Friday, November 29, 2013

I miss Grump

well Vince came and got me here at the Gold strike in jean (where ive been since last tues grinding the VBJ along with Bovada each day) and where i arrived with about $1945 left and am still now at $2299. Since it was Thanksgiving and he wanted me to eat with him and Anne--he only wanted $15 cash for gas each way instead of $40 each way, and then we ended up playing poker last night at the redrock. Originally he wanted to play at either Club fortune (no game going) or omaha but he dont like the omaha at the orleans, and decided not to go to the V because he really prefers the suncoast but they only had stud8 last night instead of omaha. so he didnt play any omaha since redrocks omaha game had broke. he played $2-4 limit while i played $1-2 NL, and in about 5 hours my game broke with me up $37. i joined Vinces game and by the time Vince had left i was up $61 at the poker, (although i lost $81 on the VBJ before Vince showed up). then we went home to sleep at his house. the guy who was hanging out with Vince in the $2-4 he knew said that he hosts the PLO8 green valley tourny and deals there. he said that tourny might not stay going much longer and that the horse tourny is far more popular.

so today when i woke up i was under the understanding that Vince and i would play poker again, but no all Vince did was watch football all day, with some drunk who works at the fiesta named Mike, and anne and her daughter and his friend Jay. i was bored out of my mind in my room, and finally he left to drive Mike downtown and him and Anne took me to Jean. we never did get to play any more poker, kind of feel like i went over there for nothing. i did eat a very good meal Jay cooked, hes a chef at fiesta and the food was great.

Also it was nice of SI to call while i was asleep to leave a message wishing me a happy thanksgiving. and later today ill see another friend from RTP i should remain nameless.

im quite concerned about my $475 withdrawal from Bovada, seems the police in the phillipines shut down their call processing center, and i dont know if they have any employees available to send WU right now, and i also found out i cant use MG since ive never deposited thru MG although its $45 fee instead of a $75 fee to withdraw. ill find out sometime within 7 days about my withdraw thats being processed now. sure hope they dont tell me ill have to get a check, even though it would be free. id then have an additional worry over the next 3-4 weeks of it bouncing, not worth all the mental anguish and stress.

am lucky i hit 3 different tourneys to enable me to be able to have such a big withdraw anyway. ill only have about $43 left on there now after this withdrawal to work with. plus the 20 chips on seals which is up to $20 now. ill feel so much wealthier and better off if i can safely get that money off bovada and added to my other $2299.

one thing i really enjoyed when i was in vegas a year or 2 ago was the day (a holiday, i think thanksgiving or Christmas, not sure) when Grump offered to hang out, we went and played poker and ate, and spent the evening hanging out together. Grump like me dont care about sports, which is nice, few men are that way, and he was happy just to hang out and share similar interests. if he had not moved to NC we couldve played together many times. id like to see Nick come back to vegas too, or the guy from the Commerce named Dustin if he still reads the blog. Bennys friend from Chicago never showed up. But even more i wish Josie would come back to Vegas, along with Zin and Pokerdogg and Koala.

Yeah i felt so bored at Vinces expecting to spend the day playing poker with him, when all anyone wanted to do was sit around a tv watching sports. at least when home with my mom and son on thanksgiving we play games together, board and card games. no one in my family watches sports except my grandpa who died many years ago.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

starting a new and different life

Still holding onto $1865, $20 on bovada if i miss the money in this triple up SNG im in right now, and $40 in bitcoins that i paid $860 a bitcoin for (i only bought $40 worth)--small fraction of a coin--thats for use to play on seals and a few other things. sure hope i didnt make a mistake buying high, lightning thought i might be. hard time finding a guy willing to sell to me. also i spent a little money getting cricket internet back up and running too.

WE ARE NOT GOING TO DISCUSS THE SSI HEARING. for good reason too, which im sure Vook, lightning, PPP, Josie, SI and others will agree and all are sworn to silence. and no im sure not been approved. in fact i think its a waste of time and effort. (at least im not out any effort).

No reason to hang around vegas any longer either. i might go to reno with Herbie or home to KS for awhile. Am looking forward to meeting a guy from out of town Tues, but doubt anything will come of it, but if so, its an important future business relationship which involves gambling.

Only heard back from Carmen one time, hope i didnt piss her off.  Also i think me posting in RTP isnt a good idea anymore, and most others agree too, especially SI, Josie, and lightning.

and would like to play poker with friends more often too. disappointed SI didnt answer my phone calls last 2 nights. (if i sent him a text both nights, cant remember). am wondering if NJ might be worth moving to since they have better online gaming than NV does?

i dont feel nearly as secure as i did when i had $1600-2600 for a few weeks, but i feel 100x more secure than i did when i had $500-1000 for so long while in san diego area. a big portion of the last year i wasnt about hardly any better off than $1200, or less.

good news is i finally found a solution which helps keep me off VP machines with poor paybacks.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

short much needed update

this blog has kind of died off, and since im not finding any clients to advertise recently, ive not really cared all that much. i think it hurts me financially a lot more than it helps me, and i never felt that way before. But way too much people are way too informed about how they can beat me at the poker tables, and im excessively paranoid of that fact.

also im a bit depressed im back to $1800 from being close to $2400-2600 for a while. now i feel like i dont have enough for $1-2 NL anymore and yet i feel like i cant afford to play smaller. too bad online isnt a better option but games there are much tougher.

Vinces gf cut my hair today, gave me a good shave, but i still had to pay, also done all my laundry and dropped me off at the casino, also Vince attended my meeting with my atty, and we learned a few things i wasnt aware of about my case. i dont think its going anywhere.

It was nice meeting Snevman, he put BOTH me and Vince in the tourny friday night, and i busted in 13th while Vince chopped the final 4. Vinces share of the win after paying Snevman and tipping $20 was $280. Snevman played nothing  but cash games, but that was awful nice of him. Vegas DWP was there with him also.

and ive not been doing well in the nugget lately, and i still lost a few hundred i shouldnt have lost on bad paying machines, or id still be over $2000. for a while i thought i had a shot of getting it up to $3000 when i was running good, but i dont feel that way anymore. its going to be a long ways off.

am certainly in better shape financially and saving a lot of money staying at his house, and Herbie was enormously helpful to me in giving me that monthly bus pass i need to return to him soon as he gets to vegas. and i need to copy the picture of me off Vinces facebook page of me after i got the haircut and shave. women would like that picture better i think.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

I didnt know seattle irish has a daughter who plays poker

I guess he never wanted to tell me about her before because maybe he was afraid shed ditch her BF from Canada and take up with me, and he tried very hard tonight to keep me from knowing that him, his son, and daughter, (one of which must just be an inlaw?) were all at the nugget playing poker. He had no reason to suspect id show up since my twitter feed claimed i was at redrock picking up my UP withdraw. In fact, i didnt know i would be either. I was ahead $123 in session 2 at the redrock, and had won $115 earlier in session 1, and id earlier looked up the bus times for the sahara express bus. Then i got a text from Herbie he was going to be playing at the nugget, so i decided to rush down there soon as possible, and made the bus by about 30 seconds before the next bus wouldnt been thru for another hour. it was a good time to hit and run since i was up, and i finally had my roll back to over $2200 from $2000, so i was feeling good again finally. in fact, before i picked up $239 in todays freeroll at the LVH (where they do a mandatory chop instead of playing anytime less than 20 qualify) i wouldve been down to the $1800s. Especially after paying Vince a bunch more in rent.

Id been sleeping at Vinces all day today after the freeroll, (to try and get my schedule back in shape to stay awake til 5.23am again) and Vinces gf Anne drove me to the redrock about 8pm for $9 gas in Vinces car. Was way too tired to play this morning, and of course playing at LVH on saturdays is pointless because those hours count for nothing.

Anyway i found out Herbie was at Palace station, with access to a car again, so i arranged to get off the Sahara bus there and have him drive me to the bank downtown to deposit $800 so i wouldnt be carrying too much cash, and from there we went to the nugget up the street. What a surprise it was to see SI sitting there with a ton of people in his family who all seemed to know each other, along with one other friend of his.

Herbie and i both managed to grab seats the same table, although Herbie couldnt stay long and left to sleep when his friend at the nugget got off work. Seattle irish wasnt there that long either, but he probably played alot before id arrived.

at one point, i was really feeling good. i was all the way up to $305 at the nugget off my $100 buyin, and shouldve quit, but eventually quit after a bad beat up only $35. I got dealt 77, called a raise to $10 preflop and on the flop im first to act. flop comes 789 rainbow, i check, other guy checks, and the raiser bets $25.i raise to about $80, other guy gets out, initial raiser shoves for about $70 more or something not too far off. im forced to call, and im actually ahead as he has 9 10 offsuit. but a 6 comes on the river, or id have had an awful lot of chips.

the hand i won i almost didnt play. i had 66, called a straddle of $4, and the straddler made it $20 after several limpers. i had $150 behind, so i called the $16 raise. and the flop came 69T with 2 suited cards. straddler bets $30, i shoved, everyone got out to the raiser, and he got out, and one shortstack still in the pot with about $90 before he was allin board comes runner runner for 4 spades on board, but thankfully he didnt have a flush.

Carmen wrote me back and answered my letter, and i need to write her back, in fact, since she dont know im no longer in Jean, probably wonders what the delay is. she is taking college courses with a scholarship, is able to volunteer at the food bank while still in her halfway house, and will be out for good sometime from Jan to april. she got approved for parole. she thought it was odd i was in Jean considering when she was in Jean before she got moved back into Vegas, she could see the casino out of her window.

also i really am getting to the point where i badly need a haircut or shave. Anne is going to look for the clippers she owns at her house.

I wonder what it means that my SSI hearing will be held at the lawyers office instead of the courthouse? my worry is it will be dismissed, but SI claims its good news if its in the lawyers office.
Herbie says im crazy not to just buy a monthly bus pass, and hes probably right.

after one small loss on UP, i have $276 left there i didnt withdraw, and $27 still on bodog. Nothing on seals where i hear bitcoins really shot up in value. very odd Andy hasnt mentioned anything about it on RTP.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

well, did i do the right thing in quitting the game at the stratosphere stuck so much?

Instead of paying Herbie $20 to drive me home, i shouldve quit when it was about time to get the last bus. About the time i was out of the hole finally and $18 ahead, and still up the earlier $72 from the V where i went to hang out with Turd Ferguson all day, and the $27 i was up at the wynn after theyd left to go to the airport. i got unstuck finally at the V, and $72 ahead and left.

i had AQ, called $5 to see the flop, and the flop comes AQ8 with 2 clubs. guy bets $10 into the raiser, raiser folds, and i bet $30. the better calls. turn comes 10 and the guy bets $25, i shove the rest of my $100 and he calls with 888. and turd ferguson claims i wouldnt been able to get away from the hand anyway.

its been so long ago, ive forgotten what the hand was at the V that got me unstuck, but i texted turd id got unstuck, quit on my next BB and walked to the wynn. Waited a while, got seated, and finally got ahead $27 and quit because i wanted to stay ahead for the day, and i really wanted to play elsewhere.

thats when i went and got the bus, planning to catch whichever bus came first, and had the express bus came first, id ended up at the LVH. but the duece came first, so i went to the stratosphere.

bought in $50, never had it over $69 and eventually lost it. rebought $141, and had it up to $209 and was about to leave, then the following hand occurs. I had AA and limped $2 utg, had i had a weaker hand id folded and left. one guy raised to $10 and one guy in late position calls. i made it $40, wanting to deny odds to set mine, and the raiser folds. and the guy with a bigger stack than me calls. flop comes 689 and im pretty sure he has an overpair. he bets $20, so i shove, wanted to end it and he calls with 999, which is about the smallest pair i thought he would have, but expected 10 10 and JJ to be far more likely. now im pissed and rebuy $300.

the one young kid whose a regular and normally a decent player on my right, says theres no way i couldve done better and it was a setup cold deck. anyway, some time later, i get JQ clubs, and call to see a flop for $2 with multiple callers. flop comes AT9 with 2 hearts. Lady after me bets $6, call call, guy raises to $15, call, i call, she calls. turn comes 7 diamonds, putting up 2 flush draws. we all check. river comes 8 hearts for possible 3 card flush. kid on my right checks, i bet $30 trying to control the size of the river bet. lady folds, guy on the end calls, (im praying he dont raise) and the kid shoves $114 allin. i fold, the other guy calls, and they both had JK for straight and i folded the winner. the kid said he thought he could get me off even if i had him beat. Herbie in the car said he wouldve folded too, and he also said hed lost just as much with the AA hand too.

I didnt feel like playing all night anymore or waiting for a bus at 5.23am it was about 1am, so i paid him $20 whole bucks to get out of bed and come drive me to Vinces. Maybe it was a dumb idea, or maybe it saved me losing far more. but i had only $259 left of the $491 when i left the stratosphere.

As my aspergers makes it hard for me to meet women, or maintain a job or find one, id like to share a story about me at age 17-18 as my SSI hearing is coming up soon.

I always had jobs as a kid starting with a paper route about age 13. in fact my son had one too. Mowed lawns etc too. But mom had to push me to do well. One of the jobs, was riding around on a bicycle selling ice cream. now they just use big trucks. this was after id graduated HS at age 17 and i think it was that summer, while still 17. Pretty sure of it.

there was this one girl i wanted to get to know on my route who was 19. when i was that young, women and even older women found me attractive, and wanted to fool around. so did men for that matter. The first woman who ever gave me a blowjob was a black lady in her 30s-40s at a laundrymat,(not counting the one in her 40s in TX who wanted to have sex in the back of a van while her husband drove when i was hitchiking and running away from home.) and i was 17 living in an apt on my own. One woman i went to meet in Keokuk IA had kids who were 8-14 and was about 10-15 yrs older than me, and most all the women i were into were older than me. So was Marks mother. now i feel like i missed out on a good girlfriend in her 20s when i was close to that age, and now im too old to find one whose under 40 and i really feel like i missed out on a lot and know NOTHING about relationships or life, and yet women expect me to. I'm sure Claudia knows hamsterdam in some way, because he only started messing with me after the relationship with her went sour, and im sure shes behind how hes acting. One woman in Toledo i didnt know how to maintain a relationship with (she was married and wanted to fool around) i was afraid it might be ending, her husband wasnt home, and she had sometimes invited me over when he was gone working, i wanted to make sure he wasnt home so before knocking i called the fire department out to her house to see who answered, and i found out he was wondering what was going on and was on his way home, and that woman didnt want to see me anymore. it is like finding a job, how do u get experience to get hired? all want experience. But i wasnt ugly then. Ask all the gay men who offered me rides while hitchhiking. Or maybe a lot more people than ud ever imagine just enjoy molesting little kids. i find it gross myself.

so i didnt know how to meet or talk to this girl, so i gave a note to this one other girl who seemed to be a friend of hers to give to the girl. now the girl i gave the note to was black, (but she was NOT the girl i was interested in). Problem is that girl happened to only be 14 (which i didnt know) but thats only 3 years different anyway. And that girls mother saw the note, thought it was to the girl herself, and complained to my boss at the icecream place. somehow an employee military wild guy quite a bit older than me whod always hated me found out about it, and waited for me after work to beat me up in front of my boss, who pretty much did nothing except after 5 min about to tell him that was enough and to let me go. my mom wasnt too happy but she said she believed me since she knew i wasnt interested in a 14 yrs old who was black.

But yeah u can see how autism messes things up and working for jobs up. and i sure wish id known how to not lost Claudia, its no wonder i panicked like i did. im so old now i feel like it was my last chance. and ive pretty much lost interest in women anymore, i never waste money on them anymore, all i care about is solving all my financial problems.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Herbie and me

Playing a very small amount of PLO on UP now that ive finally woken up, (when i got home last night was too tired to make any posts) and without a smart phone anymore, im limited to where i can make posts when im out. And the golden nugget or LVH or the stratosphere (places i went, some with Herbie)--arent ones of them.

Most of u will think im doing ok, because im holding onto $2624. I dont think im doing ok, because in each of the last 2 days, i had it up to over $2700, and at one point last nite was closer to $2800 when i was briefly up $71 in the stud game at the LVH. Herbie (and Mark) kept thinking i should check it out, so i did, and i was surprised to see it still going that late at night, although quite shorthanded, in fact me and the final remaining player played HU for quite a well, and Luis was anxious to see us end it so he could start the $1-3 NL game, several were waiting around for it, and Luis needed a dealer. i was too stubborn to quit because id went from being up to $171 off my $100 buyin to having somewhat less than $100, and the one guy i was playing against wasnt that good, and he was down to $1.50 once, and then had came back to about $50 or so. eventually the game broke, and i had $94 of the $100 left when he finally busted again.

one good oldtimer grinder from Reno sat in the game, (the $1-3) and a few asians, me and Herbie. the young guys lost, a loose player lost who was also young, and eventually it got down to me Herbie and the grinder. i was still up $4 in the NL off my $60 buyin. Herbie quit, and then the game broke.

we walked thru the back parking lot of riv up to the strip to take the bus, and i learned about a new advantage play machine that shows a clock on it, and i called the strat found out the game was still going, and he stayed on the bus downtown. turned out i shouldve done the same thing, i destroyed the nights profit at the strat, and when i finally left the stratosphere, didnt see the bus on the other side of the road immediately, but did see a bus same side of road, so i rode back to circus, played VBJ slots of fun, recovered about $20, then rode the bus home.

Originally bought in $50 at the strat, lots of deepstacks on the table, and 2 of the players were really bad. one of them lost the whole $400 he had in front of him, and a young guy whod turned 21 also lost. i lost too, the original $50 buyin that id had up to $100 when i had TJ diamonds on a board of 793 and 2 diamonds. loose guy bets $35 after 3 of us check, i shove, hoping for a fold, but with so many outs if i get called. loose guy called after the others folded, with NOTHING but a8, a hand i was hoping he could fold. and i blanked.

rebought $54 lost it, and then rebought the other $120, but shortly thereafter the game broke and i had $118 of it. another hand i shouldve won, but didnt i had TT, overpair to the board, and got beat by a runner runner flush. that was a big pot, there were 6 of us allin preflop for my $30-50 i had left. and my hand was good til the end. the guy who won that scooped a huge pot off the others with bigger stacks. he won with 58 diamonds.

also it seems ive discovered that casino fandango in carson city has the dealers angels machine but i wont believe it for sure til i see it, but the guy from the reno area swears its in there and that hes played it. But i have to wait til after my hearing before i can go either there or Phoenix or Albuquerque. Maybe even WA.

Stayed off of VP machines for a few days, maybe thats helping me not have big losses. also been staying away from limit games, not counting stud. Havent even played a lot online lately, and still have $689 of the $700 i put on UP for safekeeping. and $151 on bovada.

Herbie left the elcortez and came and got me at the nugget, then he gave me a spare bus pass and bought me a pop both of which was extremely nice and entirely unexpected. although id probably ended up way better off had i just stayed in the game at the nugget. there were some good oldtimers in that stud game. he was under the mistaken assumption hours for the freeroll count on saturday, they dont.

I dont remember any HH to post except a stud hand that no one will care about. and i need to get offline now and go to work today.