Sunday, May 28, 2017

no progress

well, May is almost done and im still out well over $1000 for the month, making this the worst month since i started keeping records for poker only. this is why this years hourly is only $8+. and my mouth still feels funny since the work is complete, so im still taking the antibiotics. but i need a regular md, my sleeps disrupted nightly every 1-2 hours to use the restroom a very small amount. plus ive still got teeth on the left side needing work. and i dont know how long ill be in vegas would still rather be at Rays. its cheaper, and he leaves the house without wanting to wait all day. Plus he's there with me in the poker room much of the time.

the good news is theres better action in vegas than i remember on previous trips. looser games i think. too bad this year i wont be able to afford any of the tourneys, i just cant bring myself to do it when im not winning. remember unless u are staked, not more than 1% should be used to enter a tourney. even the NL horse or PLO8 events in the Nugget Grand are $250. seems higher priced than i remembered 2 yrs back when i think i last played.

i dont think ill ever have the $45,000 back, even in the next 10 yrs. all i can hope for is this never drops below $10,000 and the measly hourly rate i still earn continues enough to cover my expenses and that i can somehow improve my health.

Because Vince has his own washer and dryer in his condo, which i have keys to, i can have my laundry done here too. i think ill have to move out end of june when Lisa from NJ comes to live here.

the first week i was up close to $700 or more but it all went on dentistry. id almost turned a $2500 loss in may into much less. but now im still out a lot. had the loss once down to under $1000

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Budget dental of Las vegas, trip report

Before i went in, it quit feeling sore. But now, with 3 teeth gone on the right side, (still could use the one done in the far back on the other side) but figured it would be best to do just the one side where i could still eat from the other side of the mouth. the 3 removed was the part left from where the one broke off and fell out, and the one next to it in bad shape, plus one on the bottom i didnt realize was in this much need of fixing.

the total cost, (along with the exam xrays) was $889 and i prepaid it beforehand with a debit card. While in vegas and winning in poker between the nugget or the wynn, id built the $15,400 back to over $15,800, but with this plus medicines filled, im now in the $14,900s for the lowest point in some time.

Vince went to fill the prescription in the CVS near his house by desert inn and mohave, and when he took me back to pick it up with my ID, the power in the store plus the streetlights had gone out (i later heard it was due to some tree which fell) so i had to wait quite some time for pain medications. today when the work got finished, id felt more sore than i had before the work was done. before the work was done, much of the feeling was gone.

i was surprised they were able to do the IV sedation the same day. Vince prearranged this by not having me eat in the 8 hours before coming.

some of the articles im reading online claim its okay to eat food such as macoroni, mashed potatoes, milk, just no coffee. it said not to rinse ur mouth til 24 hours passed too. im assuming vince will be able to find salt to put in the water then? i couldnt stand having gauze in there another minute but it was needed to get rid of blood. i worry all the time about dry socket.

theres still 1 or more teeth which will need work on the other side, but the emergency ones needing fixed are taken care of. of course they did tell me i also need a deep cleaning done. the employees were mostly asian, its in an area of spring mountain filled with signs in asain.

Vince is talking on the phone with his girlfriend Lisa in atlantic city, who deals in the Trop poker room and is moving to vegas next month. i couldnt quite make out what he said but it seemed he mentioned about when they thought the other teeth would need done before they become an emergency too.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

its good to be home

Flying out of BWI into LAS yesterday evening was one of the better decisions ive made in the past month. no more huge poker losses, no more $80+ daily hotel expenses. am now paying Vince $100 per week (or $20 day). it would be nice if this option would someday exist nearby the nice rooms on the east coast. Maybe someday once Ray increases his bankroll enough to move out of Toledo, hes considering Florida.

in the 72 hours i was close to MD live, and horseshoe baltimore, i lost around $2000. before this i didnt do well in Parx, de park, or dover either. in fact, im still down over $2000 for May, which is the worst month ive ever had for as far back as i remember (poker only). But i did win $400 in the nugget poker room today, plus $241 in the Wynn. not too bad of a start. of course with rent, groceries, and $160 VBJ loss in the el c beforehand im not up too much, but its a good start.

Martingaling poker losses aint worked out so well for me this month, so i bought in only $200 in the nugget, both times, and $100 in the wynn. had the $100 in the wynn just shy of $500 shortly before Benny (from roughingthepunter) came in. but i lost 2 good pots. both of which i folded, and i begun feeling like im being bluffed, one guy was a known bluffer, one wasnt. so i left with $341, and walked to mc d by cc with benny across the street from the old riviera which closed down. i dont wish to play with this much of my roll on the table no more, since i feel so broke.

but im now at $15,600 instead of slipping below $15,000. of course theyres huge dental costs looming, but is this enough to start working with in vegas? im sure the Trooper or Flushdraw or Ray wouldve been happy starting with this, and in my 20s id been thrilled to. but now i feel broke.

the hand i feel i folded the winner i had JJ on a board of 3569 and got checkraised to $30 from $15, then $145 on the turn. id just caught him bluffing me earlier when i had QQ and the board was TT7, i checked he bet, turn 8, i check he bets, river 2, i check he bets A9 missed. i folded cause i had too many chips, didnt wish to give it back, didnt expect him to twice in a row, but would he?

then the asian reraises my $24 to $60 preflop, and flop comes aax and he bets huge and i fold QQ. so yes, i definitely need to go. u see why of course. were these bad folds? the less on the table, the more im comfortable til i recover a working bankroll.

Though theres only 1 good VBJ left outside vegas (within 40 miles) theres still 2 in NM it seems. seems motels very low priced in ALBQ. it seems tahoe biltmore is getting rid of theirs this month, the new one just got put in which shuffles every round.

if u see my twitter, u will see agsweep seems to have found me a dentist who does the lowest cost iv sedation i know of in the US here in vegas for $250 additional. i hope its in-house and not a referral which takes 2 months. i wish the teeth could be fixed cheap instead of just pulled, (ones gone actually 2) wheres theyres nothing left to fill or save. but if i run out of teeth how do i eat?

Vince is going to phone them tomorrow, explain the situation and see about getting me in there this week.

on the plane a woman who didnt wish to sit by some other girl who was in her seat, went and moved to the seat by me. then she was talking to someone before departure on the phone about some girl plus possibly herself being not let in the room she insisted be allowed in. good looking girl too, i wondered if she was a hooker going to vegas (lots of them fly in weekly). she shared her mc d food with me, and i spoke of going to play poker with $15,000. too scared to request her contact info however.

considered writing a phony blog of being in vegas under 24 hours again and flying with her out of town to start a new life with a new GF. but now too many seen me in person in vegas.


Saturday, May 13, 2017

leave the table when u no longer feel like playing, regardless if u are up or down

I think sometime this week ill return to Toledo/Detroit to Ray's house to see the dentist. if i went to shreveport, Reno or Vegas, i would have no one to accompany me to the dentist, which is required if they give u IV sedation. the reason im concerned is although theres no pain, theres a pimple which developed on my gums in the area where the decayed tooth broke off, and im reading online what the cause of this is. Flights from BWI are over $100 more than flights out of PHL, but the amtrak to toledo is a very low $75-95. im tired of high priced hotel rooms. my 2 nights here near MD live cost me $184. my last 4 nights in Dover Downs, (due to the $29 special) only cost me $140 total. my nights in wilmington cost me like $80 per nite. my nights by Parx cost me like $75 per night. plus i spent $80 once on uber in the past 10 days, $89 once, $171 once, and $77 once. Ever since i left NJ, my expenses went up, but theres some nice casinos here if theyd ever have cheaper living options nearby.

finally won today too. ($200 buyin, in the $1-2 NL in MD live about 2am. eventually left about 6.30 this morning with $445). i had it up to $642 once, then caught myself doing 2 dumb things. so i figured i better get out of there before i self destructed. i did find $20 in free play id heard of once in an email, but no room offers. so i ran it thru, cashing out $24. i'm still out over $600 for the month of May in POKER, meaning for just poker, it will be my worst month in the last couple years. no month last year was at a loss except for the $447 in june. and dont forget last aprils $9000 win.

i tried to steal a pot with 69 of clubs on a flop of 478 with 2 spades and 1 club. it didnt work. turn was another 4 so now i picked up a flush draw to go with the straight draw, which made me pay $50 more to see the river. then i missed totally. he showed 79, thinking he bluffed, but he didnt. river was A of spade, completing a possible flush, which he didnt have. he was definitely the wrong player to check raise to $65 from $10 on the flop. then i let the guy on my immediate right, (who i suspected of knowing who i was) bluff reraise his straddle to $60 preflop with 72 offsuit. flop comes 10 7 8 and i folded my 55. he did have me beat, but i shouldve shoved allin preflop over the $60. he was definitely deep enough to fold for over $400 more.

if i were to have stayed in the dover area, id be getting $168 next fri for hours earned. eventually theyll send a mailer to rays address, with $300 slot play. i'm glad hes got a car again, with excellent gas mileage he says. plus he says hes won over $900 in the past 2 weeks.

i wish something could be done regarding the collusion that goes on in smaller poker rooms, which the staff obviously dont care about since the colluders usually tip big off their ill gotten gains so they will be permitted to continue. i seen 2 guys checking it down, once with 9922 on the board, theyre last to act, with a nine in their hand, and simply check because theyre opponent is a woman whose a reg too. then these other guys claim they always check it down, asain guy with the rooms most hours reg, he has top set, and his opponent in seat 10 has the nut straight to his set of 10s . of course, against me they take my money. poker shouldnt be no friends. every man out for blood, no matter who its against.


Sunday, May 7, 2017

the path of least resistance

At one point since leaving Detroit for Atlantic city (never was intended to be my final destination by the way) i had $21,500 while at the high water mark. This was MORE than the $20,970 i had before i bought my plane ticket that morning. Since then ive been dropping steadily and if u look at my phone graphs, quite a bit has been on live poker, most of it in fact, (the $1500 on the 3 card poker machine in the Trop the other day notwithstanding) plus about $500 more on some regular slot machines, mostly gemtiles in the Borgata. Parx got rid of their old shufflemaster VBJ machines, not even the bad kind remain. so ive not lost one penny on BJ or slots here in Parx. Then well over $1000 got used on motels, hotels, trains, planes and Ubers in the past 3 weeks too. its been quite a while since i bought the plane tix.

What this all means is im at the end of my rope with no more tolerance for losing any money. I'm too old to start over from scratch with a roll of $2 or $3 thousand dollars. and having tasted big money on $45,000 not more than 3 months prior, i feel tremendously broke everyday (stressed out by it and feel i cant spend a dime, no matter how much its badly needed and will help in the long run). and whats worse, no one can relate to me over it, except maybe Ray, who would also never spend a dime on things he needed. Not only losing, i have no tolerance for policies which annoy me, inconsiderate things other do, people who dont care, people with insincerity who fake they care when only making conversation, microwaves not turning in circles (worry its not cooking fully and ill die of food poisining) fridges which freeze the milk, inability to get others to see my point mostly cause theyre too dumb to and dont care, and not having any friends around here to talk things over with while on the tables. (people who genuinely wish to see me win and improve and play my best-not the kind who wish to take my money).

and being in a bad mood (and worried as to how ill survive paying $75 per night for a long term place to live if i dont wish to waste more money on traveling) i dont really care WHO i get the money from, as long as i get it. whether the money comes from winning it from the other players, or out of the dealers and the cocktail waitresses tips (fuck them anyway since theyre union and like to flaunt in my face their $20,000 jewelry how rich they are) or whether i find it off someones wallet in the bathroom, or out in the parking lot of walmart asking for change. wasnt i told to stay in 1 place and not do no more traveling though im sure theyres many places id be much better off in and living much cheaper with steadier housing. i couldve tooken the $125 spirit flight into vegas tonight, but if i checked out of my room at 11, and the flight dont go til 7pm, and i cant bring my suitcase inside the casino, what was i supposed to do with my luggage in the meanwhile?

i feel like a lot of the players disrespect me (either because of reading the blog--or because since im losing and im not one of the regulars theyre used to seeing--feel im a complete idiot.) the glasses im wearing tend to make others feel this way. i'll make a preflop raise with a big hand and get called in 4-5 places. with hands most wouldnt call most people with. then they always end up hitting the hand no matter how far theyre behind like the previous night in the $2-5 game with KQ off preflop vs AQ suited for $105 left, and with 25 offsuit in the $1-2 then hit trip 5's on the flop into my overpair. I dont see the cliques here i seen in the Trop, but i can recognize thier regulars (and harrahs regulars) theyve been coming there everyday for 20 yrs. i dont recognize the regulars here.

i still wouldve liked to play the $6-12 hilow stud8 and omaha game, but ive held off on the time charge. at least with the time charge in the PLO last night they got out closer to 12 hands per down than 4. the good news is u dont have to call $5 to bring it in, checking the $2 in ur BB works if no straddle or raise. the min buy is only $100 too, so i feel the money goes faster. the lesbian girl in the game had over $3000 in front of her last night.

---more to say later--suffice it to say, just left Parx (where im now banned) and will talk about it later. right now im packing bags to catch the Uber to PHL airport. im soaked its pouring rain, and a long walk thru a huge parking lot and 2 streets to get home. where im going, who can say? truth be told, i need a long vacation away from gambling. i dont need to be forced to win everyday to survive. no one here can relate to how it feels.

---2 days later-- ended up taking the Uber to Newark DE. took me a room not far from DE park. checked in slept all day, then sat in the $1-2 PLO and started losing. eventually (Zin?) from TX sat in, started raising every pot asking how much is the max, dropped about $1000, a lot of which i won so eventually left the casino with a small profit instead of a big loss of $900. some of it was won on the VBJ, its not countable but its now standing on soft 17. guy was mexican living in brownsville with his friends. some of the dealers here know somehow of my blog.

On the hand at Parx which got me banned when the asian guy slowrolled me, flop was 9h TKd i bring it in preflop for $10 with JQd so ive got the nut str8 with the royal open ended redraw. with my luck (being out so much this week and month) i decide not to slow play so i bet $35 on the flop. he bets $80 so i just shove. he thinks awhile then calls. he is loose. board goes runner runner TK for 2 running pair. he looks forever then when the dealers getting ready to ship me the pot finally shows K9 for boat on the river. this is the pot of the night, well over $900, id be $200 up instead of another $700 down. close to 2 weeks rent. at $75-80 per night, i can only afford to live 200 more days without income. i used to be able to prepay 2-3 yrs if i needed to. and when living with a higher standard (by this i mean better hotels and uber over city buses) i cant really go back to the old lifestyle of poverty. not at my age. i feel i spend too much to live, its the cause of lots of stress. if i win $100 a day, i never got any better off. just hold my own is all. if i lose $100 per day i deteriorate rapidly. out well over $1000 for May and my biggest loss in 2016 was $447 in June.

i rose up to quit, and tossed the chips across the table so hard they intermingled with his and another players, so i got banned for 48 hours. i cant afford to live by Parx without a car, (to either sleep in which could easily be done here or close by where its safe) or to get to the lower cost motels down the road. i felt so sick when i lost. i was totally counting on it as hard as the flop hit me and as huge the pot was and overdue i was for the big score. its been like this the whole week and i finally snapped.

i was tired of living in this hotel anyway but everyday instead of spending money to relocate, plus time, its SOO easy to just renew the room, though i couldnt afford it longterm. i need a longterm residence so i just do it. the easy way. moving around isnt easy. plus i didnt know where to go. im heading south, so i should be in Baltimore soon this week. i feel i should go to florida or vegas or shreveport or reno or detroit or stl. i no longer get free play in trop, they cut off the $50 3 times per week. no idea why since i blew the $1500.

now today, i did win $300 in DE park and left early. bought some books up the street for 90% off, some food, then went to my room. played mostly $1-2 PLO. then moved to holdem when up $300, which was the nittiest game ever. not the PL0, the holdem.

--yesterday, now---. today i won $103, $53 in the game only due to the final 2 pots, and turned my $50 slot dollars from playing u get free for 8 hours into $50.49. but the whole $103 went for 2 uber fares, and my $83 hotel. im going to leave once i sleep first.