Saturday, June 27, 2015

I'm still in Reno even though Lightning has now flown back to Illinois

and i've been doing a lot better since he came up here to see me from Phoenix (but he dont live in Phoenix). looking at the last 4 days since mondays loss in the mix game at the atlantis, i've gained back about $800+ off $1-2 NL alone. (not counting the win of a bit over $100 at the Tahoe Biltmore when lightning and i went on a drive around parts of Lake tahoe). i fed us both there with comps, and showed him how to sign up for the ATM promotion across the street, which won him about $117. he needed it as much bad luck as he's been having at poker. a lot of suckouts, although i kept losing to him due to my strong desire to show a bluff.

this small recovery at poker has gotten me back to $13.01 an hour from a low point of $12.68 an hour. But still, the lions share of money won this month was the $3000 gained on the VBJ on the previous trip to the Tahoe Biltmore. just think of where id be now if i wouldve lost.

what's important is ive regained my confidence at poker, and no longer feel i have to depend on VBJ (due to most recent results of about 7 out of 10 wins). i have options. i can buy in large or small, whichever is neccessary. and i can also avoid shorthanded games. i can also play radically different and manipulate my opponents emotionally too. (not play the way they will expect).

and it meant a lot to me Lightning was willing to visit here. he is the only one willing to do so for the most part who isnt already in the area. and i did my part by paying $50 on the rental car and for his food on 2 occasions. Meant a lot too how he was willing to briefly leave the table to drive me by the ATM machine to deposit money before i went home to sleep when too tired to sit there til he was done. (not for many more hours). i certainly got to spend a lot more time with him here than when he was in Vegas.

and he enjoyed meeting Karen too, and especially Karens friend Carol. and steve the dealer, among others. was also glad he changed his mind about getting more sleep, and decided for us to eat at Denny the final morning. he really thinks the Peppermill is a great poker room, but didnt feel the same about the Atlantis.

he took a few bad beats which im sure he will tell u of in his blog. most particularly a $600+ pot on a flop of T36 with 2 spades when he had aa and the opponent had 45 of spades for an open ended straight flush draw. all the money went in on the flop and the 10 pairing the turn wouldve scared both into checking, or maybe not. the other one consisted of flopping 66622 and being beat on the end by a 2 out suckout of QQQ22.

i got off relatively lucky on the one big pot i had against him (well there was also one other in which i played like a donkey-this one here though i played well). i called a small raise preflop with 89 diamonds and the flop was A92 and i called a small bet because it was small and i had a backdoor flush draw, and i knew the turn would make it easy to play from there. (either convert to the best hand, or easily get away). i hit the 8 on the turn and bet and then called a small raise. i wouldve reraised, but i didnt want him to fold if he had KK. river was an ace, so i check folded easily. i knew if he had ak and a blank came i could then bet big. lucky for me it wasnt a blank as he had AAAA for quads. but i got off light.

I am finally free to leave reno now, but i dont know i should. these are good games, and i like living nearby so cheap. i hate to risk giving it up although theres friends id like to visit outside of reno. i do still not like the games options after 3am in reno however. and i do have almost as much as the first time i went to baltimore, meaning i could go back and start out again where games are good and hotels are outrageously high per day.

theres a good freeroll tourny coming up at the peppermill july 12 though, and ive almost earned the $100 free play for spelling pluginandgo. all im missing now is the letter o.

Friday, June 19, 2015

WSOP $10 satellite entry

Considering how poorly ive been running (or playing) lately at live poker, perhaps its time for me to give online poker a try. last night i dropped $709 the first session, went over to the Big split machine and recovered $522 of it, then walked back into the poker room at the Peppermill, plays a few more hours, and lost another $254 by the time the game finally broke about 630am. then i walked back to the same machine and won another $153 more before leaving.

went to the barber shop and got a much needed haircut and shave before i went home for $26, and that way i was able to say i got at least one thing accomplished and out of the way for all that money i lost.

Online poker may not be as popular as it was in the mid 2000s, but its slowly been coming back. More states are legalizing it, (at least trying to) and the govt seems to be not bothering as much with the underground sites as it once was. I'm here to let you know the WSOP is going to be having a bracelet event this year that will take place online. (at least until u make the final table that is--then it will be done in person at the Rio).

The tourny is on July 2 at noon on for $1000. it ends at the rio on July 4. and for all of you who would rather not have to pay $1000 (or even have $1000 to enter) theres a wonderful opportunity courtesy of Poker Update for a $10 satellite entry on june 28 at 6pm. u have to register an account on and u have to be physically present in NV and logged into your computer on that date. (you do not have to live in NV however).

it will probably get a lot of entries, so its hard to say in advance how many seats will be awarded. the event u will be entering (if u win a seat) will be awarding a WSOP bracelet, same as the winners of all the live events each year get. The same type of bracelets Phil Hellmuth and Phil Ivey have earned. wouldnt it be great to have one of these for only $10?

so go ahead, check out Poker Updates website, check out all the tournament details on how to register and enter, and give it a shot if u have not yet already done so. It's possible many of the live professionals will be playing online for the first time just to have a chance to win the online bracelet event, and u might even find yourself sitting in the table with them unknowingly. and remember it will end at the Rio in person (not the satellite) but the $1000 wsop event u might win a seat into.

theres also great cash games online too for those of u who like them, not just tourneys. But at this time of year theres a lot of us who do like to try and enter as many tournaments as we can afford to have a better shot of winning big money in at least one of them. and for only $10, this is one of the cheapest ways u can give it a shot.

Monday, June 15, 2015

its time to say farewell

i probably should get out of the tahoe Biltmore really soon. Been here 6 whole days now (much longer than usual) and running out of comps, but when i came i had over $160 stored up from previous much shorter stays. and im still nowhere close to running out of food in my hotel room as much extra food as i brought this trip. its a good thing i got me this 2nd suitcase because i really needed it.

but since i came with $8900+ had $8800+ after paying the cabbie, $8900 plus again after doing the $50 atm promo across the street and picking up $45 in free play at the Biltmore, and then briefly had $11,168 a day ago, thats a pretty sizeable overall win on the VBJ. only about $100 or less is profit from the 3 nights i played poker, so its over $2000 won off the VBJ.

yes ive given back a bunch since, have over $500 less than i did, and at one point last night was out about $900, but wasnt out that much when i went to bed. after depositing the $2500 in the atm and then losing a lot since, i did have to take out another $800 from the atm again to have enough to bet with.

But its getting time to get back to reno. Lightning will be coming in 8 days, and i've got a drs appt at his office scheduled for 10.20am june 22. (they said to come in 30 min early which to me is stupid). but thank God its with a regular MD at his office for $120 instead of at some urgent care place with 100s of others in the lobby. at least now i feel i wont be as likely to be rushed in and out by the dr. and ill have someone i can consider my regular primary dr. at least until i move out of reno that is.

ive got so many things i need to ask the dr, and mom says i should have them do bloodwork to find things wrong i might not be aware of. by the way mom has tendinitis so she has to try and type with only her left hand. just seen a dr herself recently and she forgot where lightning lived, or remembered that by Lightning i meant John. (when i told her and Mark he was coming to visit). neither did Mark know who i meant by lightning.

should ask the dr why my scalps in such awful shape, and make sure ive got no infections. why i feel like ive got a bump in a couple areas, and a strange feeling in the chin at times. why i feel temperatures changes where the scalp is in poor shape. why i have to urinate so often and for such low amounts. why my eyesight is deterioating. and anything else one of u might think would be a good idea to ask id never think of.

and even if i lose $1000 again on the VBJ, i will still be at $9600+ which is better than when i left reno. this machine is certainly +ev overall. the way i bet may cause more variance, but im still getting all the big bets in at positive counts, and thats really all that matters. the fact i keep doubling them bets is just a sideshow and wont affect anything in the long run.

one of the Mexican security guards here who i think is new since he had the wrong name for the slot supervisor on duty has a habit which drives me up the wall. (anytime theres an attractive women playing a machine along, hes always coming over to chat her up. he must really be wanting to get laid awful bad). one girl i heard him asking if she was married or not. dont the women find this annoying? i would if I was a woman and the guy wasnt white.

it bugs me because i dont feel the same freedom to go up and talk to a woman and feel id be accepted. i feel a woman might get mad if i talked to her and have her BF beat me up or tell the management im bothering her. and i resent the fact the security guard can talk to her without having to worry about all these repurcussions. good looking guys can do whatever they like without ever having to worry about being charged with sexual harrassment, and ugly guys like me get in a lot of serious trouble if they try to go around talking to women. especially those of us who are socially awkward and have disabilities like aspergers. This has resulted in numerous bannings in years past in the casinos. (all of them about 15 yrs ago when i was young enough to still be interested in trying to talk to women--back before i felt ugly and old and felt it was pointless). lets bury once and for all the opinion its things i do in poker rooms thats got me banned. that was for very few bannings. (harrahs joliet). other bannings had to do with things outside of the poker room, think Binions, Venetian, etc.

For instance, once a casino near KCMO banned me because the girl i had rode to the casino with her and her family complained about me giving her money to kiss her. and they thought i was bothering her when i wasnt (it was her friend i was talking to, who needed money for a cab that i later met at another casino after id gotten her phone number). but she complained that i was still bothering her because she didnt like me hanging out with her friend. this girl had originally agreed to do it, and her family was broke and looking around for money in the slot machines and had told me about it. this was back in the days i was homeless alot thats how i met these types of people. the casino claimed they had a previous issue with me, when i was talking to a different women on a prior visit who didnt like a question or comment id made and complained.

u see, when u have autism its hard to know how to be appropriate when making conversation because u dont know social cues and cannot read others feelings. its why i cant establish trust with anyone and am scared of being setup and harmed by everyone i meet. or why i feel abondoned by every women whose ever once really liked me. (a great example being Josie, Britni and claudia).

then the other 2 major bans in vegas both involved being unable to relate to women instead of bad behaviours in the poker rooms. the MGM i got banned for trying to stop a hooker from leaving whod ripped me off, and the valet (her friend who she tipped) lied and said i grabbed a female guests coat to stop them from getting in their car. they didnt listen to my story when they seen id previously been 86ed from MGM elsewhere other casinos. now one time i did go in the poker room years later and a guy working there thought he recognized me from another property. (this was years ago and the earlier incident was even more years ago). ive not been in there in at least 10 yrs now. so he checked with security to see if i was banned and security came by and said yes i was and had me leave.

and the excaliber back when it was mandalay resorts group  and not the MGM? (but still a group of 4-5 casinos). that too had to do with a woman being friends with the security guard. she also got me banned at a place in mesquite once when we went out there. her name was Terry she was friends with a girl who used to work at binions in the snack bar. she was also friends with a security guard at the gold spike when it was a casino and talked that security head into letting me come back in.

sometimes she wanted to hang out and she was basically homeless and had issues. eventaully she moved to kingman and ive no idea what became of her since. she was needing money but when she got irrateted with me, wanted me to get the hell away and then told all the employees i was bothering her. mesquite it all started with me not wanting to see to see a movie in the theater. she sat in the security office most of the night because she claimed she was afraid to go back to our room.

at the time i was so broke i had no friends in the poker room to stand up for me anyway--all i played then was low stakes stud basically and the excaliber the employees didnt like my scalp allergies but i could still always play til the girl complained like hell to staff i was bothering her and would get away from her, yelling and screaming, and made the pit boss at the craps table think i was taking her money when it was money id gave her to play i was trying to make sure she bet a certain way. we were using a coupon and i was trying to fix it so there would be a small profit. (not the type of player whose welcomed).

and for that, im 86ed for life because i dont know how to fix it and lost Grumps friendship in helping me. the lady in charge didnt like me complaining about women having special privledges and her not listening and taking the other girls side because she was a woman.

so u see, all my bans are basically caused by my autism and not knowing how to interact and relate socially with women and its something i cant help due to my disability. ill never know how to talk to people without upsetting them. but it does make me very bitter towards sociable and attractive people because it makes me feel like they think theyre privledged and feel like they think they are better than me due to it.

Friday, June 12, 2015

Hyatt Incline poker room

i dont understand why im having so much good luck on this VBJ machine (up over $700 on it since arriving in Crystal Bay). maybe its just my style of betting, (and that i havent taken the big loss yet). I also dont understand why my hourly rate at poker keeps getting smaller and smaller. after tonights $193 loss at the $1-2, my new hourly is at its lowest point ever, ($13.37 per hour). it keeps getting closer and closer to falling under $13, from when it was always around $14-15. now thats averaging in over 2100 hours of play, so its probably actually negative if it keeps dropping (for just the last few weeks only). one thing that might be hurting me is ive seen almost NO quads or bonus hand payouts in a while.

Players in Reno might just be getting better at poker, (or more likely, better adjusting to my style of play). i worry my style of play is dying out and id like to learn how to beat the LAG style. What i really want is to find LAG players who will study and analyze my play 1 on 1 with me (after sitting in my game a few hours) and instead of targeting me specifically (which is unethical instead of targeting the table as a whole) be a friend out for my best interests and teach me what im doing wrong and to show me how to improve to where people like them can no longer take advantage of me.

u see thats how u learn. you dont learn by reading books, forums, or watching videos. u learn from 1 on 1 instruction in person with other good players. Players like stealthmunk, The Trooper, Grump, Pokerdogg, Rebecca, Vook, etc.

and tonights session was a bit frustrating and i took a few notes to remind me of certain hands. so while i sit here and play my $5 quadruple up MTT on Bovada with my $60 there, im going to go look at the notes section on my phone. I'm also cleaning out my microwave dish so i can cook some food. brought about a weeks supply of groceries with me from home, including plenty of detergent.

several things were happening in that poker room tonight that were really grating on my nerves. both hands i played well and lost, hands i wouldve won, and hands where i didnt lose nearly as much as i was supposed to lose. Hands i was expecting to win, (and didnt). $193 is the most ive ever lost in the Hyatt, due to few sessions being played there, and a max buyin of only $200. and at the first of July, thats when it will start being open 7 days a week.

so lets disect these hands 1 by 1. first one to discuss, i had 35 offsuit in my unraised BB. as usual, this room gets a lot of limpers and callers. lots of very rich people live in this area. Flop comes up 724 rainbow and i check my open ender. guy bets  $15, another guy bets $30, and theres only $10 in $2 antes in the pot. so i decide im definitely not getting the right odds and lay it down. guy who bet the $15 decides to call the $30. (with what happened to be KT offsuit) see what i mean by a lot of donkeys in this room? turn comes K and he bets again, other guy calls. river comes A and it goes check check and i wouldve had the stone cold nuts. but of course the right play is to fold for $30 on the flop.

and i lost my initial $120 standard buyin rather quickly and rebought $145 since i had only $17 left. i had KJ suited, and probably shouldve raised preflop instead of limped, but i dont like raising with it without being in late position. flop comes up JT6 rainbow and i bet $10 and get one caller. turn comes 7 putting out a possible flush draw. he checks, and again i bet $20 he calls. river comes 5, total blank. he shoves allin. (what would u do here?) i have no idea if he is a bluffer, and i call. (mightve been a donkey move, but thats never stopped me from doing it before). he has the nut straight with 89. and again i felt like he played it poorly.

By poorly i mean he will get my money a lot more often if he raises the turn instead, because if i wouldve been on a flush draw instead of top pair, i couldve folded the river. (so hes taking maybe a 25% chance this couldve been my hand--although it wasnt). anyone care to guess what thoughts were going thru his mind? (as far as how to get value)

and another thing, how do u play against a player trying to obtain 1st place in every satellite format tourny format when he dont need to do nothing but sit and wait it out with his chip count? you see, i busted out of my tourny on Bovada few minutes ago. 17 of us were left and 10 were getting paid a flat amount of $20 for our $5 buyin. and this one guy was involved in about 80% of the pots preflop and didnt need to be. i was slowly whittling down and when he just limped his SB vs my BB i was down to like 8 BB and shoved to take a stand, since id been waiting to shove mostly any 2 for some time and couldnt due to someone else always raising in front of me. (and all my hands being too weak to play once someone else entered the pot). turns out he had AA (my hand dont matter in that spot--im supposed to shove) and i was out. my actual hand was Q4 offsuit.

and the worst one of all was when i had the AT offsuit at the Hyatt, and the flop came 357 all in spades and i had the ace of spades. i bet $10 and one guy calls. turn comes Ts giving me a pair and the nut flush. again i bet $10, hoping for a raise and that he hit the flush. he calls. river comes 3 which scares me cause im wondering if hes drawing for the boat. i bet only $10 (originally id planned to bet more if nothing hits) and sure enough he bets $25. i only call, fearing a boat and it turned out he flopped the straight flush and missed a ton of value slow playing it. guy is a regular at the Horseshoe pokerroom in Memphis it turned out.

by that time i was thoroughly fed up with getting beat by those not extracting the correct value for their hands.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

on a short vacation at the Tahoe Biltmore.

i couldnt stand it anymore. took a few bad beats tonight at the Peppermill, and didnt think i could play good poker anymore. and i sure knew i couldnt afford to go to vegas, nor did i have the time and at least i can play the games i want here instead of poker. at least so far im up over $400 and aint took a big drop yet. ill hopefully get back to reno before it happens if im lucky.

2 of the guys at my table were really getting on my nerves, either fish or just good LAG players, which are definitely the hardest type to beat. But at least Karen told me i handled the beat pretty well. i sure wasnt feeling calm on the inside. at least 1 finally went bust when him and another guy both got AA the same hand, and lost to some other players KK on the river, and they won a huge pot with all 3 of them in for $300-400 each. the one other guy constantly raised anytime i had a hand worth limping the button (but not worth raising, such as a small pair or a hand that would be dominated if my raise was called).

i dont want to go to vegas anyway. theres nothing to do there since i cant afford tournaments, and im worried about betting way too much and too often on the VBJ at the el cortez, only 1 woman really is willing to hang out, and im sure she dont find me attractive and she would probably change her mind if i was actually there. none of the other women do. id like to play $1-2 PLO with stealthmunk but im banned everywhere that has that game, and i can see him in July, dont have to do it anytime soon.

and theres all kind of things (and people) id like to show lightning in the reno and tahoe areas. it means a lot hes willing to travel simply for the sole purpose of hanging out with me, so i feel id have a lot more time to spend with him if its done outside of vegas away from all his other friends.

now we come to the main purpose of the blog. i need to learn how to beat LAG players. they scare me and i think im not playing well against them, and the main thing i can do to have better results--is to improve my poker game. and thats why id like to learn from stealthmunk and splitsuit. i hate paying for things or watching videos however and i always like to play and go over things in person. videos dont have them evalutating my live tells for example.

and i also need to know why is so much advice contradictory? u see for years all the NL holdem guides recommended playing almost nothing in early to middle position. and now Rob says its ok to raise quite liberally.

and another thing. should i continue my new standard $120 buyins which i almost always start with til i get to where i start adding on later? or would it be best to try 30 buyins of $300 while im still over $9000 (about the minimum bankroll required for $1-2 NL). i mean is it better for my emotional state of mind, fragile as it is while money is on the line, to risk losing big early on and maybe getting a big win and leaving with it and then restarting with less later on, or is it better to start out small not rebuy unless i need to and risk having the big money on the table when stuck and on tilt not playing my best? i never can decide what to put on the table.

Sunday, June 7, 2015

its a hard way to earn an easy living

Lots of swings the last few days. Back to $10,200 from $8900, (and keep losing the Bovada money and having to redeposit, further reducing the roll). then back down to $9500+ and finally $9700+.

Wondering if i'll ever start to feel again like ive really achieved success in life, like i did last fall when i passed the $15k mark, and was closing in on $20,000. the main difference between $20k and $10k is the freedom to travel, and being a lot more comfortable with $500-1000 on the table.

in other news ive had $500+ on the table a lot more times in the last few weeks than ive had in my life. Maybe WEC is correct about larger buyins wouldve gave me a bigger chance to make something out of my life years ago, before i got way too old for any women to love me.

passed the 2100 hour mark today and im still between $13.50 and $14 an hour.

theres a better freeroll promotion starting June 8 than the last time they had freerolls for hours played here at the Peppermill a few months back. Difference this time is top 40 out of 100 pay, and u dont have to win a shootout first to play the tourny. (its a normal tourny instead). u get chips based on hours and some will have only 4k chips, some 6k some 8k and some 10k. and the top 20 players in hours (always easy for me) will have 12k chips. first will pay $2500. 15th to 40th place pays $100. 2nd to 14th pay amounts in between i dont remember exactly.

it was quite a loose game today. both earlier and late. earlier a gypsy and his friend from cali were making loose action, then moved to Omaha. later on a black guy and his friend, also from cali were making the loose action. i beat the black guy more than once, he was in for quite a lot of buyins for large sized amounts. the pot i enjoyed the most was the one i bluffed with 44. i dont remember if there was a raise or not preflop and several of us seen the flop. (actually i remember almost nothing anymore). Flop comes up A35 with 2 clubs and i have the 4 of clubs. I check, he bets and i call. the others fold. turn comes K putting a 2nd flush draw on the board. again he bets and i call (hopefully representing a flush draw). river comes 7 of clubs for the possible flush. i grab a big stack of chips (most likely about $100) i never counted them. he starts thinking and i tell him i dont have the flush when showing him the 4 of clubs. (the intention was to convey i had the straight with 46 or 42). or for him to think i was lying. finally he mucks his A and i show him the 44 for nothing but a pair of 4s.

he kept saying how he believed me before i showed the bluff.

ive set up a drs appt for June 22, that was the soonest they could get me in and it will cost $120. its with a regular MD in his office, and ive got a lot of concerns about my health to ask him about. They couldve got me in at a later hour on June 25, but i didnt want it to interfere with lightnings visit so i settled for June 22 instead. at least i wont have to go to an urgent care place and be rushed in and out with 100 people in the lobby

also as quick as i am to get pissed off at the dealers when im stuck (particularly the 3 i always seem to lose very heavily at when they sit) im quick to forgive once im outta the hole.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Beware of opponents who likes to play J8

tonight i started off $98 ahead at the highest point about 2 hours into the session. I've been trying to get in more hours. even if i drop all the way down to $11 an hour, if i put in 10 hours a day (300 a month, almost double the hours ive been getting) id have $3300 a month. i know all the younger good players all put in way longer sessions (i was always putting in many more hours when i was homeless or had no computer at home to go to when i got off).

eventually quit when the game broke about 4.30am, and i walked home $185 in the hole. and now im at home on Bovada, and i bought into the $7.70 10,000 chip tourny with about 90 of us entered. im up to about 13,000 chips 30 minutes into the tourny. then i get into a pot where 3 of us are allin preflop. i call the 150 BB, a guy behind me makes it 800. 3 others call, so i shove with 77. he calls, and one other guy calls. the original raiser has J8 (wtf?) and the other caller has AK. flop comes JQ7 and im feeling good. turn 8, river J. i bust out, (where Bovada wont let u chat after u bust out) and someone else speaks up in chat for me wondering wtf just happened.

2 key hands that stood out at the Peppermill were one in which i limped with 33 preflop and the flop comes K23. (and the asian woman in seat 9 was really a loose woman). theres a lot of passive action at this table all night. it was one of the better tables ive sat at. (not that it did any good). i bet $5 into the field and get 3 callers, including the hollywood park floorman to my immediate left who wasnt having a good night. turn comes 8. theres still no possible flush or straight, so i bet $40 to get out any draws for it. the guy on my left calls, and looks like he might be considering raising. the asian lady calls too. the river comes offsuit 6. i bet again for $28, hoping for a call and or raise with a weaker hand. the floorman makes it $80 and the lady goes allin for about $20 more. she immediately turns over her hand (forgetting im in, and i doubt she realized she had more chips than him either). i see her straight, so i of course fold, saving me about $60 or so. but im sick i lost this pot. the floorman has a smaller set than me, 222. nothing him or i couldve done earlier in the hand raising or reraising allin wouldve gotten this woman out.

and i couldnt beat this woman no matter what. another hand i had a big pair, (88) and the flop comes J57 and its just me and her after i raised her $10 straddle (which she did very often and not just on the button) to $25 preflop. so i continuation bet the flop and she called. J comes on the turn, so i bet another $45 and she goes allin and i of course call like a donkey, sure enough she has J8 so im drawing 100% dead. would anyone else have called?

then i lost a huge coin flip with 66 against AQ offsuit for a $100+ raise preflop against a different guy. its lucky i didnt lose more in that game. i was stuck more when i made the final $300 rebuy.

The Trooper talks often about how much he wants to total destroy and decimate his opponents and kick the shit out of them, and thats sure what i felt like doing too. i wouldnt feel this way nearly as much if i wasnt so affected by losing the money. i cannot afford variance or swings like most people can, because i am no longer young enough to start over again if i go broke. how envious i am of guys like stealthmunk who are 20 yrs younger.