaving the game or changing seats/tables if not winning. u cant do this if u are a professional. u realize winning hands could take hours. he seriously dont see much money u need in reserve at ALL times. and that it could never be spent. he thinks i should spend it on my medical health.

i feel im putting pressure on him by living in his house and going to play poker daily. so i went to detroit today, took a hotel for a couple nights, (might renew for the week, seems decent enough and low enough cost and possibly safe enough too). but its too far from the casino for low uber fees, theres surcharges like crazy in detroit overnights. but if i can get to the casino and back without needing his help, it takes pressure off him to go more often. since i didnt need to go when he would go home, i ended up winning $375 here after earlier losing $175 in toledo. this lets Ray get to sleep much sooner tonight (not playing no poker) and he hopes to spend the entire day today viewing dealerships in bowling green and oregon looking to buy some cars he seen advertised online.

the bigger question is am i ruining his life by getting him into poker again? winning $500 or so per week sure would give him a better life, it would for anyone in his situation. i felt this is the solution for flushdraw too. it was for me. or is he not capable of winning due to being unable to conquer his demons on playing other games? or would he conquer those demons if less stressed? he worries he might destroy his credit but he definitely wishes to play $2-5. but does anyone on here agree its easier to win in than $1-2? hell if i believed this, id play it myself with the $18,000. he even thinks u can win a hourly higher rate in $2-5 than in $1-2 and he refuses to believe the players are a lot better, he thinks lots are drug dealers he knows, spoilt rich guys with money. including the guy who ripped him off and lied about what he would pay on his old truck he knew from poker. ($75 less than he promised on the phone).

im trying very hard to make Ray a better life, but am i wrong? should i hit the airport today for atlantic city? i wish he would succeed, im tired of seeing him broke. winning in poker should be so easy and the solution for everyones financial troubles. i will see him tonight when he returns to detroit after going car shopping. i can either go home, go to the airport up the street, or stick in this area living in the hotel. but i cant afford the uber fees.




Friday, March 31, 2017

slow growth

It's been quite a long time since i've lost in a live casino poker table. the last 10 or more sessions on my phone, theyre all wins. new roll of $19,100 from around $18,000 several days ago. and this money is going to be used for the dentist soon, i think ive found the one in Toledo i will end up using. Ray however, is still spending way too much of his meager roll on pick em poker or keno. sometimes he wins though. more than i would expect. i do think he would be $1000 or so better off had he only played poker. right now hes worried about getting a new (not new) car before Tues so we're not charged for weekly rental again. his landlord owns a dealership or works in one, and didnt treat him right as far as keeping his word. nor did the guy who bought the one which broke down for $200 when he offered him $275 over the phone, then shows up with $200 in person.

i keep buying in for only $50 since im not stuck, (the min buyins so much less here than in NV) and keep winning with it. sometimes been lucky winning early on when i shouldve lost. so many policies different here than in NV. as far as 10 people, straddle rules, requiring u to have a players card to play cash in toledo, etc. a banned player hit the BBJ once and this is to stop this. the worst is in motor city, when every time u go broke, u must get up out of your seat and go to the cage to rebuy chips. Buying chips from the cage to begin with before u sit instead of from the dealer is poor enough customer service but many rooms outside of NV do this.

Rays old truck quit running, so we paid $80 each to rent the car for a week. he had to have a car. it stopped rather suddenly. he should have enough credit to buy a car, and is considering putting it outright on his various credit cards to avoid monthly payment from the other dealership not thru his landlord who does this.

no BJ for me since leaving Jacksonville, except for far less than $100 online with bitcoin. toledo the 6 deck shoes are $15 min. both in detroit and toledo continous shufflers or those not paying 3-2 are lower priced, but no normal BJ games for lower stakes like in vegas reno or shreveport. so im not tempted to play because i feel the min bet is too high. remember im still much less than the $22000 i left reno with. not as low as the $15,700 i reached in jacksonville after buying so much bitcoin but still not good. only good news is ive been over $10,000 for a long time. since 2010, seems close to 80% of the time. much different than in my younger days. i dont buy hookers like i did either in my younger days, could this be co-related?


Thursday, March 23, 2017

detroit poker

I get more and more lazy about updating this blog regularly because i dont get paid money for doing so, and i feel i need to spend 100% of my time earning money since im so stressed about it all the time. unlike Ray who spends some of his time on OKcupid looking to meet women to go out with. which i never do because i cannot bring myself to take time off, or spend money. in fact, with todays loss of over $1000, half of it on $2-5 in motor city, some of it on the charity room in MI, some of it from Greektown, where i think i made a bad bluff attempt due to impatience, (described both this hand and one other hand with 7-7 to Ray from the previous nite) which im too lazy to do here right now because im too tired to write this blog, im down to less than i left FL with.

but Ray is glad i showed him $2-5 NL. tonight he played it for the first time and he won $350. so now hes willing to use his credit to play it, because he thinks the players are much more willing to gamble than the $1-2 players, and feels he can win enough in it to "not get frustrated". it will keep him off the money hes wasted on VP this week.

i dont think i played the $2-5 nearly as bad as the $1-2. didnt lost patience like i did more than once in $1-2 this week. at least im not playing no more BJ. didnt try to make extravagant moves or bluffs like the ones i told Ray about, which he can tell here in the comments if he is less lazy than me. but this final hand, i make it $25 with AK preflop. 2 callers, and im last to act. flop comes K67 with 2 spades to a flush, they check i bet $65, one guy calls. turn comes 5, not my favorite card, with 2 flush draws now out there. if im beat, im going to have to call his bet so i overbet the pot to $400 allin. theres 4 or so with piles over $2000 in the table. he calls, river is A offsuit, which is good because then i suck out if he had 2 pair. hes got the 34 of hearts? wtf? he called $65 on the flop? with nothing but the gutshot?

im almost thinking id been better off staying in columbus, as bad as their games were, i still came out ahead close to $700 while there.

if anyone noticed anything weird with the blog in this past week, lightning accidently published his blog here, then immediately deleted it and put it on his blog.

Friday, March 17, 2017

Hollywood Columbus Trip report

Blog Trip Report. (guest post by Ray)

Starting out in Cleveland, I began by picking my old friend Tony Bigcharles at Cleveland international Airport. He had a long week in Florida, and was very tired so we (He) decided to only play for a few hours in Cleveland. The Casino in Cleveland is in an awkward location downtown. I would recommend that anyone who plays poker on a regular basis go there, but if your in the neighborhood go check it out. So we ended up there about an hour, I got very lucky and made a nice score. Tony held his own and made some quick scratch for a nibble at the local KFC in the rougher part of Cleveland. After TBC had a nice warm helping of food he snuggled up in my back seat for a nap while i drove the turnpike 2 hours home. Once we hit Toledo i gave him a choice of Toledo or Detroit to play. He chose Detroit. So we went up north another hour to play at Motor City (Which by the way is the best action in Michigan i've seen). I think he won a few bucks there i can't remember, but he fared well for the amount of traveling he did and how tired he was. We took off from there and hit a private charity game by Detroit Metro, the list was to long. Tony don't like waiting, it is not his style. So we took off again, he fell asleep i ended up taking Ann Arbor way home and hitting Kroger to buy Tony snacks and goodies. I grabbed us mini carrots and apples and protein bars. Tony then slept in my room by himself, which i give him every time he comes, while i sleep in the other room.  he woke up like then thirsty dogs after a coon hunt ready to play in Toledo. I think he made a nice little score there, and started on about Columbus is the place to be we need rest. So we took off to my pad and he hit the bed and was up again for work on Saturday, he started by playing a little in Toledo. It was early Sunday morning so instead of sleeping i grabbed a quick tank of gas and hit the road to Columbus. We arrived around 7 am. he wanted to find certain hotels i kept driving around so he could see different things in Columbus. We then hit the poker game at Hollywood Columbus, it was a decent little morning for him, he hit 2 drawings for a hundred a piece called a "Hot" seat drawing. The table where they draw the seats get a hundred a piece and the winner gets like 250. After we played there long enough for the room to let us check in we hit a La Quinta. There was a very very very cute Mexican woman working. She let have it early and we went to the room and crashed. We both woke up, then hit the road and drove by a few more potential places to stay. After Tony had decided where the next week long room will be we hit the Casino for round 2. The game was tight, back n forth struggle for chips. Columbus has some good games and some tight nitty games. No biggie its like that everywhere now a days. 

We kept hitting the casino to log hours for the promotion. The promotion has you receiving cash back for playing from Sunday at 6 am. to Friday at 6 am. If you play 15  hours you can get 50 dollars cash back, 20 hours is a 100 cash back, 25 hours is 200, 35 hours is 350, and 45 hours is 500. This is good incentive for players to play longer sessions on their slower days during the week. So Tony and I kept on hitting the game after we slept here and there. It is was a very sketchy sleeping schedule.  In between playing this week Tony kept up with a friend named Jeremy from Twitter that told us about some great games at Shark Tank. This is a local room in a shopping complex in Columbus. It is strictly just poker, they have several different games including 1/2 no limit hold em. 15/30 round by round with a full kill. The round by round is like the good old days, one round of hold em, one round of Omaha high only, then one round of Omaha hi/low 08. So one evening me and Tony went for a drive he used his maping system on his phone to help me find my way there. We walked in the room and it seemed to be a nice place to play. If your not a yearly member you pay 20 for that day to play of course this is good because there is no rake on any games. When we left there we came home to get rest for another day at work logging endless hours in a 1/2 game for the weekly salary we are now eligible for. 

During our sessions me an Tony have only played at the same table a few times. During one of these times we did end up involved in a hand together. Tony was on my left and someone made it 12 after me and tony called the 2, when it became my turn to act i took it up to 25 and it was now on Tony to act. He sat and thought about it for a few seconds and threw it away. The original raiser then acted and put me all in which was a great bet by him. The hand ended up where i had an AQ, the original raiser had AK, he had me dominated. The flop came 9 diamonds, 9 hearts, 10 of hearts. Me and the original raiser are all in and the only ones in. I am ready to re-buy and Tony is yelling that he folded a JQ of hearts. As Tony was saying this the K of hearts hit the board on the turn. He then became extremely anxious about how i made him throw away a straight flush in the biggest pot our table had in hours. I was more worried about how i made a bad move and had to re-buy another hundred. Just as i pulled out my wallet the black J hit the board giving me broadway and escaping with a pot i had no business winning. Tony was very very disappointed i raised him out of the hand with that hand because i hadn't played a hand in a long time. He was putting me on KK or AA i am sure. 

Now its weekend time coming, and questions are everywhere on what to do and play. Columbus isn't like the old days in the early nineties with all the Roman Catholic church festivals that we could come down and play Stud and Omaha at. Its was a great action town for years. But in all Tony and I are both up and expenses are eating my profit. He is doing better down here than me. But we still need to make better scores soon. 

I am not sure what Tony is thinking next, will it be Shreveport, Vegas, Reno, or even Boston. I just don't know and neither does he. The next blog we can talk about Jesus Christ more, i apologize to those that do know Jesus and didn't hear me talk about him on here.

----the above portion of the blog was written by Ray---

today i would like to share with u one hand history. i won my biggest pot of the day on this, but feel i misplayed the hand by not shoving the turn. i didnt really wish to add in more variance, when up for the day biggest win in days of poor luck. I had AK and called someone elses $12 preflop raise, as did one other guy. flop comes K69 with 2 spades. the preflop raiser bets $25, the other big stack calls, and should i raise here? i called, worried the original better might have AA KK or the chop. theyve both seen me try to bluff a few times, which were pretty much the only reason id been up over $200 tonight. Unlike what i told sickcallmcgee, the games are very nitty most of the time. the promotion is the reason. it will loosen up over the weekend, when hours do not count. turn comes 7 of clubs, he bets $60, the other guy calls, i dont shove like im probably supposed to with my last $200+ but only call. i worry someone might be waiting on me, expecting me to. not him but the other big stack. river comes 2 of hearts, total blank. they both check, and i sit thinking, wanting to bet, knowing they might put me on a bluff, but worry theyre sandbagging. i finally check. original better raiser insta mucks without seeing my hand. must of been on draw. i show ak and its good, other guy must of had like KQ? never know. i feel i missed lots of value not raising the turn, i mightve got paid much more depending on how strong the draw was.. even worse i gave them a free card which couldve cost me the pot. i just didnt want to give back the profit when im only working to earn my $500 for 45 hours. with 1-2 hours left to go.

Thursday, March 9, 2017

I am so glad to be out of Jacksonville and by the time u read this, ill be playing poker in Cleveland

$15,700. Thats it. How'd it get so low? well for one thing im not winning here in Jacksonville. Now im not claiming the games arent beatable, for i won over $150 today in $4-8 stud hilow, then lost more than this in $2/2 NL. But i do know i dont feel like i have the bankroll for any of the games i usually feel i have the roll for. (even when i had the same size roll or LESS in years past). This is NOT the main reasons for this low of roll however.

why'd i come here? well i wanted to protect myself from losing my money in BJ. now to do this, i shouldve came with the $45,000, before i went to reno, and this wouldve been solved. coming after most of it was lost was a little too late. im paying $375 per week for my room, and $30 a day with uber. this is way too much for me to handle without cracking up under the pressure mentally or financially. this afternoon my allegiant i purchased 2 nights ago when i first realized i wouldnt be able to survive here before the price went up--will touch down in cleveland, and Ray will be waiting to pick me up. we will play some poker, then go home to toledo. we will most likely visit columbus for their promo within the week too.

But spending $625 a week? when i can live with Vince or Ray for a fraction of this, is dumb and stupid. yes i like my independence but the critical thing to do is once u are in a big hole, to stop digging. in reno i paid for less when i lived there long term near the peppermill, and i wish id just paid the $250 per week to live in the vagabond instead of needing to earn free rooms while in reno. wouldve kept me from playing as much BJ. id still played but less.

im not sure i could even earn $625 per week here in Jacksonville. the rakes more, no comps, nothing is free. if i ever return i think ill stay in orange park executive suites for like $269 per week. its a mile walk, no more big uber fees, dont look no safer than budget suites in vegas, but no more unsafe either than this. i do like the option of PLO8 in the other room, and the mon-wed-fri stud 8. the stud 8 players much much too loose, i turned $96 into $261 in it.

im very much on edge, due to financial stress. the $4500 in bitcoin i lost online playing BJ since coming to Jacksonville to get away from BJ, (well not all of it, it didnt all arrive yet) but enough of it. being dumb enough to purchase from other people for over $100 juice twice. simply cause i hate the week wait thru coinbase. im going to get banned if i dont go somewhere i can relax without huge expenses and stress. i got in trouble twice this week here, but not thrown out--just talked to. this don't even count me blowing up on the pit boss in reno in BJ. both times i felt the others were needling me, once this guy was laughing at me, another time i got slowrolled. took some horrible beats too. theres definitely a clique among the regulars. and this one guy and his friend i think mightve worked together against me in the 3 handed PLO8. the night i lost the $2000 in it. since then ive kept my buyins so tiny they werent enough to work with. (like $40 in $2/2). i only played $2-5 NL twice with $100 or $100 and change.

for as many years as ive played poker for a living its very embarrassing ive played so little $2-5. and no tourneys in which there was substantial money in play.

the uber drivers suck here horribly, tonight i had to complain to uber, get the fare reduced by $6-7 when the driver really screwed up big time again way out of the way, likely intentionally cause he did twice. he got a 2. and this afternoon he, once accepting the fare, the guy never showed or moved his car. i finally got him to cancel since if i did it id be charged. he was driving someone around in his car not thru uber when he accepted and 20 minutes later he was still waiting for them to exit his car.

I would like to talk a little bit about the criminal justice system in the US and how it needs to be reformed. Lightning as always misrepresented my record in his comments on the old blog, and i didnt like what memphis Mojo said about my personality either. the only reason id say anything unkind is when under stress over money, so if i was dealing (a stress free job full of free gifts continously) i sure wouldnt need to ever be unkind to survive and pay my bills. i never tried to rob a soul. i only pretended to, which shouldnt be a felony. trying to rob someone should, but NOT pretending to. but this isnt the way the law works, they didnt believe me, thought no one would do this who wasnt serious so they claimed i "must of changed my mind". even my son couldve had a serious felony (burglary) my mom told me never to tell a soul, but he got lucky the guy wouldnt prosecute. he was having mental health problems so bad he didnt realize it wasnt his house he was entering.

being charged with a felony shouldnt force u to get low paid min wage work for the rest of ur life, and never being able to look for a normal job. theres no incentive to seek work if u cant get good paying work. even gambling for $17 per hour is double min wage. the problem is u need a bigger roll than most would ever dream is needed. why did 1000s of us vote for Trump, especially those in poverty unable to get work, people like Ray, Vince, etc? its because we were left out. Ray would tell me of not getting factory jobs blacks could get with affirmative action. Vince would tell me how women are favored given priority over men. Trump won big due to economic issues, not because the US is racist. the only racists in this country are those who arent white. my mom used to work cleaning houses, when i grew up in poverty. but in this new world, only immigrants are given this job nowdays. no white maids in hotels less than 10%. its a big lie most people believe that americans dont want these jobs. u cant even work at mcdonalds without being surrounded by those who arent like u, so who would feel at ease working there? i got outrageoud in reno while playing BJ and every single dealer in a row being asian. lots of races discriminated against in dealing, white, black, mexican even, because they only wish to hire asians. sure u see a few, but the vast majority in some places are asian. thankfully this isnt the case in toledo, detroit or jacksonville, but it sure pissed me off in the silver legacy. none of the asians ever talk to thank u for tips or root for u like the older white women do or the men.

but yes i couldve not gotten into gambling and been so heavily dependent on it to survive constantly stressed, afraid to turn loose of $1. couldve found work had it not been for the felony, when i last went all over town applying for work (below age 30) no one would ever call me in for an interview because of my felony. now it would be over 20 yrs so maybe its less important but im totally bummed out this many years later. no work history would be a bigger issue now than the felony.

instead of ruining kids lives for years for buying weed, or other minor felonies, why not clear records after a certain period of years without any issues? if 7 is too little, surely 20 would be sufficient to clear the records and seal them. mine took place at age 20, 28 fucking years ago. sure trying to rob a place might make some think twice before they hire u, but joking around pretending to rob the place then admitting u dont want the money and arent serious shouldnt ban u from working the rest of ur life. and with this im tired of writing must sleep to be up for the plane. im not publishing this til im boarding the plane though.