A misdealt hand

 in the earlier dream i was walking with someone past a bridge and was going by a church i thought i might attend the sunday morning service at, and i was mad it wouldnt list the start times for the service and told the person with me that was poor customer service not to say what time it started for those whod never been there before. then i was being carried down a long highway and im going thru a grocery store looking for the bathroom on a scooter thats turned into a bookstore and some lady tells me we will have to charge u for sitting in here and im thinking im not sitting, im moving on this scooter the whole time. then i see some food charges unbelievably low, huge sized bags of chips saying they were damaged in a truck accident and were $1 each and right next to them they had a make your own hot dog offering it free, but then i say a sign saying for cops only. 

and in the other dream im in a place trying to remove thistles from my clothes and there are quite a few im getting on the floor, and some people are saying there were tons of good plays here but all i see falling down from the floor above is a ton of hair and more thistles then someone turned out the lights and it went dark and im holding a cat for protection and im wondering how to get out of there without stepping on any, and i felt someone coming towards me and i start yelling the name of Jesus and i woke up. 

--2 days later--back in Dallas

Well im in my hotel needing to go back to sleep before i go to any grocery stores or poker games and im lying in bed listening to Elvis Presley and doing my laundry. yes i have a washer and dryer in my unit which is like 4 different rooms so i can wash both pairs of pants without needing to keep back one or a pair of pajamas to wear while its being washed. and of course my 30 or more shirts. i ran out of clean clothes the month i spent at the casino in Oklahoma. still had just over 49k when i returned, not too bad and a 5k increase over the month. went up there on Dec 6th. 

those 10 hormel meals i could never eat at the casino since i had no access to a microwave came in very handy when i checked into my hotel too tired to go anywhere and buy food, i ate 5 of them warming them up in the microwave and have 5 left. now this room i only paid for 2 nights, so i might not want to buy food til i know where im going to stay. 

another new poker room opened up in the dallas area, (its on poker atlas if u want to investigate) but it seems like all thats been going so far is 1-2 NL. why is that game so popular? NL holdem isnt even real poker. if u dont believe me, ask Chip Reese. 

now lets talk about the misdealt hand which is the subject of this latest blog. the good news is the casino manager in the pit who i complained to whose over the poker room which currently has no manager, compensated me partially by giving me a $100 free bet voucher but thats really only worth $50 since its promo chips and i was out more money than that from the dealers error and the supervisors much bigger ruling error. i highly doubt most poker supervisors wouldve made that ruling. 

the rule here is if u run it twice when everyone is all in and its before the flop, you cannot do 2 boards like most places let u do. its the turn  and river is all thats done twice. not the flop. 

so not being sure of this rule, and a dealer who wasnt aware of this rule, went to deal 2 boards. i wouldve corrected him immediately had i known the rule. the first board i won. and the second board another player won. the 3rd player who was all in also lost both. i realized the error after the pot was split because of comments from others about how they dont allow 2 boards. so i asked for the floor.

u see i had won the first pot which was done correctly, and seeing I had both a set and the nut flush draw i had a great shot of both pots if they took back the 2nd board like they shouldve done and dealt a new turn and river, which would be the correct way to do it. 

and if they wouldnt be willing to do that, they couldve at least awarded me the first half of the pot for the board i won, and then since they messed up on the 2nd board, split the other half of the pot 3 ways which would give me half of the pot plus 1 third. 

had i not asked for the floor, i wouldve at least got half the pot. but i knew i deserved much more than half.

the supervisor ruled since the dealer made a mistake, to split the pot 3 ways. so i got really fucked. this way the guy who lost both pots even got his money back. and he is a guy who usually wasnt the supervisor but a dealer working as floor who made the bad ruling. 

there was NO mistake on the first board(pot) which i won in full, that gave me at least half, not 1 third (my own money back). 

had the pot been done right i couldve easily ended up with 159x6 or at least 159x4 not 159 total. this is why i complained to the pit manager who often comes into the poker room to oversee poker and why he felt i should receive the extra compensation he got the guy over him to approve which he brought me about 30 minutes later after i talked to him 

i hope most of u, especially those who work in poker, can see why this is the fairest way to handle the situation (take the 2nd board back and run the first turn and river twice with the flop where i flopped the monster). this is the rule in that cardroom. allins where everyone agrees to run it twice are flop then turn river twice. 

will now try to sleep but first i need to move the clothes from the washer to the dryer and for whatever reason unlike a normal washer its more than an hour long just to wash. they can dry while im sleeping. 

Christmas blog, 2025

 today is Christmas. its supposed to be a day to be celebrated, which this evil and woke culture has tried to do away with. For the life of me, i cannot understand why the casino chooses to play the same junk music (at least its not rap) they play every day instead of songs specifically for Christmas. Cant we have at least 1 day to listen to something pleasant? so because im never able to hear using headphones (guess maybe an expensive kind would work instead of the $5 ones gas stations sell) i had to leave the poker room and go play the VBJ to turn my youtube on my phone up full blast and then i couldnt hardly hear the music. but at least i got to listen to Christmas music. many of which had to do with the birth of Jesus. Which is why this woke evil culture bans it. think of every company u do business with such as lyft uber airbnb bank of america, wells fargo, and how they try to promote a woke gay agenda. 

Good news is i won about 140 in poker, was up more but the game was one i couldve easily given it back in and at this time of the morning, usually way too many regulars here every day though its much more action filled than games in Vegas. i dont like the way they take the $1 small blind right down the chute though. And i am up about 1200 for the morning total because i also won on the VBJ this morning

Not nearly enough to cover the 5000 loss from yesterday between pai gow, poker, and VBJ. and im barely around 46k. at one point, i was over 51k.

Ray and Lightning doesnt know this, but i even found an extra $700 in my Venmo id forgotten about. it was when i gave a guy cash for Venmo to deposit in my bank. so when i found it, i sent it to my bank. i knew lightnings $100 was in there and i was just letting it sit, but then i decided to send it to the bank and was shocked to see a balance of $800

so my roll was $700 more than i thought it was for quite some time now. every time id added up the roll, i considered the Venmo to be 100

Ray also doesnt know me being away from Dallas and where the VBJ is still beatable was NOT enough to keep me from playing online VBJ. while in my room the other day, i lost $1700 of my bitcoin too. 

thats a horrible habit and theyres no way to break it. thats why lightning and Bill Potts can see why they kept my account open and cut off all my rebate benefits. (an online site)

i have a ton of tickets for the drawings friday and saturday at 11pm when 1 name is drawn for 10k and 25k. sad thing is i wish theyd draw 50 names for 500 instead. at least then u have a chance. then people would lose it all back in machines instead of take it home and never give it back. doesnt seem smart by the casino. 

my mothers declining health and rapidly disappearing eyesight, which Lightning can verify, is keeping her from redoing and finding all the paperwork i need for citizenship that Vince lost. such as copies of her birth and marriage certificates which prove my citizenship and of course grade school records show i lived in KS in the early 70s. 

so she says she cant help me anymore because shes too old. ill never be able to fly again. 

1 of the night shift employees does NOT care at all about the players in the poker room, or his fellow employees. a day ago he repeated ignored a lady who requested chips for a player which is usually taken care of instantly in this poker room. ignored her and another guy yelling it out for her about 10 times and finally she got another employee to help. and then last night they erased a list with 17 people who wanted to play 2-5 NL and they just let a huge list grow, never try to start it, then eventually claim they all left and erased it. this is why its nothing but 1-2 NL in this room except during busier times such as thurs fri sat. or when tournaments go such as the wsop 

Yeah its sad that i won over 1200 this morning and im still over 5k worse off than i was a couple days ago. 50k wouldve been enough to return to dallas and pay for airbnbs and have enough for PLO. but 46k is still better than the 44k i had when leaving dallas. and im still up pretty good on VBJ for about 175,000 in coin in. 

ive left dallas, and increased the bankroll a little bit closer to 50

if i dont post these dreams now when i first wake up ill just forget about them. and i probably need to find a way to see a doctor because this is getting to be a pain in the ass, waking up once an hour to use the bathroom. it will only continue to get worse. when i drink lots of coffee, i dont need to use the bathroom for an hour or so after i leave the room, but then later on need to about every 30 minutes. in the earliest one, some girl was telling me that she wouldnt fuck me with "Kathleen Weikert's dick". now that was the name of a girl i went to grade school with at the church school in great bend KS. and no there were no trans people back then. it was however, a girl that many of the boys thought wasnt good looking. then in another dream, i was in a vehicle riding, and it had to turn a really sharp corner going downhill really fast to get onto the bridge connecting the Missouri casinos on both sides of the river in Kansas city. though this bridge does not exist ive dreamed about it several times. sometimes i am riding the subway into the casino in those dreams. and then in a dream im sitting next to a really good looking black woman i dont know and Tony from El Paso comes up to me and asks me is this your wife? I am going to stop paying $5 for brownie bites at walmart. they no longer stay good without going bad too fast. and theyre over priced and not good for me either. i dont know if my laptop did some weird update while i was sleeping, but something looks a lot different with the size and font on here, and i didnt change anything and im not sure how to make it look normal again. if it also looks different for lightning when he composes a blog then we will know. i doubt ill stay at this casino too much longer since im not really getting anywhere. still got the same 43k i had when i came but i no longer have the 45700 i had it up too when i was up the other 2500 on the video blackjack machine. the best one i can still find in the US. also the PLO only goes on saturdays. did anyone see the tweet some woman made to the guy who shot the health executive in NYC who talked about the different kinds of sex she wanted to do with him? this really offended me, and shows how much society and our culture has declined. women are not mentally well. its why so many men feel they have nothing left to live for. instead of going to play VBJ this morning (although i later did and won $370) i went straight to the poker room at 4am when i noticed there was a game still going. i started winning hands and at one point i had my $109 buyin into $495 but the game was getting short and when down to only 3 players and about to break, i got AK, made it $15, and a guy makes it $45. how do u fold AK 3 handed? i shoved and he called for less and i ended up losing about $175 on the hand and then the game broke. i decided to wait at least 2 hours so i could sit with $100 even though one of the guys who left was coming back and they were hoping to try to start it back up in about 15 minutes when new people started walking into the poker room for the morning game. i still havent been back to the room, so ill need to sign the list and wait when i do go. they have a really weird rule here regarding the button straddle, which they refer to as the Dallas straddle. when a game first starts if anyone doesnt want it he can veto it and even if he is the only one who doesnt want it, then they dont have it. naturally it makes everyone hate u, but the straddle on the button is so stupid and so bad for the game its no wonder all the rooms in Dallas and then Doug Polk got rid of it in all his rooms too in Austin and San Antonio because it kills the action so bad. so the other day i vetoed it but since it wasnt the first game of the morning, it wasnt that big of deal and anyone too upset eventually got moved to another table. But yesterday i tried to veto it the first game of the day, there were 5 of us starting it up, then 1 guy immediately quit and then the game broke because they wouldnt play 3 or 4 handed. so they waited a while, and though i enjoyed the power i had, i really cant use it if it will stop a game from existing. i blamed the guy who left making us 4 handed far more than i blamed myself. so we started a new game about 45 minutes later with the button straddle, and the floor told me theyd try to get a 2nd game going without it so i wouldnt feel pressured into having to do something i didnt want to do. its unusual how they have a rule 1 player can veto it, but thats the rule. most dont even know the rule exists. so when the 2nd game started it was without the straddle, only under the gun, which i dont mind because its actually good for the game. so good for the game i wouldnt mind making it mandatory if the other players agreed. at least thats what i thought. but i later found out u could still button straddle (wtf) but the button no longer has the power of always being last. (if they raise in front of the straddle he must act before the blinds act) so although he has less power, its only a little bit less. well to me, that defeats the whole point of objecting if the button still can straddle so ever since ive had no objection. it wasnt the order i objected to it was the idea of the button straddling whatsoever because its so horrible for the game. People who will straddle utg if they find out they cant button straddle will now be able to button straddle. plus the only other rule difference is if the Dallas straddle turns into just a regular button straddle without the power of acting last, the UTG now has priority instead of the button. Of course if the button has any sense at all, he would always let the UTG straddle instead of him anyway. imagine the button saying "i dont want another player feeding dead money into the game, i want to be the one feeding in the dead money." but most of these games have no sense whateever. the action is much looser than u would imagine for an early morning game. some of the regulars are quite loose. this was written several days ago and i was going to make the blog bigger but now the dates on it are incorrect because it used words like yesterday when its no longer yesterday. so i guess ill publish it anyway

does the straddle really matter that much?

 Putin really deserves the Noble Peace Prize for the restraint he is showing in the Ukraine. he couldve easily bombed and destroyed Kiev into the stone age years ago and ended the war, but he doesnt want to take over the country (or anywhere in europe for that matter). so he sticks to the far eastern 1 5th of the country where most of the Ukrainian citizens all speak Russian and were being persecuted by their own government, and would like nothing better than to have peace with Russia. 

Imagine if the US were at war with Mexico and Russia was giving Mexico arms to use inside the US, i guarantee u the US wouldnt be showing the restraint Putin is showing. Biden is even talking about giving Ukraine nukes. he really wants to see billions of people perish worldwide, and thinks this way Trump wont have a country left to run except for one utterly destroyed and uninhabitable with 95% of its people dying. Ukraine will end up that way too if they dont hurry up and sign a peace agreement. last time Zelensky tried to sign a peace agreement early on in the war by agreeing not to join Nato, the US and Britian demanded they tear up the agreement so it never came into being. 

Instead, the US and Zelensky decided to let millions of Ukrainian citizens be forcibly enscripted and die just to try to make Russia a little bit weaker militarily. 

But u guys dont want to worry about nuclear war you want to hear about poker. And the poker is so good in Dallas i dont want to go hide out in the Upper Peninsula of Mi or in deadwood or Wendover NV to be away from the bombs. because even if i was far away from the bombs, poker likely wouldnt exist in all the chaos anyway. that would be the last thing on anyones mind. so i might as well have died in the initial blast. 

Yeah when lightning brought me back from KS, i still had about 38k left or so. and i built it up a little, and after paying a months rent for a place to stay thru Dec 6th, i still had over 37k left. and now im in the 43,000s so im doing okay. i still have about another 10 days or so left. The 1-2 PLO is beatable for a large amount here, and according to Bill Potts, (who is here in town now) is because of the $10 straddle being done by over 90% of the players UTG. (the only straddle allowed). now i dont think this is the case, i think its just because they play bad and the game would be good even if they dont straddle. its certainly not mandatory. but he disagrees. 

But i do seem to be winning about 10-15k every month here with my short sample size of 3 months. one month of about 16k one month of about 3k and one month of about 8k. Something is causing the large wins. and unlike anyone else in the country there are often as many as 6 tables of 1-2 PLO. where else can u walk into a poker room and find that many PLO tables going along with quite a few NL tables?

ive got an enormous amount of books i took back with me from my mothers house ive had no time to read. ive only finished 2. Also she gave me an old Bible of hers and i promised to read at least 1 chapter each day. ive also got a 2000 piece jigsaw puzzle ive never got around to starting because i waste too much time gambling on the computer. though i had a large sized table where im staying thats certainly big enough to hold it. my ACR balance has gone down a little but im still working on the same money i deposited a month ago plus ive withdrawn $50 twice. 

Trip to Kansas to see family

 Lightning and i recently went on a trip to KS to see my mother age 82 and my son age 31. it went well except for a couple of issues near the end, and I will leave it up to him to see if he is willing to discuss those issues. 

while i was there, i lost $1650 playing BJ online at my mothers house. she still does not know about it and likely will not. and since i returned to Dallas, (and id like to fly elsewhere but cant because ive got 22 books on me i took with me from my moms and no room for them in my 2 suitcases) i bought $2500 worth of bitcoin and i was up over $1000 on the bitcoin and now ive lost mostly all of it. i could of easily been about 10k better off had i never went to KS and never played any online BJ. 

my roll has dropped so much (and not because of poker) i am afraid of the PLO swings, so ive been playing NL. and though i finally got out of the hole and $361 ahead in last nights NL 1-2 game and cashed out $1194, i cant win nearly the 10-12k a month i need to grow the roll and cover bills if i dont go back to playing 1-2 PLO instead of 1-2. 

u cannot make nearly the money in NL u can make in PLO. and in NL 1-2 many of the other players are quite good and sit there for a living. this is never the case in PLO. 

if you would like to see video of the KS trip, follow lightning36 on twitter, in which he will link to his videos of me and him. (not to be confused with his print blog). 

i give up. whats the point in winning at least 200-300 a day at poker to cover the bills and have a few k left over each month if u are simply just going to lose it all online playing BJ? thats a terrible habit and no way to stop. 

i am at my hotel, (its the next day and i renewed it for 1 more week online) but i have to switch rooms to a 1 bed instead of a 2 bed because the 2 bed was sold out and its quite a bit cheaper anyway since im here by myself. i didnt think about this when i checked in. the lady working the desk said after she gets a ton of paperwork finished for the next day that she could probably let me do the paperwork and switch rooms at 3am or so so i wont have to deal with it at 11am, (when i might need to sleep). Plus, then ill be free to go to Winco and load up the freezer once i switch rooms, which is the main thing i want to do. its the best grocery store in Dallas and im out of food. 

I am glad i finally got that winstar slot ticket i forgot to cash out off my hands, even though i only got $250 for it when it was for $334. The lady who runs the semi private 5 card PL hilow Omaha game bought it off me. 

and another thing ive got to quit doing is playing in that game. its so much harder to win in it than in regular high only PLO, because it has a much different player pool and also the $10 forced straddle on the button really eats up your chips fast. i lost over 800 tonight and over half was in that game and the last 300 or so in the 1-2 NL once it broke. 

i was very briefly over 43 at one point before i paid for the trip to KS, and now im barely at 35-36k. 

most of it was just the cost of living and all the money wasted on BJ, though ive had a few bad poker sessions lately too. 

and i still need to get into a far less expensive place by the month so i can stop paying sales taxes. but i keep worrying all the time the place wont be as safe if i stay at the hotels i can afford to stay at. they still have indoor rooms, so those hotels arent too bad, they just have more broke and desperate other tenants instead of wealthier people who can afford the nicer hotels. ive wasted so much on hotels in the last few years. 

i need to i guess stick to 1-2-5 PLO high, the one game in Dallas i was winning the most at and could actually at times have 1000 plus nights. you need a few big days to make up for bad days and to fix it so u wont be tempted to play video blackjack on the computer. 

with the 22 books i picked up at my mothers house it would make it very difficult to fly anywhere since they wont fit in my 2 full suitcases, and besides any other city would be harder to win at in poker than Dallas anyway. mainly because it doesnt matter what hours i play in Dallas. i can wake up at 4am and know there are games going that wont break. 

i hope lightning36 publishes his blog soon because im curious to see what he wrote about the trip to KS. im not sure how it works when u read the blog from a phone, but when u do it from the laptop, theres links to others blogs on the right hand side. 

still doing great playing PLO in Dallas

 i Knew i hadnt updated the blog in awhile, but i didnt realize it had been over a month i thought it was 3-4 weeks. 

i wish i could drive. instead of a roll of 42k, i would have a roll of 4.2 million. and i wouldnt be constantly making people mad by being afraid to get in their car and ride to another casino if i havent known them for many years. or at least had the ability to physically defend myself, because if so i would also be able to ride with people no matter how much money they know i have. 

at least im still winning about $600 a day at poker. theres nothing like playing PLO in texas. so much more money to be won here in PLO than in NL, and in texas where PLO actually goes constantly instead of other states where u might have no choice but to play NL instead of PLO. and being at a poker room that has a ton of games going makes it real easy to hit and run by changing your stakes and game all the time.

the hotels here went way up in price for 2 days because of a football game taking place here, which is common for vegas and rare for Dallas. had i stayed at the same hotel Bill Potts stayed at (it wasnt sold out like a bunch of the others ive stayed at much nicer) i couldve saved having to go all the way out to Grapevine to get a nice inside room with a really good chain. grapevine is like a crime free small town outside of the DFW area. 

but i dont like $20-35 Uber rides multiple times a day, so ill definitely be staying much closer to Irving and Farmers Branch once again with large sized freezers starting Monday. i wouldve paid for a month before things sold out had i not been planning to see my mother soon with Lightning. but his trip with me to her place wont be til Thursday the 24th and we will be visiting a couple rooms in OK on the way there and back. 

an interesting story from yesterday i accidently took the Uber to the wrong hotel. there are 2 hotels in Grapevine with the same name, and i went to the wrong one, and since i didnt know the address i just typed in the hotel name and the word Grapevine. and i didnt even notice i was in the wrong one until after i tried my room number and the key didnt work, and i found out when the night person working the front desk said i wasnt registered. good thing they just didnt hand me a key without looking. so i ended up paying another $16 Uber. 

also i will grab some books at my mothers house she offered me some because shes given a bunch of stuff she had away. 

what are the legal requirements as far as buying property in very bad condition? i saw a lot of very old homes, many in need of repair, in the east Pittsburgh PA area, specifically in Braddock and Turtle Creek on Trulia? considering i would never have credit to buy a home and need to stop paying such massive amounts of money on hotels that only keeps going up, and i assume maybe there are other places with poker nearby where this might be possible besides just Pittsburgh? these didnt seem to be in high crime areas like Detroit would be. maybe other a little bit rural areas? 

i was thinking if i bought something for $30k (once i hit $75k so i have enough left for poker) and at the rate im winning at PLO in dallas, i should be at 75k within less than 6 months. then i would never need to worry about rent again and only about $1000 a year or less in likely property taxes and maybe $200 a month in electricity or gas or water. or is there a lot of other legal things id need before i could move in such as insurance, back taxes owed on the property that was so cheap, repairs needed, HOA fees, or something ive not considered? and is there a much better city that fits my poker needs i could do this is far better than east Pittsburgh area?

ive never seen so many homes for sale for under 40k that is almost impossible to find i would think and the only way id ever be able to own anything would be if i paid cash but even that cheap of a home id still need about 3x as much or at least double before i could buy it. 

i asked lightning about this too in an email and he never replied he likely threw out the email because he had about a week more to go in Greece at the time. I also asked Vince and i learned that the guy living in his house finally moved out. he should see if he can find something in TX he can buy in his name for me and i could just give him the cash upfront to do it. i also wonder if property in OK or FL anywhere near poker might also reasonably be cheap

many stories

i would like to talk about a bomb pot i think i played well. its an omaha bomb pot. on the flop one board is 88K and the other board is A23 and we all checked. Turn comes 9 on the 88K and 4 on the A23 with no flush possible. a guy pots it a guy calls, and i only called because he couldve had my boat beat and i have nothing on the other board. River comes 6 on 988K and A on A234. 

i am not sure because i waited too long to type up the hand history, but either its checked to me or i was first to act and i immediately pot it. why?

because the 6 is a safe card as far as my 99988 being beaten on the river, and also because me potting it there could easily get a guy to fold the wheel letting my 99 steal the other half if the other guy holding a boat has eights full, i got only 1 caller, and the caller had 8K6Q and i ended up scooping both halves. i dont think i wouldve won both halves had i not potted the river, or bet the turn where it wouldve been clearly obvious i wasnt betting with aces full but the bet on the river made me having aces full a real possibility. 

I would like to tell u an interesting story of my life in my early 20s when living in Toledo ohio and when women still thought i was good looking. this one girl older than me who was married that i had met thru a personal ad had invited me over to her place a couple times prior when her husband was away. i wonder if Ray will remember this incident? her husband worked as a firefighter. well one day i couldnt reach her by phone and i wasnt sure if she was alone, and i pulled the fire alarm at the place she was staying to get her attention to come outside the door and to see if she was alone without having to knock on the door. these was long before cell phones existed i think. 

however i found out from her because of it her husbands fire truck he worked for was on the way over to the place since i pulled the alarm and she never wanted to see me again after that because she was wondered about the questions he would be asking. just the type of dumb things people do without thinking it thru because of their autism. 

that wasnt the only woman in toledo that wanted to fool around, and in both incidents i was far less than age 25. once a man hits 25, women dont really want him no more because hes too old. and gay men are the same way they lose all interest once a man is no longer a child. 

when i was 17 and living in an apartment a block away alone a black women id met at the laundrymat  in her late 30s came over to give me the first blowjob id ever had and it was all her idea. im sure she liked the idea of it being a kid under age 18. Just like all the school teachers do. 

Thank God i grew up in an era (graduated in 1986) before credit scores existed or i dont know how id have ever rented apartments at age 19, usually for about 160 to 250 a month. i really dont know how anyone at that age just starting out can ever rent a place today. i couldnt afford to pay even that when i was that young, but it was so easy, u didnt need any credit or income back then. 

they should change the laws so anyone who hasnt paid can be evicted for any reason immediately without ever having to go thru court. this would fix the issue and no one would need to live out of hotels and airbnb because then landlords wouldnt be reluctant to rent to people without credit. it would be just like life was like in the late 1980s.

the democrats under JFK were as far right wing as republicans and there was no crime back then. i could live in horribly sketchy areas. and what crime that did occur u knew would be prosecuted so u didnt fear for your safety in states like CA. california used to have prisons they would lock people up in. 

i dreamed last night that i was on a train and a very beautiful young lady was praying and an older black lady said that it was her daughter and i started talking to her and asking her questions and she told me she was an adult actress. and i asked her how she got into it and i was interested in having her as my GF. she told me she used to dive off the high board and i said it was swimming that got u into the film industry? and yes it was. she told me she was a star in a film ive never heard of called the lion king, and it turned out when i woke up theres really a movie with that name. maybe it was buried somewhere in my subconscious. 

then im in the room next door to her staying at her house and i accidently break her phone into a ton of pieces and i am trying to hide the fact i destroyed it and put it together and im worrying she will find out and blame me, and then i woke up. 

i am lucky to still be about 5k better off than when i came here from shreveport even after hotel and other expenses the past 3 weeks im still over 34k which is about 5k improvement. these games are so good here imagine the bankroll i wouldve had had i played exclusively here for years and were playing a little bit deeper and higher, such as the 2-5 PLO.

that is a great game to make a lot of money in and Bill Potts is in town now staying in a shit house motel. i thought of staying there but i figured it would be a worse motel than he claims it is. but he wont play nothing but 5-10 even though he isnt even winning and a good player can win much more per hour in plo games and lower stakes than in 5-10 NL. i think 5-10 NL (and the 10-25 NL he likes) would be the hardest game to beat. i guarantee u Phil ivey and Phil hellmouth couldnt because only the worlds best play 5-10 or higher. not the normal player who grinds for a living. 

Back in Texas

 Well Thanks to Jason Schott i finally got out of Shreveport (for $200) and back to Dallas. at least now im in a place where im near my bank and not a place where theres no way to deposit money into the bank. 

i mightve spent too much for a hotel room this week (after first staying elsewhere 3 nights) but at least its a really nice condo hotel with a kitchen and a washer and dryer. its room for at least 3 or more people to stay here, even though its only me. i have always really hated having to leave the room to do laundry in long term extended stay hotels, especially when some have sketchy characters wanting to bum money hanging out in the laundry room. i have actually stayed at bad places i didnt realize were bad until after i checked in, which i assumed would be good since the doors open to the inside instead of the outside. the only way to really know a place is good is if its close to 1000 a week instead of half that price, and then it becomes unaffordable but it sure keeps out those most likely to be desperate for cash. and another bad thing about hotels laundry rooms is often u have to run clothes thru the dryer multiple times for it to work. 

i am really happy dallas is one of the few cities with great poker and low cost hotels. only okc and san antonio have lower prices. 

even though there is always some kind of poker here, i still often am playing a different game than the game i want. the 2-2 plo is often not going between 2am and 10am.. and the 2-5 plo with a 300 min buyin was way too expensive. almost no red chips were on the table and the players were bitching because i hate not having at least 300 in red in front of me. but there were tons of 100 500 and 1000 chips on the table and i was on the opposite opinion it slows up the game when the dealer is constantly needing to break change for it and no one has enough red. so i didnt feel comfortable in the game. no one wanted to run it twice like they do in the smaller games because the pots were too big and everyone was too deepstacked. so i got out of there when i got a 4x pot that got me up a little over 1000 profit. 

i am much better off in the smaller game when it goes or at least the game in dallas as opposed to the game in irving. also dallas lets u borrow a portable charger without making u let them hold your ID, though the same company runs both rooms. one lets u pay 50 cash deposit in lieu of letting them hold your ID and one wont. they should equalize the rules in both. 

the plo in dallas in 200 min 1-2-5. the plo here (except for the smaller 2-2 game) is 300 min in 2-5 and 7 dollars per orbit wasted in blinds instead of 3 dollars per orbit, which hurts a nitty player like me. 

paying 13 an hour is a hard enough obstacle to overcome, let alone the cost of playing higher stakes.

i am halfway through my laundry now and its so nice to not have to leave the room and get dressed. 

i still see some of the same stuff that would always piss me off in the poker room though, (such as people throwing stuff on the floor near my foot, their water, racks etc instead of getting up and getting an empty table like i always do as soon as i sit) its very hard on my back for me to bend over to pick anything up i want gone. and ive told the bathroom attendant everywhere i go to not put the seats up on the mens stalls when hes done cleaning because its extra work to put it down to sit and unless u bend over to sit it down slowly hurting your back it makes a loud sound when putting the seat down. but they dont give a xxxx about no one and dont listen and always leave it up. if people wanted it up they would use the urinal not the stall. 

ive got into a lot of horrible arguments in my life over this with mens bathroom attendants. i cant think of anything more rude to the disabled who cant stand up to pee. people got to realize that once a man passes 40 and can no longer have sex, they might also have to sit instead of stand to urinate too. 

But ill tell u the one thing thats nice. not having to deal with a button straddle. this room, like all of Doug Polks new rooms, only allows the straddle UTG. i think thats much better for the action. and Doug has no connection to this room at all. at least in other cities where i love to play for many years, (reno) they do the straddle in the right orbit instead of punishing the small blind. but not so in shreveport. 

the oddest thing about shreveport is i played so little live BJ while i was there, and actually won over 1k overall for the 6-7 weeks i was there. i played more online BJ there than i did live. i guess its because no matter what u win or lose in BJ or slots, they wont give comps to poker players. 

but i didnt win online at BJ because i wiped out all my online wins at the very end when i lost the 3200-3300 the final time right before i left. 

at least i won over 400 on acr before i gave it all back. and turned most of it into cash. but not all. 

let me tell u a hand i got very lucky in right before i quit for the night. i had 8T8Q double suited hearts and diamonds. and i tried to see the flop for $5, then for $30, and as u know i never trust the integrity of any game where the players are deepstacked. because i always feel like one person puts in a raise for their partner and then once most call it their partner reraises. i fully trust the integrity of a game where a lot of players have 100 or less in front of them because people who are broke wont steal like the rich do. 

so once i called the $30 a guy makes it pot, and a few people call and then a guy repots it (and it turned out he actually had a real hand AAJ2 double suited and the same exact suits as me. so i was drawing much less live than i thought) but i was thouroughly on tilt by that time and stuck big and i shoved my $495 in intending to quit down close to 950 if i lost that pot. 

isnt 8T 8Q double suited not too bad of a PLO hand? most of the players who see the flop usually have much worse. 

flop comes AJ3 with 2 spades and i thought well im xxxxed. 

turn comes 2, making the 3rd spade, to seal me being xxxxed. 

river comes K no one had the flush, guy shows his set of aces and wins the side pot and i scoop the main pot 4 way double up with my TQ

the other hand that surprised me early on that i lost and probably will surprise most of u, is that when i flopped A76 and had A789 double suited in my hand (but no flush draw) i was actually behind to AKQJ with the nut flush draw. the player next to me showed me after the fact on a phone calculator. now that did surprise me that i would be behind with both top 2 pair and open ender to the other guys hand. doesnt that also surprise most of u?

still looking forward to flying out of Louisiana to florida or texas anytime after august 8

 i had been slowly coming back a little bit from all the money ive used to live on and blew in omaha games in shreveport, both PL high and 10-20 fixed limit high low with a full kill. i think i left dallas with $27,900 and i was back to $25,300 at the beginning of today, after being down all the way to 22,800

and as always i was trying to get up at least 200-300 before i had to go to walmart before the store closed and was slowly in the game for a little bit more as time went on from the $100 id originally sat with a few hours earlier. at the final hand before i quit i was in the game for $527.

i had one hand in which i had AJ, and i think made a small raise preflop. i hate to raise it big unless i know ill have the button postflop. like from $3 to $7 or $10 if i even raised it at all. i cant remember. 

flop comes AK6 and the blind (either big or small) bet and i hate it when a guy bets from early position into multiple players because it makes me feel like hes got a strong hand and im afraid to raise. so i only call. turn comes A but it puts a possible flush on the board, so i still only call. river comes 8 and he bets a bit more and i still call, and find out i let him get there with A8. granted i dont think he wouldve folded had i bet heavier early on. 

eventually im out of the hole, slightly ahead and just about to quit to go to walmart before they close, and i really hate the fact i cant just play as long as i want anymore and just go in the middle of the night, but lightnings BFF dr fauci destroyed that. i get dealt AK and raise it up preflop and the only 3 players are me and the guy on my immediate right and my immediate left. both older black guys with a lot of chips. 

flop comes K95 and the first player checks. i bet $40 and seat 9 raises to $100. seat 7 folds. what am i supposed to do here? a short stack id just commit myself but i had about $500 on me. 

there were 2 clubs on the board and i called in case he had the draw. turn comes 2 spades a total blank. and this time he only bet $75 when i checked and i thought for sure i was ahead (turned out i was). i again only called. (and after i left pissed off i heard the one guy saying when i was at the window, why didnt i just raise him allin on the turn if i thought i was good). 

river comes J. i checked in the dark, as if i was the one on the draw, and he bets $200 and its not a club. i called and he has KJ for the 3 outer. yeah thats why i left unhappy. so i was stuck way more at the very end, plus about $200 in bitcoin id lost online earlier on my phone playing BJ. 

that was twice that almost the same thing happened to me today both for big pots. and i dont think either of those 2 guys wouldve folded had i went allin on the turn. thats just running terribly bad.

i had a weird dream last night in which Trump came running up to me and said he needed my help and i went to follow him and i saw a station wagon in which a bunch of women without shirts on were hanging out in and in the middle of the station wagon was Bart Hanson lying on a bed saying to come in and lie down and then he said "you're the rock star poker player, you're the greatest" and earlier in the dream i was playing video poker out of a newspaper vending machine and i came back and someone was playing my machine. and someone handed me $300 in cash as compensation but instead of money it was all checks made out in my mothers name. and as im walking up to her front door there is a huge refridgerator for sale outside with tons of doors and is about the size of many tables. 

got my ID resolved and im in an airbnb for a month in Louisiana

 well my money is still decreasing rapidly, 23700 left of the 27900 i had when i left Dallas, but at least my ID is good now til 2030, though i wont be able to fly as of May 2025. 

i had some bad luck when i first got here. lost $415 playing poker the first night i was here, $200 for the Uber to get here from Dallas, and then i played the bags of Jewels machine a little bit too early after the game broke. the bags were at 4,4,4 and i know i should only play when at 5,5,4 or 5,5,3. but i thought the only way u make any money is if both the red bag and another bag hits at the same time. 

i lost about $500 on that machine that night. and the red bag never hit. only the green bag once, and the purple bag twice. 

at one point all 3 bags were lit, but when i left the game the red bag still hadnt burst. 

and then the following day i lost about $900 at poker. some in NL some in 10-20 hilow. and of course i was paying for a motel in bossier about $160-180 every 2 nights on priceline. thats why i wanted to be out of there and if i didnt get back to texas, to be in my own place with a kitchen and a washer and dryer. 

all of the flights to texas arent cheap they were all $279-400 and i dont feel safe riding a greyhound bus and i looked for non greyhound buses leaving shreveport but all they have is greyhound. they did have a few flights cheap to vegas, or to other places if u took the express option thru priceline where u dont see which airline and time the flight leaves or where it transfers u at til after u book the ticket and its non refundable. 

u can even fly to fort lauderdale for 177 if u go that option where u cant see the flight til its too late. 

i dont like the fact theres completely dead mornings with no games here (mon and tues) because it had plenty of tables and players all last week wednesday thru sunday. id wake up at 7am and find the game still going. and i also dont like the fact i cant run up a big stack then hit and run and go 5 miles down the road and buy back in for 60 like i could in dallas at the 2nd poker room. 

but here its 100 min. and often only 1 casino poker room open. they need to figure out a way to get players in early on tuesdays so its not so dead here. i bet the dealers dont like sitting here doing nothing that morning either and hate to be the one called in to wait for a game to go. 

i would suggest offering the players $50 an hour to start the game. and pay it to everyone at the table instead of 1 person. that would get at least 4 to come in and start it up. and keep giving them $50 an hour til the game fills up as it gets closer to the afternoon. 

if the house claims they cant afford it, just take it from the checks of the nighttime dealers on the busy times and use this money to fund it. its not fair to the dealers who work tues morning that those dealers on swing shift on weekends earn more. 

also my toenails really need cut again there are starting to get long it was a long time ago Vince took me to the foot doctor in vegas. the one that doesnt cut right is back out to not being able to cut. 

ive taken some horrible beats in here and actually have won over $700 on blackjack. so im shocked im as broke as i am. Uber costs a lot more here than in TX and the cost of food and general living expenses under Biden is just horrible. i went over 5 hours without winning a single pot in 10-20 hilo and left without finding out how many more hours it would have been. and here the bomb pots u get 3 cards and 2 boards in the NL game. taken some horrible beats in that game too but its too much work to type them out here now. 

wasted opportunities when i was young and could sit over 12 hours straight

 Yeah it was nice when i didnt get tired so quickly and just want to go home. and its harder to not be able to quit because i havent earned at least 200 for the night yet. and it was nice pre covid when living expenses werent close to 4k a month 

i remember when i lived for next to nothing and when my roll was often under $2000, sometimes $1000 in the very early days. such as when i found an apt for $230 a month in butte montana and i was mostly playing online a lot. 

But i was young, dumb and stupid in those days and no matter how little money i had i could never grow my money. even though at that time, no one knew what a HUD or a solver was and there were still casual losing players online since the US govt hadnt banned it yet. Fuck that war criminal George Bush. it was because every day i would win about $25-30 and end up giving $10 or so of it to Britni or Lorna who i was talking to online all day long in chat and yahoo messenger while i play poker. anyone remember yahoo messenger? 

when u are that young, having a woman is the most important thing in your life. but when u get to be over 50 and can no longer have sex due to your old age, and have to piss every 45 minutes an extremely tiny amount, u then start thinking, im sick of being homeless, having no credit, owning no assets and then u get to the point where u only care about money and nothing but money. 

had i spent more hours stockpiling money at that age like Bill Potts did (minus whatever he likely donates to those supporting Hamas) i would have a roll of 260k instead of 26k. 

i am going to miss Dallas when i leave to go to Louisiana to try and replace an ID before it expires in August. there isnt many places around the USA that have 9 tables going at 630am. never have to worry about the last 1-2 NL game of the night breaking up here. Never have to worry about acting first if the button straddles because only the UTG can straddle here. where else can i martingale and buyin for only $60 when i first sit down?

but i cannot understand why im not winning more here. im still 6k less well off than when i left vegas for texas. most of the loss was on the day i lost 3000 the day i lost 2100 the day i lost 860 and the cost of living and not from poker but still, in houston, san antonio and el paso i not only paid all those expenses i kept growing the roll too. at least ill never go broke 60 at a time in NL. thats all ive played for over 2 weeks. im scared to play in a PLO game unless i can buyin for 100 and none exist in dallas. 

also i can not remember for sure where i last had or seen my birth certificate from canada. either ray or vince lost it and i dont know who but neither guy can find it so thats another problem. 

since i sleep during the day they never had a chance to replace the ac and deep clean the carpet and i hope they arent mad i didnt complain and tell them how wet the floor is near the edge of the bed until i move out in 2-5 more days. but i never ever wake up til much later than 5pm and i certainly dont want people in my room when im undressed lying in bed 3-5 hours trying to fall asleep. 

its great when u can keep going back to sleep 10 hours everyday. one thing ruining many peoples health is they dont get enough sleep. only thing that ruins mine is i never see a doctor so who knows what health issues could be getting way too severe to be fixable. 

this blog is way too short but its long overdue and been half finished for over 10 days, so im just going to go ahead and hit publish

dallas trip report

 well at least theres one thing u can say for playing in Dallas. at least u wont find bad poker games that are too tight. most of the players play like they just stepped off the Greyhound bus from west virginia. not that it has helped me any. i am really growing broke fast. lost well over half the bankroll i had when i was over 50k.

since coming to Dallas 2 weeks or so ago, (as soon as my place in Vegas was up) i have visited a lot of different places to play poker around town, although most of the time ive played at the place thats within a $7 Uber from my hotel instead of a $22 or more Uber. 

When i first arrived i noticed how much better the games were here than in Vegas, particularly at TCH irving. i won over $600 3 of the first 4 days before everything started going south. Now with expenses and losses playing in games way too high for me, and just the cost of living, im now over 7k worse than when i arrived here and barely have close to 25k but there is definitely much looser action here in the 12NL game and the PLO games than in vegas. 

I also played in 3 home games with rakes anywhere from $35 and higher, and where they had good massage girls, well at least 2 of them were. One of them paid for my Uber both ways. There is also a lady who is nice and friendly who runs a Big0 hilo game at one of the Texas cardhouses legal clubs and its a loose game. higher than i can afford. even though the min buy is only 300. 

the first hand, i turned my 300 into over 650 and about 5 minutes later i lost the entire thing back with double suited aces and was so mad at myself for not hitting and running although i wanted to play a couple hours before i did that. that put me on serious tilt and thats the day i lost over 3k all at poker. 

after Rebecca the host left early, others were leaving and me and a new player said he liked dramaha so we changed it to PL dramaha instead of Big 0. and i rebought 1600 and was within 100 of being even from being out over 1220 then everything went haywire and i eventually left with nothing. 

a bomb pot at the end took the last 1600 and one hand i lost with a flush in my hand because id forgotten one of the other players had just talked me into including dramaha zero in a mix and i forgot the game had switched, so i lost over 800 just that one hand. 

Kind of like how i would lose in Jaimes mix game in Reno, his home game. 

Unlike most clubs in other parts of TX u get no bonus here of any kind for buying time in bigger amounts so i keep paying for an hour at a time although it can be a pain in the ass to keep handing out $20 or so and keep being asked but i hate spending 100 at once and emotionally feeling out that much. all the rich old men with money could care less. 

and of course since i only win 1 pot every 5 hours as tight as i play, i hate paying time period. but Houston got so greedy on their rakes it made it a lot harder to win than when i first got to Houston in March of 2020. i remember games where they used to charge 5 and now charge 15. 

i still think Larrys game in el paso would be a way better option. i could get 100 every day for starting the game at 11am and i remember a decent hotel i stayed at for under 350 a week. But i need to try and replace an ID in louisiana somewhere before it expires before im on the opposite side of the state. 

one really nice thing about playing at TCH here is there is no small blind act first on the button straddle. it starts under the gun just like in Vegas. all the places around the country that make the sb act first drive me nuts. and the good news is in the 2-2 plo u cannot button straddle, only straddle under the gun. but of course in all the other plo games u can button straddle. its even mandatory in rebeccas game. 

and the other nice thing is the poker games in dallas go around the clock instead of breaking up at night. as horrible as ive been running, (some of it from blowing a few k online) i still think in the long run i could easily make about 75k a year here. 

33,333 a strange number for my bankroll but when i first started writing this over a week ago, the exact amount of it

 in this dream, im going thru a library looking at books that say the end on them and i find its interesting fiction like the kind i always read of my mothers and then im in a place where im staying with a lot of others living there and im in a big room downstairs that can seat several hundred and im wondering why they dont offer a religious services there for the residents and want to complain about it. then i am walking down a stairwell and i see arms loose on the floor, point it out to someone and notice that no one has any functioning arms to pick it up. and then a big guy wearing a uniform who seems a bit retarded is going to beat me up and his employer in charge comes up and says Danny we dont zap those who have the armband on. and i was saying how maybe he might be a nice guy cause i was worried about getting beat up. and i am walking with 2 other students with armbands who are being protected and this other guy keeps looking at us and then i a pinprick on my back and hes secretely inserted a needle they couldnt see and hes talking with them off to the side and i remove the needle and its on the floor with a bunch of other needles and im trying to extricate myself and the needles cant get loose from some other contraption and i finally do and hear him saying how he has to sell the research on the needle to get paid and i am running out outdoors in the other way around a building and he keeps turning back and forth into a woman to a man to a woman and comes after me and i want to go back to where there is other security but i cannot get over a large river and i see someone walking their dog who will stop him but they cannot get across the river to us and i wake up

this was written a few days ago so i would not forget the dream. 

today was not a good day, and its because i just cant fix my sleep hours because im too old to force myself to stay awake and lose a ton of money playing too long of sessions. so im still waking up about 7am and going to bed at 8pm or so which are horrible hours because the hours i tend to sleep because im too tired not to are the very hours i should be playing poker. 

so i found myself at 10am with nothing to do but go play blackjack and decided to go to the nearby silver 7 casino which offers $10 6 deck shoe 3-2 BJ to save a big Uber fare going to a much better game thats a DD and close to the same stakes. 

and i still carry way too much cash. i had the whole 6k i have at home on me because i might need it when i play BJ. im lucky i didnt lose more than $1000 of it. theres so many bums asking for money in the parking lot of the grocery store i felt very unsafe walking home in the dark at 845 pm with food with all that money in my pocket but luckily made it ok. 

and once i got stuck quite a bit at the $10 BJ game, i tried to bet 2 spots of about $300 each to get unstuck. the table said min 10 max bet 500. the pit boss said the 500 was the total of all bets combined and wouldnt let me do 300 and 300. he claimed thats true in all the casinos he ever worked at. and i dont believe it. ive played at many casinos with a max bet of 500 where u can bet 2 or 3 spots of 500 each. 

when i play the DD game i win most of the time at station casinos. i won 500 in there one day this week but i sure do lose on shoe games

maybe i should get a room in a station casinos property but theyre usually more expensive. 

then i went to the Palms to get my $200 in promo chips it was way before 2pm which is the earliest i can pick them up every tuesday at the cage. so i ended up losing about 100 in VP.

i had a shot to win $1000 or more when i got dealt 3 wild deuces as my starting hand but i missed getting 4 deuces on every single hand i was playing, a big disappointment. it was on the triple spin poker machines. the one at the Palms has a lower min bet making it easy to martingale plus a better pay schedule, even on the lower stakes. 

when i got my promo chips finally i was disappointed the DD 3-2 table wasnt open and all the tables were 6-5 except the hi limit room. i should have went to craps, last time i cashed out 113 off the promo chips when i played craps but instead i went into hi limit and then lost 2 hands of 100 in a row

after that i was pissed off i had not 1 dollar off the promo chips, first time thats ever happened. so i immediately got an Uber to play poker and sat in a $1-3 NL game. i played a few hours and eventually recovered $233 of what i lost but am still way down for the night. 

--a few more days later--

well yesterday Palace station backed me off from playing BJ. granted i was spreading a bit much on a $15 DD game, and this is why i was playing shoes so much, because its the ONLY way i know to be permitted to play BJ with no issues. but i just got so tired of losing with shoes. such as the 8 deck shoe thats cut off at 5 1half decks downtown vegas. i remember when it was cut off at 6 and a half decks instead before the virus with a min bet of 5 instead of 10 or 15. 

i was betting like from 150 to 500 or more as soon as the count went to plus 3 or higher (running count not the true) and 15 flat all other times. thats too big for my bankroll also. but i think if all the readers of my blog showed them how much i lose at BJ overall theyd realize im not nearly skilled enough to be a threat to them in the long run and its a mistake to back me off. Koala would know this. he used to be a pit boss. 

then i went and played poker and won about 600 but my belt broke and i immediately had to get another belt because it was a horrible pain holding up my pants. barely made it to Target before they closed. damn belt was $27 ($2 just for the tax) must be inflation. and then since its too unsafe to walk about 8 blocks home, paid 12 more for an Uber which most wouldnt do who wasnt worried about crime, but i had over 6k on me. 

I sure made a big mistake taking a place for a month in Vegas up thru May 10th. im dropping like a balloon.

 Actually a sandbag is a better word than the word balloon upon reflection. Lets say that someones bankroll has been going steadily downhill. and they had over 45k when they took the month and now have 33.9k and before i figured it up actually thought i was a few hundred less. And though i dont think Ray knows, there was at least 4k dropped online since taking the room. 

and then the other day i blew over $2100 on the bingo machine at the $7.50 level when the bingo wasnt nearly high enough to make it plus ev, but i was stuck so i played anyway hoping the bingo would hit really quick so i could still be up. 

But physicalogically it feels like it dont matter and has no effect on if i make minus ev bets or plus ev bets over the long run as to whether i win or lose so why not just make the minus ev bets if making plus ev bets isnt going to increase my long term odds?

For example tonight there was this one regular young kid in the poker room who usually has a ton of black chips on the table, even when the max buy is only $400. and we all know most people constantly add to their stack when the dealer isnt looking because the house doesnt care about it like they do when people try to put less. 

how else could he get all them chips? it sure isnt his play. 

like most of the heavy losers he straddles the button or UTG at every opportunity but at least he isnt texting other players to meet him outside of starbucks when he goes broke like some of the other losers are who like to straddle. (i not only saw that text i saw the guy next to me downloading cash app on his phone last week). 

But preflop tonights villian put $6 out for the straddle a few of us limped, and i was planning to call what i assumed would be a small raise. but when he makes it $61 UTG i wasnt going to leave myself with almost half my stack in preflop and i wasnt folding 99 so i just reshoved allin and we took the flop HU. he has A5 offsuit (a terrible way to play it) but im sure he considers himself a genius because the flop was ace hi and he got all my chips that were in the pot preflop. 

that and another guy busting my Q hi flush on the river with the full house he didnt bet on the turn when the original preflop raiser bet $15 and i called, made me leave stuck $350 and completely on tilt and i talked to Ray on the way home and told him i was enroute home instead of to a machine, but when i got home, threw away about 2k online BJ. 

i quit playing all shoe BJ games 6 or 8 deck and any machines. but online BJ sure dont help and the only real BJ ive played has been the 3-2 $15 DD game at station casinos. surprisingly thats the one place i havent lost any money. good rules since if u play 2 spots u only have to go to 25 and 25 instead of 30 and 30 and u can even play 3 spots of 25, which is quite rare. even if other places allow 3 spots unlike Palace station does, the min bet on a $15 table isnt $25 a spot on 3 spots. 

also im really concerned about if ill be able to get another ID in Lousiana since i wont have anyone giving me a lease this time to prove an address, and this needs done before August 5th so i can then get into a place longer term. i hate my family so much for having me born in Canada and hate anyone who travels overseas. it ruins peoples lives if they have kids. games wouldnt be nearly as bad in vegas were it not for all the fucking Canadians and the fucking Euros. and all those people look down on Americans because some in America still vote right wing and have Christian worldviews. all British consider themselves morally superior to americans. 

Trip review Hilton Grand Vacations

 After staying so long at Vegas hotels without fridges and microwaves such as the Golden Gate to save money u kind of want a hotel room in which u can store milk and warm up food in the microwave so u dont have to leave home whenever u want something to eat. 

Remember the time i paid $3900 for a nice place in Palms Place near the Palms because i was deceived by the pictures, thought i had a full size fridge with a freezer (i didnt) and then regretted taking it for a month? and then losing $9k at BJ there which is why i started getting the offers 6 months or so later and why i have $175 in promo chips every week now?

well i hadnt ever stayed at Hilton Grand vacations before, and there are several of them in the LV area. usually the price is like $1100-1400 a week and some cost a little more than others. so when i seen the lower prices this week, (the golden gate wouldve only been $572 this week including taxes and resort fees and ive never seen it that low). so i took it. yeah i got the Hilton Grand Vacations for only $955 for the week. and i thought that was a good deal. 

however, to get the full size kitchen u need to rent the 1 bedroom suite and thats about $350 more a week and i didnt know that. so my freezer doesnt hold more than like 2 frozen meals and 2 burritos. and i only have a microwave and no stovetop. 

and another thing thats annoying me is my room has connecting doors to another room. i hate that because its always a safety concern. at least the in room safe works. and i think there is extra security on the door besides just the deadbolt which works. 

i wanted Vince to run us by the walmart where ive still got $64 left of a Palms $200 giftcard. But i was asleep when he called and now its too late. so i went to the grocery store inside the timeshare place im at, and they charged me an outrageous price. for what wouldve cost under $25 at walmart i expected it would be about $50 or so. instead they charged me $78..

$13.99 for a frozen dinner of meatloaf thats $3.50-4 at walmart. but had i went to walmart it would be 2 Uber fees of $17 each. 

bought 2 of those and milk and a few other items. certainly wont do that again. 

Its a short walk to westgate and is safer than walking to sahara, since its actually in the westgate parking lot and u arent walking up Paradise. so i guess ill play poker at westgate tonight. I noticed Chris was holding his private game. 

I almost got killed this morning playing live BJ downtown. i was in the game for $6300 and the highest bet i made was 2 hands of $1000 each, but at least i only ended up losing about $700-800 at the worst i was stuck about $4000 after losing the 2 bets of $1000.

once i got stuck so heavy i removed all disguise and played the way a counter would, so im likely discovered now, especially because i moved to the $50 double deck game and only raised the bets on big counts. but i still got my resort fees picked up. 

----a few hours later----

i ended up winning $2100 in Chris game, the one he holds weekly in the sahara and in the westgate. it was a deepstack 2-3 blinds game with a $600 min and no max. i wouldnt have sat with $600 otherwise. but it worked out for me because i was up to around $1100  before the last hand of the night. it was dramaha bomb pot 49. and i scooped with 88933 in my hand and the nut straight. and i cashed out $2700 plus. 

so not only did i not lose the $6300 the pit boss had me in for at the Golden gate, i actually ended up the day $200 ahead, plus another weeks housing, (which meant i won about $1200 for the day). what i thought about 11am would be a disastrous day ended up being a day that increased my roll from $47500 to $47700. 

---a couple days later-- had a huge recovery at the red rock thrusday night after a loss at resorts but tonight (friday) i dropped a few hundred at the poker palace, but lightning is right, i need to go ahead and update the blog. 

some recent big wins

 Can those of u who still read this from 10 or so years ago please post in the comment section below, so I, Lightning, and other readers will see it? id like to know whose still around and who isnt. 

I have often wondered how my life would have been different (by maybe at one time hitting 100k or more all at once) had i hit a really big score at one time if i wouldve played tournaments most of my life instead of cash. i have had really good luck lately in the tournaments Vince has put me in since coming to Vegas in early February. i have cashed in at least 5 out of not more than 10. 2 of them were at southpoint, for $1969 and for $941

the others were at sahara, and the biggest and most recent one was at Resort world poker atlas tour Omaha8 stud8 this past wednesday. People can see or follow in real time as the tourney was going on at pokeratlastour.com Koala from Australia said he looked it up, as there were Poker Atlas employees and dealers updating chip counts periodically. it started at 2pm and didnt end til after 2am, and i eventually made it to 3rd for $3221. and $1400 of it was mine after the tip, and after paying Vince his share. 

Lightning said i should update the blog with the big scores ive hit recently (and my roll is back over 44k). some of it was just a few smaller BJ wins and lucky this morning i walked out of there with a profit of a few hundred instead of a $4800 loss, for the pit boss said he had me logged in for $4800 and i lost a bet of $960 and then made a bet of $1920 divided between more than 1 spot but what im trying to say is there hasnt been any big losses at live BJ lately, like there was the final week i was in Michigan right below i flew to Vegas. (the $5900 at firekeepers and the $4400 at motor city)

i am sure most of u are already well aware of this, but its probably what Lightning said should be discussed here, and im referring to the $10,600 i won on the bingo machine at resort world. the one with 2 boards and one says sun and one says moon. i only know of 2 casinos in vegas that have this exact game and the other casino is circa. im sure theres many others i dont know of. 

i got the big hit (highest in my life) and way more than the small ev the machine might have been worth if the bingo was deeply filled enough and i dont think it likely was. i have lost over $600 on a bingo machine twice since the big hit and i need to stop playing it when minus ev. 

but all the money came from a wheel spin. u know how when u bingo on the center square with the wheel, it always pays the smallest or next smallest value? was i sitting there in shock when it hit the grand for $10,600.

a few math experts on twitter later told me the odds of this happening were higher than being dealt a royal flush on video poker. the vast majority of people whove played that form of bingo have never hit the grand. 

i also bought me a new laptop because this old one is giving out and the mouse stopped working, but its working fine with the mouse i bought for it. in fact i still havent taken the new laptop out of the box but i should just start using it. remember the mouse on my keyboard got screwed up over a year ago and i need to left click everything u right click and right click anything u left click because my old mouse became backwards when the motherboard screwed up. 

----------a week or so later-------------

i shouldve just ended this blog and hit publish a week or so ago but i didnt feel like the blog was big enough. But i think now publishing more often is better. it might be why its died. 

Lightning just returned to Phoenix after a 3 day trip to vegas. And Vince and I went to Laughlin where i blew $2000 on the dealers angels. both vince and i swear the dealers at the riverside cheat i cant ever win there. its the only place they hand shuffle in the poker room. 

also i think its totally unfair how Vince can no longer play poker tournies in the sahara. he a few weeks ago was trying to explain to a dealer how to do his job faster, and the dealer got mad and threw the deck down, told him to do the job and walked off out of the box, and we waited about 10 minutes for a main boss to come in and get us a dealer. but that dealer is still working there today, with no penalty, and yet Vince i was told cant come back. he was always buying me in including in todays tourney. i thought he was only out for that day until we came in today. 

tired, must sleep, am still holding about 44k. not bad when i came here in feb with only 30k. 

i miss the old blog

 well ive been in vegas a month now, and havent updated the blog once. i seem to do better at poker when i focus on earning money instead of on the blog. but i sure do miss a lot of former readers that have long disappeared. i wonder how many of them died without any of us ever knowing? Possibly from the covid vaccine, or maybe another cause. But i can think of about 50 people that used to read it all the time who are long gone. 

i lost interest in updating when i started worrying that anything i might say from the heart will get me in trouble. i tried that once years ago to screw with a lot of my mothers friends on facebook and i got in a lot of trouble for it and had i not been autistic i never wouldve gotten arrested for what i said. But society is scared of people who have emotional issues

it certainly wasnt because they thought i was doing anything wrong, although people tend to think evil of anyone who doesnt bow to the liberal view. and to be dismissive of middle america and their values. actually i still need to find an attorney willing to sue the police that way i wouldnt have to worry about inflation and if i could earn enough in Bidens america for housing. 

i am not doing all that bad here in vegas Being able to play live Blackjack helps me refrain from playing online BJ at high stakes, like i did in TX because no other form of BJ was available. and i seldom ever played double deck in my life but with my current live BJ experience it seems its easier to win in DD. especially on the 3-2 $25 games. i would not be back to 33k from 30k i left detroit with were it not for a few wins.

i also had some very close calls twice in the last week where i couldve lost 2-3k but managed to recover. 

weekends are expensive in vegas though and this is the last friday and saturday ill be able to have comped anywhere in vegas. its almost time to leave. 

i was dead tired when i left the Palms where i went to pick up a $200 gift card. turned out i could use it at walmart but it was an online gift card and a code on my phone. i feel very uncomfortable not having an actual physical card. and u will never believe what i seen a slot hustler doing there

a guy was with an older man (who he later claimed to me was his dad, but i doubt it). does any slot hustler know what a "creator" is?

he was at the ultimate x, showing him how to play it, but only playing each game 1 time, and then switching games, and setting up a huge amount of next hand multipliers on almost everything on the machine. and the old man lost his ass and he decided to go to bed and then he left and then the other guy sat to play about 50 different types of games on Ultimate X that now all suddenly were left with nice multipliers on the next hand. Only someone familiar with Ultimate x will understand. 

and i commented on why the multipliers shouldnt be left and he said oh that was my dad and he always lets me play his multipliers. somehow i dont believe this. 

i was sitting on the 1c triple spin poker multidenominational machine 2 games away. 

i wouldve expected the guy to be homeless and at the bottom of the barrel for doing this on ultimate x, but he had a ton of cash in his pocket that i seen him pull out and put in the machine (actually he only put 1 $100 bill in it to play the hands out) but he certainly wasnt broke

and another thing, a cab driver at the sahara pissed me off the day before on the way back to the golden gate. i only used a cab instead of Uber because i had too much cash on me to feel comfortable at the Uber pickup point near the garage. 

we pulled out of the sahara, and notice the police had LV Blvd blocked off, so hes waiting to uturn around and go out the back way onto paradise to get downtown and i commented i hope the fare still stayed below $26 so i would have the proper change and not have to break $100. (i was pleasently surprised it ended up only being $17.40) 

but then he started asking me where i live if i was a local and whether i had the money to pay for the fare. (as if i would rip him off).

now as everyone reading this blog knows, cab drivers are the lowest of the low more so than other people who work for tips. so i felt very insulted because my integrity cannot be questioned while his is suspect. remember the previous blog where i talked about turning in the $40 i found at the casino in detroit which is why i felt that next days blackjack loss was so unjust. and remember how i missed out on hanging out with the girl. 

to show u how low cab drivers are the other day i had to go from sahara to the stratoshpere and a guy tried to refuse me unless i paid $20 upfront instead of the price on the meter. so i just wouldnt get out and offered to call the taxi authority and wait, but he gave in and took me for the $7.10 on the meter and he still got a small tip. 

were it not for all the xxxxing people who vote demoncrat, it would be safe to walk it. But they dont believe anyone should be prosecuted for violent street crime. 

i told the black guy cabbie to the golden gate (once i reached the valet there) i showed him the $3500 i was carrying, (the guy who thought i hadnt the money to pay) that all he has to do if he doesnt know if he can trust someone is ask them if they voted for Trump. and if they did, that they cant possibly be bad people. and im not even a supporter of Trump in the coming election unless he picks Tulsi as VP. otherwise its RFK. 

i still need to visit my mother too and i am worrying about my ID that expires in august 2024 if i cant get it replaced in Lousiana again like i always have in past years. i should be going there very soon and i wonder if the state laws there have changed?

But u cannot get to Louisiana from las vegas unless u first fly to Dallas. then its a cheap $20-30 amtrak ride. 

i couldnt believe it when there was no line tonight at suns out buns out to buy food here at the casino at 3am i thought it would be wait and they made my hamburger very fast. my only mistake was in not buying 2 of them because im still not entirely full. 

ive been lucky a few times in the $1-3 Pot limit mix game, but they recently changed the game for the worst (time rake and mandatory upfront tip) and they play way too much 2-7 type games. and an expert euro pro sat in it tonight. ive been seeing way too many of them all over vegas lately no matter where i go unless its a locals place and those are even worse for action. 

so how i made $500 in it to recover a loss in the $1-3 NL and an extra $200 or thereabouts besides ill never know. i lost a $400 stack to the expert.

also been lucky a few times in the NL no cap buyin game at the sahara. but ive had some big losses there too. 

were it not for Vince and his assistance with transportation and tournament backing, i would be far worse off. remember i had two huge wins because of him and a nice new coat. and he enabled me to see the doctor that Ray set up the appointment for who got my nails radically reduced to size on my foot that is still getting fungal treatment at home. 

one for $1900 plus and one for $900 plus and of course i had slightly under half of that. 

im doing something wrong

 to be around 30k or less, from over $44k when i left Reno, yes something is very wrong. and by the way for those who dont know, today is my 55th birthday and im back in Vegas. 

i was last here exactly 1 year ago on my 54th birthday. that was the day i took an airbnb at Palms place for a month for $3900. (and is why i didnt ask for a host and room comps the day i lost the $9k because i had no need at the time). i think that happened about 2-3 days after my birthday 

Vince is doing my laundry at his house (at his suggestion not mine) and today i used $66 on my comps at the Palms (food comps only) to have both of us eat the breakfast buffet let me warn u, this buffet does not offer country fried steak and i didnt know that until it was too late. 

at least ive got a working laptop, i was afraid id fried it when it wouldnt charge last night and the old cord blew a blue spark and almost gave me a shock. 

but the new cord cost me $65. Vince drove me to a batteries plus store near his house. 

i still desperately need different sleep hours. im missing out on good superbowl weekend poker action. 7 isnt the time of the evening to be dead tired wanting to go to bed. and that is what i was when Alysia Chang dropped me off at the el cortez to go watch her movie

the trouble started at firekeepers when i lost $1200 and also a little backing Ray, and went to play live BJ to get it back and also blew a few hundred in  paigow on a casino wizard machine. by the time i lost 3 huge hands at the end on a good plus count, i was out almost 6k. 

and things got no better in detroit when i stayed at a hotel by myself when Ray has his car being worked on by his mechanic. As bad as i needed to recover and grow the roll, when i was at Motor city (where everyone must go to the cage to buy chips outside the poker room) when i saw $40 lying on the floor next to the cage i was afraid of being seen on camera to pick it up so i turned it in and gave them my phone number in case it was unclaimed. But doing the right thing didnt stop me from losing. i blew $4400 that day on live $25 3-2 BJ and the rest on poker for about $5k that night. thats why i am no longer over 30k. 

now the day before, i was spotted cashing out over $650 in chips. and this girl who was watching me cash out i seen with some guy but she swore he was her brother (a black guy) but i didnt believe it. and she asked me if i wanted to buy her a drink and i saw him also coming up the escalator behind us but i was too nervous to talk to her. i wasnt even winning and i had over 6k in my pocket and i just wanted to get home. shame i didnt get her number though, but i just felt like she was going to ask for money and it was a setup. worries like these have kept me from ever having a woman in my life. i worried about this when homeless and was offered to stay with a woman. over 30 yrs ago. 

im down to under 27k now after yesterdays huge loss at the stratosphere live BJ and the sahara poker room where i blew another $1400 last night. this is why being in vegas isnt going to work out. wont be here too long. for one thing room prices will go back up this weekend and i have nothing free. 

long overdue blog post since coming to Toledo from denver and chicago.

 I'm paranoid about a lot of things. whether i should go to tomorrows dentist appointment or just disappear, and whether a lot of the desantis supporters i follow on twitter are truly supporters of ron de santis, or just pretended to be because theyre secretly democrats who hate Trump. with the sheer number who still say they will write him in come election day, instead of actually selecting a viable candidate who can defeat Biden (and we have 2 who can if people would vote for them and one of them isnt Trump) isnt too smart. and i lost faith when i saw how many of them actually believed the far left lies about Trump such as the Jean Carroll case. 

and by the way this blog post is LONG overdue. which can be seen by the way u see i started writing the post before last Thursdays dental appointment. i will say the work was painless, but not nearly as much got done as i planned. i spent over $1000 and if i did everything it would cost closer to $3500 and require 3 trips. im more worried about my toenail where theres a lot of fungus and weird growth under the toenail. i will say the work that was done is healing up nicely. one tooth removed that wasnt one of the important ones needed to eat with, and 3 cavaties filled. 

also i never know what to discuss that wont offend most of the readers and the businesses i service, so here are a few weird dreams. i was at a casino where i was banned and was looking over a survey the casino had people fill out as to how to make it better, and i noticed my name on something someone filled out. so i took a close look and i seen it was @justfrank on twitter. (this is someone who does not exist to my knowledge). and what he said was the casino needed to offer 7 card stud, and if i was there playing stud, that i would own everyone at the table. and that he had never met a better stud player than me. (incidently on the way home from Cincinnati tonight Ray and i considered stopping in at Mad river poker in dayton because they had a 10-20 stud8 omaha8 mix going which neither of us got to play in in a long time but since he was too dead tired to keep driving to Toledo if we stopped and we would be behind 6 others waiting, we didnt stop. 

its a shame i got so little of the dental work done, but to do all the work would cost about 3 and a half times as much and id need sedation each time. there is a tooth needing a crown that cannot be lost if i want to eat easily still as many as ive lost already and also they still need a deep cleaning too. 

ive been to a lot of cities in the past 2 weeks and at least Rays car is working somewhat good, though its got over 314,000 miles on it now. still is spending a ton to fix issues with it and we disagree over the wisdom of buying a new car for about 3000 and saving a ton on repair costs. the shortest visit was to cleveland where as soon as we discovered the $20 per hour time charge in the PLO we left within 3 hours for cincinnati. thats about the highest time charge ive seen in my life. im used to $5 per half hour or from $8-13 per hour in various texas clubs. 

and with such a high time charge, the most u could buyin for was only $1000 and the game wasnt very loose. usually in a game with a time fee that high at least its no cap on the buyin. 

and i had a weird dream which involved Koala. we are in a casino and he says the one souvenir he wants to take home to Australia is a KS sunflower. (im looking at a really tall one growing in a huge vase in the middle of the room). and i was heading outside to grab him one off the side of the road. im walking through a huge shopping area inside the casino that looks like a grocery store and trying to find a tomato. 

this was started quite some time ago, (this blog) but never got finished. which is why this is been the longest between blog posts. when i do too much playing poker time, and not enough at home alone time, i write less often. 

today i went and lost $5900 at firekeepers. most of it was lost on live BJ with a decent count on the final hand, where i got unlucky against the dealers 6 with 3 big bets and 2 double downs. some of it was lost between me and Ray at poker, and a little on video paigow. but over 3 4ths of it was all lost on things outside of poker. 

one more dream was i was walking down the street, and i saw a guy being handcuffed with a big cooler and the policeman walking with a weird limp very fast. and i was wondering where him and his prisoner went, and im surrounded by 4 asian guys on bikes who wont let me get away and they keep bumping into me with their bike. then an older lady on a bike rides up and i ask her whats going on and she says that her superintendent sent them to fetch me. 

i am walking with her, and everyone else has disappeared and we sit down on this front porch and she says i am in no danger, and "dont u know? u are one of Gods elect, and that everything is about to change. then i wake up. 

well ive been winning almost all my live BJ sessions up til today, hardrock indiana, hardrock cinncinati, rivers, detroit, etc but todays loss was so huge it wiped it all out plus. i cant believe im down so low now. i just felt it wasnt a good idea for us to play anymore poker neither of us was hitting a hand, but before this, Ray has saved my ass a few times by recovering my losses, and me his a few times. 

im really concerned about all the weird growths under my big toes nail. both vince and ray think i should see a doctor as soon as possible. also now that im finally at 35 instead of 45 i have no idea where to go where i can afford to live and keep playing. 

maybe im better off back in NV texas or shreveport where the cost of living is cheap and there is never an issue with a cheap Uber being nearby. Lightning was right about the driving around being too much of a burden on Ray