this is too much to post on twitter but its actually too short to post here. only seattle irish will appreciate this post. by the way my time was up, so i moved out of my hotel. and the prices were sure high this weekend for most hotels in this area. if id wanted to renew my room at the other place it wouldve been too late by Friday afternoon, they wouldve sold out.
I'm walking down the street and Alysia Chang is driving by in the car and she stops about halfway down the block from me and gets out because im borrowing her lawnmower. theres some street cleaning being done and we are trying to get away from the workmen. so shes walking the other way from me and im following her. i get closer but so does the trash and debris filling the street and the road and theres no longer any workers. then i dream she gets down on her knees and starts filling a bucket with trash. i decide to offer to help and Ray, whose nearby gets convicted by the Holy Spirit of God to help out. and is feeling bad he didnt offer to from the beginning.
Then i wake up (or think i woke up at least) and im sitting in a room explaining to my mother the dream. theres a shower in the room filling it with water and its in a living room. i try to shut it off but its way too hot to stick my hand in, so i ask my mom reach the faucet to do so on the other side of the water. she is telling me how it was only 23 degrees when she woke up but she says the temperature will get much hotter and will be 78 by tonight. i start explaining the dream and im trying to eat a huge chocolate bar, but i cant with my teeth. i explain how the first thing in the dream was im crawling underneath a huge bear and getting crushed.
the really good news is i found out the location possibly of another dealers angels machine but again its in a remote area hard to get to without a car and in a different state.i ran into a guy i used to know from Laughlin who is an AP. he also didnt want anyone knowing he was here so i wont say his name. and i did win $900 at hoover dam for a change. i felt a bit nervous with him in my room briefly considering i had 6000 in my pocket and he was really drunk.
Saturday, April 28, 2018
Wednesday, April 25, 2018
Yes i seen the dentist
Because of seeing the dentist, i had to change my checkout time from April 23 to April 27 so i could have a few days to recuperate, and fix food such as mashed potatoes. and to make sure God forbid i dont end up with dry socket which ive never got yet but worry about every time since ive heard how painful it is. im still not out of the woods yet. to show u how fearful i am of possibly getting it, i still havent drank coffee since seeing the dentist. and of course, nothing out of a straw. i had a hard time finding a packet of salt and i rinsed the mouth out once and i wish i knew where to get more salt packets. i also got 1 package of macaroni ive never cooked, but i think ill cook it this morning and make sure it cools completely before i eat it for ive heard hot temperatured foods could dislodge the blood clot they say 24 hours but i worry so im waiting much much longer than that. and so far i took 4 of the hydrocodene they gave me after leaving the dentist. i only had about 10-20 pills total. most of the pills they gave me were amoxicillin i take 3 a day for 10 days. and unlike what Alysia said i wasnt given nothing to wash my mouth out with, thats what i need salt for. only the 2 medications. and worse news of all theres 2 more teeth on the left towards the middle which will eventually need out in the next 6-12 months.
And since i couldnt buy laundry detergent out of the vending machine in the laundry room when i tried to do so about 3am, i ended up wasting $7 for far more TIDE than i needed to wash 1 load in a conveinence store. it was all they sold. but im getting the clothes done now.
I've been really lucky im still winning to still be over $16,400 after spending about $600 on dental work plus the cost of filling the prescriptions. ive made about $5000 or so for the month of April (from poker that is). so im a little over $15,000 for the first 4 months of the year. if it would continue in 12 months would be $45,000.
of course id been a lot more were it not for all the drops on machines about a month ago and on the VBJ in the elcortez
So I might be seeing Ray soon, and he might have to actually start going up to detroit again, which is good for him anyway and is why he keeps losing. (playing in Toledo). my mother wont even send me what she was going to send to make it easier to get those documents i need fast unless im living at Rays house again because she worries they will get lost. i think this is now the most important thing to take care of since the dentistry is hopefully over for a while now. and fixing it will be much tougher and more complicated than seeing the dentist ever was.
and i can always get a few nights in the nugget where ive got about $615 worth of comps still but it looked like this friday and saturday they were like 200-300 a night on their website so id rather use the comps on sun-thurs or at least when the weekend prices are less. i wish i could use it for this friday but id feel ripped off big time if i only got 2-3 days out of my $600+
ive ever still got over $175 in food comps in the wynn even after ordering room service once or twice in the middle of the night it being the only food available at that time. and a guy from singapore named @bryanchow on twitter told me to mention him on my blog and the asian lady who kept calling his $400 bets on the river with nothing but AK. he said ive never met him before but he recognized me as soon as i sat at his table in the wynn where he was way up off the $500 max buyin.
ive done a lot better in the wynn this year than the previous year where i remember being behind over $700 for over 100 hours of play. this year for 103 hours of play in the wynn, im actually at $33 an hour which of course is extremely high so its got to come back down. this is a mixture of $1-3 and $2-5 but mostly in $1-3.
i never thought when i slipped below $12,000 id be both over $16,000 again and have the dentist paid, i think i was just lucky i had a good month. of course ive got so many upcoming expenses its not even funny. if i was to pay another month to remain in vegas that would take a lot out and fixing my citizenship will take a lot out too. and of course i need to see a doctor for other reasons too. but at least maybe i actually will never go back below 10,000.
And since i couldnt buy laundry detergent out of the vending machine in the laundry room when i tried to do so about 3am, i ended up wasting $7 for far more TIDE than i needed to wash 1 load in a conveinence store. it was all they sold. but im getting the clothes done now.
I've been really lucky im still winning to still be over $16,400 after spending about $600 on dental work plus the cost of filling the prescriptions. ive made about $5000 or so for the month of April (from poker that is). so im a little over $15,000 for the first 4 months of the year. if it would continue in 12 months would be $45,000.
of course id been a lot more were it not for all the drops on machines about a month ago and on the VBJ in the elcortez
So I might be seeing Ray soon, and he might have to actually start going up to detroit again, which is good for him anyway and is why he keeps losing. (playing in Toledo). my mother wont even send me what she was going to send to make it easier to get those documents i need fast unless im living at Rays house again because she worries they will get lost. i think this is now the most important thing to take care of since the dentistry is hopefully over for a while now. and fixing it will be much tougher and more complicated than seeing the dentist ever was.
and i can always get a few nights in the nugget where ive got about $615 worth of comps still but it looked like this friday and saturday they were like 200-300 a night on their website so id rather use the comps on sun-thurs or at least when the weekend prices are less. i wish i could use it for this friday but id feel ripped off big time if i only got 2-3 days out of my $600+
ive ever still got over $175 in food comps in the wynn even after ordering room service once or twice in the middle of the night it being the only food available at that time. and a guy from singapore named @bryanchow on twitter told me to mention him on my blog and the asian lady who kept calling his $400 bets on the river with nothing but AK. he said ive never met him before but he recognized me as soon as i sat at his table in the wynn where he was way up off the $500 max buyin.
ive done a lot better in the wynn this year than the previous year where i remember being behind over $700 for over 100 hours of play. this year for 103 hours of play in the wynn, im actually at $33 an hour which of course is extremely high so its got to come back down. this is a mixture of $1-3 and $2-5 but mostly in $1-3.
i never thought when i slipped below $12,000 id be both over $16,000 again and have the dentist paid, i think i was just lucky i had a good month. of course ive got so many upcoming expenses its not even funny. if i was to pay another month to remain in vegas that would take a lot out and fixing my citizenship will take a lot out too. and of course i need to see a doctor for other reasons too. but at least maybe i actually will never go back below 10,000.
Saturday, April 21, 2018
suncoast poker room closing
when im winning, i dont feel like updating the blog as much as when im losing. i spend more time at the tables (but move casinos more since i want to restart over for less so i dont give it all back) and am more tired when i get home. plus when im not losing, im not nearly as mad so i dont feel like i have something i need to get off my chest by blogging. im back to 16,000 and this is why i havent been posting for a week or so.
and the tooth will finally be fixed vince has me set up with an appointment for monday. its going to interfere with my move out time so ill need to pay a much higher daily price for a few days. we tried for sooner but the dentist was off last week.
and the suncoast is closing their room for good on sunday evening at 10pm, and must give out all of the bad beat BJ money of $21,000 by then so theyre giving it out 10am to 10pm friday-sunday. i was there friday and got a small piece of it, one $170 drawing. and one guy i invited on twitter i was in 25% with who showed up later also got me $42. they had both stud, omaha, and holdem going including even a NL game. usually its only $2-6. i got there much too early at 7.30 thinking it would only be 1-2 tables and all the seats would be full, but there ended up being like 60 people, diluting the worth of the drawing.
$170 drawings 2 per hour, and $2500 daily high hands. it will increase as it gets closer to sunday night closing.
out of food at home too, and i didnt think id need more but now since i wont feel up to moving out since the tooths not fixed yet and i was scheduled to do so monday morning, i feel i should add a few nights.still using from 2-4 aleve most days in the meantime. it comes and goes.
all the wins were on poker some days i made like $900 or so between the wynn and the nugget. i did win about $230 on live blackjack in the golden gate and $60 on live blackjack in el cortez. not too bad considering the last time i left the machine in the el cortez a couple weeks ago i only had 11,700 and then recovered over 400 in the wynn $2-5 later on the way home to where i never actually had below $12,000 once i got home.
and the tooth will finally be fixed vince has me set up with an appointment for monday. its going to interfere with my move out time so ill need to pay a much higher daily price for a few days. we tried for sooner but the dentist was off last week.
and the suncoast is closing their room for good on sunday evening at 10pm, and must give out all of the bad beat BJ money of $21,000 by then so theyre giving it out 10am to 10pm friday-sunday. i was there friday and got a small piece of it, one $170 drawing. and one guy i invited on twitter i was in 25% with who showed up later also got me $42. they had both stud, omaha, and holdem going including even a NL game. usually its only $2-6. i got there much too early at 7.30 thinking it would only be 1-2 tables and all the seats would be full, but there ended up being like 60 people, diluting the worth of the drawing.
$170 drawings 2 per hour, and $2500 daily high hands. it will increase as it gets closer to sunday night closing.
out of food at home too, and i didnt think id need more but now since i wont feel up to moving out since the tooths not fixed yet and i was scheduled to do so monday morning, i feel i should add a few nights.still using from 2-4 aleve most days in the meantime. it comes and goes.
all the wins were on poker some days i made like $900 or so between the wynn and the nugget. i did win about $230 on live blackjack in the golden gate and $60 on live blackjack in el cortez. not too bad considering the last time i left the machine in the el cortez a couple weeks ago i only had 11,700 and then recovered over 400 in the wynn $2-5 later on the way home to where i never actually had below $12,000 once i got home.
Tuesday, April 10, 2018
stud 8 at sams town.
i really would like out of vegas, but i shouldnt until my tooth is taken care of. what a horrible time for it to come up, right in california while im down to one of the lower points of the last few years. of course at that time it wasnt nearly as low as it is now (barely over $12,000) at the time it first started bothering me i still had almost $17,000.
Vince is now back from Reno and promised to take me to see the dentist on Friday, and if he could do it earlier, would probably be best. tonight he wanted to play stud hilow at samstown, and i didnt think the game would go but briefly we had 6 of us playing though most of the time not nearly this many. of course the $1 ante killed me since its high for stud and i mostly played stud without an ante in the early, mid and late 1990s. only the california players or high stakes players were used to playing with antes. but i left the game pissed while the others were still playing with only $20 left of my $100, saying i had to get out of there. hope it didnt embarrass Vince. i took the bus downtown. most of the money was lost on one big pot where i had AA and couldnt fold it as the lady who called my $12 bet on 3rd street had a low spade showing, caught the 10 of spades on 4th, an ace on 5th, i started checking, she started betting, and then got a low spades on 6th, i shouldve just folded. she had exactly what i thought, 3 low spades first 3 and made both the flush and the low by the end.
he wanted me to post it on twitter (and so did the floorman since theyre trying to do the game every Monday night and they need the players) but i was concerned MIB would see it and show up while i was there, so i didnt.
so i took the bus to the el cortez and the night got worse from there. i shouldve stayed on the bus to the nugget and played poker. but i felt like playing some VBJ. for a while all was well, in fact i recovered the loss at sams town. i kept playing when i shouldnt of however, partly annoyed by the 2 hookers or strippers or fremont street partly nude performers or maybe party pit dancers. i couldnt tell but the way they were dressed and how this girl was showing one guy her ass asking if he liked it and the way the girl with her was talking on the phone how she made $300 working and showing off a black guys picture with her cell to the whole casino she was live chatting with with a very annoying voice for 30 minutes or so, i was curious if she knew the 2 she was sitting next to. they came and sat at a machine close to a black guy and his wife or mother a bit older than the 2 girls were. but to see her bragging about making so much money and saying on the phone she is still working, set me on tilt because its so unfair how people doing something immoral to earn the money, (not sure what exactly) get paid so much better than people who do hard work for low pay. and how men cant earn that type of money.
so i played a long long time and eventually the big loss came up and i left with only $700 out of $2300 i came in the casino with. this is why carrying too much cash on me is horrible and why when leaving the wynn with $1169, i only took $369 of it home with me and put the rest in the box i originally went into the wynn to close out.
so i left the el c with $700 and took an uber to the wynn. and sat right down in the $1-3 and of course lost a big pot right off. had AA and bet $10, got reraised to $40 by a guy with well over $1000, and i just shoved my $110 buyin, what i still had which was close to all of it. flop comes KQT which i considered horrible seeing i put him on a big pair (which is what he had, JJ) turn comes A so i think maybe i am good. river blank. i knew he couldnt have one jack there unless he had two.
the flop scared me more than the turn since my read was he had a big pair. and i rebought, and at one point after moving to $2-5 when the $1-3 broke and still needed another addon, i was down to the final $300. i eventually somehow came back to $1169 after winning several hands, some of which i didnt expect. i decided to go and not try to double one more time to get even. so i won $460 in the wynn poker room, and more than that in the $2-5 game. too bad i played BJ, or id had a good night in spite of the $80 loss in samstown had i only played poker tonight.
although the 2 women into black guys and possibly bisexual too turned me off being so well paid, and too much tattoos and bling on them, i did see one girl in there who caught my eye who looked really broke and like she was looking for money or something. and i didnt see anyone with her. often in there i see panhandlers and usually they annoy me because its either a girl with a black guy or a guy, or someone with an attitude. but this girl i didnt see her panhandle no one, just looked like she was looking for money. now 2 other people they did ask for money. el cortez is full of them and i see the same ones get thrown out often. but this girl was very short and looked like she would really appreciate the help even if only $5.
i feel good knowing my laundry got done yesterday before i went for a ride with herbie to help him in some advantage play he gave me $50 out of it which i desperately needed or id not wanted to go for a ride in his car. but im in really bad shape. im sure when my tooth is fixed ill too feel a bit less stressed. of course once its paid, ill barely have $11,000 it is going to be very tough not to go below $10,000 and i thought i never would again. and my room ends on april 23 which isnt that far off now.
Vince is now back from Reno and promised to take me to see the dentist on Friday, and if he could do it earlier, would probably be best. tonight he wanted to play stud hilow at samstown, and i didnt think the game would go but briefly we had 6 of us playing though most of the time not nearly this many. of course the $1 ante killed me since its high for stud and i mostly played stud without an ante in the early, mid and late 1990s. only the california players or high stakes players were used to playing with antes. but i left the game pissed while the others were still playing with only $20 left of my $100, saying i had to get out of there. hope it didnt embarrass Vince. i took the bus downtown. most of the money was lost on one big pot where i had AA and couldnt fold it as the lady who called my $12 bet on 3rd street had a low spade showing, caught the 10 of spades on 4th, an ace on 5th, i started checking, she started betting, and then got a low spades on 6th, i shouldve just folded. she had exactly what i thought, 3 low spades first 3 and made both the flush and the low by the end.
he wanted me to post it on twitter (and so did the floorman since theyre trying to do the game every Monday night and they need the players) but i was concerned MIB would see it and show up while i was there, so i didnt.
so i took the bus to the el cortez and the night got worse from there. i shouldve stayed on the bus to the nugget and played poker. but i felt like playing some VBJ. for a while all was well, in fact i recovered the loss at sams town. i kept playing when i shouldnt of however, partly annoyed by the 2 hookers or strippers or fremont street partly nude performers or maybe party pit dancers. i couldnt tell but the way they were dressed and how this girl was showing one guy her ass asking if he liked it and the way the girl with her was talking on the phone how she made $300 working and showing off a black guys picture with her cell to the whole casino she was live chatting with with a very annoying voice for 30 minutes or so, i was curious if she knew the 2 she was sitting next to. they came and sat at a machine close to a black guy and his wife or mother a bit older than the 2 girls were. but to see her bragging about making so much money and saying on the phone she is still working, set me on tilt because its so unfair how people doing something immoral to earn the money, (not sure what exactly) get paid so much better than people who do hard work for low pay. and how men cant earn that type of money.
so i played a long long time and eventually the big loss came up and i left with only $700 out of $2300 i came in the casino with. this is why carrying too much cash on me is horrible and why when leaving the wynn with $1169, i only took $369 of it home with me and put the rest in the box i originally went into the wynn to close out.
so i left the el c with $700 and took an uber to the wynn. and sat right down in the $1-3 and of course lost a big pot right off. had AA and bet $10, got reraised to $40 by a guy with well over $1000, and i just shoved my $110 buyin, what i still had which was close to all of it. flop comes KQT which i considered horrible seeing i put him on a big pair (which is what he had, JJ) turn comes A so i think maybe i am good. river blank. i knew he couldnt have one jack there unless he had two.
the flop scared me more than the turn since my read was he had a big pair. and i rebought, and at one point after moving to $2-5 when the $1-3 broke and still needed another addon, i was down to the final $300. i eventually somehow came back to $1169 after winning several hands, some of which i didnt expect. i decided to go and not try to double one more time to get even. so i won $460 in the wynn poker room, and more than that in the $2-5 game. too bad i played BJ, or id had a good night in spite of the $80 loss in samstown had i only played poker tonight.
although the 2 women into black guys and possibly bisexual too turned me off being so well paid, and too much tattoos and bling on them, i did see one girl in there who caught my eye who looked really broke and like she was looking for money or something. and i didnt see anyone with her. often in there i see panhandlers and usually they annoy me because its either a girl with a black guy or a guy, or someone with an attitude. but this girl i didnt see her panhandle no one, just looked like she was looking for money. now 2 other people they did ask for money. el cortez is full of them and i see the same ones get thrown out often. but this girl was very short and looked like she would really appreciate the help even if only $5.
i feel good knowing my laundry got done yesterday before i went for a ride with herbie to help him in some advantage play he gave me $50 out of it which i desperately needed or id not wanted to go for a ride in his car. but im in really bad shape. im sure when my tooth is fixed ill too feel a bit less stressed. of course once its paid, ill barely have $11,000 it is going to be very tough not to go below $10,000 and i thought i never would again. and my room ends on april 23 which isnt that far off now.
Thursday, April 5, 2018
How to be HAPPY while playing poker
There's no way to be happy while playing poker (when u are sweating the money on every hand) unless u are winning heavily of course while you're doing it.
i miss the old days (which will never exist again) in 2002-2003 of living in Butte MT when i first started playing online poker, beginning with Paradise poker, then Party poker, and of course pokerstars. when my rent was only $230 per month, it didnt take much in winnings to survive. (i see on craigslist rental prices in montana have gone way up since then). how i found a landlord to rent to me, ill never know since i had no job or credit and my total lifes savings at the time i arrived in Butte was less than $1000. i think the place was so desolate and he needed the money so he didnt ask much. i forgot what he asked, but i moved in rather easily but i did have to hookup the utilities in my name. funny thing, even this low of rent i left town, went to vegas not knowing i wasnt coming back, so i eventually got evicted and left unpaid bills.
That was a mistake, i had a decent setup without worrying about homelessness and i even lost a very old desktop computer by not coming back. and of course, my canadian birth certificate. they had poker in Butte MT too. live poker but it wasnt NL back then. it technically still isnt but it plays like NL with an $800 maximum pot size. but when i lived there, the betting was much much smaller.
the only city ive ever lived in that has zero hookers online and has no street prostitution anywhere but does have a live poker game on weekends at the strip club. (as far as i know--they mightve closed). i hear the dealer Derek later committed suicide.
How did i end up in Butte? well i was much younger in 2002 and i went to meet a girl from online who lived in Idaho falls. but i waited too long to meet her so even though she was willing to fool around, she had already met someone she had moved in with. she had been asking to see me for quite a while but i never came til it was too late. so i got back on the bus the next day in idaho falls and continued on north into Butte the closest place with poker.
i've not been with a woman in years since im old now, but i used to meet women when i was young. in fact when i was 17 and living on my own in KS in an apartment for $160 a month a couple miles from my moms house after i graduated high school a black woman at a laundrymat first introduced me to oral sex, her idea and totally free of charge. she was about 15-20 years older than me. and once i was committed to a relationship with Sue in Toledo (every relationship i had i felt committed to even if it only lasted a short time because otherwise id feel i was sinning). i refrained from cheating on her which is why i feel im an excellent catch compared to most men. most women pick and choose from things which dont really matter and all that really matters is will the guy love u and stick with u in the bad times. but i can think of at least 2 christian girls in their early 18-25 years who wanted to have sex i talked out of it since they were sinning since theyre Christians. most people wouldve considered me a fool for doing so.
i dont know why, but i seem to not use the restroom quite as often as i used to but i still cant have a steady stream just tiny amounts stopping and starting so something is still wrong, including my urine is much yellower than it was a few months ago. but im sleeping more hours in a row at nights now without continually waking up.
plus my tooth no longer needs advil like it did a few days in california. but i can feel it and its almost decayed away to nothing, though its not visible and needs removed and possibly the ones by it. its so far to the back left top side i cant tell. i can still tell the problem when drinking very cold water instead of a little bit warmer water. and i definitely cant eat ice cubes or ice cream. it definitely still needs done vince said he could next week when he is back from reno and tahoe.
at one time tonight in the wynn i was down to $13,500, the lowest id been in ages and certainly in 2018. but i recovered a little, only being out $179 for the night plus Uber fees and im still at $14,000 instead of $14,200.
so in closing, to be happy at poker, u need low cost of living, (rent or the equivalent) and it would nice if a good online site existed still but none do nor will they ever. the cash games are unbeatable on almost all sites and more bots than ever before in percentages left. only thing possible to win at is tournaments and very little. i sure miss putting in 12-16 hour sessions for very low stakes with very little montly living expenses and could talk and hang out with a woman i felt like understood me and was as different as i was. No matter how much Lorna from baton rouge or Britni from Portland used me for money. (or was her name Ruthe Pohl?)
losing steadily, and being an extra $5 hour winner and $2000 more total yearly winner a month ago than i am now doesnt make u happy but very stressful and im an idiot, picked back up a bad video poker habit out of frustration with not winning. were i not to have lost $412 on video poker in the wynn, id actually be up for the day. u see i lost $319 in the $1-3, went to play video poker, then returned and bought in the last $304 in the $2-5 and eventually left with $856. this is like the 4th video poker loss this week, the worst being over $400 in planet H the other day.
rich guys can always relax and be happy at poker since they can afford the massage absolutely every session they play since theyre not trying to make a profit. no one can beat the game for the $120 hour the massage cost in the long run. and if anyone has never read a book by Terri Blacklock, u should theyre quite good.
i miss the old days (which will never exist again) in 2002-2003 of living in Butte MT when i first started playing online poker, beginning with Paradise poker, then Party poker, and of course pokerstars. when my rent was only $230 per month, it didnt take much in winnings to survive. (i see on craigslist rental prices in montana have gone way up since then). how i found a landlord to rent to me, ill never know since i had no job or credit and my total lifes savings at the time i arrived in Butte was less than $1000. i think the place was so desolate and he needed the money so he didnt ask much. i forgot what he asked, but i moved in rather easily but i did have to hookup the utilities in my name. funny thing, even this low of rent i left town, went to vegas not knowing i wasnt coming back, so i eventually got evicted and left unpaid bills.
That was a mistake, i had a decent setup without worrying about homelessness and i even lost a very old desktop computer by not coming back. and of course, my canadian birth certificate. they had poker in Butte MT too. live poker but it wasnt NL back then. it technically still isnt but it plays like NL with an $800 maximum pot size. but when i lived there, the betting was much much smaller.
the only city ive ever lived in that has zero hookers online and has no street prostitution anywhere but does have a live poker game on weekends at the strip club. (as far as i know--they mightve closed). i hear the dealer Derek later committed suicide.
How did i end up in Butte? well i was much younger in 2002 and i went to meet a girl from online who lived in Idaho falls. but i waited too long to meet her so even though she was willing to fool around, she had already met someone she had moved in with. she had been asking to see me for quite a while but i never came til it was too late. so i got back on the bus the next day in idaho falls and continued on north into Butte the closest place with poker.
i've not been with a woman in years since im old now, but i used to meet women when i was young. in fact when i was 17 and living on my own in KS in an apartment for $160 a month a couple miles from my moms house after i graduated high school a black woman at a laundrymat first introduced me to oral sex, her idea and totally free of charge. she was about 15-20 years older than me. and once i was committed to a relationship with Sue in Toledo (every relationship i had i felt committed to even if it only lasted a short time because otherwise id feel i was sinning). i refrained from cheating on her which is why i feel im an excellent catch compared to most men. most women pick and choose from things which dont really matter and all that really matters is will the guy love u and stick with u in the bad times. but i can think of at least 2 christian girls in their early 18-25 years who wanted to have sex i talked out of it since they were sinning since theyre Christians. most people wouldve considered me a fool for doing so.
i dont know why, but i seem to not use the restroom quite as often as i used to but i still cant have a steady stream just tiny amounts stopping and starting so something is still wrong, including my urine is much yellower than it was a few months ago. but im sleeping more hours in a row at nights now without continually waking up.
plus my tooth no longer needs advil like it did a few days in california. but i can feel it and its almost decayed away to nothing, though its not visible and needs removed and possibly the ones by it. its so far to the back left top side i cant tell. i can still tell the problem when drinking very cold water instead of a little bit warmer water. and i definitely cant eat ice cubes or ice cream. it definitely still needs done vince said he could next week when he is back from reno and tahoe.
at one time tonight in the wynn i was down to $13,500, the lowest id been in ages and certainly in 2018. but i recovered a little, only being out $179 for the night plus Uber fees and im still at $14,000 instead of $14,200.
so in closing, to be happy at poker, u need low cost of living, (rent or the equivalent) and it would nice if a good online site existed still but none do nor will they ever. the cash games are unbeatable on almost all sites and more bots than ever before in percentages left. only thing possible to win at is tournaments and very little. i sure miss putting in 12-16 hour sessions for very low stakes with very little montly living expenses and could talk and hang out with a woman i felt like understood me and was as different as i was. No matter how much Lorna from baton rouge or Britni from Portland used me for money. (or was her name Ruthe Pohl?)
losing steadily, and being an extra $5 hour winner and $2000 more total yearly winner a month ago than i am now doesnt make u happy but very stressful and im an idiot, picked back up a bad video poker habit out of frustration with not winning. were i not to have lost $412 on video poker in the wynn, id actually be up for the day. u see i lost $319 in the $1-3, went to play video poker, then returned and bought in the last $304 in the $2-5 and eventually left with $856. this is like the 4th video poker loss this week, the worst being over $400 in planet H the other day.
rich guys can always relax and be happy at poker since they can afford the massage absolutely every session they play since theyre not trying to make a profit. no one can beat the game for the $120 hour the massage cost in the long run. and if anyone has never read a book by Terri Blacklock, u should theyre quite good.
Sunday, April 1, 2018
I killed the golden goose
its been a disappointing ending to the month of March, and im only in the $14,000s instead of the $17,000s i was briefly in once while in california. at this rate ill be totally broke within 6 months.
around the first 2 weeks of the month i was up over $3500 for the month of March and when its all said and done, i won only $2600 for March at the rate of a measly $11 per hour. it was over twice this.
and im questioning every bet i make recently, feeling like im doing it wrong, and ill give u a few examples. Plus vince isnt in town he went to reno for 3 weeks with his girlfriend. this is why ive not heard back from him about the tooth.
and one guy at my table tonight, there with his sister and his family asked me if i still had a slot machine bounty. so i realized he was from the AVP forum days and he said he was Jcuse downtown rounder from there and his blog was called in the grind. he lost more than me on that table. i mostly lost on the other table. i cant even find the blog now that AVP forum no longer exists. no matter how much u search with the words poker blog, inthegrind, Jcuse or downtown rounder, no trace of it on the web.
i've done way too much in the way of good advertising for the nugget, mentioning its the best game in vegas on multiple sites and posts so now the game isnt so good, ive found more grinders playing lately and tighter tables than there were a few months ago. so i spoke and said too much i fear. People i dont even know (or at least know that i know) are making some monster laydowns on the river against me that are good, such as when the board was TT7QJ and i rivered JJJTT and he folded his 10 face up.
then the other night a guy in the poker palace NLV whod just given back most of his $1000 winnings was on tilt and went allin blind preflop. i called him with only Q6 when everyone folded to me but i convinced them since i never had to show that i had QT of hearts so id feel like less of a donkey and not ruin my image and he won with A9 high, no pair. but it cost me $260. still doesnt Q6 have a slight preflop edge over any 2 cards?
then i refused to participate in a $57 allin blind hand from everyone with no betting and checking to the river when the game was going to break in a few hands being the $57 stack wanted to do it. i was UTG and folded my Q7 of spades then they all went allin blind, turning them up 1 at a time after the river. the winner won with a spade flush, J4 of spades in his hand. wouldve been out of the hole and couldve left.
the final hand i participated in a $100 blind hand, same type which i lost, in a desperate attempt to get even since that definitely was the final hand.
and then tonight i shoved my A2 of spades on the flop into a $20 bet and call when i shouldve just not called the $8 preflop raise UTG but with 5 callers i felt obliged since i was tired and wanted to find a pot to win. then the flop comes 863 with 2 spades and i thought id either assure myself of seeing both cards, hitting the flush or the ace, or getting fold equity. of course he called with KK and i missed totally. took my last $200 and i quit.
then i called a shove earlier on the flop of 89T with 2 diamonds one heart and i had QT of hearts. he has AA and i missed. again i wanted to be even for the night. u see i wasted about 8 hours online at home before going to the casino and it was too many hours into the day to be playing.
and i didnt buy nearly enough food in walmart either, seems my $70 only got about 10 days supply instead of a months supply. but ill make sure to go their new hours to avoid such a long ride out to a much further walmart.
it sure was a lot easier to win in california than it is here, and i think in detroit too since if i went home down $100 or so i had no expenses so it wasnt that big of deal. so i took less huge losses. plus $300-500 losses are much bigger percentage wise when u have under 15k than 20k or so.
around the first 2 weeks of the month i was up over $3500 for the month of March and when its all said and done, i won only $2600 for March at the rate of a measly $11 per hour. it was over twice this.
and im questioning every bet i make recently, feeling like im doing it wrong, and ill give u a few examples. Plus vince isnt in town he went to reno for 3 weeks with his girlfriend. this is why ive not heard back from him about the tooth.
and one guy at my table tonight, there with his sister and his family asked me if i still had a slot machine bounty. so i realized he was from the AVP forum days and he said he was Jcuse downtown rounder from there and his blog was called in the grind. he lost more than me on that table. i mostly lost on the other table. i cant even find the blog now that AVP forum no longer exists. no matter how much u search with the words poker blog, inthegrind, Jcuse or downtown rounder, no trace of it on the web.
i've done way too much in the way of good advertising for the nugget, mentioning its the best game in vegas on multiple sites and posts so now the game isnt so good, ive found more grinders playing lately and tighter tables than there were a few months ago. so i spoke and said too much i fear. People i dont even know (or at least know that i know) are making some monster laydowns on the river against me that are good, such as when the board was TT7QJ and i rivered JJJTT and he folded his 10 face up.
then the other night a guy in the poker palace NLV whod just given back most of his $1000 winnings was on tilt and went allin blind preflop. i called him with only Q6 when everyone folded to me but i convinced them since i never had to show that i had QT of hearts so id feel like less of a donkey and not ruin my image and he won with A9 high, no pair. but it cost me $260. still doesnt Q6 have a slight preflop edge over any 2 cards?
then i refused to participate in a $57 allin blind hand from everyone with no betting and checking to the river when the game was going to break in a few hands being the $57 stack wanted to do it. i was UTG and folded my Q7 of spades then they all went allin blind, turning them up 1 at a time after the river. the winner won with a spade flush, J4 of spades in his hand. wouldve been out of the hole and couldve left.
the final hand i participated in a $100 blind hand, same type which i lost, in a desperate attempt to get even since that definitely was the final hand.
and then tonight i shoved my A2 of spades on the flop into a $20 bet and call when i shouldve just not called the $8 preflop raise UTG but with 5 callers i felt obliged since i was tired and wanted to find a pot to win. then the flop comes 863 with 2 spades and i thought id either assure myself of seeing both cards, hitting the flush or the ace, or getting fold equity. of course he called with KK and i missed totally. took my last $200 and i quit.
then i called a shove earlier on the flop of 89T with 2 diamonds one heart and i had QT of hearts. he has AA and i missed. again i wanted to be even for the night. u see i wasted about 8 hours online at home before going to the casino and it was too many hours into the day to be playing.
and i didnt buy nearly enough food in walmart either, seems my $70 only got about 10 days supply instead of a months supply. but ill make sure to go their new hours to avoid such a long ride out to a much further walmart.
it sure was a lot easier to win in california than it is here, and i think in detroit too since if i went home down $100 or so i had no expenses so it wasnt that big of deal. so i took less huge losses. plus $300-500 losses are much bigger percentage wise when u have under 15k than 20k or so.
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